Tuesday, May 09, 2006
believe it or not. chem paper is finally finished. well, left dnt 2moro. it's fast, yes it is. but 2 me, woo.. FINALLY. know what, bcos of Chem n Math paper 2, i couldn't sleep well yesterday night. tossing here n there.. really wish i could do well..
it's all along 1 paper at a time. i had my geog, poa. eng/chi paper 2, math paper 1. orhh well, n now CHEM n MATH!! gosh. guess i can't do well 4 geog. i can never do well in geog anyway. guess i didn't study enough. i did the paper, i finished it. dun worry, i'll never give up till the very last min. i'm not the xjun when i'm in sec 2. i still remember. i did a few qns 4 geog n leave the whole paper blank 4 the rest of qns without even trying. haha. come 2 think of it, i'm really useless. well, chi paper was alright. just a sentence making that i can't do n end up coming out with stupid sentence. got scolded by ms toh as well.. haha. i knew it was wrong but i wrote it down. well, it will always look better than left it BLANK. right. lol. heard from mr wong, i might get out of point 4 comp. knew it!! cos i didn't fulfil the requirement. it's SOME significant childhood times. yes, SOME. i did realise, but it was at the very end. hope the content was gd then. if now i'll realy flunked it. how could i flunked eng. =( poa, glad i tried. i know mr ho sure got angry with me. orhh, he never get pls with me anyway. haha. cos i never understand what's going on in poa n never dare 2 ask him. he's soo fierce lahh!! it's like he gonna chop U off if U dun understand. n every1 in class seems 2 understand everything once he teach. n i'll never. =( but i did study the day b4 poa papers. i figure out n did yishun town paper qns 1. cos mr ho asked 2. n i know what's going on!! n did petty cash n test myself out. yes yes. i know. poa paper 2, last qns. i 4got the format. haii. =( math paper 1. orhh, it wasn't a very hard paper. but just a few qns that i kept trying n trying. i'll never believe myself if i score. what else. guess i left out 2day's chem n math paper 2. math paper 2 was just like another paper that ms yeo always give us. haha. can never 4get how she laughed whenever she c us doing papers. know she wants us 2 do well. but her laughter. haha. love seeing us suffer. =x haha. ermm, i 4get how 2 find mean of the xf de. 4get how 2 use cosine rule. wrote it down but i got negative as the length of AB. how can?! the algebra ans was tough!! i wrote 2x square - 9x = -3. that's all. i didn't even solve the eqn!! haii. guess i can't score again. =( it's sooooo disappointing!!!!!!! orhh well well.. got an hour plus break b4 chem. cos have 2 wait 4 those who took express math. hope xiang ling, derrick n jeremy were doing fine then. =) ermm, spent the time studying chem. my heart beat faster when the clock is ticking every sec. it seems so near. n i was trying 2 concentrate. while there's a few noisy 1 in class. so pissed lorr. can't they c i'm studying!! n didn't they know they r still having another paper later on?? they can shout after exam. as loud as they want 2 n i dun care. or i'm being selfish?? haiiya.. but.. but.. fine. i'm really scared at that time. happy?? n people like kaipeng n derrick pressurize me some more!! orhh well, dun wanna say out what they did. did something really stress me out, i nearly cry, i can say. just like wanting so much 2 hide 2 a corner, cover myself. dumb right. but i was really stress. but i never they didn't mean it. went 2 the hall. ey, derrick, yanjing, xiangling n i was sitting outside the hall. ey was saying.."why U look so stress. no need care de. can pass pass lorr. cannot never mind. no need stress. just try ur best." haha. that's ey. everytime also anything anything. lol. was actually feeling A BIT better but saw ms seah distributing the papers.. gosh!!! soo scary. n when they announced 4 the 4n 2 get in, i seems like.. BLANK OUT. i out my chem file down, drank some water. i stepped in. gosh. i got numb. really. i sat down. it's starting!! i was soo afraid i got not enough time 2 complete the papers. the mcqs were tricky. i think it's bcos of the phrasing of the qns. skipped a few mcqs. got 1 qns, wahh!! dun think she teach b4 lehh!! =\ then went on 2 section b. the qns was short n given 1 mark 4 each qns. it's not diff but i was a bit blank out. then went on 2 section c. choose 2 among the 3. i did the 2nd qns. it was easy lahh. that qns sure score de. but i 4get what's metalloids. n amphetoric oxide. gosh. how can i 4get this. was wondering which qns i should choose between 1st 1 n 3rd 1. 3rd 1 is about mass n moles. 1st 1 is bonding. n finally, i did the 3rd 1 rather than the 1st 1. i dunno why. ermm, i dunno what's the chemical properties of acid solutions. =( but i did write. was soo dumb!! i wrote produce hydrogen gas when react with cold water n steam. then realise that's 4 metals after talking 2 Shir. =\ arghh. must write 3 some more!! 3 marks lehh. die lorr. then the next page. find vol, mass all that. i think the last qns it just seems hard cos it's whole junk of words. that will naturally scare people. but when i read the qns again n again. actually it was alright. i read it slowly n make sure i'm calm. though i know that i'm anxious. the balancing of eqn was okie. i got it. believe that i dun have any careless mistakes?! that's all about chem paper bahh. was glad yuanchao did qns 1 4 section 3. haha. bonding!! cos i taught him the day b4. though i rushed 2 the library n didn't got time 4 nap, but glad i taught him so he could do the qns. =) it's not that he dun understand. he's just confused. believe he can. =) kaipeng was giving me that sheepish smile again after the paper. n he was telling me he will fail chem cos he really dunno how 2 do. yahh, realise it look around. haiya, who knows, scarly he got better score than me. =) Marcus was telling me it was a hard paper. n a few people claimed that it was really hard. 4 me, i dunno. i really tried my best. pray hard i score. i dare not think. i dun wanna think. at times i thought i can do it, but end up i score badly. so i rather not think. if i really did badly, i can know how stupid i m..
*it's just a matter of time. my heart will find its way..
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