Tuesday, August 29, 2006
WEI!!!!!!! i'm BACK. DUN MISS ME!!
dun miss me. =x
i think my comp just suck lahh. till now STILL cannot b on. since 2moro is HOLIDAY, i came 2 library AGAIN!! =)) n 2 teach the dozy guanyi chi. gonna go through whole mock paper with him. but allow me 2 say what i wanna say 1st. hahaha.
ermm.. PEKCEK LAHH!! n level is getting nearer n i somehow paranoid over here. sharks lahh. =(( told my mum my results!! chi n ss. she said i HAVE 2 WORK EXTREMELY HARD 4 ss. n said my chi was just tyco. is that what U call. i dunno lahh. yahh. err, maybe so?! hahaha. so i gonna work 10x harder than others. had been revising chem, poa n chi. think gonna start my ss revision. bleahh.
okie. shouldnt blog much. just wanna thanks people around me. =)) if U know it's U, then it's U lahh. hahaha. not every1, thank you. eat the humble pie!! haha. well..
seriously, thank you 4 ALWAYS being there.. the 24hr service. heh.=))
5:44:00 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
tell U what. my comp is DOWNNN!!! hate it. using the je's library comp now. n feeling kinda uneasy with strangers around U while U r typing some kinda personal life here. HAHA. okie. i'm alone. just wanna b alone.. =/ brought some studies stuffs along. shall study later on while waiting 4 that dumbo rongjie. heh. =x okie, shant crap anymore. in case my account got $0 n i dun wanna waste anymore money from my cash card. arghh.
life here is getting worse alright. nothing gets better. be it about my family, studies or whatever U call it.. love?! haha. okie.
family?! I WANNA LEAVE. or I WANNA LIVE. both yupp. i wanna live a life of my own. i wanna leave 2 somewhere i should b rather than keeping in this little dark corner. it's getting preassurize n i'm getting freak out bcos of every little things they had been doing. soo dumb. i mean i'm soo dumb. really feel like shouting it out loud at times. but just couldnt. yupp. suffocating here. sharks.
something real bad. i fluncked my ss. it's soo horrible!! n terrible. the score is like worse than i ever thought. not single digit of cos. if not i would have kill myself. =/ i just couldnt pass. which i thought i could. orhh mann. that's terribly disappointing. haii. 4 eng, i dunno. what if i fail my eng as well?! i'm dead then. c'mon, at this point of time, I CANT FAIL ENG. if not, i rather not take n level?! i mean.. i'm just thinking yupp. okie, i passed my chi. didnt SCORE that well. i mean i really wanted 2 do much more better. n saw the paper 2, somehow disappointing cos of all those careless mistakes made by this silly me. ahhh. if not i could do better. doing gd doesnt mean U r happy with it. dun provoke me with anything about results. i'll FREAK OUT. =x i sound terrible over here. haa.
something WORST. it's not about getting over or not. it's just more n more complex. i mean my own feelings. i think i should had watched that show just now. it's somehow about physcology. "find ur true self n accept it." i mean.. sometimes it's really HARD 2 accept the way U r. when U know U had fall in love with some1 U shouldnt. n it's really DEEP. that's what i mean. confess or not doesnt matter anymore. cos.. U know there wont b any conclusion. that's it.
hasnt been sleeping well. getting headache soo often. guess i'm getting old or what. hahaha. haiya. weekends, the sun seems BRIGHTER. n it's giving me a hell out of it. also, my idiot bros never know that they have a LAZYBUM sis sleeping till late afternoon!! they on the tv, the vol is soo loud!! even bang the door of my room again n again. dumb lahh. next time i LOCK. n U guys just shut up. MUAHAHAHA. that's kinda impossible lahh. my mum will starts scolding again n say why didnt i let my bros in n soo "pig" 2 sleep till late afternoon. c'mon, it's WEEKENDS!! so why cant i. in addition, n 4 ur info., islept at 5 plus yesterday night!! i'm soo dead.
!@#$%^&*
somtimes it's not whether the person 4gives U, it's whether U can 4give urself..
heyy, sch life aint gd. if U c i'm alone, i'm alone lorr. big deal. =/
3:13:00 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Pisces Personality TraitsPisces are the most impressionable of the twelve zodiac signs. Deeply empathetic, they often exhibit a gentle, patient nature, but one that is in want of inspiration. Pisces can be deeply affected by and completely absorbed into their environment.
Pisces adapt well to their circumstances, both good and bad. They are generous, amiable, positive natured people with a deep sense of kindness and compassion. Pisces are highly tuned in to everything around them including the feelings of others. Pisces are socially popular because of their easygoing and likable manner. They have an uncanny sense of perceiving what a person wants or needs, and delivering it. Pisces are reflexive, preferring to allow circumstances and events to unfold and, only then responding.
Pisces are not typical people. They are too idealistic and impractical for every day run of the mill living. Pisces are sensitive and instinctual rather than bookish or mechanical. When Pisces find the right situations, they are capable of some incredible deeds. Pisces completely and wholly engage in a chosen path, to the exclusion of everything else. This obsessive compulsive energy can be healthy and not. Pisces can be workaholics (and other kind of -aholics too).
Positive Pisces Personality TraitsPisces excel in situations where they can leverage their imaginative and intuitive nature. They are exceptionally gifted artistically. Pisces are often intensely interested and skilled at a wide variety of things and tend to learn by absorption as opposed to logic. Pisces are loyal, family oriented, kind and giving. They are receptive to new ideas and circumstances. Pisces have an uncanny ability to nurture and support which is directly related to their powerful intuition.
Pisces make profound artists of all types because they possess great, vivid imaginations. That powerful creativity is often expressed in music, literature, drama and art. Pisces love style, luxury and pleasure, and are always ready for new adventures. When Pisces travel, they enjoy unique, exotic, luxurious places as well as modest, indigenous settings where like to live as the locals do.
Main positive personality traits: Uncommon ability to instinctively respond to given situations; compassionate; understanding; artistic, sacrificing.
Negative Pisces Personality TraitsPisces are often scatterbrains. They don't do well in highly structured or regimented situations and generally buck convention. Pisces can be so emotional, needy and intense that they can end up being a real drag to people around them. In business, they can be unreliable, unmotivated, easily distracted, and have their heads in the clouds all the time. The not so nice side of Pisces manifests as being a gossip, indiscreet, and gullible.
Pisces are easily lied to because they so want to believe. No matter how often they are led astray by empty promises, they keep the faith and push on toward their personal ideal. Their dreamy and impractical natures can be a source of distress to those close to them. Being both optimistic and cynical, Pisces find it difficult to make up their minds on any issue.
Main negative personality traits: Lazy, impractical, unrealistic, fearful, emotionally restrained, melancholy.
Pisces Profession & CareerIn the career department, Pisces are often better working for themselves than for someone else. Their innate sympathy equips them for careers in charity, catering to the needy, as a nurse, looking after the sick, or as a veterinarian, caring for animals.
Pisces have an intrinsic love of water, and are particularly well-suited towards jobs that keep them near the sea. Pisces notable creativity includes a natural ability to imitate or mirror another person as well as enter into their feelings. These attributes also make them incredible character actors, and many Pisceans find great success on stage or in films. It also makes them fantastic salespeople, copywriters, marketing creatives and advertising executives.
The much vaunted Pisces empathy for others makes them very effective in civil service and in the legal arena, particularly as an advocate for the less fortunate. Many police officers, attorneys and judges are Pisces. Their intuitive and metaphysical nature can lead them into careers in religion or to service as mediums and psychics. Owing to Pisces versatility and adaptability, they can often follow several radically different career paths during their lifetime.
Warning for PiscesWhen Pisces feel rejected or get the blues, they REALLY get the blues. They may turn to the numbing effects of drugs or alcohol for escape or distraction. Pisces should avoid this for obvious reasons, but particularly because of their highly addictive, compulsive nature. Pisces often develop a variety of vice habits including excessive gambling, compulsive shopping, and overspending. Pisces often suffer from a general lack of decisiveness and are easily distracted from their purposes. Pisces have a propensity towards depression and lethargy when not feeling fulfilled. They should live in bright, sunny climates, close to the bodies of water. Pisces should engage in exercise and fitness regularly in order to combat melancholy. Pisces must make a concerted effort to avoid their restlessness and desire to do something new in order to succeed and make their life more meaningful.
Pisces Love Compatibility Characteristics
Positive Pisces Love Characteristics: Loving, spiritual, sympathetic, in-tune, easy to get along with, artistic, romantic. Pisces are caring, intuitive mates and favor the security of long-term monogamous relationships.
Not-So-Positive Pisces Love Characteristics: Tender-hearted, flighty, not great with money, prone to escapism and emotional peaks and valleys. Can be needy.
Love Comes Easy To Pisces Love comes easily and naturally to Pisces. Hopelessly romantic, Pisces are affectionate, committed and loyal partners. Pisces have the natural ability to read and understand their mate's feelings and needs fairly effortlessly. Quite often, that can lead to a lot of hurt for gentle Pisces who might not too easily find a mate that "gets" them quite the same way.
Pisces & AquariusPisces and Aquarius vacilate between harmony and conflict. Some of the great partnerships of all time feature the Pisces and Aquarius dynamic. This push/pull is both an incredible catalyst but also a potential powderkeg.
Pisces & PiscesPisces and other Pisces enjoy effortless communication amongst themselves and the deep contentment that comes from truly being understood and loved unconditionally. But there is a lot of room for disaster when two Pisces split in divergent directions. Inevitably, it is deeply hurtful for both. But when it works... It's magic.
Pisces & AriesPisces and Aries are quite literally like fire and water. The pioneering and adventurous Aries spirit can be very exciting to the easy going Pisces. The calming safety of Pisces can be a perfect respite when Aries needs someone to understand why they are so determined and adventurous. On the other hand, Pisces are not nearly as driven as Aries which can cause problems for either.
Pisces & TaurusPisces and Taurus are compatible but the relationship can often be a case of the have and have nots. Taurus likes nice things, money equals security to Taurus and having both is paramount. PIsces also enjoy and appreciate finer things in life though Pisces are not nearly as naturally inclined to "acquire" as Taurus.
Pisces & GeminiPisces and Gemini are the spice of life. Both Pisces and Gemini love variety and a wealth of life experiences. Both are especially adaptable to new experiences and situations and both are excellent communicators. Pisces and Gemini are likely to have many different things going at one time.
Pisces & CancerPisces and Cancer have a shared connection to love and the family. Cancer is a caretaker and needs emotional commitment and security in a relationship. Pisces love to shower their mates with love and attention so this fulfills that needs well. Pisces also tend to rely on their mates heavily which plays to the Cancer tendencies towards protection and safety.
Pisces & LeoPisces and Leo can irritate each other initially as Leo is the leader of the pack, and Pisces tend to be wary of hypercompetitive alpha types. When Pisces can give Leo full undivided attention and Leo can learn to rely on Pisces incredible intuition and talent this can be a fruitful relationship full of all that life can offer.
Pisces & VirgoPisces and Virgo brings the technical and efficient Virgo ingenuity together with the creative, imaginative thinking that is so evident in Pisces. Virgo wants good health and things done right while Pisces are obliging and geat at problem solving.
Pisces & LibraLibras can be particularly compatible with Pisces in long-term relationships as the balanced Libra helps offset the spontaneous Pisces spirit. Libra is well mannered and proper with a great sense of style. Pisces appreciate the beauty and cultured personality of Libra.
Pisces & ScorpioPisces and Scorpio are most compatible when Pisces can be pragmatic and decisive. Scorpio is prone to strong likes and dislikes and is extremely loyal or equally hostile towards perceived enemies. The world is very black and white to Scorpio. Pisces find it very easy to read Scorpio because they often communicate nonverbally with looks and posture rather than words.
Pisces & SagittariusPisces and Sagittarius can be a mind-blowing partnership as both have great capacity for self-awareness and continually reaching new levels of personal understanding. Sagittarius and Pisces are both enthusiastic and good sports making for lots of happy times and smiles.
Pisces & CapricornPisces and Capricorn relationships often revolve around the pursuit of power or authority. Capricorn needs to be an authority figure and Pisces can only take so much of a taskmaster before lashing out with righteos indignation and if you've never seen gentle Pisces ticked off, look out!
what do U think?! hmmm..
i'm pissed off with everything. hate the way everything goes. i'm like a Fool.
pissed off lahh. mum's not giving me enough allowance 4 meals. n i gotta spend my own savings 4 meals. now i got NO savings. i no need entertainment lahh?! means my life is all about studying, come back home do work n eat?! dun crap lehh. it's not about the meals that i'm pissed off with. i need my savings!!!!!!!
I. NEED. A. LIFE!! can some1 understand not.
I WONT REPLY EVERY SINGLE MSG. how many times must i say.. ESP THOSE PEOPLE I NOT CLOSE WITH. why must i arr?! i dun like then i dun reply lahh. i mean it's ME what. i'm like that what. not happy DUN SMS lorr. annoying lehh. i'm getting soo annoyed by this. it's even MORE THAN ONE PERSON. i dun need A LOT of close friends. a few can Brighten my life more than enough. i had enough lahh. IRRITATED.had my chi prelims on fri. paper 1 was scary. i guess i nearly incomplete the paper. imagine, 951 stopped, i 950 wrote my very last full stop. luckily mann. if not my stroy will b "mei tou mei wei". i hope i'm writing what i'm suppose 2 lahh. n seriously, i felt soo stressful. i was burning hot that that time n trying hard 2 concentrate. cos the class next door, 2N2 was making soo much noise. as if there's no 2moro. slam the door, throw chairs or table i guess, kick the wall, screams n laugh. i think they r seriously madd. no 1 is controlling them!! n here we r, poor 4n1 trying hard 2 concentrate on OUR PRELIMS. we sec 4s, they r sec 2s, which 1 more important?!
after that got my paper 2. was okie. hopefully everything's fine.
went 2 canteen. saw a bunch of teachers eating lunch i think. MSTOH!! think she's worried when N2 was saying the papers were okie. quite easy. then most N1 said it's tricky. can see her expressions. then i said."haiya, dun worry. must c results." hopefully everything's fine. =x praying soo hard. =\ she said she will mark on weekends. have she marked mine?! hmmm..
was crapping with teachers in the canteen. seriously, 1st time doing chi papers make me feel soo stressful. TOU NAO BAO ZHA. n i dun care lorr.
TOU NAO WILL BAO ZHA lorr!! =x haiya!! i dun want 2 go phy rememdiations. we're just doing papers all the time. what's the point. =\ can i take PURE CHEM instead?! arghh. stupid 50-50 sci papers. ahhh, mstoh said msseah's chi a1, VERY GD DE WORR, dun play play. (hard 2 believe lahh. =x) okie.. i'll shhhh..
went jp pizza hut with jinmin, guanyi, yanjing n her bro, kaifeng. i felt SOO OLD i dunno why. maybe guanyi was sitting bside me. he seriously cannot control himself arr. =x somehow did some stuffs.. SOO THROW FACE LAHH!! but we were all having a jolly gd time. n i miss YANGYANG!! =x ermm, so we went toy'R'us after that. btw, the pizza meal we had wasnt ex at all. but i told them we should have gone NYDC. they said i'm SOO OLD 2 go that kinda place. =\ say OLD PEOPLE go 1. NYDC pasta not nice mehh. =(( i think the ambience will b gd lahh. n service as well. even coffeebean ot coffeeclub will b 10x better than pizzahut. i mean the ambience. yahh yahh, they just keep saying i'm OLD. =\ okie, so we went toys'R'us n jinmin started saying she loves Barney. then i turned, whole lot of Barney on selves. wahh!! DIE arr. then i was like running away then guanyi n jinmin took Barney n chase me. WAHH. i die lorr. i'm soo damn afraid of Barney that stupid purple thingy. i just dunno why. think it's kinda scary n i dunno why kids love him. Barney is soo small right, then why suddenly bcome SOO BIG!!! eee.. it's frightening lahh!! DUN TAKE THAT BARNEY in front of me!! ahhh. so we went on.. just walked n took pics. all craps lahh. jinmin n yanjing started it. =x but cant deny that we didnt have fun. KAIFENG is soo cute lahh!! =D orhh yahh, i finally bought that elephant that sold in PreciousThots. i aimed 4 soo long already. HAHA. finally bought it. 5 of us got diff animals. I LOVE MY ELEPHANT!! cos i love it long b4. but was thinking it's wasting money. never mind, bought it. his name is xiaoHUIxiang. =x know why. 1stly, it's in Grey. then he CAN FLY. know there's a cartoon xiaoFeixiang?! the flying elephant. then my elephant's pose like flying also. but name him as xiaoHUIxiang also got another reason. cos U know some people cant pronounce FEI. they will pronounce as "HUI". HAHAHAH!! so i call him xiaoHUIxiang. =x if U get what i mean, believe U will laugh bahh. =x hmmm, after slacking at je mac, went home around 10 plus i think. yahh, n reached home about 11.
went 2 have lunch or dinner. i dunno. cos i didnt had anything. n had my 1st meal of the day around 5 plus. with guanyi. then went library alone. then sat in interchange as usual. then jinmin smsed me n asked me watch a horror show, so i left. was feeling giddy then. then when reached home, i sat on the floor, when stood up, i cant balance n nearly fall. mum cooked me some porridge. felt like vomitting after eating. till this evening. then i felt a bit better.
was doing math 2day. i dun feel like doing anymore. left a few qns n i'm sick of it. feel like reading dict n since having eng papers 2moro. i'm sleepy now! =( HOW!!
orhh yahh. i drew some stuffs yesterday night. till 3 plus. i just kept drawing when reached home. should complete it soon. maybe not this few weeks. having lots of papers n stuffs. dead tired. n stress out. TOU NAO BAO ZHA LE!!! =((
haii. i'm damn upset now lahh.. feel that if i carry on this way in life, it's no better than ending the life. hurr. i mean.. haiya. it's not about Boring U know. it's about how the people around U make ur life turn around. oftenly, i'm at home. soo. yahh, that's why my life turn out 2 b this way. what the. i hate it.
10:46:00 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
i hope i'm
DEAD.
MY APOLOGY.i'm dumb. i know. it all happened bcos of my dumbness. nobody is at fault, it's all bcos of XIAOJUN. fair enough?! U shouted n yelled like nobody's business. i was just explaining. U didnt bother 2 listen. fine. so i tried 2 clear everything up, U kept on nagging n scolding it's as if i'm soo wrong. so i told U off. m i wrong once again?! having my own rights doesnt mean i'm yelling. i swear i wasnt yelling. i was talking. U r the 1 who shouted. dun bs alright. U wanted me 2 clear everything. fine, i cleared. yet U said i wasnt doing a proper job. i was holding on 2 a WET cloth n DRY tissue. do U have some common sense?! after U wipe with WET cloth U have 2 use DRY tissue 2 dry it since we dun have a DRY cloth. so old still dunno this logic arr?! need this xiao mei mei teach U?! okie. so U said i'm at fault. 2 cause all these. so i AGREE with U. i said it's 2 bad i born 2 b dumb. isnt it 2 late now?! shouldnt have give birth 2 me in the 1st place then. U were 8 when i was born. why didnt U stop mum from giving birth on me then?! since i was like.. wasting resources all along?! maybe i wasnt here, every1 will b happier. n i mean EVERY1. i'm not some1 who U can make use of. i want U 2 know HOW I FEEL. so i agree with U. all my fault, i was dumb. n U started saying i talked back 2 U. okie okie. U aint the 1st 1 who always blame me 4 this n that without a valid reason. i said I WANNA WIPE EVERYTHING UP MYSELF. yet U insist of snatching the cloth from me. i'm responsible enough. i did it, i clear it. i dun need U. so i got a scolding from U again cos of this. U R OLD ENOUGH 2 THINK RIGHT?! or TOOOOOO old?! i locked up my door, i listened 2 music, U aint happy with it again. whether i cried or not, i dun need U 2 pity me. what i need 2 some space 2 breathe. do U n the rest of U understand me?? or just treating me as a kid still?? seriously, i shouldnt have come 2 this world 2 cause all these trouble right. then 5 of U can live happily what. whether i'm at home or not, doesnt matter. like what i say, i'm just wasting resources n the money of U guys. if i can, i will.. i will leave.. 2 places where no 1 knows me n start anew. cos i dun wanna continue this ALL THE TIME. i can survive alone. n sorry 4 being that dumb.
guess i know the reason why i hate 2 c people down n refuse 2 confide in people.
cos i dun wanan c them down.
i cant find my happiness.
i dun want the rest of the world 2 suffer with me..
i dun wanna c people around me 2 suffer like me..
that's the reason why i hate 2 show the worst side of me.
maybe i wasnt that strong after all.
maybe i wasnt strong at the very beginning.
i cried not bcos i was guilty.
i cried bcos i wasnt at fault.
i wanna prove U guys wrong yet no 1 seems 2 b listening.
no 1 seems 2 bother.
i wasnt born 2 b an
Autistic Child.
i was
TRAIN 2 b 1..
i wanna run just as fast as i canto the middle of nowhereto the middle of myFRUSTRATED FEARS/ TEARS..i wanna come home.. let me go home.
12:15:00 AM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
haha. let's have a conclusion. ;-p I'M THE MOST CHARMING ONE!! hehe. =x
ahhh. my dear voodoo doll had dropped somewhere. missing around 3 plus going 2 4. on 14082006. from swiss cottage sec 2 gombak mrt station. ahhh. =((
enjoy this pic. U can hardly c Emilee again. =((
Misaki is soo cute. haha. =p
guess i can only apologise 2 U. sorry. maybe it's just not right. well, trust me. there will b a better 1. dun have 2 wait 4 weekend, i can give U an ans right now. n i hope U understand.
L O VEis not about being 2gether n whether it's long lasting or what so ever. it's about whether U truly love some1. no point lying. i dun want 2. no point giving promises. i wasnt saying U aint gd anyway.
I'M NOT GOING 2 GIVE UP SPORTS. i'm NOT. i'm not going 2 just bcos of my damn injury. though it just keep on giving me trouble nowadays, i'm not going 2 care. i wont give up sports. never. dun try 2 persuade me anymore. but.. haii. played bball last fri. not even an hr, i feel the pain. arghh. I HATE IT.
MS TOH. U aint the 1st 1 who got all these torture. no choice. but U have 2 carry on n jiayou!! smile. so sad 4 U, 2 have 4n1 as FORM CLASS some more. haiyo. no matter what, JUST JIA YOU!! =p
i was soo sleepy 2day. just tired out?! trying hard 2 open my "big eyes". heh. guess mrho is getting.. worse. his remediation bored me out. his hours of theory is really dead. n no 1 understands what he's trying 2 say. ahh. he said that our class aint prepared 4 the prelims. we aint serious. maybe he's right. but..
I CANT STAND HIM. his attitude, the way he is. 1 min expect us 2 finish copying 1 slide without explaining?! this is madd. okie, shant complain. just accept that he's
MY poa teacher. but i.. okie okie. FULL STOP. =x i was "out of batt" at the very last qns of his. i fall asleep. seriously. just drop dead on the table. =x
i had finally finished
FOUR chi mock papers. exclude compre. heh. =x but i will do it soon. i'm just gonna do some study as i have 2 teach the stupid NG GUAN YI 2moro after my phy remediation. as well as wed. if i got chem, [i bet msseah will 4get about it. haha.] guanyi will have 2 wait 4 me. hopefully he can really score 4 mt. n stop giving stupid excuses like.. "chi not gd, so slack never mind." "copy also can learn." n stuffs like that. HORRIBLE lahh. no such thing. he's an idiot, yahh yahh. haha. okie lahh, later he will b crying like a baby saying I BULLY HIM again. which i didnt. =x
heyy. any1 have any idea how U do the radio blog thingy?! which U can put many songs in ur blog n stuffs like that?! i cant figure out. i got quite a no. of songs which i like 2 share. ahh. just wanna share. love them so much. yeahh,
music is 4 life!!! =))
GIVE ME A BREAK.
12:50:00 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
did i show this pic b4?! haha. i know this is horrible. but i dun mind. cos i know i never look great anyway. LOL. =p guess i was sec 2 i think. we went 4 a buffet. so from the left, we have the eldest, n 2nd, 3rd n 4th!! =))
no 1 says we look alike. haha. maybe somehow. give some comments then. i think 4 of us r in diff world!! LOL. but we r sibilings, i aint lying. if U ever saw my bros on streets, dun doubt urself. haha. which 1 most charming?! me right. =x
2day was FINE. =p
i stayed at home 4 the whole day. n just rejected marc. he wanted 2 go town!! soo boring. told him i wanna do my chi mock papers. not going.
ss was fine i guess. did my seq half way n fall asleep, luckily ms elaine yeo woke me up. HAHA. soo dumb!! sbq was.. must keep reading in order 2 understand. had a hard time then. but guess it should b fine. did U guys pray 4 me not. HAHA. = /
had a gd nap that afternoon. but have 2 apologise 2 wendy n yanjing. met them 4 bball. but i overslept. they called n smsed but i didnt even wake up!! haha. how Pig i can b. suppose 2 meet at 3. i woke up around 5 plus going on 6. haha. so met at 7. i was late then. i know it aint surprisely lahh. but pls give me a shocking face 2 entertain me alright. haha.
stayed till 10 plus n went back. home around 11. was half dead.
woke up around 1 plus 2day. 3 messages received. piangg. jinmin smsed 2 remind me 2 watch MLB superband. haha. dumb. soo early!! sorry jinmin. n got 2 zhiyuan's msg lahh.
i just drew a few stuffs 2day. so proud. haha. had been long since i draw!! then studied my chi. ;-p slept around 5 plus 2 about 7. n had dinner with mum at imm. n shopped around. I WANT MP3 PLAYER!! haii. but when can i save that amount of money. siao. think by the time i finish saving, my sony mp3 player become old fashion le!! haha. how bad hurr. mum said if i score well, bring me 2 cruise, well, i want MP3 player!! n cruise. haha. greedy me. =p heard that cruise is really fun. got bball court, buffet. wahh. soo grand.
i didnt watch whatever fireworks they mentioned. well, no point watching 4 a few sec, n trying 2 squeeze urself out of the crowd. n what U can say is only.."wahh. soo beautiful." haha. dumb lorr!! unless i'm with my love 1. =x i mean that will b another story. haha. that will b meaningful lorr!! =D sorry lahh, i'm a very dead person. =x
NG GUAN YI!! pls b tactful. U r such a dumb moron. i cant stand it!! dun FAKE!! =D
I WANNA SCORE 4 MT!!!
1:08:00 AM
Friday, August 11, 2006
i swear this is nice. n meaningful. a song that i keep quiet, wanna b alone, just 2 listen 2 it. i can feel it, when listening. every single word is expressed. try.
and i wonder.. how do i live without you. i wish i know then..
just finished revising my ss. therefore update. though was kinda sleepy already. wish me gd luck 4 my ss, guys. n pray hard 4 me, k?! =))
nothing much, just accompanied guanyi 2day. then bought groceries. HE HURT THE BACK OF MY ANKLE. watch out, NG GUAN YI!! haha. kidding lahh. but it seriously hurts. finally bought my ankle guard. i dunno if this is the right name 4 that. well, finally. hopefully it helps. so i wont feel the pain soo often. well.. once again, i hope. =\
i feel like using a word 2 describe myself. STRANGE. =x i just feel that i'm a strange person lahh. weird in a sense. heh. n VERY hot tempered. dun provoke me!! =D hmmm.. it's hard 4 me 2 get angry, but once i get angry, i will b REAL angry. maybe some never c b4. haha. i bet U wont like 2 c bahh. i dun like 2 c that xiaojun as well. LOL.
i cant stop listening 2 that FIR's song. fall in love with it?! get it from XIAOJUN!! =p i just feel that it's very meaningful. i was like.. just wanna keep quiet, stop doing everything. n just 2 listen. can feel it. haiya!! i dunno how 2 express.
*lying on my table, every single thing seems 2 remind me of you.. i dun wanna lie. i indeed missyou.
1:03:00 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
SWISS WINDS at Istana!! =p look at the FOUR cute Majors this time round. haha. i miss the THREE then. LOL.
1st of all,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!!so where should i start after soo many days of not updating?! orhh yahh, i wanna talk about SWISS WINDS!! soo cool. they r great. i'm soo proud of them. of cos, my sunday is gone just like that. travelled al the way 2 city hall. shopped awhile with shir then went 2 Istana. msseah, msma, shir n i were in front of the stage. listening, watching, crapping. LOL. soo much craps. maybe cos we really miss those days. miss msseah mahh. ;-) msma also lahh. haha. THEY BULLY ME!!! haha. there's a long story. lol. took the bus with Swiss Winds. ahh, soo squeezy, shir n i sat on the stairs, chatted. LOL. actually supposingly that shir wanna tell msseah something but.. never mind. so we chatted. tell U what. "BEWARE OF FAKERS." well, dun b a victim, like me. when U trust some1, yet U got backstab. not only that.. well, faking very fun??!! wearing a mask all the time, not tired arr. i dunno. so after that, had dinner with shir at jec. wanted 2 ask msseah along but she needs 2 go home. reached home around 9 plus i think. i was really tired. hope Swiss Winds members rest well then. ;-) b4 i slept, i studied chem. slept around 12 plus. ahh. DEAD.mon was just another day of Sch. nothing much. even if something happened, i cant probably remember. haha. orhh, i didnt pon poa rememdiation. no reason. just felt that we should go. so i went. most of them rushed back home 2 study ss. scary ehh. then mrho talked 2 me. about marc again. wahh lau. not my problem. the Conflict between them, then i must b inside mehh. as if my problem. mrho is a bit.. siao lahh. in the sense that he said he learns 2 let go. i dun think so. think the situation is worst. he learns 2 let go?! he just wanna c my class fail poa n just cant b fagged bahh. he's just sick of it. but seriously 4n1 didnt do much 2 make him this way, i swear. i wont detest n like some1 soo easily lahh!!
tues?! celebration?! hohoho. must b a joke 4 swiss. 5n, 4e n 4na, back 2 class n do mock paper. tell U what, SS IS HARDD!! haha. i mean the seq. not again. my worst section. i did diplomacy. haha. 25 marks yet i seems like writing rubbish. i tried!! then i fall asleep. i drooled. n my writing smeared. =x orhh yahh, 1 clarinetist was sustaining notes near my class, VERY near. then my classmates started 2 stare at me. as if i did something wrong. yahh yahh, only band memeber in the class. disadvantage lorr. no 1 feel the same as me. yahh, i know it's frustrating. esp when U r trying hard 2 focus. but, what can i do then. n my class started 2 yelled at me n stuffs. c'mon. then angriest thing is that. DUN INSULT alright. they might b at fault. but U DUN HAVE 2 GIVE THAT KINDA COMMENT as if they owe U something. pls lahh. even if there's a need 4 comment, not from U. DUN INSULT THE BAND!! arghh.
went 2 lot1 with yc. after paper got caught by mrlim. need 2 edit some parts of folio. SIANN!! then after that i wanna go 2 hall, yc pulled me away. =(( sorry, wt. they were playing beyond the sea then. really upset that i have 2 left. STUPID TAN YUANCHAO!! haiya. never mind. so we were crapping along our way. cos it had been long since both of us go out 2gether. so we went 2 have our.. lunch?! haha. early lunch. though i wasnt hungry, but can feel that yc was. if i dun eat, he confrim wont as well. so.. yupp. he really ate like nobody's business. haha. soo cute. we bought marc's bday present after that. soo cute. i feel like hugging the chipmucks. lol. though it's somehow kinda budget but.. really cute. btw, i'm still sharing the NUM shirt with shir n jas what. pay a lot k!! =\ broke once again. took 188 after that. wt smsed me n said speech day ends at 1. =\ actually wanted 2 go back. guanyi was at lot1, called me back. but.. SIANN!! yanjing was at lot1 kbox. lol. all went lot1. decided 2 go back home n changed. well, my nap just gone like this!! =\
decided 2 meet wt. my phone went low batt. ahhh. charged a while only. everybody's rushing me. went bukitgombak n met wt. haha. we r both SINGAPORE NERDY. sharks. n we dunno where 2 go. then have 2 c map. at last decided 2 go bugis. she hardly go anyway, so bring her there. we were both dead. she is bcos of performance, i'm bcos of not taking a nap n had been sleeping late. lol. but we were crapping along our way lahh. haha. realised i was late when it's 450. suppose 2 meet yc n kp at 445 at bukitbatok!! =x then we quickly rushed 2 take mrt while she met derry n gang at je. wt is blurrer than me. LOL!!
so met sean they all after that. a lot were waiting outside 2 make sure every1's present. haha. then went in the condo. helped out, have fun n eat. but somehow felt that the ambience was weird. i just sit around the pool side alone. well, just really not in2 it. after everything, helped out 2 clean up, marc's eldest bro was funny lahh. kept crapping. LOL!! then yahh, marc's mum asked me where i go in the early afternoon, i said just went out. then she said.."meet bf arr?!" i think 2nd person asked me le. then i said."noo lahh. no 1 wants." guess what his mum said?! "no 1 wants i want." =x haha. then i said i dun like the wu xiang with chestnut, then got. i actually dun wanan eat but his mum like disappointed. then keep asking me 2 take. then i took 2. then i said."haha. dun worry lahh, later i help U finish." well, realise i said the wrong thing. hahah!! then yun n i damn funny. keep fooling around. well, she will know. =x shh. haha. sitting alone at poolside is gd, 1 advise. it just helps U.. in a way. i dunno how. btw arr, U dun like me U just tell me lorr. dun have 2 do little things 2 shoot me de. disgusting. who cares whether U like or detest me. cos U'll never know if i like or detest U as well. i choose 2 remain quiet not bcos i'm scared, not bcos i'm guilty, it's bcos i dun wanna fool around with KID. =\ hmmm. went home about 10 plus. reached je, missed 3 buses. then mum called. so have 2 go back home then. smsing wt. batt went empty. =\ mum n 2nd bro were talking in my room. haha.
2day is miracle. 4 of us, i mean.. my eldest, 2nd, 3rd bro n i went out 2gether. just 2 have lunch lahh. went wm swensen's 2 have lunch. i ate chicken baked rice. damn full!! the mushroom is nice. i 4got what is it called. i think sec 2 was the last time i went swensen's. =x haha. i was soo full!! cant finished my baked rice. not even half, my 3rd bro helped me 2 ate some. lol. the salad was nice as well. hee. then 4 of us went shopping around wm. went home after that. felt sicky. i felt sleepy from the time i woke up. =\ haven been sleepy well these few days. then i was smsing zhiyuan along the way. ;-)
i'm not watching ndp. not a show 4 me. n since i dun have 2 habit 2 watch tv programme, so 4get it. haha. talked 2 nic n wt online just now. wei, PORNOGRAPHY IS STUPID LAHH. =\ they know what i mean. n i know i'm old. haha.
look, my old injury is BACK!! ahhh. n my left leg is swollen!! haii.
"PON STILL CAN B MAJOR!!", "UR EYES GETTING SMALLER!!", "ALWAYS GOT PLASTER AROUND.", "BECOMING MORE GIRLISH.", "YOUR SANDALS VERY EX LORR!! MINE CHEAPER AND IT LAST LONGER!!" r what i heard nowadays. LOL. what sia. i know. i'm a HORRIBLE KID. or used 2 b?! n i realise. i'm changing, i means appearance in every pic. haha. how scary. =x when i c the pic i took last time, i will faint. =x haha. wei, btw arr, major ye shi ren!! LOL!!
*the one who breaks your heart is sometimes the one who heals..
*i'm just too far, from where you are..
sorry 4 the late updates of photos. these r quite long ago. a few weeks bahh. july. when we were waiting 4 that mrho 4 remediation lorr. i was sleepy, i remember. haha.
haha. dun worry. these r 3 SAME person. LOL. 1st 1 was at sat. went ms alone. actually wore pink shirt but changed 2 the green 1 n went my maternal grandad's singing competition. 2nd 1 was after istana. ahh, reminds me of the GREAT SWISS WINDS again. n of cos not 4getting the fun n craps. haha. 3rd 1 was after marc's bday. sometimes U have 2 b stupid, 2 entertain urself. LOL. 2 entertain every1 of U. LOL!! =x c'mon, give me some face, SMILE n ur day will b fine. ;-)
6:41:00 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
woohoo. look, it's sat, err. i mean sun.. err.. i mean WEEKEND again. haha.
chem lab is great!! fun indeed. thought i would probably fall asleep. well, i enjoyed myself. though it was quite a simple experiment, but i had fun with inthu. haha. n with her as ur partner, U can really STUDY. haha. i was dumb 2 put the sulphuric acid bit by bit!! didnt know it can b open. haha. how dumb. n i wont 4get 2 mention. JEROME SIM WILL B THE FUTURE CHEMIST!!! haha. he's soo cute. guess what, his salt got BURNT. haha. cos over heated. n the smoke all over. LOL. he told me that it was shaieful. cos he should b the 1 looking after. yet it's boiling like nobody's business, shaieful didnt even care till jerome found out something weird. haha!! but 2 bad, it's all burnt. n 4 those who kept their salt, i dunno what they wanna do with it. haha. ahhh.. i wanna do the experiment that msseah did!! it's soo cool!! such a LOOOONGGGG burette. =x i sound like a nerd. haha. n it's really amazing. i hope we can go 2 the lab soon again. cos i had never been 2 chem lab. this is the 1st n only time. that caryn tan only brought us 2 phy lab. n do worksheets. err.. okie.. haha. going lab seriously allow U 2 understand more. =))
i went 2 taf running on fri. =x n i totally 4got about the medal thingy till azimah saw me. haha. okie, everything was chaotic. n mattheaus asked me when i stood behind him."heyy, is mstay's hand smooth?!" hahaha!! i couldnt help but kept on giggling. haha. n i was.. seriously nervous. i dunno why. haha. just not used 2 it.. like every1 looking at U n U can c every1 soo clearly. well, luckily msseah was around then. at least know that there's some1 more anxious than me. haha!! ask azimah!! =x PE was nothing. same old game again. i was crawling in just 2 get the balls. lol. well, it's okie lahh. must have FUN!! =)) GROUP SEVEN!!!! hee. some r really spontanous. i hope others do as well!! cos it really irritate me when people just refused 2 get 2 court just 2 play a game. will die mehh.
fri's lesson was dead bored. spent my recess doing ss seq. dnt lesson was nothing, just 2 do some touch up. 3 periods of math making me mad. doing n doing. n there goes her attitude again. whatever. after that, math remediation straight away. siao right. this is totally madness. doing mock paper. i nearly fall asleep. was really tired. suppose 2 wait 4 mslam. but she couldnt come after all. spent an hour teaching wendy, tania, guanyi n degui chi. i nearly had a sore throat. really hard 2 handle students ehh?! haha. esp that guanyi lorr!! yahh, seriously, my chi not that gd. told them yet they said they trust me. i'm soo afraid that i taught them the wrong things. hopefully it's fine then. so after that, i continue my ss seq. then fall asleep on the desk. while guanyi n yeewai chatted. 3 of us just chatted n soon i fall asleep. it was 4 by then. rushed 2 staffs' room 2 have my chem remediation. saw mslam, so asked her 2 help me call msseah. guess what mslam asked.."why?! U guys make msseah angry again?!" then i was like.."huhh?! got mehh." then she said."no?! whenever there's band member looking 4 msseah, it's often they had made msseah angry." then i laughed n said."no lahh!! i sec 4, pass out le. haha. n we dun make her angry lahh!!" haha. orhh yahh, i remembered ey asking if being a BM is gd or not. well.. told him. n he felt the same as well. so asked if it's gd 2 b captain. his reply was.."okie lahh. lose match, coach wont do anything but encourage. it's a game after all. being a captain it's not really like a captain, did nothing much. n get 1 more extra point than others. hee." then i was like.. ENVY!! haha. well well.. chem remediation was funny lahh. laugh n learn at the same time. LOL. n i heard him shouting downstairs. kinda frantic. yet frustrated. feel like banging the window n screamed. haha. okie.. i was only THINKING. lol. met mum n 3rd bro after that. had suki sushi at lot 1. the standard dropped!!! salmon was spoilt. didnt apologise some more!! so yesterday i fall asleep around 12 plus. was tired.
sat was just another day 4 me. went marina square after taking my folio from weiting. well, cos i left it in class n i have 2 hand in some drawings on mon. no choice. THANKS WEITING. =) went ms alone. yupp, i mean alone. nothing wrong with that.. err. 4 me that's nothing wrong. haha. bought the NUM sandals. Finally yupp. I WANT THE GREEN STRIPS BLACK BASE!! but dun have my size anymore. arghh. never mind. got my blue base white strips. guess what, shir's white base white strips, marc's white base blue strips, mine blue base white strips. c a pattern?! haha!!
yeahh, studied poa 2day. 4 the whole day had been reading it through. just now went 2 attend my grandad's singing competition. wahh, i'm soo proud of my grandad!! though it was somehow boring cos it's like.. all folks around i'm the youngest. so i was at a corner reading my poa. haha. kinda rude lahh. but no choice. i got pay attention 2 my grandad's singing lorr!! he didnt get 1st 3 but i was still very proud of him. hee.
smsing on my way back. going 2 istana 2moro!! SWISS WINDS!! hees.
how how how. i think something bad gonna happen soon. shir n i had the same thought i guess. n we certainly hope it's not true.
we both agreed he's 2 much. he had always been like this. he was getting better yet now everything's back 2 square 1. n whenever things occur, i cant have my stand. cos he will say i'm bias. which i'm not. if i'm bias i will side my section when i'm a major. i will b unfair all along. so who's the 1 at fault now again. sometimes it's really 2 ridiculous. maybe it's gd that U had a scolding from some1. well, she's not the 1st victim anyway.
take care. get well soon.
I WANNA BE YOUR UMBRELLA. just 2 b there 4 U no matter rain or shine. =))
3:09:00 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
2day was tiring. yes it is.was saying that i confirm will b having
Monday Blues. true enough. ha. n a BIG thanks 2 my dearest cousin, diana. haha. she's funny. i dunno why. just saw her sms on mon."heyy!! MONDAY IS HERE!! hope all the
BLUES get away from U!! take care!! =)" okie. i dunno how come she will FEELS that i will have the blues n started smsing me all these. it's soo incredible yupp?! maybe cos our mums r sisters. that's why. haha. what kinda logic is this.
orhh well,
SS MOCK PAPER on national day celebration. how pathetic. some1 pls pity me!! or rather, pity the sec 4s n 5n alright. what's going on mann. why cant we enjoy on that day. yahh yahh, i know we'll b having prelims but what's this?! gosh. n that day will b Marc's bday. how m i suppose 2 rush 2 his house 2 help him out after the stupid mock paper?! SOCIAL STUDIES some more arr. arghh.
suppose 2 hand in my N Level dnt folio. well, latest by 5 pm sharp. but i was somehow late, cos was rushing through in the library. the day b4 i got no more papers 2 continue!! went 2 workshop around 5 plus n it was locked. must it b soo puncture?! must b mr chua wanna a break. haha. mr lim wasnt in sch. guess what, i found out something really pathetic. as mrlim wasnt in the dnt room, n it was locked, i went 2 the staffs' room. saw msyeokk so pleded her 2 ask mrlim out. well, he wasnt in sch. n what yanjing n i heard from her is that.."mrlim?! he dun have a table here." "what about his locker?!" i asked. "no locker as well. no table, no locker." said msyeo. i was of cos shocked. then i asked again."is it downstairs?! orhh yahh, HOD should b downstairs right." then she replied."nope. he dun have 1. he's table is in the dnt room, the workshop. everything's there." "WHATT!!" i exclaimed. haha. cant believe it right. decided not 2 hand in then. cos really got NO CHOICE. so went 2 take a look at Band after yanjing n jinmin left. seriously, a HOD without a proper office?! cant imagine that. haii. when i told my mum this, she asked me 2 Cherish him. she said he sacrifice. orhh well.. really pity him in a sense.
smsed him around 9 plus. apologise 2 him. btw, i know i wont score. my folio got only 33 pages. heard that the sec 3s can have a folio 3x thicker than mine.
I'M SERIOUSLY DISAPPOINTED!! i spent so much time n it. yet some1 told me that.. haiya. at least a pass, will U?! i'm talking 2 my folio n artefact. =x
out of a sudden, i felt that i miss the Band, i miss my Bonist. the Majors. ahhh.. Every1, Everything in Swiss Winds.heyy, how cute can my Bonist can go. haha. they were all asking me 2 go back on fri 2 take them section. it's funny in a sense. cos they know i will b scolding n screaming, yet they want me back. haha. then i said."huhh, miss me arr." then they really agreed n said yahh. then i said."okie lorr. make 1000 swans n write "WE MISS XJUN." in every single swam." haha. then they shocked. haha. then keep begging me 2 go back. PROMISE I WILL, if i got the time. hee. then some1 was saying I'M OLD. still want those swan thingy. heyy, it's soo sweet lorr!! if ever any1 would fold 1000 4 me with "I MISS YOU" on every single SWANS!! haha. orhh well, 100 will do. i'll b contented then. haha.
TROMBONIST!!!! =Dsomething surprising. mum took a packet of medicine n showed it 2 me,"heyy, this is urs!! 2day is 1st of aug yahh?? look, 1st of aug 2005, U r sick." haha. true enough lahh. i recalled. i was sick on sunday. had a terrible fever, 39 degree i guess. yupp, coughing n flu. of cos, headache. even nose bleeding like nobody's business. then i went 2 a doc on mon night. didnt eat much 4 2 days. only drank barley drink. then on tues, i didnt go 2 sch as well. cant attend band prac. then a lot was dumbfounded. why aint the BM here. haha. i can still remember. n mum remembered me receiving streples. i even lost my voice. gosh. haha. 1 yr past just like that. then my mum suddenly asked.."heyy, U didnt mention about ur that band teacher already horr. very long le. the lady that U very gd with 1.." i gave a very shocking face. haha. n replied."huhh. got lahh. she still my chem teacher." then mum said."but still not as close mahh. U didnt mention anything about her le. U guys still got talk?!" then i said."got lahh. i her chem rep some more. we still crap like b4. but true enough, hardly talk cos no more band mahh." then she asked if we got things 2 talk about. i said we talk craps. haha. well.. seriously shocked. i dun remember i keep mentioning ms seah throughout my sec 3's life. haha. haiya. didnt talk as much doesnt mean i dun bother n care 4 her mahh. lol. this is really shocking.
then was smsing Shir whole night. ahh. i stopped le. cos dunno what 2 reply. haha. was doing my compo just now. n i dun bother 2 continue my dnt folio. i seriously dunno what can i add. i know i wont score n i dunno how can i score. shall study my humans.
i was seriously exhausted when i reached home around 8. i dunno why, the bus took soo long 2 arrive. haha. i waited 4 soo long. but was wondering, maybe i missed a bus. that's why. haha. i was in a daze at je interchange. i dunno what i'm doing n thinking. haha. just.. downcast. haiya. sometimes.. just like that. hard 2 describe n though i understand, it's hard 2 express out anyway.
THAT KHO YANJING arr. i dun like HIM or HIM. dun push me 2 like HIM or HIM le. n i wont smile 2 HIM cos i dunno HIM. maybe sometimes we just bump in2 each other on streets n stuff like that, but I DUNNO HIM, how 2 LIKE HIM?! i'm not that professional alright. U should know me. n 4 HIM, i just dun like lorr. no reason. i know myself well bahh. i mean.. feeling. i leave it 2 fate. i wont choose 2 get near HIM. i wont choose 2 smile 2 HIM. let nature take its course alright?!
yahh, i should Believe in You, HER, myself. though it's illogical, i know. i'll try lahh.
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you cant trust.*hide and seek aint fun.you are not having a Genuine Smile. dont lie to yourself, dont lie to me..
this is nice. guess what, i was attracted by the cover of SHE's Forever album. SOO BEAUTIFUL N ATTRACTIVE LAHH!! cant stand it. haha. so bought it. listen 2 this song, it's very comforting, i dunno why. enjoy. =))
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