Friday, March 21, 2008

why couldnt things be simpler? why cant U support me all along the way? why cant I do whatever I'm interested in? why dun U understand? why must every1 makes me upset again n again? why cant I..
I wish.. forget it, my wish never come true.
I wish 4 happiness, support, dreams.. and they are atill aint the reality.
there's more sadness than anger.
when I see parents going out with kids on family day, when I hear parents asking if kids are hungry, when I realise I'm alone..
why. why. I'm jealous, I envy, I admire, I'm down, I'm agitated etc.
I realise I loathe being here.. a place that I dun belong.
my tears dried up. yet, there's still no solution.
fucking shit. I'm in a place, a dark corner.
being 18 is tough, being here is tougher.
"old gan, zzz early too! :) xoxo I love you hahaha. shiet I sound so lesbo. you tcare! MISS YOU SO MUCH GAN!" I think I should share this text from Bernice. cos I wanna thank her, though I'm still upset over it. sigh. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
5:31:00 AM