Thursday, June 22, 2006
tooooo much, toooo many, tooo a lot, tooo loads. wei, what m i saying. hmmm, a lot a lot a lot of things happened 2day. happy 1s, sad 1s. but overall, my mood is seriously DOWNCAST.
DNT. morning yupp. woke up around 10 plus. but was awaken by a msg around 8 plus i guess. then.. yupp, fall asleep after that. reached sch around 1045, was moody by then. did my artefact. guess i'm about 2 finish everything. i left the brackets n of cos 2 assemble. think my wood base is 2 small. 2 small 2 contain all my paper clip, container, pencil holder, water bottle holder. n my handle!! cool ehh. yupp, so drill holes n all that. almost done.
ran 2wards my dad's car after dnt. yipee!! i skipped extra lesson. WAIT, i got excuse!! cos i gotta attend my bro's ROM. i'm important alright, camera man. =x so went 2 have lunch nearby, whereas the rest pon when there's suppose 2 b extra lesson in the afternoon. always like that de. it's written on the schedule. 1030-1230!! why must he always extend. no tired arr!! >= yupp, stop my complaints here. =x even eating lunch we have 2 rush then. cos bro's timing was at 240. reached home around 130 or so. then we quickly changed. my bro was busy doing his hair. n every1 is busy. i'm just preparing n took all my stuffs. esp the video cam. =) mum was screaming maybe cos she's nervous?? anxious?? frantic?? or whatever. my bro haven even took his flower. =\ then i told my mum."i'll b wearing sandals. my socks all wash." then she said."can all of U stop asking me when everything is soo last min!!" then i was like.. just informing. not even asking her 2 find a socks 4 me. was pissed by then. said."i'm not asking U 2 find me a sock, plsss.." then she just kept on screaming. whatever. then took the flower, the shop is just nearby, luckily. can c that my bro was anxious. yupp. then i only said.."wahh, the flower got a few like dying, look at the side." I GOT SCOLDED LORR!! like that also scold. then i was like.. already not in a very gd mood. so i said."fine lahh. i go there take photos 4 U guys then come back home, happy?? fine??" then my mum was like.."next time i can't scold U then U know. when i dun even have the breathe 2. i scold U still scold back." then i kept saying okie. since i'm not going 2 win no matter what. at that time i was smsing shir. cos i was really devastated by everything. i mean EVERYTHING.
reached the ROM place. soo many bride n bridegroom. now i really understand why people say this is only ONCE IN A LIFETIME. n ladies will b the prettiest ladies on that day. true enough. n i can't deny. =) my er shao was late!! cos she lost her way. i mean her sis' bf lost his way. n cos of some jam cause by cutting down of trees n accident ahead. it's everytime like this. when U r anxious, there will sure b something that will make U more anxious. that's why i said this is LIFE. orhh well. mum was saying i didn't do my job. never take photos. it's like.. nothing 2 take what. they r not even in. every1 outside talking. take what?! kaoo. pick on me. i take flower, take camera. maid arr. free of charge some more?! c'mon. then i sat alone. smsing. my mum then asked me sit nearer. save place i guess. then finally going in. yeahh. then i started taking video. got my bro's n his gf name on the screen. soo cool. then waiting outside the room. after a few min, going in. wahh, the room damn small!! got big big mirror. just 2 make it big i guess. =\ then i was soo scared. cos i gonan take video le!! then my 2nd auntie laughed at me. said not i getting married. true arr. =x then i took the video. the dunno who. let's call her.. judge?! the 1 who asked them questions then must ans 'i do.' yahh, she looked soo strict n the way she speaks is fierce!! like if U say U dun, she will chop U in2 half. if U dun listen 2 what she says, she will burn the room, since the room is soo small. haha. yahh, saw my er shao keep an xiao. lol. my bro?! as usual, acting cool. =p then after that, went out of the ROM, took photos. well, everything was soo exciting 2 me. cos i never been 2 there b4. it's soo cool. n the ambience really gd. SWEEEEEEEET!! then went 2 the park n take photos. seems like they r saving a lot!! no need pay me mahh. =\ shall update soon. cos still got sunday. which got karaoke n buffet. so must take again. TIRED!! =\ but fun. =) some r really nice. LOVE MY BRO N ER SHAO!! hehe. yupp, so went back home n replied mails. then 6 plus, went 2 the jurong sci centre there 2 have sakura buffet. was sooooo FULL seriously!! btw, 4get 2 say, my er shao's sis is beautiful. =) then her cousin keep looking lorr. kaoo. soo irritating. he's 16 also. but dun look like 1. wanna talk 2 him but he look soo unfriendly. well, shouldn't then, bet i won't dare 2. =x
after everything, i told my mum i wanna go top up my ezlink, wanna walk 2 jec then go home. at 1st she dun allow, but i keep saying i need 2 digest. so she allowed. walked alone, in the darkness. fine.. i really need 2 b alone after all those fake smiles n laughter throughout the day.
seriously, while walking. a lot a lot. i think a lot. even had a daze while suppose 2 dross the road. why didn't kanna car accident. =\ okie. so walked long way. cos really dun wanna go home. then waited 4 333. it was about 930 at that time. sms rongjie didn't reply. since he had been asking me out 2 drink, actually wanted 2. but never mind. just wanna c if he's alone in jec. but never reply. never mind. sat at interchange alone. again. nearly burst in2 tears. my face was burning hot i dunno why. i missed dunno how many buses. then board the bus around 1030. saw my reflection while reach home, wahh, pinkish cheeks. i dunno why..
she said maybe i was still thinking of what happened. is it wrong 2 face the fact, 2 tell the truth. why is it this way. she said maybe i'm still thinking throughout the journey while back home. i dun deny..
you know what. i dun really need a ans 2 b yes or no. i dun need it. i just hope everything is still the same after i told you. i felt soo devastated. you said you didn't. you sure you won't?? i doubt you. i dun wanan detest you. i want you 2 b my BEST friend ever. why didn't you allow me?? you know how i feel?? NO. you dun. from the way your replies, you dunno how i feel. got no choice but 2 attitude back. maybe you dun feel it, dun get what i mean still. never mind. treat it as i'm drunk all the time. i was down not bcos i dun get ur love. is.. now i only need the friendship of yours, very hard is it. is it soo demanding. you said didn't. but i seriously dun feel the same we used 2 be. the way you speak, it's just simply a closest stranger 2 me. i'm seriously upset. cos i dun wanna lose the closet friend. do you understand not.. cos i dun want the past 2 b illusion. i dun want what you said 2 me in past was all lies. you get me?? you hear me?? haii.. dunno. dunno. dunno.b4 i 4get.
rongjie's great. =)
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