✰that photographer; 'cause I'm the next big thing.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I'm so into these.

well, I guess I have to update a bit. cos it's 31st of Dec. and I had a seriously bad day. it started with a stupid sharp pain, which I thought I have recover from diarrhoea. but the sharp pain started around 5 plus? which I slept around 3 plus. and it last till 7 plus. so I decided not to go training, once again. sigh.

I naturally fell asleep around 8 plus. and woke up around 1 plus, feeling better, after a few trips to the toilet. called Mark, to ask him to gym. this was random la. cos I THINK I can take it, so I decided to train myself a bit, befor I rot and die. but he stopped me. :\ as usual la hor. ass. this lazybum, he used to say that if I wanna go gym, ask him along. now leh now leh! (*&^%$%^&*

we ended up going over to makan at SP and met up with Jeremy. had a short but great chat with him. hah. after that, Mark needs to go over to Suntec, so I went over with him too, I need a hair do. so had my hair do there too. well, this cause my bad day too! it was expensive, like really. and I dunno why I just happily got in and cut it, with rebond. ): super ex and the stylist didnt cut what I wanted to. like.. I guess he dunno what's bangs. how saddddd, really. and I hate it. I planned to use the money to highlight and cut it SHORT, definitely not this length. but all gone, all gone. and I'm still supposed to go drink with Mark. SIGH.

home and got scolded by mom. yeah, cos it's wayyyy to expensive. I'm already guilty enough and she seems to have no intention to like.. helping me to pay a bit? okay, whatever. I'm broke, I'm sad, somebody save me. or kill me alive.

anyway, I'm not gonna post any pic of my current hair, way too ugly. next time okay. cos I planned to cut it few weeks later. shall end here then. I think I need to shit now, before I sleep. hopefully every1 enjoys their last day of 2008. let's all get old together. hah.

Bright, cold silver moon.

Tonight alone in my room.

You were here just yesterday.

Slight turn of the head,

eyes end when u said, I guess I need my life to change.

Seems like somethings just not the same.What could say?

I need a little more luck, than a little bit,

cause everytime I get stuck, the words won't fit.

And everytime that I try to get tongue tied, I need a little good love to get me by.

I need a little more help, than a little bit.

Like the perfect one word no one should get.

Cause everytime that I try to get tongue tied, I need a little good love to me by this time.

I stare up at the stars,

I wonder just where you are,

you feel a million miles away. (I wonder just where you are).

Was it something I said, or something I never did.

Or was I always in the way. (Was it something I did).

Can someone tell me what to say, to just make you stay.

I need a little more luck, than a little bit,

cause everytime I get stuck, the words won't fit.

And everytime that I try to get toungue tied, I need a little good love to get me by.

I need a little more help, than a little bit.

Like the perfect one word no one should get.

Cause everytime that I try to get tongue tied, I need a little good love to me by this time.

I know it feels like again,

to want to be here again.

And we could help each other off the ground, so we never fall down again. And what it takes I don't care,

were gonna make it I swear.

And we could help each other off the ground, so we never fall down again, again.

I need a little more luck, than a little bit,cause everytime I get stuck, the words won't fit.

And everytime that I try to get toungue tied, I need a little good love to get me by.

I need a little more help, than a little bit.

Like the perfect one word no one should get.

Cause everytime that I try to get tongue tied, I need a little good love to me by this time.

I know it feels like again,to want to be here again.

And we could help each other off the ground, so we never fall down again. And what it takes I don't care,

were gonna make it I swear.

And we could help each other off the ground, so we never fall down again, again.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

3:58:00 AM
Tuesday, December 30, 2008

yoohoooo~ I ought to update once again. a lot a lot of pic ahh. (:

okay, 1stly, I am glad I managed to catch up with WONG KEXIAN! hah. not Mark, cos Mark called me almost everyday, oh no, it's EVERYDAY. asking,"do U have training 2day?" or "wanna meet?" or "go club leh!" hahaha. very standard.

so we spent time at HollandV. had Crystal Jade for lunch, then headed for Frolick. it seems very typical for us. Frolick seems to be a must to have whenever we're at Holladv. then we shopped around, then headed to Starbucks! oh yeah. we chatted a lot at Starbucks, or I should say, we already started out crazy conversation at Crystal Jade. haha.

hah! this is when we try too hard to become idiots. I think I failed to be an idiot. but both of them succeed! congrates, 2 idiots. hahahahha =x

and we realised some people just love us too much.

we realised this person looked at usssss! I seriously hope she dun passby my blog. hahaha.

proven, she IS just so in love with us. hahahahah.

after that, Mark went back home, to prepare to club. while Kexian and I went to the JP extension. super not nice!!! so disappointed. and I guess what's nice there is only the Fairprice Xtra and the place where Ji De Che is.. haha.

we bought a few stuffs at Fairprice Xtra. haha. yogurt, biscuits etc. :D

then we headed home..

fun day outt! and we are planning some outing once again soon, before school starts. hols, one last week. woohoo.

and people, I need to show U some conversation I had. haha.

this idiot, Marcus Tan[pls enlarge for the content], he was actually saying,"what U do this hols is shitting." but seriously, I am. super sad ahhhh. yes I am. ): but he's nice laa. after that, he asked what I wanna have, he can buy food, free delivery. hey, he ought to be nice to me, cos I did sweet stuffs to him before toooo! bleah. :D

and another one, is Tomi. U know what's his motive for talking to me today? to grab the icon on my nick! he wanna copy paste on his nick. so now his nick and mine has the same star icon. (*&^%$#$%^&*( super irritating right! after which, we chatted a while la.. this idiot, dun wanna be my scandal, so sad. hahaha.

okay, so I was random. found a website with all these. how can I not love them?

Woodstock's nest [ring]

Snoopy's back and Woodstock [earrings]

Snoopy with food in front of him [ring]

Snoopy and Friends [ring]

Snoopy [necklace with whistle]

well well, tell me they aint lovely? U must be kidding!! (:

and yes, I am "webcamming" with Mark now cos he wanna show his new hairstyle. well, must neater I must say. hahaha.

estatic! :D

hmm.

OH! :O

random.

haha. that's about it. yes, he's still waiting for me to finish up my blog. I gotta sleep soon anyway, training 2moro! (: and soon, 2009 will be here.

well, how time flies. I'm feeling old.

I gotta have a haircut before 2009. like.. 2moro? maybe I guess. heh. my hair is extremely loooonnggg, even Kelroy says so. hah.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

2:03:00 AM
Friday, December 26, 2008

I don't like it.

Merry Christmas still, though I'm late. but it's the thoughts that count, isnt it so? (:

I lau sai terribly on Wed morning, so didnt go for training again. thought I would miss Strength Test but heard that it's cancelled.

had some last min plan with Mark for Christmas' Eve. some bbq at his house. using those portable one. hah. pretty cool to be last min. cos we rushed, here and there. had pretty much fun though. maybe bcos everytime people talk so much more at night, when drank. hah. we ate, we drank, we chatted, we had fun. we didnt sleep. spent the night through out, television, music, laptop, Mcdonalds. hah. happening? Princess loves sticking to people to sleep. heh. so cute of her. home around 745, and slept around 8am. my gastric is killing me, once again. hate it, yes I do. but I soon fell asleep, maybe bcos I'm pretty much dead. anyway, thanks Litong to send cookies over to my house :)

meeting Mark and Kexian later to Hollandv, and yes I shall sleep soon.

Kelroy is coming back soon. yeah, miss her man. chatted with her online for a while today. she'll be back later, night! (: see her in training then.

I dun understand why. I dunno why. everytime things go wrong, it's always my fault. it's always me to blame. am I not good enough? am I too rebellious still? I feel no care, no concern, no love. or rather U blame me for being too independent? not bothering U about most of the things in my life? that does not mean I'm not troubled. I choose to keep U out of my trouble. does it mean that when I put a smile on my face, I'm happy? why didnt U think about it? why didnt U show ur temper to someone else? think about it, who's the one helping U? well, I dunno if I should continue living in my own music world. though I need to shout it out loud, I hate the unreasonable you.

You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

3:01:00 AM
Sunday, December 21, 2008

Listen to me.

there's more shit to come. and I loathe everything! becos I dun feel the same, simple as that.

I didnt go for training yesterday and I felt empty. like something missing? wakin up in the noon feeling so "un-train". I hope my tummy wont give me any more problems before a training day, seriously! :(

supposed to stay home. though Mark was asking me out to club. haha. but I decided to rest my tummy well, real well. after which, Mark decided to ask Ah Dong and me out to Coffee Bean bcos he was pretty troubled. so yeah. I went over around 9pm++. then we had some alchohol blended into our drink. haah. that was random, really. never try before, so yeah. pretty nice. haha. but my drink tasted like some alchohol than supposingly, Choc Banana. hahaha. then I started feeling hungry, maybe becos I skipped my dinner. so as Mark's wish, we cab down to Bukit Timah and had the famous Chicken Rice [okay, I forgot the name]. hahah. he is super elated, yes, shown on his face. haha. we then decided to WALK back to his house, I decided to stay at his house for a while before home. haha. halfway through, he got bored cos there's not much scenery? haha. so we cab back to his house. before that, we went Cheers to grab some sweets. heh!

I told myself to make this short, but I dunno why I make it sooooo long, unknowingly. hahaha.

eh! I got scared, his aunt leave her dog over at his house. so initially there's only Princess [his dog], now with additional 2. wa piang! scared me luh! I was totally, and I mean TOTALLY surrounded by dogs. hahaha. I MISS PRINCESS SOOO MUCH! and of cos, missing Mark's mom too! but his mom was asleep. it was pretty late already. like 1am++ haha. so ya. we used the comp, chatted blah blah. and it's like 6 plus, I ought to leave. ARGH, I miss my Mcgriddles! didnt have that for such a long period of time. (*&^%$#$%^&*

eh stop! I am random but I wanan type it down before I forget. haha.
nothing much, just hope those who are having problems can still be happy no matter what's the conclusion is yeah. U know who U are, babes and hunks. cheers! bcos everytime U face problem, and U managed to overcome it, U are again, STRONGER! :D

and hey, if U ever hear those familiar songs playing..
dedicating Harder Than You Know - Litong
dedicating Amazed - Markcus
enjoy and hope it brighten up ur day(:

home and checked my mail, then chatted a while with Litong, that ass who thought I was drunk. and I'm sure I'm still sober when I'm chatting with her! haha. (*&^%$%^&*(
I went to bed around 6am+ and woke up around 3pm+ this afternoon. had tangyuan! yippee! my all time fav. hehehhee.

I dunno why am I updating blog at this hour, but well, random yes I am. and I dunno if I have so much to say or not. in fact, I have abandon my diary for a period of time! how sad. I only had a few pages of drawings and some nonsense.

I'm blasting some music now. I have been listening to those same old songs again and again. haha. songs like.. okay, it's basically here and there, like my blog songs. heh. what a Sunday, training 2moro! hey ho, let's go! :)

bcos people come and go. you can be in this clique now, anoher clique tomorrow.
but why? why don't people stay?
I hate revolving. I hate who you are. I hate me.
sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

5:57:00 PM
Friday, December 19, 2008

how much effort have U put in to make it right?what are U thinking deep down inside?
U changed so much, I could hardly recognise.
are U still the one whom make us feel right?

You said this could only get better.

There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.

You said this would last forever,

But now I doubt if I was your only lover.

Are we just lost in time?

I wonder if your love's the same.

'Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me.

I'm trying to let go

Not loving you is harder then you know.

'Cause girl your driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?

If you need time I guess I'll go away.

Inside me now there's only heartache and pain!

So where's the fire?

You've begun the rain.

Are we just lost in time?I

wonder if your love's the same

'Cause I'm not over you!

Baby, don't talk to me

I'm trying to let go

Not loving you is harder then you know,

('cause girl your driving me so crazy)

And if you don't want me then

I guess I'll hav'ta go!

Not loving you is harder then you know.

YEAH! So I'll make the call,

And I'll leave you today

I'm gona miss you 'cause I love you baby

Yeah, I'll make the callI'm leaving today

Leaving always drives me crazy!

Baby, don't talk to me

I'm trying to let go.

Not loving you is harder

Then you know,

YEAH! Baby, don't talk to meI'm trying to let go

(I'm tring to let go)

Not loving you is harder

Then you know, ('cause girl your driving me so crazy)

And if you don't want me thenI guess I'll havt'a go!

(I guess I'll hav'ta go)

Not loving you is harder then you know

(Girl your driving me so crazy)

Baby, don't talk to me

I'm trying to let go.

Not loving you is harder, then you know,

Girl your driving me so crazy.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

4:22:00 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I'm updating my blog!! for YOUR sake. hahah.

stop complaining, wont U? hahaha. stop nagging too. U know who U are huh! [dun look around!]

okay, what's more.. eh! let's see.

oh okay! I skipped one of the Cognitive lesson bcos my initial faci. was absent and got coerced by Mark, that idiot. we went Vivo and had a great time. with Clef, Yuan and Charlene too.

that day was like.. Starbucks doing some donations! so like.. a drink for free! [but pls donate la.]

ya, we are having fun. sad to say, Clef left to Judo! haha. so we were having so much fun joking, crapping with this staff there! and we helped promoting tooooo. yeah, great day out. was so dead after that, really. lol.

and this!

is a random shot by me. :D I know Yuan look so unglam here but well. hahaha. Mark, that vain boy.

and also! I have some things to share. pls click on the pic to check out the content. haha.

okay, I'm bad to mention about this, but sorry, I really dun like this faci.!

so ET did this to annoy me. hahahahha! super funny! I totally lol all the way. but yeah, hide myself in case the faci. sees. he gave me another C again. whatever la hor. (*&^%$%^&*()

NO MORE HHHIIMMMM! I wonder why he got the same name as my nephew. =\

and this!

is some crap by Yuan. haha. she can this crappy, now U believe me. super annoying laaaaa! I lol for this too. dun get decieved by her looks. NEVER! hahahhahaa.

and of cos this..

haha! they love me too much la! and start being annoying. yes la. this 2 gaysss. (*&^%^&*

okay! the end!

so I ought to thanks my mom anyway for this.

me: "wa! why I see the little kid holding on Gingerbread Man!! I want I want!"

mom: "har U dunno meh! Fourleaves la!"

me: "ah is it!" happily walking towards Fourleaves.

mom: "nor! this one la! grab 2 lor."

HAPPY HAPPY! hahaha. so I got my Christmas tree and Gingerbread man. :D

some more..

mom: "eh. U want these sweets? I think The Naturals got pretty nice Christmas sweets."

me: "I WANT I WANT! not nice also want."

mom: "wa. everytime I talk about sweets, U will get so excited! haiyooo."

me: "okay! so when getting me!"

walking towards the section.

mom: "nor this. looks not bad hor."

me: "wa. so ex. dunno nice not. buy candy canes la!"

mom: "but U got it every year!"

me: "never mind la. can get it during Christmas only!"

mom: "but 12 sticks leh mei. U eat so many meh!"

me: "can can can! take ah!"

mom: "so if U better distribute to ur friends la. I dun think U can finish."

me: "can la can la!" happily taking it on hand.

mom: "dun eat so much sweets la mei!"

ignore ignore. hahaha. yes la, I do intend to give to some of my friends but no chance, I eat them almost everyday. heeee. :D

BIG THANKS TO MAMA! :D:D

ah! anyway, my whole body is aching, madly. cos training resume. and it's like.. endurance. ENDURE! gotta make it through, another stage. stupid Kelroy, come back soon! hahaha. so we can push Litong together. haha.

that's training 2moro too! but I aint sleeping early. bcos.

IT'S HOLIDAYYYY!!!! :D:D:D

oh before I end this entry.

I wanna say, Jennifer Beals is super super beautiful / hot. [okay, saying hot sounds so wrong. haha. but she is, really.] she is so oh mymama! :D

sleep early la people. becos I can never.:X

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

12:57:00 AM
Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Dear Friends,
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just to help to advertise okay, haha. I'm part of them la dey, so support! :D

I spread my wings and I learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

And I'll make a wish

Take a chance Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance Make a change

And breakaway

okay, random. will update more sooooooooooooooooooooon.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

2:38:00 AM
Wednesday, December 03, 2008

PISCES - VIRGO : Extremely sensitive Pisces won’t be satisfied with a reserved Virgo. Virgo turns down excessive sexual desire of Pisces, becomes too criticizing and pedantic. There are also other problems. Practical logical Virgo won’t put up with extravagant tastes of Pisces and their extreme emotionality. Virgo plans everything, while Pisces act impulsively and change their mind quickly. Compatibility horoscope Pisces predicts that the relation will provoke many conflicts, and marriage will be deprived of joy and happiness.

what more to say? stated, facts.
no more. never. never ever. bcos I've got enough of all ur nonsense.
still a stranger, not yet a thunder.
maybe we're trying, trying too hard, maybe we're torn apart.

hey hmm, people. this doesn't mean I'm attached, plssssss.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

12:47:00 AM
Monday, December 01, 2008

Pol-ite is finally oveeeerrrrrr!
yes, I'm relief. things aint so good for Kel and me but never mind. :')

I'm in school now, having Math & Computing lesson and I'm dead bored. I'm sleepy, walking to campus with my head down. my gastric is killing me. it's in pain rfrom the time I woke up till now. rrroooaarrrr! I need sweets, but my faci. is busy talking now and I dun think I can sneak out. ET just came into class, with a dumb smile, with his "burnt" face on Sat. haha. and I hope he dun read this. =x

Mom's birthday celebration was brillant on Fri. We went to the old Turf City to have seafood at Ah Yat Abalone Restaurant. We chose those seafood like, they're still alive and ffrrreessshhh! okay, sounded so evil. but I swear it so damn fresh and I'm lovin' it. it cost quite a bit but it's fine since it's such a joyous occasion. after which, we went to Chevrons for karaoke session. it's a nice place too. though it's full of people drinking as if they haven been drinking for ages, but besides that, the songs there are pretty new! I know it's bad to stay out so late, but it's mom's bday leh, what to do? bro challenged me 4 Minutes, and okay, I cant sing that. he knows I never like that kinda song! irritating. hahaha. home sweet home and it's late, I slept for around 3hours. [OH MY! I HEAD ALVIN PLAYING 4 MINUTES!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHA SO COINCIDENTAL!] and dang, I'm prepared for Pol-ite.

every1 was calling me, while I was sleeping in the bus that morning, super funny la! and irritated =\ they thought I overslept or something. I was about 10 - 15mins late, and power enough, they moved the boats already! warmed up with Kel. everything was pretty fine. had slice of bread bcos I got scolded for not having breakfast. hmm. I dun eat breakfast all along, I didnt wanna take it even on competition day itself bcos I'm afraid I cant take the change. but anyway, I had a slice anyway. my race is after lunch! so we helped out with the boats and stuffs there. it aint so happening laaa. and it was pretty bored for people like Kel and I. the only entertaining part is when U see ur team mates, back with victory. :)
yes, RPcanoe did well. alright, Kel and I got into finals! but didnt get into top 3. yes, we were depressed for sure. at the point where I knew that we couldnt catch up with the rest, I pushed harder, soon, I let it go, I know it's no point. the race ended, and I was super disappointed. some images appeared in my mind, like how much people have faith and confidence in us. how coach said,"you are the best.", how K4 crew showed "V" sign before the race starts, how seniors encouraged us, how team mates have faith in us in winning. but well, we didnt show them the "V" sign when back. why? could things be better? I burst into tears..

ended, over and done. I'm still proud to be part of them. becos we got overall and Women's Championship. power not! hahaha. and every1 comfort us by saying we contributed to the points system. yes la, though it's so, but.. hmm, never mind. we took a lot of pictures, and many holding on to medals, good enough, Kelroy. :)

I told every1 not to call me, so I can sleep like a log after so many months of training to this big event. woosh~ what a load to carry. 2 weeks of break, then more trainings, more, and more! school's vacations round the corner, oh yeah!

0901, in memories(: still a powerpack.

it's 954am now, yet faci. is still not letting us off!
hey, people dying here la dey~

anyway, big thanks to DB girls who come over to support. esp Sharon! :D

I've blog more than enough today, no more complaints!

I guess it's no point. I will refrain myself from..
and maybe you're right, different.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

9:25:00 AM