so I was talking about many many issues b4 this entry. yupp. pictures I promise. so where should I start.. hmm. okay. talking about Moon Cake Festival, I went Chinatown with Victor and Marcus, both humorous freak! lol.
we went around Chinatown as if we're tourists. lol. but it's really cool. cos everything's decorated nicely. but we were kinda odd, cos no1 was having fun with lantern but us. lol.
so they were like chatting and walking happily in front. while I took some pictures randomly. then we were all hungry. decided 2 just find a place 2 have our dinner. so we went..
the small stall outside People's Park. Marcus and I had Laksa and Victor had Nasi Lemak. not bad luhh. haha. I'm not that choosy about food. while Marcus was saying,"Queensway 1 better!" lol.
after our meal, we went walking around. came arcoss OG and we had fun there! playing with toys etc. lol. then, we came across the food section. soooooooooooo many nice nice sweets! and biscuits. U just feel like having a bite of everything! it's all soo ex some more! I got a bar of biscuit and a packet of chocolate, which is qite addictive. lol.
really nice! guess only OG has it. but no worries, the biscuit can be purchase at Giant! yippeee! =DDD
so Marcus got himself this! he's super excited 2 have a bite of it. but I stopped him and suggested that I "confiscate" 4 a day and pass it back 2 him the next day in school. so yupp, he had it in school, like a child opening gifts during Christmas! lol. it's super chocolatey! he just loves it. lol.
we took a MRT about 9 plus or so? I reached home around 11, think so. lol. they were both drained! lol. same goes 2 me.
so talking about the Nu You magazine, this is the cover page! I'm like soooo excited about it! not bcos of the no.16 contestant, but all the beautiful Yanzi's pic! lol. grab urs NOW!
and of cos. my bro sms me excitedly, asking me 2 vote! eeyyyeerr. I wish 2 vote some1 else! lol. but I'll support my bro of cos. everybody, buy and vote 4 contestant no.16 Lex Gan!!!!!!
hmm. so I studied till late night yesterday. fall asleep around 5 plus. suupppeerrrrr beat out. when I was doing my worksheets half way through, I realised.. my studying table is super messy! lol. full of tiny little things. lol. and a packet of snacks 2 accompany throughout those studies days.. boohoo.
studying at night's good. see, I got NO panda eyes. LOL.
only with the lamp shining right 2 my face! lol.
just back from swimming. supposed 2 meet Derrick but we cant decide which place 2 study. and suggestions, any1? super siannnnnnnn.
pls pls pls suggest. Derrick hates Starbucks, I hate Mac! hahaha. so sick of Mac!
okay, guess I shall pack my stuffs and meet him up. we're just delaying our time! (&*%^#$^
anyway, I'VE DECIDED TO GO GRAD TEA. =))) simple reason, just dun wanna regret if I didnt go.
I was like super addicted 2 "Fool Again" by Westlife nowadays. so was like keep singing. and I was singing during Chem lesson that day. Sean was singing along toooo! cos we were supposed 2 finish some MCQs questions. hahaha. then he stopped, and suddenly,"who's the 1 singing arr!" then I shut my mouth, thanks 2 Sean, sabotage me! =\\\\\ cant believe that I'm the fool again. and I who thought you were my friend. how was I to know, you never told me. I was about 2 finish the whole song!!!!!
okay, shall get going! bye guys, and get ready 4 Monday! =((
4:27:00 PM
Thursday, September 27, 2007
I'm annoyed! how could U, U and U! dun spread any more further about that I like that teacher. U know, LIKE and ADMIRE makes a very big different. gosh. pls, nono. I didnt blush! I didnt blush! everybody's sooo annoying! eeyyyyeerrrr.
have a bad diarrhoea. that's why I'm so late 2 sch 2day. and was like trying 2 avoid going 2 the toilet when having lessons. esp Chem. was like.. so I cannot stand the pain anymore during Geog, so I went. wooo. still in pain and U will never want me 2 describe anything more. haha.
many issues.. "studied" at Clementi Mac last Friday with Derrick. yes, we supposed 2. ended up Derrick lose focus! but I managed 2 finish my POA paper1. lol. so we were at Clementi walking around. super cooling. and guess what, we walked home! from Clementi 2 Jurong and he took a cab back. so I just realised, NR5 can reach my house. =XXX got a bad scolding from Derrick. LOL. but the journey was fun. we were chatting, singing, crapping. LOL. anyway, his singing's horrrrrrrrrible! =XX
if U guys are not very happy with me, then tell me off. stop beating around the bush and pissed me off. whatever I say, whatever I do, it just seems so wrong. not as if I said something real bad. "he might be celebrating Moon Cake Festival with friends." like this. and U shut me off. orhh whatever. that's just my prediction! what makes U so sure that he's not? 1st thing when I came back was only seeing all these scenes. shit it. yesterday afternoon was the same thing. next time I wont talk and just listen even though I'm right, I'll just keep my mouth shut and allow the scoldings. fine fine fine.
I got pictures 2 post! but not 2day. guess I better get some rest. the day b4 nose bleed and 2day diarrhoea. arghhh. grab ur Nu You Magazine now and vote 4 ur Mr Good Man! and of cos, I highly recommand, No.16! check it out. also, cover story is Stefanie Sun, that's more U should grab it NOW!
thanks Marcus and Victor 4 that fun night. =))) that makes me discover my fav bitter chocolate which cost me 2.80 and only selling at OG! =\\\\ so troublesome!
should I go Grad Tea? Yes, No, Yes, No. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I NEED AN ANSWER. actually have decided, but some people just seems 2 change my mind.
More pictures will be up. =))
2:49:00 PM
Friday, September 21, 2007
okay, I'm like multi-tasking now. so it's like.. I dunno where 2 start. =\\ let me think..
okay. I drank in the afternoon, it's a indirectly anyway. it's like.. it's in the soup. and it's like.. very strong. so my face went RREEEDDDD. and I felt really warm. =\\ wei, not drunk yet. hahaha. though I wish I am..
parents wont b around till next Tuesday. they were like bickering all day long. Wednesday night was the worst. shant say anything more. I just feel.. I dunno.
Tuesday was shit? I'm feeling shitting and everything's shitty. why was I there at the dinner, I dunno. like what my mum said,"not happy then dun come lahh!" should have take a cab home at that time. really. it's just like no matter how hard U try, nobody cares. and whenever U wanna do or try out something, nobody seems 2 encourage U and support U. U're just alone. that's how I feel, long ago. esp that Tues. yes, like you say, I'm lucky, 2 have closed friends, like you.
I started writing song lyrics, whenever I'm down. I got really frustrated that day, so I..
yes, it's more than just frustration. it's pain. it's darkness. it's shit. it's my life. and that's why I told you, I'm sick and tired of everything.
I bought Seventeen that day, 2 accompany me 4 a day. I remembered what Derrick said,"Seventeen magazine only 4 those who're Seventeen? then sixteen read what?" I nearly faint on the spot after hearing that!
and this! is what I loveeeee. it's a DIY shirt! super nice style anyway. so if I'm going 4 Grad Tea, I'll wear like this. HAHA. I'm not going 2 bother about whatever "dress" that we're supposed 2 wear. boring! and yes, GuanYi once told me,"go Grad Tea lahh! I haven seen U in a dress b4!" HAHA. toooo badd. or rather, I might not b going. =))
super disappointed. got back Physics paper 2day. it's like.. I spend soooo much time on Physics! and somehow neglected my Chemistry and this is what I get? I think I really need some reflection. super shocked. but I gues if I dun bother at all, I'll get 0! but I dun want, I dun want that kind of score! why is that something call COMBINED science?! didnt thay know that's people who are bad in Physics?! ()*&^&*%#$#$
btw, I feel like cutting my hair.. not a lot lahh! it's just trim. ehh, dunno. limited cash. not this week then. HAHA.
anyway, I was bored. and so.. PICTURES!!!
and this is really ridiculous and mean. was waiting 4 bus with Sean and Marcus. and talking about this, they gonna grumble and yell at me again. cos I dropped someting, really small, but super meaningful. so we missed the 188. we all thought we can go home soooo early! cos we only waited 4 about 3min. and they were like sooo pissed and say,"WE WANT COFFEE BEAN!" cant stand it, both Coffee Bean freak, I cant fight over it anyway! =\\\ and we saw something..
HAHA! like really ridiculous huhh. I know.. we shouldnt b mean. we were once young and have different kinds of thought about it. but U guys should be there! cos Sean and Marcus comments are like super funny! and I cant stop laughing. so they decided 2 take a picture of it, I dunno why. err, I only post my hand there, nothing wrong right. but I dunno why they laughed their heads off. LOL. err, okay lahh. can understand. but the problem is, THEY ARE SUPER NOISY! and keep making stupid comments. and that annoyed us. =\\\
okay, I remembered I got many manythings 2 say, but I've.. FORGOTTEN! =\\ sorry! hmm. just wanna say.. I'm so suck in Physics and I feel sad. cant stand it, like an idiot, doing and doing, but results doesnt prove how much I've done. "getting bad results is okay. but getting bad results without any effort is not okay." MdmZainab once said this. I'm just.. unhappy about it lahh. it's okay.. I know I'll be fine soon.
shant type anything more. eyes are swollen. get some rest and do my work. take care everybody. though I dun online much, any problem, contact me through phone.
8:37:00 PM
Thursday, September 20, 2007
DISAPPOINTMENT.
I didnt score 4 Accounts, Combined Sci [Chemistry], Combined Humans [Social Studies], E.Math, and I dun think I'll score 4 the rest if the papers anyway. ahhhhhhhh. study, study, study,NOW!
many many things happening. and I'm just sick and tired of it. THANKS, for being there all the time. when there's somebody, calling me on, you're the one.
PS. stop tagging without saying who U are, and simply dunno who I am.
2:09:00 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
Lovely, really.
I just woke up from a nice, err, not very, sleep. somebody just kept coming in2 my room. I'm just gonna LOCK it next time when I'm sleeping. err, better not, they will start banging the door 2 wake me up or what-so-ever. arghh.
I am feeling super dozy 2day when doing my POA paper 1. but well, managed 2 finish b4 dosing off. LOL. 1st time, I felt that I know what I am doing. "you would rather study, and know what you're doing during the exam. not be a fool, don't know what going on and look around, right?" I remembered somebody said this b4, and yes, so true. I know what I'm doing. though found out I had a few stupid mistakes around. but well, I put in my very utmost effort 4 that paper, a paper that I could never score. that paper makes me feel great. and hope at least I can step in2 the B category 4 Prelim so I can work 2wards my A soon! haha. DREAM ON! =\\\
there are soo many, so many songs I came across these few days love them all! thought not very latest song, but nice alright! hahaha. and yes yes, Class 95 is 4 old aunties and uncles, but I tune in Class 95 tooooooo! what's wrong. and had been listening all along! of cos, sometimes, occasionally, 98.7. I boughy Lifehouse's album that day. it's like.. cool. nice and somehow, really sing out what people thinks etc. and yupp, I realised I dun quite like Hip Hop. lol. maybe a bit of Rock, a little of Pop, with some Classic. heee. no Techno too. gosh. orhh yahh, and a lot a lot of Indie! *melts.
and when I'm watching Pop 10..
she's the Number ONE! and I realised.. she's soo damn gorgeous! really.. woooo. and just so I know, she's from American Idol! but I post this mv bcos.. I saw a very cute dude playing a Trombone! hahahahaha. observe! lol. and enjoy. nice song, but I'm not really in2 it. hmmm. btw, have U ever wonder. why "American Idol" is named "American Idol" yet "Singapore Idol" is not name as "Singaporean Idol"? LOL. I wondered too.
Now Playing : McFly - Obviously. I realised.. McFly's songs are about the same! =\\\ try "Obviously" and maybe.. "All About You"? hahaha. Now Playing : Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry. ehhh. changed changed! Marcus' blog is playing it day and nice, c'mon! Now Playing: Death Cab For Cutie - Crooked Teeth. ooo. my favourite. heee.
U know what. I loathe and despise those people who tagged and refuse 2 put their name. instead, they used "yourfriend", "myfriend", "hisfriend", "herfriend", "XJ'sfriend", what-so-ever. just being exaggerating. worst, put somebody else's name. orhh pls. what ur motive? wanna talk bad about people? dun like the owner the blog? THEN DUN VIEW THAT PERSON'S BLOG LUHH! dun understand? just click the X at the top right hand corner, U dumbo. it's rather annoying. it's time and time again this thing happened. dun b an idiot, didnt NYDC taught U how to.. Get A Life!
I know U wont b there. and so, I'm right. it's okay, I'm rather glad. HAHA.
. simply so gorgeous, simply you-
3:08:00 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
I had Blackberry Green Tea Frapp at HollandV Starbucks 2day! yipeee.
I miss Starbucks. boohoo.
anyway, I'm super happy 2 c this on my table when I'm back home! =DDD
with my very very cutePAUL! heee. and it makes me think twice whether 2 choose SP or NP now. look, NP can b Paul's junior! [orhh well, not bcos of this lahh!] haha. okay, bcos I saw "Flim, Sound & Video Studies"!!! and I really gonna love it, I know. in addition, it took 15min 2 HollandV! so I'm not going 2 b jealous of Shirley anymore! hehehehe. but well, SP's near HollandV too. lol. now, I dunno whether 2 sign up 4 Red camp not. boohoo. life is full of choices. that's make me soooooooooooo indecisive! but well, after all, I think I'll still choose SP, Music & Audio Technology 4 my very 1st choice. but I need the support. I need 2 get in2 the course happily, not worrying. but I dun get my family's support. what they want me 2 be, is not what I wanna be. =((((((((((((((
anyway, any Swiss students remember this?
I was tidying up my room few days ago and I discovered this! and I decided 2 discard it. cos no use. lol. I got more than enough filesssssss. but well, why didnt we have all these nowadays? boring Swiss. arghhhh.
and this? hahaha. my mum's. it's super annoying! so I decided 2 wear it. she said it's comfortable. orhh well, it is. =))
and I was trying 2 be a..
Happy Girl..
& a Nerd, yesterday. LOL. was flipping through my notes, and got bored, U see. lol.
and this! Once a Command Band of NCC, Always a Command Band of NCC. =))and yes, still a 3rd/bass trombonist. =ppPpP orhh my, I miss my dented gold bonny. and my 1st sliver bonny, 5583792. woo.
and this..
had enough of Xiaojun's life? maybe U should buy my book. err, no. it's freeeeee. [of cos got no such book exist luhh!] lol.
` I hope you know.
forgetfulness makes you cuter. LOL.
10:53:00 PM
Friday, September 14, 2007
Everything just ain't the same. Maybe I've changed, and I justdon't feel right.
Well, I know that it's early And it's too hard to think And the broken empty bottles Are reminder in the sink But I thought that I should tell you If it's not to late to say I could put back all the pieces, They just might not fit the same Nothing's worth losing Especially the chance to make it right
And I know that we're gonna be fine And the tattooed mistakes Are gonna fade over time As long as we live, time passes by And we won't get it back when we die
Well, I know it's been years now, And I don't look the same And the hopes and dreams you had for me You thought went down the drain. And the room feels so empty where my pictures used to be And I can't say that I blame you, But you can't blame me Cuz nothing's worth losing Especially the chance to make it right
And I know that we're gonna be fine And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time As long as we live, time passes by And we won't get it back when we die Come over Come over
Cause I gotta know, If I am doing this all on my own Come over Come over How can I show you if you're not here
-I feel the d i s t a n c e between you and me.
2:31:00 PM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
I FEEL YOU. POA PAPER 2 TOMORROW what more can I say?
! I did Chem without a calculator. cos battery went totally FLAT. but when I reached home and I tired to on it, IT CAN BE ON! =\\
! Physics wasnt very tough. but I suck in Physics all along. =(((
! I didnt managed 2 finish my Math Paper 1 today. =(((
! I pray hard I know how 2 do my paper 2moro. and make use of the 2 hours. balance it!
! I'm super sleepy now due 2 lack of sleep 4 these few days. but.. HERE I COME, PRINCIPLE OF ACCOUNTS. who says an U grade in N level POA cannot pass in O level POA? (*$%#$@#()&*(%^$@#
` I saw someonebetter thanyou.
1:22:00 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I'm feeling rather Blue. so blue. really blue.
I thought things would be better off this way. I thought everything would be fine if I'm like that. I thought every1 would be okay. sharks. what again.
do you understand? well, I bet you don't at all. I'm so stuck. and I hate this feeling. this way or that? I'm heading nowhere.
I'm sick and tired of everything, every little things. every1, every1 of you. false pretense. had enough?
still feeling lonely on a streets full of strangers. where are you?
1:18:00 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
:(I AM FEELING DDOOOZZYYYY
yes I am. after A paper, and I'm super sleepy. due to.. thinking tooooooooooooooo much yesterday. it seems like if I close my eyes and fall asleep, I'll 4get everything. and I'm talking about EVERYTHING. like.. Anions, Cations, Metals reactivity series, Alkanes, Alkenes etc etc etc.AHHHHHHH shit. thinking about what everybody had said. tooo many tooo many. feeling like.. nervous? while doing the Chem paper 2day. it's like.. everything I skipped and turned. like.. WHAT?! this? U mean THIS?! it's testing us things that I never thought it will come out again! but afterall, I think it's quite an alright paper. I thought the paper end at 915! I was thinking about the last last question, didint manage 2 finish. boohoo. super disappointed by myself. and whatever my results gonna be, I'm just gonna concentrate on other sub Now, Now, NOW! btw, I SAW MDM SIM 2day!wahh hahahaha. she looked super tired, after a long break? weird. and looked weak. boohoo. hope she's fine fine fine!
Physics tomorrow.
okay, guess I'm not saying anything more. I think I should catch some sleep and "chiong" 4 my Physics paper 2moro. pls pls, dun b a tough paper! =\\\
I felt so much like..LG FUAD. orhh well..
LET'S GET F***ED UP AND DIE. and now I've decided to die.
some music to share, peeps.
11:39:00 AM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
I think I should have some proper entry again. everytime, I'll be busy and will be saying "busy with folio" etc. and here, is my d&t folio. only the cover luhh. cant b showing every single page mahh. my folio's super thin, so afraid I wont score. but I'd already do what we all supposed 2. and also..
my Exploded Diagram! detest this section the MOST. really. imagine everything's gonna be EXPLODED! meaning that every piece of ur material will b seperate, yet when join 2gether, it'll be how ur artefact looks like.
as I've already show how my artefact look like, so.. YES! I have 2 draw this silly box 4 times! like hooowww mmmaaadddd. and I did it at mac, so everybody started looking at me, though I was mad. either thinking I'm a very hardworking student, so a nothing better 2 do 1. =\\
the day b4 Teachers' Day, I was super bushed, carrying a lot a lot of things. so Marcus called, and he decided 2 come over my house and so we will able 2 go 2 school the next day 2gether. and 2 make me awake..
see this stupid boy! I was busy writing the cards. he was on my bed having fun, sms-ing, playing with my phone and exploring my bed. "wahh. this piglet, that piglet.." &^&%$%^ and yet still so happy when I wanted 2 take a picture of him! lol. idiotic boy.
and he's also the 1 who realised the error on the shirt, I smsed Lily but got no reply. I was frantic then, but what 2 do? can only wait 4 the sun 2 rise and get some work done.
it was around 5 plus, and I AM DRAINED, not him. cos he had his afternoon nap. we were sleeping on the floor, decided 2 accompany him. he was like.. beside me. see, act cute!
I woke up at 630 as my alarm rang. I was like.. super super sleepy. but decided 2 drag myself up, cos afraid Marcus will just sleep and dun care! so I woke him up, and go washed myself up..
had a meal 2gether with my family at Hooked! it's cool. it's all about fishes. of cos, their menu has "Anti-Fish" section. which consists of Stewed Beef etc. my 3rd bro ordered it, but out of stock. poor him. haha.
look at his face, so tempting 2 have his beef. boohoo! lol. this is damn ugly, really. he agrees. "why am I not cuter than my sis?" he thought. =XXXX
guess what guess what! I did 2 set of POA MCQs yesterday. since MsNg said that we should score in MCQs, I tried. wooohooo! didnt know it's soo fun 2 do MCQs! I really scored when I checked through the answers. though some, I really got no idea why I got wrong. super elated. so next, I'm going 2 chiong on my paper 2. I did 1 topic on Physics yesterday. then was really sleepy, came home 2 sleep.
and had Sakura Buffet with 3rd aunty, niece, 2nd bro and parents. guess what, I realised my niece's soooooooooo adorable when she looked at me decently. lol. and asked me, "where po po go?" whenever my 3rd aunty go grabbed some food. and when I told her she's getting some food and asked her 2 wait patiently, she'll asked, "food? for me? for me?" and will tried 2 escape from the baby chair excitedly. HAHA. super cute. and guess what, when she called,"ah yee." I felt super old. and I'm really getting old! gosh gosh.
dunno what should I be doing 2day. probably POA and Physics. or Chemistry? hmmm.
` what more can I say?
10:45:00 AM
Monday, September 03, 2007
everybody lies. tell me how 2 trust some1 now.. disgusted. freak out. shit it. if only sadness took a day, if only happiness is forever. if only everybody stops pressing you and knowing you're down. if only everybody's understanding. TRUST; where is it?
the wind blow, and I feel the pain. the skies turns grey, it starts 2 rain. rain drops on my hand, again and again. drenched, and I realised I was alone.
lousy, xiaojun's lousy.
my eldest brother. a model 4 a day. grab the upcoming "nu you".
10:28:00 AM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
didnt know it happened just like this. didnt even realised, until a day b4 that. I was worrying about it 4 a night, so what I predict was right.
I wasnt even the 1 designing it. I was only the 1 helping out. when things crop up, every1 run, when some1 praises, they fight 4 it. like.. WTH? but I've decided 2 save it asap. why nobody understands, why nobody understands? even you dun understand..
I slept the whole day yesterday. but everytime I closed my eyes, that incident just appeared in my mind. woke up time and time again. if U think there's not a need 2 be so worry, but U're wrong. cos I know how it feels. put urself in their shoes, got it?
I hate it, every1, everyday. I WANNA GET OUT NOW! NOW!
apology 2 all teachers, really.
` hurt. down. pissed. had enough. if only you allow me 2 have a second of explaination.