was doing my dnt just now. did my chi in the afternoon n a bit of ss. so my ss is incomplete still. i dunno how 2 do!! soo tough. but i'll still try. i dunno if i can still score 4 my 60% of dnt. meaning my artefact n folio. my folio must b submit on tues. it's N LEVEL. gosh. n my artefact. felt that it's soo dead n plain. looking at the rest of them, i felt that my artefact wasnt that gd afterall. aint creative at all. well, thanks 2 mr lim. he changed the whole idea of my originally plan artefact. should i b smiling?! or crying. ANYWAY, i've finished my artefact with added LDD light on the paper clip. thanks 2 mr zainee.
having phy test 2moro. yet i cant finish studying it. it's tough. practical electricity. i'm always suck at phy lahh. i'll try then. what else can i do right. 2moro having poa n ss remediations. DEAD. soo DEAD. poa?! heh. dnt, poa n phy r the sub i worried the most. i can never get it. why. hmmm.. n it's just a few weeks more 2 prelims n N Level. esp MT n Humans. ahhh.. i really dunno if i can make it not. boo. =((
fine, shall continue studying my phy then sleep. it's 1 plus now. maybe sleeping at 2 plus or so. no choice anyway. need 2 revise chem n math. that's 4 2moro i mean. n my dnt. i haven complete!! i still wanna score, so.. maybe adding more informations. do i have the time 2?!
anyway, i wanna THANKS ZHIYUAN. 4 everything lahh. =)) and.. wish Shir the very BEST. yupp. n Marc as well. but esp Shir. she'll know what i mean. hmmm, Marc dun jealous. =x
*would you tell me why, there is sadness in your eyes.
1:05:00 AM
Sunday, July 30, 2006
my thumb is getting better. yupp, i guess so. haha.
alright. 2day was another tiring day!! expecting myself 2 laze at home. but my mum wanted 2 go bugis, 2 shop n 2 sew the ranks of my THREE bro's uniform. troublesome!! hey guys, if U wanna sew ranks, bugis 1 is gd!! cheap!! 1 side 1 buck. cheap right. haha. so my mum have 2 bring a some sorta bag 2 contain all those 7 uniforms. n i gonna carry!! it's really heavy. so we shopped after we left the uniforms with the shop keepers. we went shopping around. after we collected the uni, we went 2 have our dinner. we were soo full!! guess my gastric is looking 4 trouble again. cant contain much food. =( n it's roaring. but dun wanna go 2 the toilet outside. haha. so we went on 2 shopped in the bugis streets. mum promised 2 buy me shirts after i told her the baleno's new arrival shirts r nice. 2 colours only. then she was saying it's common. so we didnt buy. she said if i relaly cant find nicer 1, can even go IMM's baleno. but while we walked along the streets, found nice shirts. only left white n black. very nice. with small rabbit logo on the left. 15 bucks. my mum said dun buy. so we walked off. she said the quality not gd. very rough. haha. so we continue walking. saw a pants!! very nice. strips. when i tired it on, look tight, not nice. so i tired another 1. not bad. so bought that 1. 20 bucks. bargain de. haha. then wanna buy dots pants, but mum said c shirts 1st, since i got my pants already. yupp, the small shop is full of nice clothings. 1 4 17 bucks. bought 2, 30 bucks. kinda ex huhh. but it's nice. mum said cheap. =\ i felt that it's ex!! haha. that time i bought the black shirt only 10 bucks. =x haha. bought a white n a purple black strips 1. dun have purple tees, so bought it even though i like the black white strips more. haha. white 1, mum said it's nice. so bought it though i like the other design more. lol. nice also lahh. =)) wanna buy a bracelet or U can call that a bangle. at jec those small stalls. very nice!! LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. haha. but mum refuse 2 buy 4 me. 10 bucks. i dunno whether should i buy it not. =\ i hardly have this kinda stuffs as well.
so back home around 10 plus. i'm sleepy!! haha. should have do my dnt 2day. ahh. shall work on it 2moro afternoon then. no1 will b at home i bet. mum told me she'll b busy. dad will b out since my mum not around if not sleeping. eldest bro confirm go out. NONONO. he's out 2 work. ns man is like that. haha. 2nd bro n er sao went malaysia with my ah gong till mon mahh!! hope they bought something 4 me then. haha. 3rd bro at his gf's house. yeahh!! so i can have a really my own world 2 do my drawings. YEAHH!! =p
that JASMINE KOH LITING arr. bei ta qi si le. bcos of her, i woke up at 730 2day. i set alarm. cos i have 2 call 2 wake her up. i was like.. soo dead while keep dialing. haha. dumb. then cannot take it, sms nic 2 keep calling her n i fall asleep. end up nic told me he kept calling yet no 1 picks up, n jas told weiting that she wnt b there cos of ulcer. n i was like.. okie.. reason or excuse. she said if some1 keep calling esp me, she will wake up. n 730 is really a discount already. well, i dunno lahh. it's really disappointing. trying hard 2 save everything, making sure it will b fine n smooth. yet on the other hand, U dun bother. just think about ur juniors suffering then. dunno how long U gonna think lahh. syf is near.. I WOKE UP EARLY!! I CAN, SO WHY CANT U. okie okie. just upset when every1 came telling me about the situation. haii. n marc, pls stop discouraging her. that's a limit somehow.
this is the Swiss Serenade o6 disc. shouldnt have bought it. nic sent 2 me b4 i get the disc. n it's soo dead. 1 tbonist's pic only. n all got covered by bell. what the?! UNFAIR!! n ALL my bonist r complaining. hohoho. horrible right. hmmm, bcos of this video, i sign up 4 youtube with this video only. haha. i know some of U sure never buy the disc, smart!! haha. here is the video. miss those days right, sec 4s. =))
-sometimes, pretending will b the BEST solution. you know what i mean. just an opinion.
1:25:00 AM
Saturday, July 29, 2006
SLEEPY!!!!! but that's a couple of stuffs that i should update. haha.
my luck is soo down nowadays. injuries n injuries. LOL. so dumb lahh. i cut my right thumb yesterday. like every week 1 cut. this is serious. cos i found my sec 2 artefact. a box, above was a container. but it had b broken so i wanted it 2 b totally broken, i hit it with my hands n unfortunately, i cut mu thumb. n my whole skin flew out. i dunno that's skin or flesh. cant c, remember i threw it away n started screaming n yelling. my mum was like laughing at me. cos she knows i hate blood, phobia. esp those cuts. then she was like.."WASH UR WOUND N PASTE A PLASTER LAHH!! HAIYO!!" then i washed. but it seems 2 b bleeding profusely. i cant take my chopsticks properly when having my dinner. everythings seems soo difficult 2 me now. then after my dinner, i wanted 2 bathe around 11 plus. when i opened my plaster, the rectangular cotton portion is totally FULL OF BLOOD. not even a white spot is found. n my mum was soo shocked. haha. n guess that was the 1st time she saw a plaster full of blood. somehow OVERFLOW. lol. well, that was my 1st time. haha. n so i put a finger guard 2day 2 sch 2 refrain myself from bending my thumb. once i bend, i will feel the pain. n it's really painful. till now, the wound has not dry up yet. n blood still flowing. haiya!! 2day was the most difficult day 4 me. hard 2 do anything with my left hand lahh!! BOOHOO =(
remediations after remediations 2day. math n math, dnt n dnt. n i was soo dead tired, sleepy 2day. woke up early 2 have morning run with the TAF people. intend 2 accompany jerome intially but i was late. =\ therefore cant find him. sorry!! whole day was in PE tee. shouldnt have brought my uni along. actually dun intend 2. but afraid i was caught by some1 in PE tee whole day. haha. just in case yeahh. but i was safe 2day. =p
went back 2 band room 2day. actually zhiyuan wanted 2 as well. but he was playing soccer n bball. so never. my section is noisy. esp that jask!! haha. well, actually dun intend 2 go back when i knew HE's going. dun wanna c HIM lahh!! but.. promise jas i will go back. so.. just walked in. gosh, trombones was horrible lahh!! esp 3rd n 2nd stand. all not 2gether 1. but guess no 1 notice. jenn was complaining about my bonist when i saw her outside band room. =\ wanted 2 accompany my section 2 get punished. about thier file AGAIN. 3RD TIME BONIST!! but the chief librarian n major dun allow me 2. =\ then i c my section.. haiyo. JASMINE KOH IS REALLY NOISY. LOL.
accompanied marc n jas 4 dinner. they r troublesome freaks. cant decide where 2 go, where 2 eat, who 2 borrow money from. then i was like.. soo stuck in the middle. 4 them 2 decide take years. dun believe ask ben tan or zhou lao shi. haha!! they pity me alright. i was standing there waiting 4 them 2 decide. wm lahh, jec lahh. gombak lahh. whatever! haha. then didnt go mac with twt, sorry!! n marc never like me doing band stuffs. = it's soo hard 2 decide. n time is soo limited now. i want to...... i dun want to...... haiya!!
2day is soo.. BCOS OF JINMIN lahh. say all those stuffs. make me embarassed mann. haha. idiot!! n i fall asleep on the bench. cos was doing my chi. then jinmin n her friend doing those superband board, also not my business. then i was soo tired, i fall asleep. cant blame lahh, i can fall asleep anywhere as long as it's somewhere. LOL. how terrible it can b yeahh.
U very funny lorr. stop ur nonsense can?! U attitude still say we attitude. i really dun understand U lorr. it's obvious U r bias. then 4get it. but U dun have 2 throw ur tantrum right. it's not as if i can anyway. i'm soo annoyed by all ur stuffs mann. dumb.
n U jolly well dun attitude her alright. she did nothing wrong 2 deserve this treatment from U. i know U aint the only 1. but no matter what, U guys r incorrigible. how can this b real. U aint the person i used 2 know no more.
HAIYA!! dear Emilee's out!! how could it b mann. now i can rely on Paul. Paul all the way!! but i still want Emilee!! =((
i love her singing this song. it's soo nice. n she's soo.. style, with her own attitude!! EMILEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
notice her talking. "like a boy. i look like a boy. the day i born, i look like a boy." haha. how many "BOY" she wanna repeat?! hahaha. she sound nice singing this as well. ahhh.. she's COOL!!
let's not bother about Paul since he's not out yet. haha. HE WONT BE!! hmph.
12:06:00 AM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
the tanned i got. haha. A BIT lahh. =D MY NOSE AREA!! =x
okie okie. just another pic of my again. i know it's AGAIN. LOL. xp
My Sacrifice
Hello my friend we meet again It's been a while where should we begin... feels like forever Within my heart are memories Of perfect love that you gave to me I remember
When you are with me I'm free... I'm careless... I believe Above all the others we'll fly This brings tears to my eyes My sacrifice
We've seen our share of ups and downs Oh how quickly life can turn around in an instant It feels so good to reunite Within yourself and within your mind Let's find peace there
When you are with me I'm free... I'm careless... I believe Above all the others we'll fly This brings tears to my eyes My sacrifice
I just want to say hello again
above is a nice lyrics from a nice song. haha. it's rock. n somehow noisy but just soo nice. n i cant stop listening 2 it. on ur speakers. =)) 1st time in love with this kinda 'noisy' song. lol. only if there's miracle again, which i'm in love with techno?! hey, no way lahh. lol.
i'm feeling better, i hope so. though my stomach will feel the pain sometimes. but aint that bad as in yesterday n in the morning. =) just laze around at home 2day. nothing much. =)
i bet shir enjoy herself. she should lahh. =)
ZHIYUAN!! thanks 4 everything. didnt expected that. really grateful 2 have U with me as well!! U wont b erase, n never will. =) dun worry n have faith in urself in anything, everything. will always b there 2 support U along ur way. i will cherish. i hope U too!! =) BANGs.
1:51:00 AM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
GREEEEEEEEENHOUSE ROARRRRR!!!!!!!!!
i seriously think Green House is getting 2 b a better house. all thanks 2 the batch of mine!! haha. kidding. well, Green House used 2 b a dead house alright. it sucks like anything. nobody bothers. they simply cant b fagged. things seems 2 change yesterday during Sports Day. heh. guess what, 1st time in my life i saw Green House dudes actually cheering 4 those runners. lol. 1ST TIME. never used 2 b this way. n when akili or whoever taught them cheers, they actually ans back n cheer with us. fine fine, i was totally out of mind yesterday. haha. cos i was on the patch of grass screaming my lungs out. LOL. nothing wrong 2 b like this during Sports Day what. lol. then was crapping all along. I LOVE THOSE GREEN HOUSE TEACHERS AS WELL!! Mdm Zainab, Ms Annie Tan, Ms Norli, Mr Jason Seow n of cos my Beloved Ms Toh HuiJing lahh. lol. they were soo spontanous lorr!! soo cool. the ambience was great but "my battery went Flat" when it's about the end of the day. LOL. hey, i screamed like nobody's business okie. lol. sore throat. =\ n guess what, any1 who knows about "MY WAR WITH MADAMZAINAD" should laughed when i said this out. we actually HUGGED 2gether. =\ hahahahhaah. i cant imagine that could actually happen. MIRACLE somehow do happened yeahh?! lol. btw, my war with madam zainab is another LONG STORYYY lahh. really LONG. can ask me PERSONALLY if U want 2. lol. bet a few will know rightt. lol. when i told marc, he was like laughing like a mad dog barking. lol. alright alright. orhh yahh, really elated that sean, jeremy, marc, jerry, derrick won something. =)) n 4 YUANCHAO, i hope he wont b sad anymore. U HAD DONE UR VERY BEST TAN YUAN CHAO!! lol. he's simply great lahh. =)
went back 2 sch after Sports Day. cos i saw nic walking alone. so pei him 2 band. hee. actually wanna go home sleep. really LOW BATT. lol. then saw cck along our way. he drank the water from my bottle n guess what, he used it 2 wash his hands n my water bottle turn BLACK. lol. from BLUE 2 BLACK. gosh!! after that i washed it n dun dare 2 drink anymore. lol. but was thinking no choice when i'm in the band room, just drank it. orhh yahh, Swiss Winds notice board look Great!! finally alright. lol. n was thinking did they use the sash 2 make it. LOL. really look like 1. lol. AND I WANT MY SECTION PHOTO 2 B UP THERE!!!! =((
went off around 3 plus after marc's oral. cos meeting my mum at bugis. actually wanna stay till band ends. but cannot, sorry tbonist. =\ wahh, i cant tolerate my sect.!! their sound.. errr.. haiya. sec 1, 1st stand okie. sometimes rushing. 2nd stand, heard that he never listens 2 the seniors n love talking back. 3rd stand is the worst stand of all. blasting, wrong note, cannot count, cut short. WHERE'S UR RYTHEM GUYS!! i cant c the BEST stand i used 2 c anymore, MY 3RD STAND!!!!!!! ='((
went bugis after that. met my mum, 2nd bro n er sao. ate steamboat there. was really full!! didnt meet marc cos i was seriously dead tired. went back home, lying at the sofa watching tv. after an hour then realise that i got 2 msg. =x then after that sms shir, all sorta stuffs, went 2 bed. wanna sleep, but some1 sms me again. was having diarrhoea by then n was feeling really terrible. but he said he's bored so, smsing him then. =\ sorry, fall asleep. it was 12 plus then.
BAD FRIDAY!!!!! woke up around 7 plus 2day, DIARRHOEA. n it's like, stuck in the toilet 4 times a day. n bet some will know my bed is not on the ground. need 2 climb here n there. arghh. cold sweat while sleeping. n everytime after shitted, it's like.. another puddle of brownie water again n again. haha, sorry 2 describe. relaly upset with my stomach. =\ then nose bleeding. didnt really have a gd sleep. having headache. feeling seriously sicky. my nose was BURNT. yupp, bcos of yesterday. =/
orhh yahh, i got cut on my left index finger. cos i helped azimah 2 pull out her stuck tuning slide. n U know, cornets got lots of curve here n there. n screws around. so when i used 2 much force on it, i naturally cut my finger. the screw slide through lahh. Small but Deep cut. boohoo. =/ i dunno what's going 2 happen 2 me next lahh. i hope 2 get some rest then. =/
-i dunno how 2 give a reply. =(
3:50:00 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
i cant stop fretting over it actually. just like that. haiya. dunno lahh. wasnt feeling that great after all. not like what i used 2 b a week ago. well, what should i do. though i cant do anything much, but.. haii. hate it hate it. i hope everything's fine. why not just go back 2 the past, the Innocent me, not knowing anything, not like now. knowing 2 much, i feel the pain.
jerome arr jerome. haii, dun b sad le!! cant really help ya much. but feel the sadness in U. the 1st time i c U this way!! i hope U will b fine SOON. U WILL BE. =)) i still love the joker YANGYANG!! hehe. ;-)
anyway, i pass my poa COE test. congrates me pls. haha. waiting 4 chem result then. heard that i pass, but wasnt a very gd score. haiya, at least i tried my best okie!! what's the problem. slowly improve mahh. give me some time, i will try again. =)) felt relief le. but.. i wanna score better.
wish me gd luck 4 my CL oral plss.. =\ MS TOH!! HELP!!
haiya. FRANTIC. AGITATED. DEPRESS. FULL STOP. DUNNO LAHH!!
1:05:00 AM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
okie. finally i'm here again. i mean.. finally i'm using my comp again. haha. haiya. LIFE JUST ISN'T THAT GREAT after all. remediations n remediations. n i couldnt have time 4 nap. n i'm seriously dead tired everyday. n in order 2 finish my revision all that stuffs, i got no choice but 2 sleep late. yet weekends aint fine as well. just bcos my body is used 2 waking up early. when i sleep till around 11 plus during weekends, i'll start 2 have headache. n it's really aching like nobody's business. i hate it.
went out 2day. played bball at cck with jerome, guanyi n jianping. weird ehh. why m i with these 3 guys. haha. well, cos jerome n guanyi sit just right in front of me in class n jianping USED 2 sit in front of me in class. therefore, we're somehow close but not that close after all. LOL. yupp, with them around, i just couldnt stop laughing. though sometimes i was left out during their conversation about maple. orhh well, that's bored. n i dun play games. so.. yupp. just sit around. guess 2day is the 1st time i played bball 4 ONE WHOLE DAY. cool ehh. after that, yanjing met us. well, the latest 2 come, the earliest 2 go. lol. saw alex n junhao at bball court. "after band dun wanna go home" kids. lol. had a match with them. was in their team cos they aint close with jerome they all after all. they won of cos. i wasnt gd at bball. haha. left around 9 plus n went 2 lot1. had my dinner at food court. was somehow dead by then cos i'm sleepy. they wanted 2 went arcade. accompanied them. they were somehow enjoying themselves while i walked around. lol. that's not a place 4 me anyway. i played a game lahh. bball. =x haha. then jerome n jianping played photo hunt, so i went over. yupp, with guanyi. left around 10 plus going 2 11. guanyi shocked me by following me up the train without me realising. but i didnt really talk 2 him as i was on the phone with rongjie. actually i was listening 2 radio!! n rongjie just called. so we chatted through phone along the way. I"M SERIOUSLY SLEEPY yet rongjie seems 2 hyper. so, accompanied him 2 kill his boredness. reached home around 11 plus n no1's at home. should have meet shir up then. haha. she was around cck area at that hour.
shocking news 2day!! was surprised about what shir smsed me. so called her immediately. was somehow sad. somehow worried. somehow agitated. but, what can we do?! we cant really do much. so what if we wanted so much 2 stand n speak up. no point.
arghh, I DUN WANNA JOIN CHEERLEADING!! why must i anyway. n it's simply 2 last min. it's gonna b next week n msnorli was asking me about it this week. what?! n it's soo madd lahh. who say can anyhow recommand 1. some more it's soo no link. MAJOR vs CHEERLEADER. arghh. NO LINK LAHH!! once a cheerleader in sec 2. 2 much bad experience. n i hate it. green house is just a house that make use of people. united in a wrong way. n now, not enough people 4 cheer?! cos the 1st yr 4 cheer, which is 2004, every1 was unhappy about lots of things. n at that time, msnorli was paranoid. making every1 kinda annoyed. that's a long story anyway. haiya. just a bad impression of it. n that's no point me joining cheer. n dun anyhow recommand. btw, some people's recommandation might b wrong?! haha.
btw arr, confession no need a time, date, day. it's when U prepare n ready 4 the outcome. U can NEVER predict what happened. prepare 4 angriness, sadness, or even happiness. yupp, so stop ur prediection but start preparing!! stop confusing urself. what others say at time cant b apply 2 U. cos diff people have diff view about relationship. U can only listen n consider. U need not follow. sms, phone call or meet, IT'S UR CHOICE. cos it's ur FUTURE. haha.
okie, i wanna say, i hate my class. shh.. if any 4n1 people reading this, it's up 2 U 2 detest me or not. cos i hate the class, doesnt mean i hate U. well, that's another long story again. on the damn thurs, 13072006, that's the day. it's like.. arghh. it's just getting worst n i hate it. maybe i'm the only 1. but why should i care. leave me alone then. i can b alone all the way 2 sec 5. I CAN. i just wanna leave. dun wanna stay in the world of heartless. why is it soooo wrong. n FUCK UP is the only way i can express it. sorry, but allow me 2. i dun wish 2 say all these as well but U guys force me 2. drop the idea alright. i can even throw a chair 2wards some1, means i can do anything if U guys still thinking of doing that foolish stuffs of urs. n pls dun b dumb. if U got nothing better 2 say, then U jolly well shut ur mouth. dun speak. esp all that stuffs IN FRONT OF ME. how can b some1 being sooo tactless. n u jolly well know i'll b pissed yet still wanna provoke me. how dumb. n U didnt even apologise. funny arr. stop ur smile b4 i SLAP ur face. really pissed off by everything, every1. didnt U guys know the way U r will b hurtful. it doesnt matter if i nearly cry, or what so ever. use ur brain b4 U speak. what kinds of words r U guys using. I REJECT THE IDEA. n i can get out of the class. n i wish 2 if that continues. assholes. sorry, i know i sound rude, but.. yahh, sometimes U guys wont understand what i'm going through n suffer. sometimes i really wish 2 b alone. n the feelings' sucks. hasnt been feeling gd since that day.. cos i'm still soo stuck.
BINGO. like what i said yesterday. "sometimes something just dun seems right." okie. n i'm right again this time round.
2day was a bad day 4 most of my friends. n i seriously hate it. i cant stand it!! i cant bear 2 c my Friends this way. hate it hate it.
i received a lot of bad news 2day. okie. it's all counted as BAD NEWS 2 me. =(( -she's sick. find her kinda pale actually, that's why said 'take care'. see, something really isnt right after all. maybe more than this. but i can only hope she'll get well soon. i'm worried!! =(( n she seriously needs 2 take care of herself. GET WELL SOON. n you BETTER GET WELL SOON. =x -she cried cos of him again. cos of the class. dumb enough. every1 just aint tactful n it's soo dumb 2 yelled n tease like nobody's business. cant they just Think b4 they say anything. didnt they feel hurt?! aint they human. idiots around. =-he might b admitted 2 hospital 2moro. it seems serious now. thought it was just a sprained. but know it was serious, didnt expect 2 b THAT serious. well, if he needs an operation, that will b BAD. really bad. but hope he'll b brave. he will, i believe. n the WHOLE CLASS will b behind him. all the way. =(( -she's confused. maybe she had clarify already. bet so. but somehow she's still frantic bahh. well, n it seems like happening again n again. i hope the conclusion is acceptable n both of them will still b friends, like they always do. = i want all my Friends 2 b ESTATIC FOREVER. n i mean FOREVER. of cos, STRONG N HEALTHY as well. my Friends wont fall soo easily. but i seriously dun wish anything bad happen 2 them. even they have 2 pass on the unfortune stuffs 2 me in order 2 b happy, i wont mind. MUST SMILE, EVERY1 OF U. n YOU better SMILE. ahhh.. BLESS EVERY SINGLE ONE of MY FRIEND. PLEASE.
12:36:00 AM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
haha. shhh. notice my change of specs. i'm wearing my eldest bro's. i'm sure he'll kill me if he knows about this. but luckily, non of my family members know about my blog. haha. DUN TELL MY BRO!! =x
i'm seriously sleepy. will sleep after this.
well, nothing much. maybe bcos i realise something 2day, shall blog. hmmm, just feel that.. whenever the people around U care 4 U, U'll never realise n dun really bother about it. cos they care 4 U from the start n U cant b bothered or rather 2 used 2 their caringness n U didnt notice. so sometimes, there should b so called, "crisis" 2 allow U 2 "wake up". yahh, i know people do care 4 me. but i wasnt really aware how much they care. till the day i realise how much you give in2 this friendship. hmmm, i just feel it lahh. maybe i'm wrong. but who cares. i just realise you're such a great friend. seriously. i mean, maybe more than just a friend. seems like God send me a Guardian Angel. well, didnt know you care THAT MUCH 4 me lahh. but since i know this logic, i will cherish More than i used 2 cherish. i dun wanna regret after you left. i'm seriously glad, 2 have you in my life, n of cos the rest of my Friends. maybe this is fate. bring us 2gether n know each other. so, let's cherish. i'm soo blessed, once again. pray hard every1's fine. esp those i care the most. yupp, He will know who anyway. =)) do take care. cos sometimes something just dun sound right. *ermm, thanks 4 that. it certainly brighten up my day. you start my day, with a sunshine. n of cos, i do Cherish. =))
i'm so dead. 2moro chem lesson, if i get back my test, i'm prepare 4 a FAIL. =\
12:27:00 AM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
hohoho. i'm feeling GREAT 2day. without a specific reason. =D
haha. i'm somehow crazy at this moment. 2day was my lazy day. i laze around this afternoon. well, cos i woke up around 10 plus. it's counted early 4 me. maybe cos sch reopens, n my body is soo used 2 waking up early. slept around 2 plus yesterday night. wish i could sleep longer. maybe till 1 plus in the afternoon?! but my head is aching!! really pain. i no longer looking 4ward 2 weekends. as i dun really go out nowadays. town is boring. jec is my place!! haha. well, since weekends i cant sleep later, so why bother if it's weekdays or weekends. =( HEAD BIG BIG. headache ahhh!! so went market 2 had lunch with my 2nd bro n mum. then came back home, around 1 plus. around 2 plus, i fall asleep. the weather is really humid nowadays. horrible lahh!! i fall alseep on the sofa n i was really perspiring like madd. then i ran 2 my bed, it was humid as well. but at least manage 2 sleep. i always want 2 sleep. but my head cant stop aching. i know my eyes r tired. haiyo!! =ermm, so woke up around 6 plus. parents were out. left my 2nd bro n i AGAIN. =\ er sao went back 2 her house, that's why my 2nd bro was dead bored 4 2 days. haha. serve him right. =x n he 'snatch' the comp with me!! lol. who cares. i dun really need a comp except 4 weekends night. haha. like now?! =p yupp, so after that i was soo bored. i went 2 superband offical web. take a look at those interesting band. feel that maybe i like Lucify. they r.. okie. quite dumb 2 put make-up lahh. but rock band like theirs r fine. n i think i fall in love with MISAKI!!!!!!! haha. he's soo cute. i cant resist it. =x ermm, i dun really like mi lu bing. i dunno why. but i didnt detest them lahh. i still prefer Lucify. orhh yahh, n Brods. also not a bad band. kinda talented. =) ahhh, MISAKI!!!!! Misaki,"wo shi Misaki. wo hen shou. ni yi wei wo yao de mehh!!" haha. soo cute!! after that, yiqing was online so he helped me 2 look 4 nan quan mama's songs. which i always wanted lahh. think i dun like SHE le. dun really support them. think they very dead de. then.. also not suitable 4 me. had been supporting them all these years. but.. feel that nan quan mama's better. hee. n my STEFANIE SUN. hee. nan quan mama's great!! though my 3rd bro never agrees with me. n yanjing. but never mind, i like can liao. like what i told guanyi. i like the things can liao, why must i bother if it's trendy, fashionable or others love it or not. haha. who cares. i'm lovin' it. =)
woohoo. that's the way 2 carry on!! i'm seriously glad. know what, i feel that he's feeling better. can feel that.. he's happier than he used 2 b. that's a gd sign. cos.. like what i said. must learn 2 face it. defend urself. well, life is not all about Love. it's about.. people who really care 4 U n those whom U care. haha. yahh. like how i care 4 the Four of Them. flip through the 'once upon a time' book just now. wahh, memories. sweetest 1s. n i love THEM!!! =))
this is MISAKI!!! aint he cute. okie, dun get soo jealous arr. haha. some might say.."eeee.. wahh lauu. guy?!" okie okie. fine fine. i expected that. but i dunno why m i soo in love with him mann. soo dead. haha. he's a GUY anyway. =)
him without make-up. look gd right. i knew it!! =p
2:40:00 AM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! i got a lot 2 say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1.- i think i screw up my chem test. n poa as well?! but poa i tried my very best, seriously. though i know still not very gd, but confirm not getting 0 this time round. but 4 chem, i tried so hard, nothing comes in2 my mind. haha!! again, i was anxious. n i dunno why!! alcohols r hard. i didnt know what 2 study under alcohols. only studied the general formula. didnt know that or rather didnt expect that fermentation of glucose will b out!! n it consist the MOST marks. guess it's gone. butanol i wrote propanol. gone also. everything's gone lahh.
2.- guess every1 knows the meaning of duplicating. arghhh. cannot stand it lehh. i mean.. if it's ocassionally, or maybe ACT coincidentally, at least i wont b so annoyed. everything is soo.. precise. how can i not react!! i'm not th eonly 1 who said this lahh. pls. U r who U r alright. what's the problem with U!! it's getting worse as time goes by. i mean U R GETTING WORSE. n the situation is WORST. what the. >=\ GET LOST.
3.- fine. seems like everything's back n nothing will b fine. had been enjoying my days. cos i seems 2 b happier after everything. 2day, seems like it's not a very gd sign that he's back in2 my life huhh. i mean.. as a friend. okie lahh, both of them. funny. both r soo alike. i seriously need a life of my own. i dun mind being alone. at times, i need 2 b alone. U know, after sch, all those stress n stuffs, a tiring day, U jolly well know that U have work 2 b done. U wish 2 rush home 2 take a rest n do ur work. even if U go out with friends n have ur lunch, U will b back around evening. that's fine. but i dun need a life whereas i'm out 4 the whole day n cant complete the stuffs i want. i need a life alright. it's funny lahh. why do U have 2 keep calling n calling as if no 1 cares. didnt reply msg, means didnt read lahh!! n did i confirm?! so why r U making all those decision 4 me?! n still dare 2 attitude back. when i explained, I EXPECT A APOLOGY FROM U. U didnt even reply after that. 4get it. ur calls r ridiculous!! how many times do U wanna call?! if U r free enough, will U study. if U dun have 2, SORRY BUT I NEED 2!!! every1 lead a diff life alright. in sch means in sch, got remediations means got remediations. FULL STOP. and another U, jolly well dun show me ur attitude. i just need a life, ON MY OWN.
4.- do U really understand or entertaining me. seems like whatever i say U just pretend that U understand. if that's the case, dun ask me 4 help. i help U, as a friend. n cos U dun seems 2 b at fault. so does she. both of U r just involve in it. since U asked me 4 help, i'm fine with it. but it's soo dumb!! U asked how can U confess, how can U express ur feelings. fine, i gave U an e.g. n i mean just an e.g. n U totally copy n paste?! it's like.. SOO OBVIOUS LAHH!! n this tells a lot. most importanly, bad impression. n U r giving excuses. STOP RUNNING AWAY will U. when things r there, it's there!! why do U have 2 talk about this n that which dun link n does not relate at all. it's just as simple as abc. use ur brain pls. okie, bet U wont understand.
5.- actually was upset n shocked when U told me about U nowadays. thought U will b fine as time goes by. didnt know it still hurts U soo much. well, know why. cos U didnt want 2 face the reality. cos U're running away. why do U have 2 deny when things r soo obvious. but U r 2 exaggerating. this is not the way 2 carry on. if U insist, i got nothing 2 say. find it kinda dumb. cos U dun have 2 b this way but U make urself 2 b this way. why. dun b foolish no more alright. WAKE UP.
6.- BIAS MEANS BIAS. it's true enough. finally know U r this kinda person. i c through everything. n i dun understand why they dun understand n choose 2 adore U. whatever. life will never b fair. but just feel so pissed when everything appear 2 b this way. it's soo unfair 4 another person. U guys will never understand.
7.- i dunno if i made the right choice. but.. i dunno. felt that i cant n i dun want. another LONG STORY. it's not i dun wanan help n being selfish. or maybe i m?? i dunno. i dun wanna cos of various reasons. but was upset when U guys told me that. did i disappoint any1 of U or what?! esp those who never stop asking me about it. sorry. i'm seriously sorry. but.. haii.
8.- it's not a matter of win or lose. it's a matter of learning. n what have U guys learn?! being idiotic. we r fair people. we r true 2 ourselves. we will b the winners.
9.- it's seriously unfair. my smiles r gone just like that. just a few days n it's gone. hmph. i want back my smiles!! hate it.
1:40:00 AM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
okie. i felt like blogging at this moment. cos.. shall update lahh.
oral was.. fine i guess?? the examiners were friendly ladies. they can't pronounce my name!! what again. 1 of them said.."okie. take a seat. U r.. GAN SHE......" then i pronounce it loud n clear 4 them. haha. then gave them my ic. after greeted them, i had my seat. 1 of them seems like wanting 2 remember my name?! keep calling me. haha. i mean.. she keep saying."okie xiaojun.", "let's carry on xiaojun." stuffs like that. like some1 i'm familiar with bahh. maybe that's how they calm students down?! well, the passage wasn't difficult. but nevertheless, i'm nervous. n stammered at the 2nd paragraph. was blanked. i dun understand the passage in fact but trying 2 express the whole passage on my way. just hope it end faster at that time. pic was okie. but that's the worst section. cos i detest it. describe a lot. hopefully. haha. then conversation was okie. asking about pursuation. talked as much as i can. both seems 2 b kinda interested in it. esp the 1.. i think from bvss. is she a band tic, may i ask?! cos i talked about band she kept smiling n seems like agreeing with me. lol. then smile at me. it's really like.. CONVERSATION. haha. after my oral, waited 4 yanjing. she took soo long!! i'm the 4th n she's the 8th. =\ the examiners. told her."okie, that's enough." she thought the examiners find it boring. =\ NO LAHH!! means U talked a lot, yanjing. haha. that's a great sign lorr!!
my ulcer hurts me!! arghh. n the weather is really humid these few days. take care every1.
currently studying chem. ORGANIC CHEM. which ms seah claimed that it's the easiest topic, find it the hardest. not hardest. it's like.. confusing. maybe bcos of the names?! just cant understand the reaction part. stuffs like combustion, substitution. like 2day when ms seah asked me simple qns, i took really long 2 ans back. =\ guanyi is a genius lahh!! hate him soo much!! haha. i cant stop hitting him lorr!! cos he somehow talk about something that i shouldnt have listen. he knows i'll b pissed off. but guess he loves bully by me?! hey, just a ruler hitting him, nothing much. haha. i'm kind after all. *hmph.
i'm sleepy!! sleepyhead is really sleepy now. how. n i'm smsing shir. we r both having chem test on the same topic on the same day. hees. wish her gd luck then. n guess what, was only joking with her. cos she asked me help her something. i said."fine. unless U ask ms seah 2 postpone my test." then she said."I DARE LORR!!" then i quickly replied."err, better drop this idea. dun wanan get in2 trouble." haha. scary of her lorr. so no choice lahh!! help this dumbo. haha.
fine this few weeks. except 4 my gastirc pain which occur quite often. =(
orhh yahh, i wanna say something lorr. i mean i feel that lahh. hmmm, i dunno whether it's right 2 tell the truth lahh. know it's hurting but.. i dun wanan hide lorr. it's like being soo innocent yet others dun understand yet have soo many misunderstanding. i felt very sad 4 you of cos. but on the other hand, if i never tell you, you will b always in the dark. believe you can somehow feel it also. but after you told me everything. i was like.. quite upset lahh. cos.. people really dun n cant understand. yet you gotta bear with everything. i hope you didnt regret. even if you regret, pls dun leave. hmmm.. but if you've decided, cant do much. nonetheless, i'll support you along the way. there's still people who appreciate you!!
*you're still the superwoman i respect the most. =) that will b eternity. =) smile!!
11:42:00 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
haiya. why every1 says oral is easy?! what if the teachers i'm facing r those who i scolded maybe on the mrt. cos they push me or something like that?! hahaha.
ahhh. i hurt my toe when i'm having my lunch at the dining table. hit my toe on the chair n it bleed like nobody's business. it hurts!!
okie. hardly update at this hour. but since i'm free, yupp. and i got burnt around my neck n nose area. haha. but i hope the band didn't get burnt. esp people like james. lol. was out whole day yesterday. n i mean WHOLE day. woke up in the morning around 10 plus. =x dragged myself up. then quickly shower n changed. haven even packed my bag. n nic called. guess jas' afraid that i'm still sleeping like a pig. haha. confirm 1. i wasn't late. it's the bus!! i waited 4 soo long!! n many keep calling already. so after i alight, i ran like madd. haha. then the security was complaining about my dressing. wahh, ma fan lehh. i just wanna took the bus n leave, like that also must wear uniform arr. funny lorr. waste time!! then after i keep apologising n walked off, i board the bus. wahh, board the ww bus i think. soo many people n with HL n van in the bus. then jas ran down the bus n called me. haha. so i ran over 2 the other bus. was warmly welcome by the lower brasses n percussionist. hahaha. i think. yupp, they were soo cute. then i sat in front with joan. with nic n jas. so we started our craps again. who knows ms seah also took this bus. wahh, stand bside me. then she's complaining teacher dun get a seat. so i wanted 2 let her sit but NOT ON PURPOSE, stepped on her leg. hahah!! really didn't did it on purpose lahh. then she's like trying 2 step me back. =\ nic, jas n i started 2 chat lorr. really fun. but with ms seah around arr. buay tahan. we were not allow 2 speak in chi which my sect. already soo used 2 it. cos saki n amalina also always use malay. haha. then ms seah took jas empty bottle. said who speak in chi will get hit lahh. think nic got hit the most times. haha. i was just laughing most of the time. haha. really sound weird 2 speak in eng with my section lorr. lol. then jas also cannot tahan 1. some more her reaction very funny 1. haha. ms seah just swing her arms, she thought she gonna hit her. hahah. buay tahan. i was just laughing all the way. =x like an idiot. haha. though i also get hit lahh, lesser times. then if dawen speak in chi yet yy never hit her, i will get hit. okie, set by ms seah de. then got hit 4 nothing. =\ but i just continue talking n laughing. lol. then i think nic also nearly step on ms seah. hahah. ms seah very scared. then i said."who asked U 2 grow soo tall. that's why i say short is gd." lol. inlogical lahh. lol. cos her leg really long lorr. soo irritating. lol. when reached singapore stadium. i helped 2 take water lorr. cos ms seah said i drink 1 bottle in the bus like going tour. i guilty. haha. so helped. it's okie lahh. nic can't carry all by himself anyway. then the band set up all that. my sect. was SLOW lorr!! i buay tahan. all stand around dun care de. only care about themselves. since when tbonist r soo selfish. then i asked them 2 look around n help. they really look around, n stand where they are. piang. after that jas also keep scolding them. cos when majors said."tbonist, some1 take ur stands n put around area where U guys will b sitting." yet no 1 move. wahh. seriously mann. NO ONE MOVES!! till jas very pissed off, took the 3 stands n walked away. then i said."no initiative 1 arr. all very busy mehh. stand around like nobody's business cannot help jas arr." all stood quiet. =\ what else can they do anyway. then tuning up was slow as well. 1 person tune 4 dunno how many mins. n yy can't tongue again. so jas said pull her 2 1 side n tongue. but mr chew wanted 2 start rehersal le. so ask her back after a few tougues. i knew that's not enough. but it's soo last min, can't do much anyway. while they played, HL, van n i just stood around n listened. wahh, i felt like crying. haha. orhh yahh, HL got in2 the muddy drain just 2 help the percussionist 2 took out something. then very funny, got 1 guy said."since U r dirty, just go inside n take." cos HL wanna use something n reach 4 it mahh. then know what HL's response?! "i know what 2 do." hahahah. what again. he's still like this arr. lol. ermm, lunch time. weiting said eat the food they provide will have stomachache. so dun wanna eat. i pulled her 2 cafe n eat lorr. dunno what she wanna eat n she refuse 2 tell me. so i bought her hot milo n red bean bun. didn't know she actually love it. haha. red bean bun very auntie mehh?! why cck n nic kept saying very ah pek all that. haha. but weiting seriously love red bean bun n i like it also lehh. lol. then weiting n i laughed. after that gonna rush off cos mr chew looking 4 me. van called lorr. asked HL go, he down there talking 2 some1. arghh. then i just walked off. i gotta go all the way 2 grand stand n video everything with mrs chew. very funny lorr. why must go soo early. it's like a few hours b4 everything starts, we were up there le. n.. a lot of things happened lahh. dun wanna say.. okie, after everything. realise weiting called me soo many times. notice that they had left le. wahh. dead mann. i sinagpore nerdy. then i called van, she's still there. then they all down there chatted with mr chew while i wanting soo much 2 leave. but i can't cos really dunno. haha. then i called weiting they all, they gonna leave!! so can only wait. =\ then followed justin, feroz, juliana, HL, van n sathiyaa, trying so hard 2 get out of stadium. n we were lost!! then jas called lorr. started shouting on the phone. hahah. like."what!! lost. where r U.. who U with." then i was like.. really dunno anything. haha. was pissed at that time anyway. then jas passed the phone 2 ms seah. then ms seah was like.."what. U lost arr. where." same question as jas de. haha. then said."haiya. U should have follow me from the start then won't......." then i very angry lorr!! cos.. yupp, know the truth mahh. yahh lorr, should have follow ms seah right from the start. then she said."who ask U.. soo dumb. regret also no use." haha. wahh, my fault lorr. win liao. then wanna meet shir n jas. but walked till seriously tired. then took a bus n reached mrt station. n everything's fine by then. then received a lot of smses when on the train. n i'm soo not in2 their world. so stood there as usual though HL was trying 2 talk 2 me but i didn't response much. dunno how 2. reached jurong finally. then wanna meet shir. she's on her way 2 walked 2 interchange. so i sat on the bar near 333. after that met her. we went mac. so i told her everything about syf oc. n she said."heng i never go." arghh. unfair!! then jas came. so i bought my food. was quite hungry at that time. but that shir n jas, ate my fries n drank my coke. haha. the nuggets were horrible but the fries was nice. yupp. lol. then after that people watching WC at mac, noisy. so we went out of mac 2 sit, i bought snapple. just 2 consume. nothing else. yupp. then 1130 we went off.
reached home n studied chem. cos got test. on thurs. then reading can also improve my oral. haha. i smart right. but yesterday was the 1st time i felt this way, no energy totally. n sleepy. sleepy is okie. cos i'm always like this. but sleepy without energy, really felt horrible but i wanna read still cos whole day didn't do anything. but my mum force me 2 sleep when it's about 1 plus. n when i went up 2 my bed really fall asleep fast. even 4get 2 reply shir. that's how terrible it is.
woke up around 12 plus 2day n had my lunch. can't finished. then 1 plus, tired. nearly fall asleep on my comp table. so went 2 my bed 2 sleep till 5 plus.
gonna study at night. shall have dinner now. =)
-hmmm, dunno whether U guys realise, my eyebrows actually very dark n obvious. haha. yanjing told me when we were in the toilet, facing the mirror. i didnt notice till i saw others' eyebrown which is kinda light n not that precise de. haha. why is mine this way arr. so strange.
6:43:00 PM
Saturday, July 01, 2006
okie. i wanna announce something 1st. lol. cos i cannot stand it when every1 keep asking me if rongjie is my bf. nononono!! why does every1 says so?! last time marc now rongjie arr?? haiyo. impossible lahh. why must people say those horrible things.. haha. me n rongjie?! i rather not b in love. haha. =x n like people always say."is it wrong that a guy n a lady r close friend?! always 2gether?!" haha. i support this sentence. =)
so how's sch life every1. haha. bet every1 is dead tired by all the work again. yupp, gotta get back 2 study mood. no more holidays. in fact, more work n exams will soon b here. esp the sec 4s n 5s. gosh. my oral is just next tues. not even a week away. n how m i going 2 present?! i really dunno. well, some know why. i sure get anxious. bleahh. i hope i'll do well then. chi oral is on the 19th. =\ was thinking how m i going 2 face 2 strangers n talk like nobody's business. that's pretty tough 4 me. orhh well, still gotta try my best then. must SCORE 4 IT. =) gd luck 2 every1 then.
remediations, remediations AND remediaitons. nothing else. haha. what can we ask 4. can't slack anyway. realise time is soo precious. n i love my Teachers. they are all working soo hard 4 us, 2wards the same goal. soo touched. but i can't deny that i never start liking dnt. sorry 4 that n i know i shouldn't loathe dnt. i know it's a sub of mine n i still have 2 do well. but.. well.. i've tried. but.. won't stop trying then. SOMEONE PLS HELP!! =(
it's a mess. no choice but 2 carry on. i love my juniors, but i hate my section. what i mean?! haha. my section got a lot. A LOT of problems. n i hate it. cos nobody seems 2 care anymore. but i love my sec 3s. n maybe the sec 2s. sec 1s?! see 1st. haha. they seems 2 b okie b4 i left. i dunno what's wrong. btw, Swiss Winds will b going 4 SYF OC 2moro. or rather, 2day. they sure can do. I LOVE TWT!! hee. =)
