I certainly dislike my eldest bro's friendster primary picture. my big ugly face's there! like so horrible. "I can never imagine that. I'm here, with my sis." said my bro that day. "so you're straight? straight 2 lesbian right." I nearly fainted. "then currently any bf? got girls woo U? got right. I think all butch will 4 in love with U." I was totally shocked, and burst in2 laughter straight after they finished their sentence. and U know, bitches love 2 gossip. esp when they know I'm his sister, I'm nice. HAHA. =XXXXX they'll never find out my blog. HAHAHAHAHA.
drink, drank, but not drunk.
studying till late night. lesson in the morning. papers in the morning till noon. I WANNA SLEEP!
1 tub of Ben&Jerry's Chocolate ice-cream, I hope that's enough 4 U. U must cheer up, idiot.
just so you know, I care. they said I make the wrong choice, 2 say I've already let go of you when I have not.
12:24:00 AM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Combined Humanities [GEOGRAPHY] dear 5n1 classmates, if U haven received a paper regarding some format 4 English paper1 section2, get it from the Teacher's table in 5n1 classroom itself. I have about 3 extra, I bet some of U have it. and if U ever come across this entry, ALL THE BEST 4 O LEVEL, dudes.
anyway, I wanna say THANKS to.. those who gave me a little encouragement, wish sum up 2 b a lot. those who supports me, all the way. those who tries so hard 2 make me smile. THANKYOU. I feel so much like already graduated. =ooo
dun ask me "how's Chemistry 2day", pls.
I pretend that everything's okay.
I'm super sad. and disappointed. ='(((((((((((((((((((((((((((
5:05:00 PM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Science [CHEMISTRY] what's the point of staying home and get NOTHING done. had enough. reasons 4 not staying home is simple. 1. U r giving unnecessary stress all the time. creating my future without asking me about how I feel about it. 2. I dun feel a sense of belonging. 3. I'm just unwanted. 4.my bed is making me more likely 2 fall asleep. 5. U dun understand, what I want is not a quiet environment, I need a comfortable and peaceful environment. that's the reason why I detest library. 6. no 1's supporting me at all. 7. everything's unfair. and more, and more and more.. so WHY should I be home studying? which I cant. I'm NOT meeting any1 most of the time. I'm studying out ALONE. what more do U want? if I'm unreasonable, U're extremely unreasonable. if U wanna ask me why didnt I like staying at home, ask urself why r U treating me this way. stop being sensative and feel that I'm meeting up with people and chill. check on me then! my O level is here, where's the encouragement? saying my Chinese got A1 is all bcos of LUCK and cos we're CHINESE, should be good in CHINESE.what the Horse is this? rather than saying I suck in Science, Math, Geog, why not say something 2 encourage me? why say I CANNOT MAKE IT 4 Math and POA? U wanna know why I dun like coming home? why I always hang out late even I'm alone, got no where 2 go.. cos sometimes I wonder if I have a home.
it's late at night, I wish 2 go home.. but I dun wanna go home, the place where I dun belong. I wanna study, but U dun allow me 2.
though you said that you're just fine, but I still wonder all the time. "it had been long since I last smile." I hope you smile more, it's just so sweet.
all the best, dudes.
11:22:00 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
what I dun wish 2 happen the most, happened..
my nose bleeds during O level Science Practical 2day. I felt the heat running through me. I felt sick. praying hard I'll be fine, and b able 2 do my very best. I was anxious.. and now I'm frantic. I'm so sad, cos I know I can do better. =((((
"you okay? why so sad?" was what I heard after the practical. I'm lousy, now I know.
anyway, pls b considerate and stop sms-ing people at weird hours. not everybody do last min thing like U do. I'm annoyed, and peeved. U're disturbing me! and some1 else this way. arghhhh. >=(((((
that month I was crazy over "fool again", this month, I'm like crazy over this song. aww. super nice.
still, I cant get over my Science practical paper. sigh sigh sigh.
yours truly, always.
4:34:00 PM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
I can't stand you. cos everything you do, make me wanna smile. you know exactly what to do, so that I cant stay mad at you for too long.
always the very best, in my heart. =))
2:42:00 PM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you You say goodnight, in my mind I'm sleeping next to you You drive away from my car crash of a heart And I don't know
But you gave me the best mixtape I have And even all the bad songs ain't so bad I just wish there was so much more than that About me and you
You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I feel You don't know
Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have And even all the bad songs ain't so bad I only wish there was more than that About me and you
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again Yeah it crushes my head when you call me Your friend and I'm not the same person From back in the day in the back of the class That you thought was gay No I can't find the words cause I lost them The minute they fell out of my mouth And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips And just let me kiss 'em And let's get messed up and listen to possibly...
The best mixtape I have And even all the bad songs ain't so bad I just wish there was more than that About me and you
cos we both know, we can feel. and now I hope, we both understand. I'm feeling the same way as you are feeling too. hurt. lost. upset. get over it.
4:27:00 PM
Friday, October 05, 2007
friends r unpredictable. sometimes U dun even know if they r ur friends. whether they r true 2 U, or just wanna making use of U. some people r simple so superficial, it's sooo obvious. if that's the case, then why bother 2 even regard me as a friend of urs? 4get it then. yucks, U disgust me, really.
this is is super strange. I got those long lost friends started sms-ing me. even my pri sch friend! like.. I dun even contact my pri sch friends at all from sec2 till now I guess. so we started chatting 4 very very long through sms-ing yesterday. feeling strange, really.
and even though some people r in the same sch as me, I will hardly contact xxxxx. then he started calling and calling, sms-ing. so I called back. so was like.. asking me out. story of "begger and manager", I hope some1 understands.
weird weird weird. and busy busy week.
some people just wanna know something more from U, some people talks 2 U in order 2 GET something from U. *faint. what have the world become?!
OKAY! some crappy stuffs. Marcus bought the Gingerbread Man biscuits 4 a very long period of time. so he brought it 2 sch 1 day. LOOK! it's soooo..
so dun look like GingerBread Man lahh! lol. then I was eating like nobody's business during D&T lesson. then MrE.Wong was looking at me. I didnt know till Marcus told me cos I was reading something. LOL! I totally 4gotten he's there, I was putting the whole container on the table. LOL! MrE.Wong always make me paiseh! hahaha. but he's good. ANYWAY, I told Marcus,"Marcus! this dun look like GingerBread Man! It look like flower lehhhh." then we started laughing. hahaha.
still remember that day when I wanna put the list of Science results in MsSeah's locker..
I bumped in2 MrE.Wong,"hey! where U going? let me see!" and so I passed the list 2 him. "SOOOO MANY F9s!!!!!!!! what U get? 1 E8 in ur class.. orhh! U're the E8! so ur D&T not bad." then I was like staring at him. lol. so I said,"aint U happy? see! our Science so horrible, so many F9s and hardly any A. look at ur D&T, dun complain, and U should feel proud of our D&T results right!" so he was like laughing all the way 2 the staffs' room. LOL.
I was doing some revision yesterday and I was bored, so I took that jewellery box which dun consist of any jewellery, then I saw all these pictures! hahahaha.
soooooooo cute right! I dun think I changed much anyway. I'm still very cute now. LOL. =XXX
catch some sleep now, and studying out later. it's a FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!! yippee.
and I finally received MLB's songs from Sean. I only asked 4 2 songs! this 2, which r my very very very fav. one. MUST LISTEN!
weather's super humid, drink lots of water, people! =))
2:23:00 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
c'mon! I'm sharing this, guys.
this is like.. SOOOO NATURAL! lol. they actually wanna shot some1 else the other day. but was not successful! lol. stupid Sean lahh. super obvious. but well, we could try it again some other time. LOL. poor teachers.
anyway, I wanna say 
dun ask me "how's Chemistry 2day", pls. 
