Tuesday, May 29, 2007
where are you? you used to make me smile, brighten up my day. now you're the one who hurt me the most. fuck.
I read the whole book, about my life, experiences 4 last yr. I wrote it down, time, day. it's as if I'm writing and publishing a book of my own. I wish I could someday. heh. I dun have that ability anyway. those days when I'm a Major, how I overcome. or maybe, I didnt? even when I read through, I felt the pressure. the disappointment, those flops. I aint a very gd Major, maybe not even successful. I dunno. I guess not. woo. but how times files. the day when I agreed 2 be 1, the day I promised, the day I got praise, the day I so much wanna hug the whole Band, the day I wanna say "thank you", the day my section pissed me off, the day people dun trust me, the day I'm standing alone, the day.. the day.. orhh well, having so much 2 say, that's the past.
the images appeared in my mind. the day I saw some1 somewhere surprisely. haha. n now, I hardly see that some1 whom I bump in2 almost everyday. lol. what a joke, what a life.
I'm missing every bit of it.thank you, every1. 4 believeing in me. I aint the best, but I did my best.
same goes 2 my O level.
I'm thankful and glad that I got 1 subject done. I hope I'll get the result I always want 2 have anyway. but really, that's my best. I'm that thankful cos I'm having a really horrible feeling this morning. my head's heavy, dun tell me it's bcos of my hair. =\\ just so heavy, I'm feeling giddy. so weak, like fainting any point of time. really. hate it. like the whole sky's falling. orhh no, sky wont fall.
that's why I'm glad everything's over. though I felt soo blank a few times, but I really trying hard 2 concentrate and finish everything. yes, everything. thank god.
a few things b4 I end?;
-get well soon.
-take care, stupid thong.
-markcus should be fine by now. luckily everything's back 2 normal 4 him.
-happiness, zhiyuan.
-things will be fine, guanyi.
-happy birthday, kaimeng.
-lousy! all copycats r useless, not innovative at all! esp U!
-and shit you. you made me so dumb, making wrong decision. dun say I didnt cherish, it's you didnt care a shit thing about me. soon, I'll delete everything.
I didnt had much 2day, I dunno why I got stomachache. arghh. I loathe my nose, my stomach. they never stop giving me problems. now comes throat giving me problem.
:)I'll draw and paint you a picture.
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