Friday, June 23, 2006
My shattered dreams and broken heartAre mending on the shelfI saw you holding handsStanding close to someone elseNow I sit all aloneWishing all my feelings was goneI gave my best to youNothing for me to doBut have one last cryOne last cryBefore I leave it all behindI gotta put you out of my mind this timeStop living a lieI guess I'm down to my last cryCry.....I was hereYou were thereGuess we never could agreeWhile the sun shines on youI need some love to rain on meStill I sit all aloneWishing all my feelings was goneGotta get over youNothing for me to doBut have one last cryOne last cryBefore I leave it all behindI goota put you out of my mindFor the very last timeStop living a lieI guess I'm down, I guess I'm downI guess I'm down...I guess I'm down...To my last cry...fine, some1's saying that i sleep 2 much. =\ i didn't!! just dun wanna lose the chance. cos sch reopening sch, yupp.
okie, i'm seriously sleepy n was late 4 dnt. i reached around 11 where it suppose 2 start at 1030. i took mrt, n walked extremely fast already. n a bunch of dunno what team bballers walked pass me. got 1 guy bang on2 me. never say sorry lorr. soo rude. then he looked back some more. i was like.."i dun mind if U wanna fine me any trouble or what." but just continue walking. well, understand that he's childish. like.. he never apologise still stare n expect a apology from me. madd.
mr lim wasn't around. only left mr zanee n mr chua. i quickly took out my materials n continue. i really wonder how people get in2 HOD position nowadays. yupp, i believe my dnt class will understand this. hmmm, so i was buffing my arcylic on the buffing machine. i nearly cut myself. i was thinking about some other stuffs. i dunno. maybe was THAT. so i lose my focus. n the force is kinda big. i was being push back by the force. but luckily the arcylic didn't cut me. then mr zanee quickly stopped me. then i used the sanding machine. the force was strong. luckily didn't get cut. whole day.. i wasn't really in focus anyway. so went home after that though there's extra lesson. cos i only left assembling everything on my wood base. so yupp, walked alone back. i can't stop myself from thinking again. trying so hard. but those songs in my mp3s. okie. blame myself lahh. but, it happened soo coincidently that it's playing all sorta songs that suit me at that moment. i sat on the bar, nearly fall backwards. =\ how dumb.
reached home, skip my lunch n sleep. till 7. woke up. then online. yupp. it seems like a crsis period now n i dunno how m i going 2 b fresh 4 next week sch. it will b corpse walking around. which is me alright.
i hope i wasn't thinking that much no more. cos i dun want to. dun wish 2.
and there's a danger in loving somebody 2 much, n it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. there's a reason why people dun stay who they r, cos baby sometimes love just ain't enough.i hope everything's fine. the band, the majors, my friends [R, S, D, Y, Y.] sorry if i miss ur name out, yupp. n i hope i'm fine 2..
sometimes, being alone is gd. but i hope alone, without brain, so i dun have 2 think n remind myself of anything..
time heals all wounds. how long will that b?! i wonder..
and when feeling come, it can't b resist or control though U know it's not right or impossible. this is true enough.
anyway, rongjie arr, sorry. i fall asleep n actually suppose 2 meet U. sorry!!
1:40:00 AM
