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Sunday, February 25, 2007

I'm back, probably an hour ago? I guess so.

I never like staying at home. as days pass, I feel more and more wanna leave. I find Peace outside rather than home. well, even if I'm alone, I feel Peaceful. no1's at home anyway. what's the point? it's always Noise, making everything's soo.. WHATEVER. I'm just feeling empty. it's just like jigsaw puzzle. it's fine, yeahh, nice. everything seems so perfect. just by its cover, it looks perfectly fine. but 1 fine day, U lift it up, well, everything just dropped, and a few pieces went missing, it will never b found. and yes, I do mean NEVER. where is the Love? boo. everything seems so alien 2 me. people at home, walk pass me, who are they? strangers? so near, yet so far. I so much wanted 2 speak, but soon, they disappear. orhh well, that's the fact. I should have b strong and face it. rather than whinning here. I'm booshitting, yes I m.

and so, went 4 band prac 2day. talked 2 mrchew etc. pray hard everything will b fine. yeahh, I hope so. I'll b praying, 4 the sake of every1.

took a nap 2day. from 3 plus 2 6 plus? OINK called and we had a short chat on the phone. CRAPS. as usual. =x went Starbucks. wt's soo late! I'd started doing my work and studying my notes b4 her arrival. was doing phy then. ahh, tough. =(( went Mac after that cos Starbucks' closing. there's SOOOO many teenagers slacking around at Mac. guess it's their Saturday Night fever. HOHOHO. ahh. Starbucks' pasta salad dun taste gd! I still find their potato salad ambrosia! hee. but they left pasta salad 2day. thought salad suppose 2 b healthy? but pasta salad's soo oily lehh! =\ I dun like it. didnt manage 2 finish it. and that supposed 2 b my lunch and dinner! =\ luckily I had Mac. I didnt finish the meal, soo fulling! I'm still feeling full now! =\ so I took a cab home.

I managed 2 finish my chi compo. ahhh. can we do some narrative compo? PLSSSS? I'm getting bored writing those newspaper stuffs etc. =\=\ I'm doing my phy now. ahhh. I'm kinda stuck. some1 help pls? I haven complete my chi asessment! got 6 chapters 2 do! I'm at the 3rd 1. orhh sharks. guess I'll finish my phy and continue with my ss 1st if I'm not sleepy. I'm mentally drained 2day. just bcos I got so much 2 fret over. why. =((((((((((((((((((((((((

Peace is not about Slience.
-I find Peace when I'm blasting my Music in2 my ears. I'm in the world of my own.
Fill my Little World.

IF there's no tomorrow for ME..

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

3:39:00 AM
Saturday, February 24, 2007

let U b entertained by these. hahaha. cute right. or rather, funny right? guess who guess who! =p

amazed by cellphone nowadays. how it can changed a pic. hahaha. well, I didnt know Guanyi took this pic and started playing with it. and so, yeahh, I agreed it's ridiculous! so I gonna put this here. SMILE, people! at least this pic makes jinmin smile! =)

how ridiculous! haha. this is SWISS BEST STUDENT. hurr! =x=x=x

everybody loves my stupid face! so ugly yet they love it! hahaha. I didnt pose 4 it k! =\=\

cute wendy! hahaha. =) she's sooo shy!

and so.. LOVE ME! =)

I would never want another night like that.
HORRIBLE NIGHT I had yesterday. I dunno what's wrong. I just feel the pain around my chest? nono. below my chest. and it woke me up time and time again. pissed. I slept around 1 plus cos I'm really tired. woke up around 2 plus, thought it's already 6 plus! dumb enough. and this time round, I aint feel like shitting, instead, I feel like vomitting. but I just cant. =(( so sat upright on my bed, then fall asleep. then woke up around 3 plus again. tossing around. ate a bottle of stomachache medicine, thinking it might help. bleahh. it just made me wanna puke more! =(( tossed around and woke up around 5 plus, cant stand it, I applied oil around my chest. imagine my bed.. if any1 of U know. I'd been climbing up and down up and down the whole night. I'm really sleepy, I can say. even nearly fall off. =\ really pathetic lahh. so it's 645am, it's time 4 me 2 get up and b ready 2 sch. booshit. really didnt sleep well. and I'll never want another night like that again! never.

feeling bad feeling bad feeling bad.
I fell asleep during eng remediation. I didnt want 2. but just cant help it. I was trying so hard 2 open my bloody small eyes. but it doesnt help much. I fell asleep time and time again. woke up time and time again. I did managed 2 listen some parts. it was all about picture discussion. I'm feeling bad lahh! so bad 2 sleep in some1's class~ =((
feeling bad, feeling bad.
went Band after that. I was, yes, drained. trying so hard 2 concentrate. it ended kinda late 2day. we just gotta prac harder. yahh, I understand. but my body isnt giving me the support that I need. it kept pulling me down. boohoo. went 2 have dinner with some of them. accomanpied HL mahh. feeling bad cos.. HL asked a no. of us out, yet no 1 bothers and left. he asked us 4 a movie. ended up left jas and me? then watch what! and every1's soooooo zonked. he seems disappointed, I know. =((( he just wanna spend some time with the Band members. and yet.. =\
I feel strange anyway.. =\

home around 8, wanna meet wt 4 midnight show. actually everything was planned, but her bro came back when she's about 2 get out of house, so she cant get out of house. well, it's okay. =)) though kinda bored at home. cos parents aint at home. even if family members at home, heh. it doesnt really make any diff. so.. yahh. I just wanna have a fresher air outside. well, so I stayed at home, feeling restless. boohoo. =\

I gonna miss mrlim, he's going re-service.
ahhhh. HE HAVEN TELL US WHETHER GOT PHY TEST NOT!!!!!! I'd reminded him lehh! =\

I watched a few Xu Wei Lun's video, it's really touching. orhh mann. why is she soo unfortunate! =((
and so, CHERISH.

shirley wants me 2 post this pic lahh!
shirley said,"xiaojun's tall! xiaojun's tall!" =x=x=x

the person who appears 2 b strong, is usually the weakest. and when some thing provoke and allow the person 2 cry, she cant help herself 2 stop crying. it just seems like waterfall. cos it's accumulated. it's all tears. tears. and more tears..

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

2:19:00 AM
Thursday, February 22, 2007

cos I feel no Love in this little place of mine..

everybody is asking me 2 sleep early, cos I look dead. =\

thanks 4 that, so unique, just like you.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

11:18:00 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007

my favourite pic. HEE. =)

I thought it was 3 plus in the morning! I dunno why. homework left undone. I only managed 2 finish my chem. and yeahh, I finally figured out how. bleahh. I tried 2 do my POA but nothing gets in2 my head. so I'm asking guanyi 2moro. I thought it was still holiday, and I could sleep. I hope. heh. but 2 bad, say hi 2 sch then. orhh well, I wish I could sleep moreeeeee..
basically, I went out with jas and shir on the 2nd day of CNY. didnt tag my parents along 2 my 3rd aunt's house. orhh well, what's the dif actually? they organised all these gathering just 2 kill time. I dun wish 2 bore myself there. I just cant click with them. =(( so 3 of us went hollandv 2 laze around. really cool. STARBUCKS! heh. had iced caffe mocha. NICE! should give it a try. =)) we were chatting at Starbucks. and we finally got an outdoor seat! bleahh. we were waiting! really cooling. I'm feeling soo comfortable. and that's the only moment. =\ we were singing, drawing, doing SOME work, taking pics and looking around. haha. cool ehh. and I HATE SHIRLEY 2 have alllll my fav music in her mp3 player! or rather, her bro's. =\ just couldnt stop listening! haha.
went panjang Starbucks 2 meet wt up. jas went vivo and shir went home. wt is getting notorious! horrible her. asked what have she done, orhh no, she will just act innocent, HORR. and so I have 2 cover up 4 her! horrible her. making me so dunno what 2 do! arghhh. guess I'll b having high blood pressure soon!

2day supposed 2 go 2 2nd aunt's house. that's the another gathering again. I woke up about 12 plus with headache, so didnt go. was doin gmy work halfway and went 2 cityhall alone 2 grabbed some stuffs. shops r finally open 4 slackers! =x I finally got my "Man and Boy" book. wanted 2 get "the Family Way" and "Man and Wife" but afraid my card dun have that sum of money. =(( I WANT ALL THAT! =\ supposed 2 meet derrick and ey up 2 study but end up I'm soo dead tired, I just meet guanyi up 4 dinner. I'm feeling giddy, I dunno why. had pepper lunch in IMM. yummy. and it's really fulling! home about 8 plus. and I'm really really drained. I dunno why. I'm old, U c. heh. my work's undone! =(((((((((((((((((((((((

sorry about the vday gift. I know it's really DELAY. but.. I couldnt find the things in mind! soon, really soon. sorry guys! if U know who U r..

at HollandV Starbucks. woohoo. =D

way back home! =)

I took this quite long ago, but 4gotten 2 upload it up. hehe. PATH 2 HEAVEN.

I took a pic of my eldest bro on the 1st day of CNY at my grandparents' house. I bet I didnt mention. but I love it. cos of the natural lightning I have. he didnt know anything about this until I showed it 2 him. =x so when I take my phone, b careful. hahaha.

these are SOME pics. haha. and it's really SOME. =)

btw,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TING. =)

-Sleep when you're Dead.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

12:32:00 AM
Monday, February 19, 2007

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR to all!!! CNY mean nothing 2 me. maybe bcos after my grandma's gone? guess not. dislike CNY since.. pri5? hurr. the ambience's just not that. something seems missing. it's soo empty. slience. I rather fall ill and sleep the whole afternoon. but I know I should respect the tradition. orhh well..

this is what I found in grandparent's house. hohoho. look how loving we are. yes we are..

[I took this pic, I edited this pic. =)]
met wt around 5 plus-6 after visiting. went 2 Starbucks. everywhere seems so cold! went Town, CityHall then Bugis. just bcos she wanan get her pants. but almost all shops r close. ALL. bleahh. just treat it as a tour around Singapore? yeahh, I guss so. but it's fun. cos we CRAPPED along out way. hees. went 2 her house after that. was being forced by her. yes, FORCED. I didnt bully her! OINK! her mum's cute as usual. GANs! hahaha. 2 bad THONGs! =p

home around 11-12 plus. I'm dead. I wonder why ladies love heels. lol. look at my blisters! I went numb when I'm having my shower. gosh. thank God. I'm wearing shoes 2moro! hahaha. PUMA SHOES, HERE I COME! and SHOO HEELS! =p or slippers? hahaha. going out with shir and jas 2moro. wonder how will my day b. lalala. I'm sleepy now. yeahh, as usual.

Surprised.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

3:45:00 AM
Saturday, February 17, 2007

everything's just Black and White.
and I guess I'm missing you..

DUPLICATION, YES YOU. that annoyed me! stop that. booshit!

I LOVE THEM LOADS! Starbucks 2night? hehehe.
what about mac in the morning? hahaha. just 2 have the fun of it. I had my nap 2day. the 1st time 4 2oo7! 3 cheers 4 XIAOJUN! =D the way life should b. ehh. not urs. I mean the way MY life should b. hahaha. night life, that should b the way. I'm alone. so? so any1 who's feel soo lonely, c'mon, I'm the worst. so cheeer up every1. =))

I AINT XIAOLAHH!!!! roarrr. hahahaha.
XIAOJUN. XIAOJUN. XIAOJUN! =D

it's gona b a beautiful, meaningful morning. 1st time in my life. hee. =D

toBM ; be yourself. trust yourself. everything will turn out fine.. =))
from exBM. with lots of LovesSssSsSSSsssSs. =D

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

5:06:00 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007

WHAT'S WRONG?!
it's not as if I did something wrong. why r U sooo sensative. and what's wrong 2 face the fact? sorry but I think U r horrible. in fact, scary. never judge the book by its cover. U just appear 2 b soooo "cute" and "friendly" in every1's eyes. U're evil.. why.

I'm feeling guilty. cos I haven given any1 any valentine's day gift. =\ SORRY. manufacturing in progress. once done, will give 2 all. I wont say who then. haha. 2 b fair and square. it's of cos not my BFs.. lol. I aint a flirt. I dont! cos U wont die without a guy..

TESTs;
POA Amalgamtion - PASSED.
CHEMISTRY QA - PASSED.
MATH Algebra - PASSED.
but I think I gonna fail my geog. cos I concentrate so much on my POA test 2day. I dun even dare 2 hand in my paper! it's sooooo disappointing.. =((

1 MORE MONTH!! so fast?!=o

why am I in this sch, this class? =\=\=\ it's sooooo empty, so chilling.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

11:34:00 PM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY to all. =)) esp my beloved 1s. =p

unattached? so what! haha. cos I aint 2. cant have the 1 U Love, then contribute Love 2 those who needs a little care and concern. a little bit of Love can brighten some1's day. brighten my day now! =)

attached? congrates! enjoy this special day with the 1 U really love whole heartedly. there wont b a 2nd him/her, CHERISH.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

11:35:00 PM
Monday, February 12, 2007

taka, taka! find this bread really cute. so bought it. taste gd 2! didnt know it contain custard inside, which I dislike. ewww. but manage 2 finish it. cos the texture of the bread is soo soft and chewy! try it! =) and it's really cuuuttee.

at wisma's Starbucks. afterall, still back 2 my fav Starbucks. hehe. yanjing didnt drink any. she dislikes Starbucks. =\ and these r my stupid faces. who cares~ =p

and so.. we decided 2 have a few formal 1s. or should b.. I decided 2 b serious. bleahh~
b4 I left Starbucks, I saw PAUL TWOHILL!!!!!! he's soo cute! =p

yesterday's. wanted 2 go town alone. but was "sian diao" after I changed. so took A FEW pics. haha. met wt at Starbucks. she said I look like a prisoner. orhh well.. GO STRIPPY, people. ;-)

and 2day's..

all these r due 2 a few days of accumulation. dun b surprise by how ridiculous I can b. and all bcos,
I'm XIAOJUN.

I'll TRY 2 b strong..

and the one you love hardly love you.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

1:32:00 AM
Sunday, February 11, 2007

which way 2 happy?
it's really downcast 2 hear all these from mum. was it really gonna b this way? or things can b better? I'm just 2 "small" 2 do anything. but I dun wish 2 c everything this way. I'm thinking.. still thinking.. the eyes got so red and watery. am I suppose 2 listen and walk off? or do something about it? I feel so small, I'm indeed small.

I have a wish.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

3:19:00 AM
Saturday, February 10, 2007

and between now and then, till I see you again, I'll be loving you, Love Me.

the coldest moment was when we walked pass each other and turned away.

it's getting cold tonight.

it's nothing wrong to Love someone. but it's wrong if you Love someone yet you never dare to confess to the person how much you

Love .*

there's no one after the last Angel flown..

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

1:18:00 PM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SAN GE! lalala. my 3rd bro's bday's 2moro! so here I am putting his big big photo with his gf here 2 wish them happy always.
ps.- dun say I look like my 3rd bro. grrr. =\

pronounce this with me AMALGAMATION. it's A-MAL-GA-MA-TION. heh.
just another POA's topic. having test 2moro. orhh! U must b thinking why m I not studying right? I'm done with it! =)) gonna study through again 2moro after sch. gosh. it will b a long day 2moro. it's a HUMANS day! with 2 periods of geog, 2 periods of ss, then ss rememdiation, follow by geog. grrr. and I'm getting sleepy just by mentioning. =x dun hammer me!

why r U guys telling me all these? I'm not gonna b the judge. yes, I can understand both sides. but there's no wrong or right in a sense. I'm not in the image, I dun wanna 2 b in the image. U guys ought 2 sort things out. it's better 2 "4give and 4get." why dun U guys want that? confrontation is alright. but not quarrelling pls. pls pls pls. no more hoohaa in class can? PEACE. it's just getting me freak out. dun ask me what exactly happened, any1. leave it, they will settle it. dun ask me who I support, NONE. dun ask me who I trust, NONE.

job intro. any1? higher pay! thank you.

I'm feeling dark. feeling empty. feeling further. I got no more feelings.. I'm numb. it just seems so far away. selfish.

PUB, soon.

XIAOJUN needsabite :p

11:26:00 PM