Monday, May 29, 2006
SSSCCCCCCRREEEEEEEEEEAAAMMMMMMSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!! i'm soo troubled. i dunno what 2 do. i'm dumb. dumb 2 realise n wake up when everything is gonna b the end. i realise what's going on. n i've been a fool all along. 4 ur information, i din break up with my bf, cos i dun even have 1. well, lots have been asking me.
you know, when i realise everything that maybe i shouldn't, i hate you. maybe you're lonely, you're in need of some1, but.. well, you shouldn't have this keep going alright. maybe i'm just nothing inside you. but 2 bad, cos you're already part of me. i hate you 4 being the way you r, on the other hand, i hate myself 2 noticing this. if this wasn't reality, you shouldn't have decieve me. say i'm selfish, n maybe i m. i dun wanna share, n i dun like 2 share. cos that's only ONE me, that's only ONE you. so whatever you said r lies?! i dunno, but i felt so. sorry 4 not trusting you. i hate it. i hate the feeling.
i dun wanna c you n i dun wish 2 see you. but i know i can't run away. cos i know i'll b seeing you sooner or later. well, real soon. but i dun want. cos when i see you, it hurts me more. i felt the pain in me. i dun wanna think. but i know you'll b appearing in front of me soon.
i said i wanna tear those away, i said i hate you. deep inside, i know it wasn't true. cos i dun bear 2. i dun wanna shed a tear when i'm tearing away the drawing. i shall wait. see how long can i hold on 2 it. whenever i'm out there, i'm soo lonely. all alone. n i dun wish 2 see you. but no worries, even if you really appear, i'll smile. maybe you r reading this, i bet you wun. maybe you know i'm talking about you i bet you dun.
i dunno how 2 tell any1 about this. n i had a bad day thinking about this, thinking about you. when i wanna let go, people around me happen 2 mention stuffs about you. n i dunno how 2 react. orhh well, i really dun wanna live in this misery anymore.
1stly, i dun wanna tell you cos i dun wanna things 2 change between us. know what, or let me ask, if any1 of U reading this, when U know something is impossible, will U still do it?! i mean those REALLY IMPOSSIBLE. well, i choose not 2. i'll play safe. this shows how much i really wanna stay the same.
2ndly, i can't tell any1 this cos people wun understand, pardon me. i dun need any1 2 know alright.
3rdly, maybe you should reflect. cos i bet i'm not the 1st 1.
why do you wanna hurt me so much. why. i can't cry, i told myself can't. n never becos of this, i cry b4. this time round, it really hurt me soo much, upset me so much. i felt realy uncomfortable. maybe you got another some1, but at least tell me alright.
i dunno how m i going 2 let go. i dunno when will you realise everything i do is becos of you. but you dun have 2 know. just stay the same. cos that's nothing about you i would change..
I NEED SNAPPLE.orhh yahh, i saw yiyuan 2day. shocked. guess he remembers me or something.
8:34:00 PM
