Tuesday, May 16, 2006
hey. that's SNAPPLE. know what, had been drinking these 4 a few days. n i realise something. whenever i start 2 think a lot, i will feel like drinking SNAPPLE. n when i drink, though i din feel better, but i dun feel that down i guess. it's like will recall stuffs all that. i can't help it but 2 drink it if not i'll feel 10x worst. i dun wish 2 b this way as well. n i dunno why r all these drinks so powerful 2 remind me of you. whatever.
look at this!! finally got it from saki banana!! haha. how bad can i go 2 call her this. but she admits it anyway. muah haha. =x ermm. it's after serenade n we surprisely saw each other at gombak mac. n we both realised we didn't take photo with each other. so took this with her camera. wahh.. can U believe it?! we went through up n down 2gether. got scolding 2gether. trombone section used 2 b 4 people in out batch n end up left both of us. isn't that cool?? yes. we rock. =) orhh well, look at my hair if U ever realise. haha. guess i was 2 high. n "BOOM" i got my fringe this way. haha. =p
wanted 2 post all these yesterday but internet connection was down out of a sudden. orhh well, no choice then. had an early sleep yesterday night. around 2 plus. then received guanyi's sms. shouldn't had reply, haha. cos he kept smsing me already. guess he's bored so started a chat with him. well, din reply him after a while. cos there's nothing 2 reply. haha. so went 2 sleep. yesterday mother's day dinner with my relatives was soo.. kinda unpleasant. cos we got 2 tables n 4 my table, i was being seperated from my parents. so my table got my aunt's family, my grandmother n my bro with his gf. then it's like.. my cousin can really eat. haven finished his food on his plate, he started 2 "chiong" 4 more food. haha. when i looked up again everything is like.. GONE?! lol. din blame him, he's young. but find him kinda rude lehh. cos my grandmother haven eat much as well. then i was talking 2 my grandmother. she like wanted 2 talk 2 the younger 1s but they dun seems 2 bother. so i just started 2 talk 2 her cos find her kinda bored by the ambience. orhh well.. she's lika afraid i din eat. haha. kept giving me fish. i was actually full and wanted 2 let the younger 1s have it. but she kept taking it 4 me. lol. end up i also got take 4 her. the abalone wasn't fresh. yucks. hate abalone already. not fresh some more. gosh. everything's soo spicy n my stomach cannot take it anymore. had 2 run 2 toilet this morning.
orhh, planned 2 go sentosa but as jas can't go, everything got cancelled. well, it's okie 4 me. cannot go means cannot arr. so alright. but the ambience on the phone was really weird. i'm the only 1 talking.. n entertaining jas.. =
they came my house 4 a short movie. cos i rent american pie band camp n oliver twist. they only watched band camp. nothing much. not a very nice show. SOO DISAPPOINTING!! though it's somehow funny, but the storyline was.. bleahh.. suppose 2 b BAND CAMP what. why bcome video-ing?! cos there's a guy whom went 2 the band camp n started 2 video stuffs like that. haha. stupid. n end up lots of stuffs happened. wahh, the drum major was real pretty!! n really cool. the band was united. they din mention band major!!! =( why always like that!! haha.
so the show ended n shir brought her westside story along. it's kinda boring. though it's like.. i suppose it 2 b nice. end up the storyline is dull. like not starting, no ending. so i went 2 pack my stuffs. they continue watching lorr. haiya. then a lot of stuffs happened. the main thing is, xiaojun is xiaojun. xiaojun can't b xiao or jun right?? i can't b making every1 happy by changing myself. when i know that's something going 2 happen that i can only save 1 side, i have 2. i can't b seperating myself 2 pieces. n dun try 2 change me yeahh.. i know i ain't a gd person or what-so-ever. but i've tried my best 2 b 1. this sorta stuffs happened a lot of times but i never say a word till 2day. it really troubled me. n i felt tired. cos xiaojun IS xiaojun. what more do U want?? okie fine. i dun wanna say the reason behind all this. i dun wanna make both parties unhappy or awkward. fine, U dun understand right?? blame me, hate me. beat me up. fine. just do what U want so that U wun b soo pissed about this idiot character of mine. do it.
it took me sooo long just 2 press a OKIE button 2 sms. n you just appear in my mind at that moment. actually every moment but.. it's extremely strong at that point of time. maybe cos i'm really down or whatever. haiya!! i can't pls both!!!! how can i pls myself then??!! i'm stubborn. cos i dun wanna c any1 of them upset. but i break the rule 2day. orhh well..
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