Thursday, June 01, 2006
sometimes life is really unfair. it's sooo unfair. when U're down initially, life will make it worse. or worst. when U dun want, life make it want n when U want, life make it dun want. it will just make U feel uneasy. n purposely make it difficult 4 U. why. how m i suppose 2 take all these all alone so suddenly. n it's really TOO SUDDEN. i can't take it. i dun want it 2 b this way. regret. yes i do. now i understand why people always being reminded, "cherish ur loves 1 b4 they are gone." i really can feel it. though i always ask myself 2 cherish. but at times, or rather now, i feel that actually i didn't really cherish. i did cherish. but is that enough?? nope. never will b enough. n when U realise, it's always soo late. hate it. i hate myself in fact. hate myself a lot. why m i in this world btw?? world of misery. if there's no happiness, no peace, dun allow me 2 stay..
i'll keep it 2 myself. i know i'm not suppose 2 say, n i wun. i'll cherish every sec from now on. but i'm so afraid i'm late 4 the day n everything is gone again. i got a lot 2 say. i wanna say so much. but i can't n i dunno how 2. at times i seems like.. blurr?! but i know everything.. seriously. it's just that i dun wanna say, n i know i shouldn't. alright, i'm soo devastated. i'm soo down. something in my life will b gone soon. just like half of my heart will b chop off, how m i going 2 carry on.
stupid of me. really dumb. no point regretting alright.
*when you see me walking alone, you'll know i'm missing you. dun disturb me, cos i dun want you 2 leave my mind. even if you ain't with me all the time, you'll b in my heart. believe me.i've phobia in dnt. stucked at my material list. my artefact had changed. my materials had been changed as well. have 2 re-measure. 1030 remediation started, suppose 2 end at 1230, i packed my stuffs at 530. stress, sleepy, tired. SAY NO TO DNT!!
my entries seems 2 b very dead nowadays. cos i'm not alive. orhh well, sorry guys. dun read if U find it bored. i dun want U guys 2 waste ur time at these kinda entries as well.. i'm sorry.
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