Sunday, May 21, 2006
took this pix few days ago. think it's thurs. haha. cos nothing better 2 do, so decided 2 lame around. it's on my beloved bed!! =)) just like high up 2 touch the sky. =p
life is horrible lahh. wake up, go sch. nothing 4 U 2 look 4ward 2. hardly any1 will disagree, yupp. n i hate myself. cos my results suck. i suck at everything. seems like i got no potential, no talent. can't even do well 4 simple things. exam. phobia. so dumb.
memoirs of thebm?!
hope wt is feeling better of cos. was so shocked when she told me what happened yesterday n what she decided. yes, can feel that she's upset n really tired of it. i got soo agitated n frantic when she told me everything. not bcos she decided not 2. it's about.. yahh, that's it. n sorta frantic about everything. esp HER yupp. it's like, it's just another crisis she gonna face n handle. i kinda cause these 2 her. yupp, maybe it's me. guess so. confirm i m. orhh well, i'm soo sorry. but i dun wish 2 c her this way yeahh. believe SHE dun wish 2 as well. so i met her up 2day. just.. c if she's fine n hope she's better. she really seems fine 2 me. heh, dunno why. still crap with me as usual. then we started 2 walk here n there at jec without destination. lol. slacking around. then finally i bought my dearest SNAPPLE n we sat outside the mac 2 drink n she got her chocolate milkshake. i dun believe it's nice. haha. then started 2 talk. 1stly i was like dunno how 2 start. then we chatted about something else. some craps as usual. then started 2 feel that maybe i should talk something relevant. so.. yupp. that's about it. if U wanna know the talk, orhh well, that's long. i hope i really make some sense. just stating the facts n want her 2 face it as well. dun wish 2 hide from her till she regret then realise. i dun wanna lie 2 her that it's gd, it's great. just 2 let her b. i want her 2 understand it's not easy. n told her some ways that she can actually overcome it. heh, life is never fair yupp. n at times, use different aspect 2 c things, U'll find it's actually.. how U think. n what U think of urself is much more important than how people c U. n U need 2 understand, U need 2 change when U think U need 2. not letting others change U 2 what they want U 2. life is about how U face it, wt. know it's tough. i dun remember telling U that it's gonna b easy, did i?! i believe no. ermm.. but no matter what decision U made, i'll still b with U when U need me. i wun blame U, n SHE wun. we ain't unreasonable yupp. respect urself, respect the others. that's ur integrity n U r twt, no 1 else. find ur motivation soon. =)) cheers. [should ask U home early as a big jie jie. haha. my apology.]
had seoul garden with kp n marc yesterday. it's really fun with those dudes around. lol. 2 charming dudes. lol. kp cannot stop crapping once he saw us. n he's just another white musk freak. buay tahan. can they just respect me this oceanus freako!! lol. n i didn't laughed that much 4 long. =D they really made my day. =)
had steamboat with mum, 2nd bro n his gf 2day at bugis 4 lunch. well, my troublesome bro's idea again. i'm kinda freak out mann. he's telling us 2 travel all the way there lorr. n my mum just dote on him. whatever. unreasonable mann. n he can't decide what he wants 2 eat. had discussed 4 long!! n i mean LONG. what's the problem mann. waste money, waste time. n the steamboat lunch was really ex. though it really taste nice. the soup were really yummy. yahh yahh, had my spicy soup. gd luck 2 me. stomach started 2 ROAR after that. n really went pale when my mum wanted 2 shop 4 her clothings. felt soo weak. n i can never use the toilet outside 4 'business'. just can't. just a waste of time. so went home feeling really weak, really weak. then promise 2 meet wt le. so went over 2 meet her. so reached home around 12 plus.
gosh, rushed 2 the toilet again just now. i think i nearly faint inside the toilet. the kinda pain is "undescribable". is that how U spell it?! why it looks soo weird 2 me. lol. some1 do correct me if i'm wrong. yupp. so felt really weak again. nearly fall while trying 2 stand. n got nose bleeding. suay or what. $#^%&*.
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