Wednesday, February 04, 2009
okay, yes I'm feeling super shitty. maybe I just know, more than I ought to know. I feel so, depressed. it's unfair. since when things are fair for me? never. but well, I didnt managed to fall asleep, I didnt want to fall asleep anyway. I dunno. I need to drink, and get drunk. I hate being sober right now. I wanna U,
to kill me. but well, Adeline managed to make me smile, a little at least. we talked about how unfair life is, how shitty things are. how selfish people can be. we did stupid things, and she showed me her dog, bullying her. hah! whatever it is, Adeline is super irritatOng, yes she knows what I mean here.
Ade, the bat mannnnnn. heh.
okay, we randomly have a pillow look alike. heh!
I admit and I wont lie, I know that deep inside, I'm still upset over everything. I'm not angry you know, I'm not pissed by whatever you're doing, but I angry becos of some other reasons. but I dun wanna be a bastard saying things out okay. go, go on with whatever you're doing. I've said this over and over again, I will never blame you for whatever decision you made. but ya. forget it okay. I can help to pull you out from the maze, but you need to try walking out yourself too. I hate myself falling sooo deep into it. I hate.. not you. okay. goodbye, my dearest.
3:13:00 AM
