Monday, June 30, 2008
HEY HO! I'm updating my blog, happy not?! =\many things happened in life, recently. I got so so so beat out. but not yet dead. I wonder if I'll soon be dead, or just another breakdown. boohoo. sick eh, so sick. sometimes I wonder, who's real, who's not. reality? or just an illusion. okay, 4get about all these
EMOtional shit ya.so where should I start?
was kinda busy for trainings, if not, UT. trainings were fine. just that there's some reasons that make me a little sick. I'm feeling, ya. sigh. but no doubt, I still have passion for canoe. no matter who's gonna bring me down, no matter how it gonna turn out to be, I will stay on, and survive.
paddle, paddle and paddle harder, I'll leave everything behind. I was trying hard not to capsize though. but I always capsize once. =\ aww. it's only last Sunday, when I didnt capsize at all. I felt great. Saturday was great. I got in2 T1 as well, and I try out those strokes that coach taught. glide, and feel the wind, yes. and oh ya, my tank top tan is super horrible. awww.
I didnt go 2day cos I was didnt have a gd rest since school starts. 7 days of waking up early can kill. aww.
I need some sleep. boohoo.
but I need to paddle too! weee~
UT was horrible. esp Math. grr. I'm so gonna get E for sure. super sad ah. =\
and Enterprise's faci is getting worse. she is ridiculous! and I gave a little attiude. simply bcos..
I AM NOT USING MSN! and she said I am. =\ dun accuse leh. ROAR!
her comment for me was..
"Hi Xiao Jun, you looked unwell today, you didnt contribute much, are you feeling ok? Sometimes you really do a lot of work, and other times, like today, you dont do much at all. I hope that you can persevere everyday, to do your best no matter what. I wanted to ask about your proudest moment, cos I want you to recall what it was like to persevere through something, and to know that you put your best effort into something. If you want to, your grades can be excellent as well. Focus more, spend more time reading resources and understanding them."I dunno what she wants. =\ yes, I'm feeling tired. yes, I was sleeping.
BUT THAT WAS BCOS I'VE FINISHED MY PPT! sigh.
and I got a C! =\
hmm..
U were a little far. I feel that U drift away. so I thought of letting go. but I need time, every1 knows. and suddenly, yes, suddenly.. I am still hanging, cos there isnt an ending. am I being naive? or r U being childish? U said this to me few weeks back, and soon, it fade away few weeks later. then, U hurt me even more. deep. oh fuck. thanks for all these shit. thanks for leaving me alone. thanks for making me come to realization. thanks for.. ya. whatever it is.I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell..met up with Kexian for lunch.. eh, 4gotten when. and we took some pictures together. yup,
the happy moments..
Litong was having her lunch. so Kexian and I took some pictures alone.
yes, I have to praise her for this. this shot appeared to be soooooo nice! woo.
so after Litong's lunch..
lovely, isnt? time flies whenever they're around. oh ya,
this is definitely not the end.. 
our individuals! haah. cool not?! school can be fun, with nice people around. oh well well.. and so! I came out with..
wahaha! sweet huh. :D
so dunno which day again, Litong decided to go swimming. so asked me about it. okay, I agreed with it. swimming! ole! we "chiong" after lesson. just to grab a bit of sunlight. haha. swimming was great! I brought along my cam, which I dunno why. cos.. I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY, didnt U know? haha. so we took a few shots after swim. super addictive ah! and must must thank Litong for alliance with me. hohoho.
ah! the 2nd pic, is Litong and my favourite. wooo. green grass green!
and our individual shots..
I like Litong being this way. heh. like.. the very happy her, like always! and also, irritating ah! lol.
and here comes my favourite of all..
nice not nice not! say "WOW". heeee. after my edition of cos. guess which one is me?! or am I asking the obvious?! =\\
okay, there's more. but just showing a few of my fav. I was being random! and of cos.. took a few pictures of myself. ahh, U can stop reading now if U dun wanna see more. in case U got so sick of me. grrrr.
THIS! is my favourite. so I edited the contrast.
and this! but without edition. lazy ah!
all these are not even 1/4 of my pictures. lol. but well, a few of my favourite. okay, and my profile pic. "U can FINALLY smile well." said Litong. cos we all agree that, I cant smile, I can only be EMOtional. even me making funny faces look better than my smile. HOW SAD HUH! ROAR!!!!
okay, I supposed there's more to come. and seriously people, give me some happy pills, cos I'm feeling damn shitty.
I know Christina will read this. so well, let's be happy, together.
anyway, thank you Kexian and Litong.
mixture of feelings; down, anger, dead, hurt, shitty. damn it, you and ur lies.
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