Sunday, August 27, 2006
tell U what. my comp is DOWNNN!!! hate it. using the je's library comp now. n feeling kinda uneasy with strangers around U while U r typing some kinda personal life here. HAHA. okie. i'm alone. just wanna b alone.. =/ brought some studies stuffs along. shall study later on while waiting 4 that dumbo rongjie. heh. =x okie, shant crap anymore. in case my account got $0 n i dun wanna waste anymore money from my cash card. arghh.
life here is getting worse alright. nothing gets better. be it about my family, studies or whatever U call it.. love?! haha. okie.
family?! I WANNA LEAVE. or I WANNA LIVE. both yupp. i wanna live a life of my own. i wanna leave 2 somewhere i should b rather than keeping in this little dark corner. it's getting preassurize n i'm getting freak out bcos of every little things they had been doing. soo dumb. i mean i'm soo dumb. really feel like shouting it out loud at times. but just couldnt. yupp. suffocating here. sharks.
something real bad. i fluncked my ss. it's soo horrible!! n terrible. the score is like worse than i ever thought. not single digit of cos. if not i would have kill myself. =/ i just couldnt pass. which i thought i could. orhh mann. that's terribly disappointing. haii. 4 eng, i dunno. what if i fail my eng as well?! i'm dead then. c'mon, at this point of time, I CANT FAIL ENG. if not, i rather not take n level?! i mean.. i'm just thinking yupp. okie, i passed my chi. didnt SCORE that well. i mean i really wanted 2 do much more better. n saw the paper 2, somehow disappointing cos of all those careless mistakes made by this silly me. ahhh. if not i could do better. doing gd doesnt mean U r happy with it. dun provoke me with anything about results. i'll FREAK OUT. =x i sound terrible over here. haa.
something WORST. it's not about getting over or not. it's just more n more complex. i mean my own feelings. i think i should had watched that show just now. it's somehow about physcology. "find ur true self n accept it." i mean.. sometimes it's really HARD 2 accept the way U r. when U know U had fall in love with some1 U shouldnt. n it's really DEEP. that's what i mean. confess or not doesnt matter anymore. cos.. U know there wont b any conclusion. that's it.
hasnt been sleeping well. getting headache soo often. guess i'm getting old or what. hahaha. haiya. weekends, the sun seems BRIGHTER. n it's giving me a hell out of it. also, my idiot bros never know that they have a LAZYBUM sis sleeping till late afternoon!! they on the tv, the vol is soo loud!! even bang the door of my room again n again. dumb lahh. next time i LOCK. n U guys just shut up. MUAHAHAHA. that's kinda impossible lahh. my mum will starts scolding again n say why didnt i let my bros in n soo "pig" 2 sleep till late afternoon. c'mon, it's WEEKENDS!! so why cant i. in addition, n 4 ur info., islept at 5 plus yesterday night!! i'm soo dead.
!@#$%^&*
somtimes it's not whether the person 4gives U, it's whether U can 4give urself..
heyy, sch life aint gd. if U c i'm alone, i'm alone lorr. big deal. =/
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