I AM FEELING.. VERY VERY VERY SUPER SUPER SUPER DEVASTATED.why do things turn out this way?so I'm super irresponsible. so I'm super dumb.or maybe I'm just not suitable. so how? should I continue?sigh. sigh. sigh. if U dun trust me at all..
I don't need ur false pretense.
3:06:00 PM
Monday, February 25, 2008
at 1st I was afraid, I was petrified.
this entry's gonna be sooo long! cos I'm gonna update about..
the so call "gathering" we had at IMM.
barbecue at Derrick's house.
work on Sunday.
this gathering is kinda sudden. it all started with.. "XIAOJUN! not working 2day? come out 4 a coffee?" by Sean. so he asked Yuanchao and Yanjing along. THEN. Matt saw my previous entry talking about.. I meeting some of my classmates. he was interested, and started asking Jeremy and Jerry. Jeremy ended up calling me, saying."HOR! U never ask Derrick!" so he called Derrick along too. LOL. very random.. but ya. it's the truth! Jerry didnt join us, so the few of us met up at IMM.
we went the garden upstairs and started having like.. "fun"? lol. maybe we all missed our childhood times. plus some of us drank, that includes me. so every1 was high. there was no 1 around, we started screaming and playing stupid games. they were like.."dun allow XiaoJun 2 go round and round on the merry-go-round! she will sure vomit.. ROUND AND ROUND!" lol. so I decided 2 play something else. =\ I was like.. trying 2 show them that I can sit all the way inside this rocky thingy. LOL! after that.. we decided 2 go in2 IMM and take some pictures 2gether. so who's gonna be the camera man? heeeee.
then we all remember.. there's something call timer! so I suggested that we can set the timer and put the phone on something firm. and so.. we took a few pictures 2gether! lol. smart right. Jeremy came out with an idea like this..
wasnt very successful. lol. so ended up, we were all high and warm. IMM was really empty then. Jeremy was craving 4 Mini Melts. so we..
gathered around the machine and ALL decided 2 have Mini Melts. lol. soooo nice! Peppermint flavour's the worse, every1 agrees, except Yanjing. LOL. then I decided 2 have Bubblegum flavour since every single 1 of us having diff. flavour. but ended up, I had Chocolate. dunno why! the stupid machine gave me the wrong flavour. I guess I love the Grape Flavour. =)) and seems like every1 is sooooo busy q-ing 4 their Mini Melts, only Matt entertained me by posing. LOL.
look! all different flavours we having. and the Chocolate flavour looks rather bad. lol. it's totally BLACK la! aww. but it's nice la. very Chocolatey. lol. Jeremy was like.."nice right nice right!" then I was being dumb. I asked.."Jeremy! can I try urs?" hahahah. which both of us had the same flavour. but still, both of us exchanged. LOL!
look at them! how sweet. sharing the Mini Melts around. lol. Derrick's gay. ya, gay. LOL.
Jeremy! enjoying his Mini Melts.
then Yanjing screamed,"XIAOJUN! I WANNA TAKE A PIC WITH U!" so I was like.. being coerce? lol. look at my "unwillingness" written on my face. LOL! after our Mini Melts, we walked around the empty IMM. Yanjing went 2 the toilet and got scare by the spoilt water tap. =\ "GHOST! GHOST!" so I gotta accompany her.
while the rest of the guys were chatting outside the toilet. LOL.
YIPPEEE! I was high. lol. and Matt was the camera man 4 this picture. [I was being force 2 mention him.] LOL. =XXX
Matt was high! when he saw this picture of advertisment. "XIAOJUN XIAOJUN! take pic take pic!" lol. then the drunk Jeremy, nono. HIGH Jeremy. lol. took with him. their face were so so so so idiotic! LOL. guess Jeremy was being force 2 help Yanjing 2 carry her bag. Yanjing looked real drunk! she cant walk staright. HAHAHAHAHA. which I CAN ALWAYS DO THAT EVEN IF I DRANK. lalalalala. so proud of myself. lol. but na~ the guys was having fun taking her bag, not complaining.. U know why?
cos they think they look so girl! "XIAOJUN! take pic!" so I was being asked 2 take picture of how girlish they were that day. lol. "wa lau! not nice la. must see the bag also! side side." Jeremy complained. =\
so here goes a 2nd pic of him with Yanjing's big black bag. lol. but I prefer his 1st smile! lol. so adorable! "I WANNA TAKE TOO!" Derrick was at the side snatching the bag. and I always think that Derrick never fails 2 be girlish whenever he needs to. LOL. I wasnt lying.. LOOK!
sexy huh? did he manage 2 seduce any1 of U reading this entry? LOL. "XIAOJUN! I also want I also want!" Matt was like a kid at that point of time.
and he decided 2 do something special. LOL. how horrible la! I was laughing while taking this picture! Matt was contented after taking this picture. LOL.
"let's go home! late already ah!" Sean finally said something. so we went home! =) fun day out.
met up with the boys 4 bball the next morning. nothing much. cos they were agressive. I didnt dare 2 play a match with them. they were coooooool luh! play, crap, laugh all at the same time! lol. their friendship seems strong, at that point of time. and I hope it's 4ever luh!
I went home 2 change 2 meet Weiting and Nic. I was being cheated. cos ended up, I saw Junhao, Nicholas Liu and Derry tooooo! they were all with them la. then I felt rather odd. super. and was super bushed cos of the ball game in the morning ++++++ late night phone talk almost everyday. so didnt talk much.
was being ask 4 a barbecue with the same old people at Derrick's house again. er, no. they wanted 2 just stay over at Derrick's house. I thought it will be boring, so I asked,"what about bbq-ing?" Matt was steady enough 2 agree with me, oh nono. he's always very steady. =) so we planned 2 grab some raw food. only some of the boys went 2 Ten Mile's Sheng Xiong 4 stuffs. I was home around 9 plus. after all my preparation, it's about 10 plus, cos I still gotta pack clothings etc 4 work the next day! =\\\\ was being ask 2 buy bbq net from Giant. I was like and idiot, with big bag pack, 2 long bbq net, and a Giant plastic bag on hand. it's super "bu fang bian"! it's crowded that day and everybody started looking at how pathetic I m. =\
Bernice called and we started chatting like mad again! while the rest of them go ahead with the barbecue. I was being ask about my past confession, relationship stuffs. so told her everything and she happened 2 know a lot about me! and she told me a lot about hers too. still, she said I'm soooooo sooooo scandelous. she loves using that word on me! lol. but she loves my story, I mean.. truth about my life. sad luh! she agreed. but nevertheless, she loves it cos it seems sooooo dramatic! "so sweeet la!" was her comment. hmm. sigh. she was saying about hers tooo. made me feel rather emotional. glad she got over hers. after a long hour chat, she hung around 4 and then I started bbq-ing with Matt, Derrick and Jeremy only. the rest were fast asleep. =\ was guilty la! but.. ya. 4 of us seems fun tooo! lol. bcos of leftovers, Matt came out with a game. playing stupid yet simple game, loser have 2 eat 1 hotdog. so ya~ Matt lost a few games! lol. so sad la. seeing him munching uncountable hotdogs. but we were all laughing our hearts out! lol. Jeremy was laughing and stuffing those hotdogs in2 his mouth. HAHAHAHHAHA. "I WANNA JOIN!" Derrick was asking if he could, excitedly! lol. so dumb of him. I would have just run away rather than joining those crazy boys. LOL. then we started chatting about our past etc.. no 1's feeling emotional. just laughed at our past. lol. and some gossips luh. 4 of us cleaned up everything, which I supposed 2, and the rest were all soundly asleep! we continue crapping when we planned 2 rest at 1 of the guest room. still laughing like mad, but were all drained. I soon fell asleep despite the cold. lol. all the boys love the cold from the air-con! =\ I was using 3 jackets already! lol. woke up around 1018am, just b4 my alarm rang. cos I gotta work! =((( I was super dead, and feel like wearing specs than contact lens cos was toooooo tired. but no choice la. was 5mins late I guess. and I keep falling asleep at work! The Cathay was seriously empty yesterday and the sales was rather bad. the WORST! I mean.. after so many days working there, that was the worse sales I'd seen. Grace was of cos sad.
anyway, I have 2 thank Grace 4 the little gift she got me from Tokyo. she told me she loves the box. so I was like.. purposely tease her by texting her,"okay lor. so I finish everything, give U the box!" lol. she was like.."NO LA! I got 1 myself too." lol. but it's really nice la. guess Huixin had 1 too. what makes a good worker? it's communication between the boss and the workers. Grace's nice in nature la. so Huixin and I dun mind working real hard 4 her. so when sales' bad, we both will b guilty and sad too. hmm.
so getting that gift from Tokyo's Disneyland, I realised I got this..
from my dear dear cousin, Diana. from HongKong's Disneyland. haha. I feel so young! out of a sudden. but I know I'm not. I'm like.. turning 18 in few weeks time. oh my. so old! but it's okay. cos I am old. lol. and the tin is so so so so cute! look at Piglet! hmm. not bias.. I mean.. look at those Disney characters. lol.
and I drew this at work few weeks back. was random, yup. cos I bought a new journal from Prints.[oh no! not from woodwould.] hahaha. I love it! bringing it everywhere, 2 draw, 2 write anytime. =)
woke up around 12 plus 2day, slept at 11 plus yesterday. and.. with sore throat and flu! lol. I hope I wont have a fever. cos I hate it! hate fever the most! aww. and woke up around 3am plus. luckily I checked my phone, cos some1 was feeling emotional. and luckily she sent me a msg around 2 plus. didnt tell her I was sleeping just make sure she's fine and fall asleep soon. oh my. dun be sad, friend.
I forced myself 2 wake up around 12 plus cos I remember THERE'S SUN YAN ZI ON CHANNEL 256! lol. but thought it's okay 2 miss it. cos was seriously tired la! but ended up still woke up and watched half of it. oh my, SUNYANZI's the best la!
then I randomly tune 2 MTV channel, my all time favourite. and I saw this ridiculous MV!
ridiculous right! but cant deny that this is creative and sooo arts! was laughing but kinda love it. "1234 tell me that you love me more." and I prefer this version..
cos I saw a few familiar instruments behind. LOL! Feist's a good singer, no doubt. =)
okay.. my back's aching like mad. so I dun wanna type any further! aww. Marcus just called and ask if I've get my lappy. =\ SO FAST! lol.
anyway, ALL EMOTIONAL PEOPLE, pls dun be emotional anymore. got XIAOJUN, U emo for what! lol.
2:18:00 PM
Friday, February 22, 2008
oh well. this can be the picture of the day. HAHA. Matt with my specs on, it's NERDY CUTEya. lol. "wa. ur degree's scary! I'm feeling giddy!" and he dumped my specs aside. heeee.
I'm re-writing everything again. SICK LA. cos I'm super sleepy after a long day out with Matt, Yanjing, Jerry and Jinmin. I actually finished this entry like.. 11 plus? but friend called, and so many people were chatting with me online! many many things happened in a day la. so.. I decided 2 left ALL conversations and concentrate on phone call. LOL. sorry ah! cos some I didnt even say "bye" or whatsoever. so I conclude, I really really cannot multi-task. getting mad typing and talking.
went WM's Coffee Bean with those people after getting our testimonial and hanging around and saw MsElaineYeo, again. LOL. with some other swiss teachers. we chatted 4 long at Coffee Bean. HAHA. will any1 wonder why I go Coffee Bean? cos no Starbucks' near us! I'm afraid they'll complain or nag, so suggested WM. anyway, I miss their white chocolate dream. which Starbucks gonna have some white chocolate drink on 13th March. super happy la! and 1 of the Panjang's Starbucks' staff promised 2 treat me a Venti drink on 13th March. lol. okay.. so had KFC 4 dinner. oh my, fast food. =\\ but they were all craving 4 it. esp Jerry. I had only marshed potato. home around 9 plus and Yanjing's still complaing that some1 never reply her msges. lol. was thinking it's kinda wrong la. but didnt wanna keep texting cos it's annoying. etc etc etc. then had a long chat blah blah blah.
I'm very very lazy now 2 continue anymore. took me hours! cos I chatted with people online, cooked lunch, listening 2 music. =\
anyway, to WHOM IT MAY CONCERN: U dun have 2 go around telling the whole world that U read my blog. oh well, if U really want to, then U dun have 2 tell me. or rather, hint. yuck. cos ur hint is extremely obvious. oh ya, it's NOT funny. which U think it is. also, I DUN EVEN KNOW WHAT U'RE TALKING ABOUT! pls dun show a disgusting face, thinking U know every single thing that I mention on my blog, can? cos U dun, U will never know. yuck. freakin' gggrrrroooooosssssssss.
to PEOPLE WHO WERE UPSET OVER SOME STUFF YESTERDAY: dun worry, be happy. cos it's over! dun care, dun care, dun care! as long as ur conscience is clear. dun be emotional already! it's not worth ur tears.
and also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TINGTING.
ohohoh. I'm meeting some classmates at IMM later. it's so gonna be a gathering. sorry ah, Bernice, drink some other day okay? =)) [cos everybody loves seeing me vomit.] =\
this mv's great. and Alicia Keys' beautiful.
I think life is shitty, with people who dun appreciate whatever you do.
5:09:00 AM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
this is rather cool. watched it yesterday with JasmineK. cos she wanted 2. I WANT PS I LOVE YOU! yet Junxiang went drinking yesterday, so didnt meet up 2day 2 catch a movie. *(^&^$^%#$% I'm so gonna scold him after he's awake or something.
I'm awake around 7 plus, bcos of Marcus' msg, "XJUN! what course U got in?" which I haven even received MOE's msg. =\\ and though it's a "beep" 4 my msg tone, it's still woke me up, dunno why. but I was seriously drained! =\ soon after I sent Marcus a msg, I received MOE's msg. and so.. believe it or not. MARCUS AND I GOT IN2 THE SAME COURSE. which I dunno why! )(&*(&%^*$% soooo annoying la. and he was like got excited, texting me in capital letters. lol. which I was still.. ya, drained and looking blur at the hp screen. so soon after, more and more msg recieved. luckily I woke up ocassionally 2 check my phone. if not it'll be like.. e.g"10 messages recieved" appeared. why is every1 so anxious 2 ask early in the morning! I need my sleep. roar! and I was like.. nervous but not surprised. cos I know I'll definitely get in2 that course. which.. I "hope" that I'll get in2 Music & Audio Technology, which can never happen. sigh. it's so predictable. but still, I'm sad la.
anyway, do keep in contact, people. and glad many of them got in2 courses that they love.
I'm having a flu! must be JasmineK who spread the virus 2 me. lol. she had been coughing like mad these few days. hope she'll get well soon. and oh ya, should thank her 4 the Valentine's Day gift. guess she loves the gift I gave her tooo. hohoho.
can I get my pay? like real soon? =(
last Friday, I think, KAREN CAME 2 THE CATHAY! so she happened 2 pass by woodwould and saw some1 familiar, suggesting some stuffs 2 customer. and so she pop in. lol. we both screamed. awww. I miss her man. so we chatted like mad. and I deliberately gave her a bad service. LOL. she said she's so gonna complain. hohoho. was like.. few days ago, I just wrote something like.. asking how she is at her Facebook! we were both crapping luh. lol. we decided 2 meet up real soon since she's not so busy already. hope she'll succeed 4 her interview! flying around with SQ, real cool huh. ooooo. she's still so lovely. =)
RANDOM:
END OF RANDOMNESS.
oh, I started 2 loathe randomness. cos people call as and when they like. and soon, they dun bother 2 take a second look at U the next day. what the? random causes all these. hmm.
I dun understand why is he this way. oh well, true colours. how scary? and the more I pray that I wont see him again, the more I see him. backstabber sucks. making use of whatever U call "bestie" is as well horrendous. I dun understand, I really dun. and I wish 2 tell U, "I already know every little things about U, so dun pretend, I'm sick of it."
anyway, I got into..
Republic Polytechnic;
Sports & Exercise Sciences.
oh well, mum's complaining already, "HAR! RP AH! SO LOUSY! IT'S ALL BCOS OF UR LOUSY RESULTS U SEE. OH MY. WHAT SPORTS? WHY U SO LOUSY." and she continues..
it's like.. whatever okay. no sports, no arts, no music, no whatever I like. so why bother 2 ask.
I want..
I wish..
I hope..
I need..
I miss..
okay, never mind.
3:07:00 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I give you the best of me.. after having a night of diarrhoea and a morning of gastric pain, this is the best I can be. awwwww. I'm not sick! =\
Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren’t the same
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.
I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry
This time I think I’m to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame ‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die
I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It’s never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry
I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry
I’m sorry baby.
I’m sorry baby, Yeah.
I’m sorry
this song of Sammi Cheng is lovely. my eldest bro is waiting 4 me 2 sing him this complete song at KTV again. went 2 look 4 Mum, Bro and Walther at Partyworld yesterday after work, tried this song and I only know the chrous! =X
when words can't express what you wanna say, maybe music can.
5:53:00 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
PS. I've got BLACK HAIR! =D and short short fringe. =\ CNY visiting was nothing but playing with nephews and niece. madness! they are really having fun kind. esp Cedrick and Fion. they are sibilings anyway. poor Diana[my closest cousin] and I.. we were kids 4 about 3days. but Fion's soooooooooooo adorable when she calling "xiao jun ah yee". lol.
I didnt wear any red/orange clothings these few days. mainly black, grey, navy blue.. all dull colours. =\ I hope no elderly realise that. oh! except 4 a grey tee with a small colourful pocket at the side. =o
drained. that's 4 sure. I tried my luck 2 change shift with Pae[huixin] bcos that Thong Weiting is having off 2day. so Pae's working 2day and I'm working 2moro. =\ thanks 2 Weiting ah! look, I'm still home now. booo. but I had a really long sleep. woke up around 3 2day. like.. wow! finally, b4 work starts and I gotta spend 10hrs at woodwould.
bought a book at Page One and a packet of sweets at Candy Empire yesterday at Vivocity. supposed 2 meet Weiting and gang, but they bought movie tix b4 I reached. I waited 4 about 3 hours and I'm beat out. Vivocity was crowded! so that made me more.. sick of the place. so went off b4 they finished their movie, although it's about time but decided not 2 meet them up.
I hope every1's enjoying CNY. cos I never enjoy myself every yr. =\
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to LEKGAN [o8o2o8] & BENONG [o9o2o8].
think life is getting worse.. when you realised everybody is lying..
and so, I'm just your part-time friend.
3:55:00 PM
Monday, February 04, 2008
after 2 days of full shift, then a long break comes. =) I was beat out. was alone at shop yesterday. so it's kinda unlucky 4 me, cos every customers started asking weird questions that I've never face b4. was nervous la. that's 4 sure. but managed 2 overcome it. thanks 4 accompany me through a few hours, Shirley and JasmineK. =) worst of the day, I dunno what's wrong with the nets machine.. it just declined when I wanna do my settlement. =( and still, I went 2 settle Z! so got a lecture from Grace. =X super guilty la! like so many problems after working there. =(((( but well, I ought 2 be sorry! cos I'm so seriously 4getful. =\ I will remember. I WILL REMEMBER!
it was kinda empty that day [saturday; o2o2o8], so we started doing something silly.. Huixin nearly fall ON me! look at her shaky hand. lol. many other more, failed pictures. lol. then she was like.. "EDITH! ur hair looks long!" which I'm so gotta cut it long ago. and I'm gotta do it 2day! say byebye 2 my stupid blonde ahlian fringe and say hi again 2 my black black hair! I'm so gotta tell Junxiang, "NO MORE FRENCH FRIES HAIR!" heeee. woot.. and b4 I end, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHAEL! =) though I'm a bit late. hee.