Sunday, June 25, 2006
Friends.-stupid. it's not as if i've done anything wrong. what did i lie in the 1st place. the way U sms totally shows me what a person U r. since what U want is only FACE. then fine. he laughed at U, so U got soo pissed off with me. is it my problem?! why can't i have the rights 2 choose who i wanna go out with. n didn't i say i'll meet U?! it's just that it's late that's why i didn't. n i did sms U n apologise. n that's my fault again?! so why didn't U reply my msg after that?! guilty?! or simply care no less. tell U the truth, i care no less alright. cos i dun find myself wrong. just that i didn't meet U, my fault. fine with that. there's no need a explaination from me 2 U. n U simply think U r soo right, go ahead. i can't b fagged, n i dun want 2. it's not bcos i dun wanna this friendship. it's cos what U done really made me so fed up.Love.-making love out of nothing at all. that's what i think. haii. okie, i've learn 2 let go. process is damn painful. i dunno why. guess those who r trying hard 2 let go, or have let go will know. the process will never b a pleasant 1. n it seriously hurts U deeply. well, but no choice. after a few months, U must learn 2 face the fact n slowly let it go. thinking of the past. i felt that is it all my illusion?? n i'm just being naive. it seems like.. it just vanish in the air in few sec. or whatever the past is, r simply lies. i dunno of cos. n hard 2 find out why. hard 2 know an ans. from love, to hatred, to love, to hatred, to love. that's my process. funny ehh. but, yahh. this love, 1stly, it's sweet. n U find it's sooo close. U really wish 2 hold on. but of cos, at that point of time, U choose 2 hide ur feelings. thought it will b vanish in2 air sooner or later. so, it's wrong so wrong. end up, U realise U ain't very close anymore. cos it seems like every1 get the same treatment. U realise maybe U r only that period of time, maybe some1 is lonely, so making use of U, U start 2 hate some1. the hate is, with Hurt. after that, U realise it's soo dumb. maybe U should face ur feelings. face the fact. n U hope some1 will b ur very close friend of urs. U face it, n wanna cherish the friendship, but U never expected, some1 may avoid the situation. n U r being punk or something?! or blurr out by everything cos some1 never tell U what some1 feels. just by those few words. that hurt so much again. the pain, is back. U found out U urself, being naive. being a fool. U cherish some1 yet the some1 may just treat U as a doll. Old?! Dirty?! Sick of It?! throw it away. a person that U cherish so much, used 2 love so much. n that's the end?! gosh. it seems like pouring, n never stops. U detest some1. U wanna cry. n ask WHY. but will any1 give U an ans?! NO. after a few days. U face the fact again. being this way, U suffer so much. is it worth it?! turn it all around. treat is as nothing. face it. dun care the whatever misunderstanding U used 2 have with some1 or what-so-ever. U wanna learn from the whole process. n since U know 1 day some1 will never b there. then U should cherish the moments from this moment. U dun wanna urself 2 regret. n start asking urself. why didn't U cherish. U dun want this 2 happen. n of cos. what happened in the past, dun really matter 2 any1, anymore. of cos, i'm the 1 who hurt the most. but.. do i have a choice?! when feelings comes, U won't b able 2 resist it. so when U love somebody, dun deny U dun. face it. n soon everything will b fine. i seriously hope this Love won't change 2 Hatred again.
cos i really dun wish this cycle continues. n whatever the some1 is thinking, laughing at me, thinking i'm foolish, an idiot. 4get it. i choose 2 cherish you.
Family.-alright. 2moro's having buffet already. so i'm the camera man once again. gonan b soo siann lahh. n my mum is asking me 2 sing on stage. gosh!! relatives around lehh. i'm gonna blush like anything. some1 help me!!
School.-i'm somehow afraid. but somehow excited. i'm always like that!! cos diff feelings. =\ i'm afraid 2 face everything. Ns is soo near. i'm soo scared. i can never b calm 4 exam n now it's Ns!! what if i failed?! haii. n i dun wanna face.. yahh. a lot. then excited cos i can c those familiar faces again!! but i hate wed timetable. 5 periods of POA. dozy as anything!! n glad my Teachers didn't change much. =) love my teachers!! gees. =p
and i've started packing my sch stuffs. drawing on my notebook just now. haha!! stupid rainbow, crashed soo many papers. n my woodstock. haha. everything's soo cute. but i dun think it's nice!! it's still incomplete. and 4 those who love 2 vandalise in my book, U'll welcome. it must b an art!! lol. packed my file half way through. not using clear file no more. =) preparing 4 my mon timetable. orhh yahh!! b4 i 4get.
MONDAY - SS SS MT MT MT RECCESS CHEM CHEM SCI PHY PHY ENG.that's monday schedule 4
4N1 ONLY. haha. yupp. but if U wanna know, i can send U. i hope mon sci will b chem. cos i simply miss chem!! i dun wanan have phy. i hate it. =\ n 1st period is ss. i sure fall asleep. hahaha. i hope i dun of cos. I MISS CHEM!! need a revision b4 sch starts. =x
Band.-heard a lot!! from wt, cck and derry. my section is horrible i know. no more teamwork. SL can't b bothered. juniors don't care. i dunno lahh. what can i do. yahh, i should apologise 2 my sect. cos i promise 2 have a sect. talk on 1 fri. but i didn't. sorry sorry. but on top of that, i think my SL should apologise 2 me!!! why didn't take gd care of the sect.?! haii. pls dun embittered me anymore. majors also weird weird 1. council not confirm. 4 soo long. what's going on?! not united?! or what. guess i know the main reason. but i dun wish 2 say. yupp. hope they r fine then. i still love swiss winds!! i love my majors. everything. not 4getting my cutest/notorious section.
and why can't we have the informal photo?! i'm soo pissed. it's soo unfair. it's my last yr some more. why didn't order?! i dun understand. there's sure something behind it. ms seah don't look nice in that photo?! =x i'm just kidding. but i relaly wanna have a look!! cos shir n i show our rank proudly 2wards the camera!! n i nearly type CHEMara. hahaha. arghh. I WANNA INFORMAL PHOTO!! n i wanna c all the photos asap. cos wt said i look kidding in the sec 4 pic. knock her head arr!! i sec 4 okie!! boo!! ;-)
1:40:00 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
My shattered dreams and broken heartAre mending on the shelfI saw you holding handsStanding close to someone elseNow I sit all aloneWishing all my feelings was goneI gave my best to youNothing for me to doBut have one last cryOne last cryBefore I leave it all behindI gotta put you out of my mind this timeStop living a lieI guess I'm down to my last cryCry.....I was hereYou were thereGuess we never could agreeWhile the sun shines on youI need some love to rain on meStill I sit all aloneWishing all my feelings was goneGotta get over youNothing for me to doBut have one last cryOne last cryBefore I leave it all behindI goota put you out of my mindFor the very last timeStop living a lieI guess I'm down, I guess I'm downI guess I'm down...I guess I'm down...To my last cry...fine, some1's saying that i sleep 2 much. =\ i didn't!! just dun wanna lose the chance. cos sch reopening sch, yupp.
okie, i'm seriously sleepy n was late 4 dnt. i reached around 11 where it suppose 2 start at 1030. i took mrt, n walked extremely fast already. n a bunch of dunno what team bballers walked pass me. got 1 guy bang on2 me. never say sorry lorr. soo rude. then he looked back some more. i was like.."i dun mind if U wanna fine me any trouble or what." but just continue walking. well, understand that he's childish. like.. he never apologise still stare n expect a apology from me. madd.
mr lim wasn't around. only left mr zanee n mr chua. i quickly took out my materials n continue. i really wonder how people get in2 HOD position nowadays. yupp, i believe my dnt class will understand this. hmmm, so i was buffing my arcylic on the buffing machine. i nearly cut myself. i was thinking about some other stuffs. i dunno. maybe was THAT. so i lose my focus. n the force is kinda big. i was being push back by the force. but luckily the arcylic didn't cut me. then mr zanee quickly stopped me. then i used the sanding machine. the force was strong. luckily didn't get cut. whole day.. i wasn't really in focus anyway. so went home after that though there's extra lesson. cos i only left assembling everything on my wood base. so yupp, walked alone back. i can't stop myself from thinking again. trying so hard. but those songs in my mp3s. okie. blame myself lahh. but, it happened soo coincidently that it's playing all sorta songs that suit me at that moment. i sat on the bar, nearly fall backwards. =\ how dumb.
reached home, skip my lunch n sleep. till 7. woke up. then online. yupp. it seems like a crsis period now n i dunno how m i going 2 b fresh 4 next week sch. it will b corpse walking around. which is me alright.
i hope i wasn't thinking that much no more. cos i dun want to. dun wish 2.
and there's a danger in loving somebody 2 much, n it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. there's a reason why people dun stay who they r, cos baby sometimes love just ain't enough.i hope everything's fine. the band, the majors, my friends [R, S, D, Y, Y.] sorry if i miss ur name out, yupp. n i hope i'm fine 2..
sometimes, being alone is gd. but i hope alone, without brain, so i dun have 2 think n remind myself of anything..
time heals all wounds. how long will that b?! i wonder..
and when feeling come, it can't b resist or control though U know it's not right or impossible. this is true enough.
anyway, rongjie arr, sorry. i fall asleep n actually suppose 2 meet U. sorry!!
1:40:00 AM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
tooooo much, toooo many, tooo a lot, tooo loads. wei, what m i saying. hmmm, a lot a lot a lot of things happened 2day. happy 1s, sad 1s. but overall, my mood is seriously DOWNCAST.
DNT. morning yupp. woke up around 10 plus. but was awaken by a msg around 8 plus i guess. then.. yupp, fall asleep after that. reached sch around 1045, was moody by then. did my artefact. guess i'm about 2 finish everything. i left the brackets n of cos 2 assemble. think my wood base is 2 small. 2 small 2 contain all my paper clip, container, pencil holder, water bottle holder. n my handle!! cool ehh. yupp, so drill holes n all that. almost done.
ran 2wards my dad's car after dnt. yipee!! i skipped extra lesson. WAIT, i got excuse!! cos i gotta attend my bro's ROM. i'm important alright, camera man. =x so went 2 have lunch nearby, whereas the rest pon when there's suppose 2 b extra lesson in the afternoon. always like that de. it's written on the schedule. 1030-1230!! why must he always extend. no tired arr!! >= yupp, stop my complaints here. =x even eating lunch we have 2 rush then. cos bro's timing was at 240. reached home around 130 or so. then we quickly changed. my bro was busy doing his hair. n every1 is busy. i'm just preparing n took all my stuffs. esp the video cam. =) mum was screaming maybe cos she's nervous?? anxious?? frantic?? or whatever. my bro haven even took his flower. =\ then i told my mum."i'll b wearing sandals. my socks all wash." then she said."can all of U stop asking me when everything is soo last min!!" then i was like.. just informing. not even asking her 2 find a socks 4 me. was pissed by then. said."i'm not asking U 2 find me a sock, plsss.." then she just kept on screaming. whatever. then took the flower, the shop is just nearby, luckily. can c that my bro was anxious. yupp. then i only said.."wahh, the flower got a few like dying, look at the side." I GOT SCOLDED LORR!! like that also scold. then i was like.. already not in a very gd mood. so i said."fine lahh. i go there take photos 4 U guys then come back home, happy?? fine??" then my mum was like.."next time i can't scold U then U know. when i dun even have the breathe 2. i scold U still scold back." then i kept saying okie. since i'm not going 2 win no matter what. at that time i was smsing shir. cos i was really devastated by everything. i mean EVERYTHING.
reached the ROM place. soo many bride n bridegroom. now i really understand why people say this is only ONCE IN A LIFETIME. n ladies will b the prettiest ladies on that day. true enough. n i can't deny. =) my er shao was late!! cos she lost her way. i mean her sis' bf lost his way. n cos of some jam cause by cutting down of trees n accident ahead. it's everytime like this. when U r anxious, there will sure b something that will make U more anxious. that's why i said this is LIFE. orhh well. mum was saying i didn't do my job. never take photos. it's like.. nothing 2 take what. they r not even in. every1 outside talking. take what?! kaoo. pick on me. i take flower, take camera. maid arr. free of charge some more?! c'mon. then i sat alone. smsing. my mum then asked me sit nearer. save place i guess. then finally going in. yeahh. then i started taking video. got my bro's n his gf name on the screen. soo cool. then waiting outside the room. after a few min, going in. wahh, the room damn small!! got big big mirror. just 2 make it big i guess. =\ then i was soo scared. cos i gonan take video le!! then my 2nd auntie laughed at me. said not i getting married. true arr. =x then i took the video. the dunno who. let's call her.. judge?! the 1 who asked them questions then must ans 'i do.' yahh, she looked soo strict n the way she speaks is fierce!! like if U say U dun, she will chop U in2 half. if U dun listen 2 what she says, she will burn the room, since the room is soo small. haha. yahh, saw my er shao keep an xiao. lol. my bro?! as usual, acting cool. =p then after that, went out of the ROM, took photos. well, everything was soo exciting 2 me. cos i never been 2 there b4. it's soo cool. n the ambience really gd. SWEEEEEEEET!! then went 2 the park n take photos. seems like they r saving a lot!! no need pay me mahh. =\ shall update soon. cos still got sunday. which got karaoke n buffet. so must take again. TIRED!! =\ but fun. =) some r really nice. LOVE MY BRO N ER SHAO!! hehe. yupp, so went back home n replied mails. then 6 plus, went 2 the jurong sci centre there 2 have sakura buffet. was sooooo FULL seriously!! btw, 4get 2 say, my er shao's sis is beautiful. =) then her cousin keep looking lorr. kaoo. soo irritating. he's 16 also. but dun look like 1. wanna talk 2 him but he look soo unfriendly. well, shouldn't then, bet i won't dare 2. =x
after everything, i told my mum i wanna go top up my ezlink, wanna walk 2 jec then go home. at 1st she dun allow, but i keep saying i need 2 digest. so she allowed. walked alone, in the darkness. fine.. i really need 2 b alone after all those fake smiles n laughter throughout the day.
seriously, while walking. a lot a lot. i think a lot. even had a daze while suppose 2 dross the road. why didn't kanna car accident. =\ okie. so walked long way. cos really dun wanna go home. then waited 4 333. it was about 930 at that time. sms rongjie didn't reply. since he had been asking me out 2 drink, actually wanted 2. but never mind. just wanna c if he's alone in jec. but never reply. never mind. sat at interchange alone. again. nearly burst in2 tears. my face was burning hot i dunno why. i missed dunno how many buses. then board the bus around 1030. saw my reflection while reach home, wahh, pinkish cheeks. i dunno why..
she said maybe i was still thinking of what happened. is it wrong 2 face the fact, 2 tell the truth. why is it this way. she said maybe i'm still thinking throughout the journey while back home. i dun deny..
you know what. i dun really need a ans 2 b yes or no. i dun need it. i just hope everything is still the same after i told you. i felt soo devastated. you said you didn't. you sure you won't?? i doubt you. i dun wanan detest you. i want you 2 b my BEST friend ever. why didn't you allow me?? you know how i feel?? NO. you dun. from the way your replies, you dunno how i feel. got no choice but 2 attitude back. maybe you dun feel it, dun get what i mean still. never mind. treat it as i'm drunk all the time. i was down not bcos i dun get ur love. is.. now i only need the friendship of yours, very hard is it. is it soo demanding. you said didn't. but i seriously dun feel the same we used 2 be. the way you speak, it's just simply a closest stranger 2 me. i'm seriously upset. cos i dun wanna lose the closet friend. do you understand not.. cos i dun want the past 2 b illusion. i dun want what you said 2 me in past was all lies. you get me?? you hear me?? haii.. dunno. dunno. dunno.b4 i 4get.
rongjie's great. =)
12:51:00 AM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
okie. it's a busy day 4 me. wait!! allow me 2 breathe. *hmph hmph. allow me 2 speak now. haha. guanyi was saying i'm getting LAMER. alright, what's soo bad about laming. but i still got my legs around with me?! hahaha. opps. =x orhh yahh, promise rongjie 2 buy him the baby biscuits. i can picture him drooling. haha. =p
started my day with dnt. yupp, dragged myself 2 dnt AGAIN. i can't stand it lahh. my arylic got scratches. hate it. it's soo ugly. sure fail 4 n level dnt already. well, i'm not interested in that anyway. i rather spend my time in my poa or others. whatever. going back just 2 do n do. only wish i can take art. n i mean
ART!! =(
back home. fine. SLEEP. haha. cos i was reluctant 2 wake up in the 1st place. but the time i woke up was 115 i think. yupp. haha. dun dun bash me. i know i'm a
PIG once again. lol. but i shouldn't have insult the pig. haha!! =D everything was as usual. just that night was much more busy 4 me.
so i went over 2 my aunt's house 2 get the video cam. cos my bro's ROM 2moro. i'm the camera man!! soo cool lorr. haha. it will b such a sweet moments. lol. but they ain't having those dinner. just having ROM then got sakura buffet. sunday got buffet n karaoke with relatives. haha. somehow excited cos 1st time i'm gonna b real busy. 2 tell U the truth, oftenly, my family will b the last 1 reach any family gathering. cos all of us wake up late all the time. lol. n now?! i gonna b the 1st 2 reach!! arghh. but somehow cool yupp. lol. i gonna share photos here soon!! yeahh!! =p
login 2 the web msn again. it horrible alright. it's soo slow n retarded. but no choice, my msn broke down. haii. sad!! cos i can't receive songs, or do whatever i want. U wanna know how i feel, can try using web msn then. but glad i at least get 2 use it lahh. if not i wun b soo updated by my friends. =)
soo many people with problems again. orhh well, so i got dragged in 2day
ONCE AGAIN. i seriously got nothing 2 do with it. 1 lied 2 another 1. then 1 dun wanna tell 1 what happened n what mistake 1 made. then 1 started 2 ask me 2 help. i understand lahh, i mean, in need of a listening ear. but whatever i said, 1 like dun understand. i just said."it's not any outsiders that can help this. cos this lie U made really hurt another person. so what if i ask?! nothing will b solve. it will only b solve if U realise n both of U solve the problem urself. i can only give U advise." is this very hard 2 understand?? or m i very wrong?? what again. i nearly vomit blood. =\ seriously not i dun wanna help mahh. is can't. i bet some of U get what i mean right.
yupp. so about 11 people talked 2 me online. i dunno how fast can i go. cos the web msn is slow. haha. so no matter what, i'll b slow as well. so 2 of them who somehow quarrelled.. i mean 1 cannot understand n 1 just simply dun wanna say. so.. yupp, 1 still smsing me. he wanna do something foolish. haii. why. dumb lehh.
replied her mail just now. seriously glad she's feeling better. can read from her mail as well. hope she finds her way out of this maze. 2 find her happiness once again. =)
so this is soo sweet of her. =)
little something for you (:
a friend should be
radical.
she should
hug when you are
unhuggable,
love when you are
unlovable,
and
bear when you are
unbearable.
a friend should be
fanatical.
she should
cheer when
the whole world boos,
dance when you get
good news,
and
cry when
you cry to.
but
most of all,
a friend should be
mathematical.
she should
multiply the joy,divide the sorrow,
subtract the past,
and
add it to tomorrow.
calculate the need in your heart,
and always be
bigger than the sun to all of these parts.
you've got a friend in me. (:this is from her. soo sweet lorr. =)
n another person just told me something about herself lahh. yupp. something that can't say. i hope she find her way 2. cos since it's soo complex. she must b very confuse. hope 2 receive her mail soon. =) i mean another she arr. lol.
i finally realise i'm soo blessed. bless with all my friends around me. cos they trust me. though i know i'm gullible. but i seriously hope people trust me. cos i never fail 2 trust my friends. now i got back the confidence with friends after those hurting incident that friends actually cause me. though i know i was foolish 2 believe n advise, end up i got cheated n betrayed. but i know there'll still b kind souls around. I LOVE MY FRIENDS!! *huggies. =)
but 2day was a bad day with soo many people, soo many problems. =( *blessed them.
I'M GLAD MY BRO FOUND HIS HAPPINESS. LET'S ALL BLESS
SEN GAN AND ESTHER GOH. =)
n 4 those who actually read my entries, A BIG THANKS. =)
guess what, so i said i will confess n say everything 1 day. i finally did it 2day. not yet confess cos i dun have a reply from that person. orhh well, dun mind. guess it's late as well. seriously, not asking 4 anything in return. just feel that since i mention that day, i shouldn't hide. n there's nothing wrong right. i seriously hope you can find ur happiness as well.
though 2day somehow wish i can c you walk pass me, but never mind. cos you didn't. maybe not fated?? haha. never mind. cos i know n i believe you're fine. you will. =) hope you understand bahh. i'm seriously not asking 4 your love no more. =)
but somehow i dunno whether 2 trust
you or not. cos 2 many things that happened on me about
you. i dunno whether
you r still the
you i used 2 know. i dunno,
you know. this is scary. i dunno whether i should trust
you i used 2 n whether
you still trust me like how
you used 2 b. all these really doubt me. i need
you 2 clear my doubts. i want
you 2 tell me if i should trust. i dunno if
you know what
you're doing. of cos, i hope
you dunno. but seriously, what
you doing is hurting people who really care. haii.. i hope
you dun disappoint me,
my dearest friend.
1:47:00 AM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
hmmm.. woke up around 2 plus i think?! haha. can't remember. that rongjie asking me 2 meet him at 7am!! yes. that early. this is soo madd. n of cos, i din reply him. cos i'm aslee
p mahh. common sense!! haha.
2day i did nothing much. actually, i'm sick of going out. seriously. cos shop, never buy. buy, waste money. so rather rest home. haiya, my holiday assignment how?! i can't do my accounts!! arghh. soo angry with myself. woke up n nobody's at home as usual. so ate my baby biscuits. bleahh. n that's lunch.
yesterday was stupid. 2 guys quarrelled n i was being pull in 4
NOTHING. precisly, nothing. whatever. why is it always like that. did i say anything?! no right?! then dun put words in2 my mouth. hate it lorr. n if U believe n wanna blame me, go ahead. shan't care lorr. pissed off with everything
U GUYS did. n why should i get the blame??!! dumb like an idiot. then both started calling n calling. called me lahh, of cos. n i gonna solved the problem of THEIRS. c'mon lahh. this kinda thing is stupid. it's all bcos 1 started asking this out, then this not happy. n they started scolding n critising. orhh well, what else more can i say?! this is real dumb lahh. i dun wanna face them anymore. i'm afraid i'll get agitated again. whatever. as if any1 cares.
hmmm, i hope rach is fine n smiling. yupp, genuine 1s. U promise me. =) arghh, just dun b angry alright. what the.. what's wrong with everything. n why m i involve in this
AGAIN. >=(
so that's it. this is the baby biscuits i meantion. it's really nice. n when U put it in ur mouth, allow it 2 melt. haha. it's like.. all those protein, calcium. all in ur mouth. lol. n it's real cute alright. just take a look. lol. dun envy me. U can purchase urs as well. ;-) but i still miss my baby bites after all. =(
haha. so i'm getting zhi lian again. =x i like the 1st pic. soo proud of my
short tongue. haha. n of cos, not 4getting my beloved piglet. i hearts my piglet!! soo blessed with this piglet. =)
fine. so shall show U guys who's the guy..
RONGJIE. haha. he's sec 1 okie. dun misunderstand anyway. only treat him as my didi. ;-) n he insist on taking this pic when we're on bus. in his phone lahh. so i told him next time go out again i wanna take WITH MY PHONE, i dun care. lol. n so, i saw this pic in his friendster, so i save it. how dare he, upload without telling me. hmph!
yupp, just wanna share those few pic i took. =) have a nice day ahead guys. =) ladies as well. haha. =p
1:28:00 AM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
2day was my sleeping day. woke up at 3 plus!! m i POWER. haha. n slept around 5 pkus n woke up at 8 plus again.
PIG.the boy is funny. can't deny that he's not a boy alright. with him, i felt that he's alright. things he do r really scary. making the lift 2 get stuck, if it stuck between the 2 storey, he can jump down from it. making the lift 2 get blackout. running across the busy traffic. that's a lot. i shan't say here. what i say r the very basic 1s. when without seeing him in person, by smsing, he's really a kid. asking me 2 do uncomfortable things. n rather stupid. telling him or not, he wun understand. but i do understand that he's undergoing puberty?! hmmm, not really. i mean.. he's just like a innocent who curious about everything. when talking 2 him on phone, he's another person again. kinda mature, just another best buddy of mine. n i know he's somehow my world. but i can't stand him asking me 2 talk on the phone the whole night 2 early morning n ask me out 2 have a jog or breakfast. can't stand it mann. n saying i'm old, cos i cannot dun sleep. what's wrong with that arr. lol. sleeping is important!! i can dun sleep. but i cannot dun sleep!! what m i saying. haha. i mean.. yahh, that's it. he contact me 2day. i understand that he's bored n people around his age ain't his world. just like me bahh. but.. he's younger than me afterall. U know, i normally dun join those who r younger than me. but.. i dunno. he started smsing n calling me. i replied a few of his smses n didn't pick up his call. i dun want 2. i'm afraid he'll start asking me out 2 kills his boredeem again. he can't understand me i guess. i'm not used 2 crowd. yupp. he asked me out around 1am just now. 2 play pool n drink if i'm not wrong. rejected. cos like what i say. i'm still xiaojun n i dun need any1 2 change my lifestyle. n i dun want. i'm the 'anything' kind. but not overboard. at times i feel that friends somehow change me?! orhh well.. that's the strange boy i met. ha. but a cute boy after all. cos he's my friend, of cos cute lahh!! ;-)
love is not inside me no more. cos.. i learn 2 let go. n you're just like my friend. the closest 1. =) well, life is always like that. U can't fight with it. what urs, will b given 2 U, what's not urs will never b urs then. though at times decisions r hard 2 make, things r hard 2 let go. but when U feel that U'll so stuck, U dunno what 2 do, U can't let things go, it's bcos U DUN WANT 2. it NOT U CAN'T. it's like that. though U might feel that i'm crapping but U'll realise after U're awake from this illusion in urself. it's only U that can make anything happen. dun ask me how i let go. this can never b taught. this is by how U think n realise. dun say U can't. when a person U love can't b urs. or dun even know U're soo attracted, then.. U can choose 2 tell the 1 U love how much ur love is or keep quiet n let it b. though i choose the 2nd way, but.. moset importantly i got no regrets. i know there's a lot inside me. me myself went through all these. i started 2 feel that U ain't the 1 anymore. not that i'm in love with some1 else. cos i know the impossible in you n me. waiting 4 myself 2 get ready what i wanna say. what i actually wanna tell U. nothing wrong 2 let U know. U ought 2 know. n i shan't lie.
that's it mann. a new hair cut, a new life, a new me?! no lahh. i'm still the xiaojun U guys know. ;-)
wahh, i missyou!! wish 2 have a talk with you. tell you everything in 1 shot. guess we'll have a great time chatting n you have a great laugh how foolish i m 2 love you?! haha.
3:51:00 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006
hohoho. yesterday was crap. yupp. cos every1 was tired. i dunno why. lol. i woke up at 120 where i suppose 2 meet marc n shir at 130. haha. so i quickly get changed. but i wasn't that late afterall. lol. we got no where 2 go. town is getting boring 4 us. esp 4 me i guess. nothing but all shops. n when U got nothing 2 buy, U can only walk n walk. orhh well.. read shir's blog 4 detailed info. haha.
2day was crap!!
CRAP!! mr lim called my mum early in the morning n said there will b extra lesson in the afternoon. my mum called me as she's at work. i fall asleep again after i hang. was 2 tired. had been sleeping at 6 these 2 days. really dead. about 12 plus. my mum came back n was yelling like madd. trying 2 wake me up. of cos i wasn't. =x it's stupid alright. it's soo last min thingy. i really dun wanna go!! but my mum was siding mr lim. saying i loathe him that's why dun wanan go. c'mon lahh. so i shouted back."it's everything so last min. how U know i din plan anything. i thought 2day no lesson, can rest, can sleep. but U wake me up just bcos of this. it's a waste of my time, my day. it's not that i bias against him or what. or even the sub. i didn't. but i'm spending 2 much time on just 1 sub. it's soo unreasonable 2 call on that day 2 ask us back alright. U got c me pon other lesson?! no right." then my mum said."if U never pon then why now wanna pon. no respect. he is kind enough 2 go back 2 sch U know." then i was like.. what the?! fine fine. was soooo pissed off. then dragged myself 2 shower. still half asleep alright. then purposely slow down my pace. then missed a bus as well. stupid. there's only me in 4n1 who went 4 this EXTRA lesson. stupid, foolish, dumbo, idiot. whatever!! soo pissed off.
back n got nothing 2 do. so took money n went 2 have my hair cut alone. yes, nothing wrong with being alone right. =\ then took a few stops more. think my brain was dead at that time. then have 2 walk all the way back. went Shirley Mah. then i purposely asked a guy 2 cut my hair. kinda short lehh!! but.. dunno lehh. like retro. nerd nerd 1. haha. more like a kid again. =
met marc n rongjie n the ambience was strange. i dun wanna elaborate. cos i'm the veggie between the burgar again. well, there's a few will definately know what i mean. i bet shir will understand this. haha. yahh, that's it.
was in love with myself?! haha. took a no. of pic. heyy, take a look at my kiddy hair. =
this is a sample of my hair. gosh. =
n a sample if i tie. can c not arr.
haha. these r all craps.
1:48:00 AM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
alright alright. i promised 2 show U guys photos. haha. hmmm.. din put up all. cos some accidentally deleted. =x i'm blurr okie. pls 4give me. haha. look at the time now!! but i'll still update then sleep. just back around 4 plus. i'm soo scared. 1st time soo late come back. or early?! haha. cos rongjie was bored n want 2 b accompanied. kids r funny nowadays. then he intro me another sec 1 girl. wahh, i felt soo old at that time. though they were talking about those.. haiya. U know. but i just listened 2 them. cos they seems like need some1 2 talk 2. end up that girl also very gd with me. wanted 2 call me n chat. but i rejected. cos.. late lahh. some more i'm.. yahh, U know. then chat with some1 i'm not close with. n younger. cos i normally mix with older people what. they can understand me more. so.. somehow not used 2 it. haiya. very badd horr. =\ shan't say what the girl talked about. cos.. haiya. just dun want 2 say. even if U guys wun know that girl but i just dun wanna say. not very gd. seriously, i wasn't quite in2 their world. but i can understand. haha. rongjie will b like marc few yrs later. =)
all pic r taken by ME, n no 1 else. do view some of these pic. i really love the sceneries there. or maybe i haven seen nicer 1s?! it's like.. i just feel like flying.. haha.
alright. this is my 1 of my fav pic. shall put this no. 1!! haha. well, every1 knows the sky is vast right. but look, i somehow touch the sky!! can feel the clouds just bside me. woohoo. n on the other hand. it's like some1 who deprive freedom. n wanna fly. that's the way. what's ur point of view then?! ;-)
this is just a pic of the sky. it's nice alright. =) feel the closeness. hee.
look look look!! the clouds r just sooo near 2 me. heyy, can U feel it or not. haha.
this is the 2nd pic of my fav. this is not a normal view lorr. it's the BEST view alright. look at the colours of the sky. with the sunset sun. n some reflection effects. =)
this is the dustbin of the hotel. if U ever c this, that's the hotel i live in. haha. i dun introduce this hotel, it's horrible. i mean.. not as gd. but the dustbin is really cute lahh. lol. with my hand. =x
okie. so i went 2 the coffeebean twice. 4 the 2nd time, i realise the sofa's pattern is made up of all types of coffee beans!! take a closer look. haha. that's what i drank 4 both days. ice blended mocha with cream. =p
yes yes, coffee bean!!
the lift in the shopping mall. it's rectangular!! n the lights. nice right.
took this pic when strolling around the small garden near the hotel. look at the clear droplets.
so finally, going back. in the cable car. =)
this is what i done again. believe every1 din notice, i always crash the cans after i finish drinking. then if i got nothing 2 do, i'll try 2 make it in2 odd pattern. lol. this is only ONE of the many. 7-up. =p
near the clouds again..
got nothing better 2 do in the hotel. haha.
mum n dad in cable car. =D
1st meal in genting. n every1 was hungry. but i was still fooling around. notice my orange n blue chopsticks. haha. soo cool!!
this r the photos i wanna share with U guys. not early anymore. or rather. very early. shall sleep. *ywan. =\
5:13:00 AM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
hmmm. yupp, back a few days ago n was dead exhausted. so.. other than sleep, i did nothing much. did go imm n shopped around alone lahh. U must b thinking i'm crazy. but i'm used 2 it what. =D
ermm. had headache, sore throat n cold on mon when i woke up. slept real long n was late 4 dnt. started at 130 n i wok eup at 115. =x but i rushed like madd. =\ waken up by marc's msg. lol.
having a cold now. can't breathe well. ahhh. what 2 do. every1 said i go genting play till sick. lol. no lahh.. maybe.. smae old sickness what. so.. no big deal. shall load those pic a few days time. told quite a no. of sceneries. =p i love it!! clouds r beautiful n i really can't deny that sky is sooo vast!! my mum said i'm tooo crazy over clouds n blue stuffs. lol. =D
orhh mann, was typing half way n din realise it was actually raining outside. guess my cold will never recover?! haha. let's wait.
ermm. after soo many months n a few yrs i guess. maybe 1 yr or so. i finally learn a lot during this journey. though i got no you in the end, but i didn't regret loving you seriously. cos you r ever soo angelic. =) though you still dunno what's going on, let me promise you, i will tell you 1 day. on the day that i let go of EVERYTHING. hmmm, miss you soo much. wonder how r you. seriously, as a friend, i do cherish you. =) i hope you do as well. this is what i call friends mahh. =)) have a fine journey then. =)
1:32:00 AM
Friday, June 09, 2006
actually i got a lot 2 update. i ought 2 lahh. but i was soo sleepy now after few hours of settling the dumbo ipod shuffle. install n everything. HEAD BIG BIG.
will b off 2 genting in few hours time. yupp, so can only update when i'm back then. take care every1, must miss me k?! =) cos i will miss every1 of U, you!! well, if i shop n happen 2 remember any1 of U, i will get U something yupp. haha. see how lucky U r then. bleahh. =p
well, i treat this as a trip 2 think about everything. n maybe just make me feel better from everything then. yupp, hopefully. i'm prepared 2 shop alone. =)
anyway, wanna say HAPPY BDAY 2 YUN!!! hope everything's fine 4 her this yr. cheer up n take care. i love seeing her smile. soo sweet as ever yupp. yun, U'll find ur guardian angel sooner or later. no worries. cheers!! =)
hmmm, hope everything's fine 4 marc's dad as well. bless every1.
2:26:00 AM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i was so naive. so silly. i believe that there will always b a guardian angel that guard along the way. god will gives each n every1 of us a guardian angel. or rather, we'll found our guardian angel ourselves. orhh well, how foolish i can b. there wun b guardian angel. there's only a stupid guardian angel here guarding you a along. asking no returns but the guarding exprience is soo tough. guardian angel is just another miracle. nono, should b fairy tales. there's no snow white, no little red riding hood, but why do kids believe?! there's no such thing as guardian angel but why do i believe?! naive. GUARDIAN ANGEL?! HEH, LIAR. what again, xiaojun.>orhh well, U guys can just treat it as another bedtime story U r reading.. n it's only my opinion yupp..
fine. i typed everything n damn blogger cock up. i dun wanna re- type everything again. cos it's really longg. but try yeahh. haii. suay like anything.
yesterday i didn't update cos i slept early. maybe bcos of a few days of tossing around. finally i'm tired of thinking of it. the day b4 yesterday, went 2 bed at 3 plus. yet i tossed around till 5 plus. din go 4 phy n dnt remediations cos SOMEONE told me it's at 1030. fine fine, that MR TOO KAIPENG. said it's at 1030. i woke up at 10 n preparing 2 get out of house around 1025, okie, i know i'll b late. was rushing already. then people kept calling n a few smses. saying phy was at 8, no 1030. i put down my bag, n wore my sch uniform. completed chi compre. finally. then waiting 2 b 130 2 have my eng oral prac. mr lim smsed my mum. my mum got soo terrified. called me. i explained 2 her. everything's fine. that mr lim horr, he's hindering my mum!! >=\ hmmm, so 3rd bro decided 2 cook 4 us, lunch. yes, he's a chef with cert., diploma. no use lahh. haha. he invented his SUPER SOUR SPICY SEAWEED SOUP. it's soooooo sour. i can't even shallow it. but give face lahh. his drumstick wasn't that bad, seriously. i had never trust his cooking. haha. then wnet 2 sch 4 eng oral prac. yanjing was late. but i was latest. =x so will b the last 1 2 go. mr wong took soo long 4 a pair!! wait like madd. then finally it's out turn. passage was alright. i stammered at a paragraph, i dunno why. haha. then conversation i talked about stain i got when i'm having mens. mr wong seems 2 have such an interest in it. haha. he enjoyed my story!! but it was all make up story. lol. i said a old lady tapped me n said i got stain then every1 looking. all that lahh. crap lahh. i dunno how 2 lie, U c. =\ went imm 2 meet mum. marc n his mum was there. so 4 of us shopped 2gether. the ambience was weird alright. then mum gonna rushed off 2 cook. actually i'm suppose 2 meet rongjie but was delayed by my aunt, saw my 2nd aunt when i walked very fast. lol. after that i dun wanna meet him le. so chase my mum. but she was soo fast. =\ fine. INTERESTING PART.. then i took the lift. okie, no molestor alright. got ghost. haha. no lahh. i took the lift as usual. then it suddenly shook violently. n it got jammed between 3rd n 4th floor. n it's like.. darkness. my heart pumping like madd. i almost gone zany. i hold on 2 the railing tight. hoping everything's fine. but it didn't move. the bang was soo loud. i was about 2 press the bell button but it suddenly moved again. 2 the 4th floor. i quickly press the open button n got off. my legs were soft like jelly. then i took the other lift. i hold on tight. n got off quickly when reached. gosh. i told my mum n 2nd bro about it. my 2nd bro laughed at me!! tease me some more!! how bad he is. then my eldest bro came back. he wanted me 2 open mail box. siann. guess what. i was so afraid 2 take a lift again, i used the stairs. imagine how high my flat is. no choice. my legs haven't recoverd alright. after that, luckily got a ah pek in the lift with me. so suay, got back that same lift. was soo scared. but got ah pek mahh. hee. n i slept early, 11 plus. woke up by a msg around 7 plus. it's just a 'beep'. but i dunno why i heard it. such a blur vision by then, so just read it through n went back 2 sleep. woke up around 11 plus 2day. haha. PIG.
went bugis with mum 2day. ate porridge steamboat. it's cool. i mean really unique. imagine using porridge as the soup of the steamboat. at the end of it, the porridge really taste nice. =) the auntie kept asking me 2 ask more people along next time round. hmmm, it wasn't expensive anyway. was soo full. went 2 og. on our way 2 bugis street, saw rongjie!!!! then we stared at each other. cos can't confirm. haha. then he smsed me. so we started 2 sms again. brought my mum 2 square. haha. purposely 1. i showed her the bag pack. then she said."U want arr. U want U pay lorr." then i said.."yupp. no lahh, very nice what horr." then she said."then U said nice. wanna buy, ask the girl 2 take lorr." haha. so i asked the cute girl. she remembered me!! she promise me a discount. =p original price is 48 bucks. then she gave me 45. i asked 4 lesser. so she said 10% more. it should b 41.50, she said."give U 40 bucks." woo. so bought it. hee. I REALLY LOVE IT. she asked me why dun wanna dc bag. soo common. every1's using. lol. went home after that. soo tired. =
heyy, some new pic 2 share. =)
took this yesterday after sch. lol. was lame. n just trying 2 have something diff.
i love this pix. took this 2day.
hmmm, nothing much. i feel that i simply love myself 2 much. haha. kidding. just wanna take diff pic when i feel like it. cos diff day, diff clothing, diff feeling, diff style. =) n my kind of memories. =)
>look, thesky is soooo vast.
3:03:00 AM
Monday, June 05, 2006
see, i din mention much le. it's just that it's all in my mind. i'm not mentioning, i'm thinking. =\ what's the diff. i'll TRY not 2 then. orhh well, what again.
went town with marc 2day. that stupid shir lahh. she's the 1 who suggested going nydc 2day yet ended up she needs 2 watch a play. LIT STUDENT. haha. okie, it's okie lahh. her bday coming anyway. hmmm, so went out with marc. went ps. he wanted 2 see his chip'n'dale thingy. after that went mos burger 2 have our lunch. yummy. it had been years 4 both of us to have mos burger. lol. the cup is simple n real nice. his is rainbow, mine is bird. cos he upsize mahh. i'm totally broke after that bugis trip. =\ after the meal, we walked 2 town. my leg were in pain!! BLISTER, nothing else. 4got 2 bring along plasters. gotta suffer then. n that stupid marcus tan was walking soo fast. yahh, he did it on purpose alright. lol. he's wearing sandals mahh, dumbo. went hereen then cine. newurbanmale is cool mann. like 1 of their tee. VERY NICE!! 50 bucks. =\ SAVE SAVE SAVE. marc was persuading me to have nydc 4 dinner. haha. cos soo broke, n i wanna save 4 my bagpack. he loves seeing me broke. LOL. cine got nothing much lahh. then walked over 2 far east. we haven't been going there 4 such a long time!! then we shopped around. he's asking me 2 buy bikini alright. cos he wanna go sentosa. THEY dun allow me to go with sports bra or sleeveless tee. how bad can they b. =\ whatever. actually wanted 2 pierce 2day. but i dun want. i somehow scared. lol. cos the place i wanna pierce.. i just afraid lahh. lol. i'm timid mahh. =x orhh yahh, did i mention that i bought minibeanie knick-knick bag?! he bought his hp porch. lol. same brand lahh. mine's cuter. lol. MY GINGER BREADMAN lorr!! then the message below is,"put a smile on ur face." haha. suit me some more. what's the use anyway. lol. it's nice n i'm lovin it alright. =D then i wanna buy hair pin. but can't find shop that sell hair pins. =( walking back, 2 nydc. i pushed him 2 ljs. haha!! then he said i must promise him that i'll go starbucks after that. fine lorr. cos can chat, i dun mind 4 that. there's a new starbucks nearby mahh. kinda nice ambience. =) i ordered ice vanilla latte. it's bitter alright. but.. i'm not soo scared of coffee already. last time i rather die than drinking coffee. lol. maybe i appreciate this kind. seriously. if U ask me go kopitiam n drink, i won't. haha. dunno why. just can't. haha. then we chatted there. n i took photo of OUR to-fu. lol. soo cute. =p then walked 2 mrt station around 10 plus. reached jec around 11 plus n he wanted 2 go arcade n play his tennis video game. accompanied him. but it's close. so early. then decided 2 take bus 333 1 big round b4 i alight. so we took n chatted on bus. while my parents kept calling like nobody's business. i did pick up lahh. then reached my house bus stop, accompanied him 4 his bus. we chatted. he missed 1 bus cos we wanted 2 chat. lol. he asked me not 2 get 2 involve in that. i didn't lahh. cos i didn't mention much already. just.. can't stop thinking then. well.. well.. fine, nothing. =\ walked home, reached around 12 plus going 2 1. i felt like vomitting. dunno why. then my mum asked where did i go tanning 2day. which i din even. lol. she said my face was red. i dunno. hopefully she dun think i drank. i didn't. haha. fine fine. feeling giddy now. orhh well, guess i'm wearing sandals 2moro 2 sch. i got TWO blisters on my right ankle!! it's soo painful!! =( left 1 still alright. but i'm wearing sandals, i dun care. but it's like soo awkward. lol. dunno.
thanks those who care 4 me. i know my entries seems 2 b soo emotional. at times i dunno what i'm trying 2 say as well. U guys can just ignore alright. cos.. it's something i'm facing lorr. well well, hope every1 is smiling all the way, blessed. =)
2:12:00 AM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
i'm so tired of this.. whatever~
guess i drank 2 much yogurt drink. stomach aching. =x cos after drinking the whole packet i ate 2 tomatoes. haha. will that worsen it huhh?? no right. *pls say no. =p
can't sleep well these few days. yupp, i hope my brain is dead then. orhh well, what else can i say then all these craps 4 my entries. everything is soo dead. xiaojun is dying as well. lol. haiya, i mean.. orhh yahh. dun ask me what's my problems alright?? glad U guys care. but.. sometimes, even if i'm willing 2 say, U might not understand n it's hard 4 me 2 express out. cos i'm the 1 who is going through this. the worst thing is i dun wish 2 say. well, somethings just can't b say yeahh. but it really upset me.. a lot.. internal injury.
nothing much. took a long afternoon nap. woke up around 12 plus noon 2day. it's soo early alright. sorry marc, 4got 2 call U. n he kept calling. after that my phone divert 2 my home. haha. he got a shock of his life. =x U should know my mobile is very quiet. 2 bad then. but still met him just now around 11 plus night. okie, let's get arrest by the police. =\ NONONO. i'm guai. =p got toufu!! hee. my loillipop toufu, marc's broken toufu n we got shir's green flag toufu. soo cute. =) reached home around 12 plus i guess. n did some of my holiday assignment. i haven even touch my dnt detailed development. how.. mr lim wanted us 2 continue but i got sick of it. really sick mann. imagine that day i had been doing it from morning 2 evening. had enough of it. now still must do at home. it's like.. give me a break from dnt lahh. arghh. orhh well, every1 knows i loathe dnt. cos i prefer.. guess every1 knows.
ART LAHH. =
ermm, i stop smsing him le. cos i dunno what 2 reply. n he's asking me about dnt. gosh. not again. he wanted 2 chat but.. i really dunno how can i reply him. so.. sorry. advise him 2 go sleep then. =) he asked me about my problem as well. well, just tell him what i said above. "sometimes it's hard 2 express or even understand cos i'm the only 1 who is going through all this." why m i repeating arr. lol. yahh, told him that lorr. n said i'm strong enough lahh.
yes, i'm strong 2 carry on. just that i really can't get in2 sleep. like yesterday, told U guys i was sleepy right?? it's around 4. when i got 2 bed, i can't sleeping n started tossing around thinking n thinking. something like.. can't accept the fact or what?! i dunno. or maybe. err.. dunno lahh. i just hope it won't happen cos i dun want that 2 happen. cos i dun wanna miss you soo much bahh. haii.. haiya, no worries guys, i'll
TRY
2 live happily ever after.
2:17:00 AM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
here are some cute pic of my nephew. haha. take a look!! bet U guys wun believe i got such a adorable nephew. love him!! =)
he's cute right.. haha. look at this. what is he doing.. haiyo.
this is soo cool mann. must b a charming guy when he grows up. =)
alright. this is the aunt of his. lol.
yahh lahh, me lahh.
1st pix was after finished my steamboat dinner. FULL FULL!! look, i'm telling U that it's a yummy dinner!! hee. n 2nd pix, depression. =
went out with yanjing 2day. hope she doesn't think so much anymore. smile girl. =)
i spent so much 2day. well, it's all what i long 2 buy anyway. dun care i regret or not. shall cherish my stuffs. =) I WANNA BUY THAT BAGPACK!!! i dun care alright. gonna save 4 my hair cut n that bagpack. that's the kinda bag i want. =\
finished my chi holiday hmwk. math still half way through. gonna do eng 2moro.
i'm soo sleepy now. wahh.. i've been thinking the whole day. i didn't stop thinking. it's soo unfair 2 you, it's soo unfair 2 me as well. why.. hope it's just a MAY n not a CONFIRM. i really dun wish that 2 happen. save me from hell guys. =((
i missyou like crazy.
3:42:00 AM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
sometimes life is really unfair. it's sooo unfair. when U're down initially, life will make it worse. or worst. when U dun want, life make it want n when U want, life make it dun want. it will just make U feel uneasy. n purposely make it difficult 4 U. why. how m i suppose 2 take all these all alone so suddenly. n it's really TOO SUDDEN. i can't take it. i dun want it 2 b this way. regret. yes i do. now i understand why people always being reminded, "cherish ur loves 1 b4 they are gone." i really can feel it. though i always ask myself 2 cherish. but at times, or rather now, i feel that actually i didn't really cherish. i did cherish. but is that enough?? nope. never will b enough. n when U realise, it's always soo late. hate it. i hate myself in fact. hate myself a lot. why m i in this world btw?? world of misery. if there's no happiness, no peace, dun allow me 2 stay..
i'll keep it 2 myself. i know i'm not suppose 2 say, n i wun. i'll cherish every sec from now on. but i'm so afraid i'm late 4 the day n everything is gone again. i got a lot 2 say. i wanna say so much. but i can't n i dunno how 2. at times i seems like.. blurr?! but i know everything.. seriously. it's just that i dun wanna say, n i know i shouldn't. alright, i'm soo devastated. i'm soo down. something in my life will b gone soon. just like half of my heart will b chop off, how m i going 2 carry on.
stupid of me. really dumb. no point regretting alright.
*when you see me walking alone, you'll know i'm missing you. dun disturb me, cos i dun want you 2 leave my mind. even if you ain't with me all the time, you'll b in my heart. believe me.i've phobia in dnt. stucked at my material list. my artefact had changed. my materials had been changed as well. have 2 re-measure. 1030 remediation started, suppose 2 end at 1230, i packed my stuffs at 530. stress, sleepy, tired. SAY NO TO DNT!!
my entries seems 2 b very dead nowadays. cos i'm not alive. orhh well, sorry guys. dun read if U find it bored. i dun want U guys 2 waste ur time at these kinda entries as well.. i'm sorry.
12:35:00 AM
