Sunday, July 16, 2006
okie. finally i'm here again. i mean.. finally i'm using my comp again. haha. haiya. LIFE JUST ISN'T THAT GREAT after all. remediations n remediations. n i couldnt have time 4 nap. n i'm seriously dead tired everyday. n in order 2 finish my revision all that stuffs, i got no choice but 2 sleep late. yet weekends aint fine as well. just bcos my body is used 2 waking up early. when i sleep till around 11 plus during weekends, i'll start 2 have headache. n it's really aching like nobody's business. i hate it.
went out 2day. played bball at cck with jerome, guanyi n jianping. weird ehh. why m i with these 3 guys. haha. well, cos jerome n guanyi sit just right in front of me in class n jianping USED 2 sit in front of me in class. therefore, we're somehow close but not that close after all. LOL. yupp, with them around, i just couldnt stop laughing. though sometimes i was left out during their conversation about maple. orhh well, that's bored. n i dun play games. so.. yupp. just sit around. guess 2day is the 1st time i played bball 4 ONE WHOLE DAY. cool ehh. after that, yanjing met us. well, the latest 2 come, the earliest 2 go. lol. saw alex n junhao at bball court. "after band dun wanna go home" kids. lol. had a match with them. was in their team cos they aint close with jerome they all after all. they won of cos. i wasnt gd at bball. haha. left around 9 plus n went 2 lot1. had my dinner at food court. was somehow dead by then cos i'm sleepy. they wanted 2 went arcade. accompanied them. they were somehow enjoying themselves while i walked around. lol. that's not a place 4 me anyway. i played a game lahh. bball. =x haha. then jerome n jianping played photo hunt, so i went over. yupp, with guanyi. left around 10 plus going 2 11. guanyi shocked me by following me up the train without me realising. but i didnt really talk 2 him as i was on the phone with rongjie. actually i was listening 2 radio!! n rongjie just called. so we chatted through phone along the way. I"M SERIOUSLY SLEEPY yet rongjie seems 2 hyper. so, accompanied him 2 kill his boredness. reached home around 11 plus n no1's at home. should have meet shir up then. haha. she was around cck area at that hour.
shocking news 2day!! was surprised about what shir smsed me. so called her immediately. was somehow sad. somehow worried. somehow agitated. but, what can we do?! we cant really do much. so what if we wanted so much 2 stand n speak up. no point.
arghh, I DUN WANNA JOIN CHEERLEADING!! why must i anyway. n it's simply 2 last min. it's gonna b next week n msnorli was asking me about it this week. what?! n it's soo madd lahh. who say can anyhow recommand 1. some more it's soo no link. MAJOR vs CHEERLEADER. arghh. NO LINK LAHH!! once a cheerleader in sec 2. 2 much bad experience. n i hate it. green house is just a house that make use of people. united in a wrong way. n now, not enough people 4 cheer?! cos the 1st yr 4 cheer, which is 2004, every1 was unhappy about lots of things. n at that time, msnorli was paranoid. making every1 kinda annoyed. that's a long story anyway. haiya. just a bad impression of it. n that's no point me joining cheer. n dun anyhow recommand. btw, some people's recommandation might b wrong?! haha.
btw arr, confession no need a time, date, day. it's when U prepare n ready 4 the outcome. U can NEVER predict what happened. prepare 4 angriness, sadness, or even happiness. yupp, so stop ur prediection but start preparing!! stop confusing urself. what others say at time cant b apply 2 U. cos diff people have diff view about relationship. U can only listen n consider. U need not follow. sms, phone call or meet, IT'S UR CHOICE. cos it's ur FUTURE. haha.
okie, i wanna say, i hate my class. shh.. if any 4n1 people reading this, it's up 2 U 2 detest me or not. cos i hate the class, doesnt mean i hate U. well, that's another long story again. on the damn thurs, 13072006, that's the day. it's like.. arghh. it's just getting worst n i hate it. maybe i'm the only 1. but why should i care. leave me alone then. i can b alone all the way 2 sec 5. I CAN. i just wanna leave. dun wanna stay in the world of heartless. why is it soooo wrong. n FUCK UP is the only way i can express it. sorry, but allow me 2. i dun wish 2 say all these as well but U guys force me 2. drop the idea alright. i can even throw a chair 2wards some1, means i can do anything if U guys still thinking of doing that foolish stuffs of urs. n pls dun b dumb. if U got nothing better 2 say, then U jolly well shut ur mouth. dun speak. esp all that stuffs IN FRONT OF ME. how can b some1 being sooo tactless. n u jolly well know i'll b pissed yet still wanna provoke me. how dumb. n U didnt even apologise. funny arr. stop ur smile b4 i SLAP ur face. really pissed off by everything, every1. didnt U guys know the way U r will b hurtful. it doesnt matter if i nearly cry, or what so ever. use ur brain b4 U speak. what kinds of words r U guys using. I REJECT THE IDEA. n i can get out of the class. n i wish 2 if that continues. assholes.
sorry, i know i sound rude, but.. yahh, sometimes U guys wont understand what i'm going through n suffer. sometimes i really wish 2 b alone. n the feelings' sucks. hasnt been feeling gd since that day.. cos i'm still soo stuck.
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