Wednesday, March 07, 2007
I dunno. I dun think I wanna know. so I'm at fault? I'm really stuck. done done. everything should b this way then. it just makes me more and more tired each time. b4 or after, nothing changes. and I'm stupid enough. thinking if I'm back, U'll b more committed. orhh well, how naive I am. I'm doing all this 2 some1 who dun bother at all. laugh at me guys, LAUGH.
HA! YOU'RE SUCH A FAILURE, XIAOJUN.I pasted 2 plasters, cos I wanna wear shoes 2day. hate those slippers days! but wearing shoes is making the wound worse. I changed the plasters in class 2day. well, I know it's gross. but.. it's really giving me hell! =(((((((
okay. this is the dumb-est thing I can ever do. I came straight home after sch cos U always complain I'm home late. always stay in sch till late hours. or GO OUT after sch. I'd been trying so hard 2 b home early every weekdays cos I'm tired. I'M TIRED. I asked if U'll b cooking4 dinner, U asked me 2 cook. =\ HA. if only me myself got the energy 2. I told U I wanna go IMM and ask when U guys having dinner, cos I dun wanna miss the dinner with the family again and again. but I was really hungry and so I wanna buy some snacks from IMM. U scolded me and said."not so soon. why r U always out and not at home? UP 2 U!" and 3 of U r happily playing mahjong. am I still alive or dead? fine, so I stayed at home, time flies yet U guys were still playing outside, with lots of NOISE. I fell asleep, pls, any1 can take the tiredness? so it's wrong 2 sleep? U woke me up only when it's about 8. I dun bother, cos I DUN WANNA HAVE MEALS WITH A BUNCH OF STRANGERS LIKE U GUYS! the worse thing was, when I heard.. "yeahh yeahh. only if I allow U 2 go IMM then U'll b soo happy and energitic. once I dun allow, U r drop dead!" and I purposely woke up after they left. straight after they left. HA. what a joke!I HATE IT. orhh pls. I dun need 2 c whether U allow or not 2 go 2 such a place call IMM. it's NEAR cant U c? as if I had meet some1 there. dun they know I'm ALWAYS alone? but does that matter? dun booshit with me with all nonsense. I'm tired, U complain. I'm out doing work, U complain. hey. have U ever ask me anything? after all this booshitting, every1 left. HA. they shook me ONCE. ONE PATHETIC TIME and LEFT! I woke up, withh darkness. should I just leave now? or wait 4 death?HOME? haha. what a place call HOME.
I really need the 1 week break. 2 study, 2 sleep, 2 slack, 2 touch up, 2 reflect. and 2 realise how dumb I m..
hold me tight and fly with me.
8:30:00 PM
