Saturday, May 06, 2006
1226am.
just back not long ago. WAIT. let me explain b4 telling me off by not studying. ermm, math paper 1 2day. orhh well, it wasn't hard. n some do asked me which papers i think i'll pass or fail. the ans is, i dare not think. it's over, it's over. i dun wanna think, by stressing myself out. or even, making myself upset over it. i dun want. i dun wanna know the score. i wanna realise that i actually studied. i dunno. but the feeling is.. orhh well, if U studied n put in effort. U know every1 is bhind U, U'll eventually b less stress when doing the paper. though my phobia was there still. so afraid i might blank out or collaspe. but, i din give up. esp phy. i stayed till 3 plus just 2 cover out all the topics. was having headache. really a bad 1 n can't focus. but i want 2 carry on. cos i can't give up this way. i keep doing n my head is hurting me. orhh well, n the great great classmate of mine was smsing me, scolding vulgarities just bcos i got headache n can't teach him chi. well, i did scolded him back. SO RUDE OF HIM!! >=
chi paper 2 was alright. eng paper 2 was.. really HARD. esp passage B. haii. poa, was till okie i guess. i studied till 2 plus the day b4. cos i believe i can. though was tired. though can't remember everything, but was better than those normal test that i've done. REALLY!! i did trading n P&L okie!! n those adjustments. though i'm not like others. can get high scores 4 poa. sorry i can't. but i know i had tried my best. well, will try harder next time round. i'm so afraid. chem paper is just few days away. though i got weekends. should b sufficient time 2 revise. but.. i'm just afraid yahh. haiya, know i'm useless. never gonna get gd grade 4 that JUST BCOS I GET ANXIOUS. whatever. that's dumb of me. true, it will b gd if i dun blank out on that day. orhh well, when can that day come?! i pary hard it come on next tues. =(
heh, wasn't having flu anymore. just a slight 1 this morning. i looked sick arr?! haha. i can't c myself. but thanks 4 concerning. =)
I WANNA GET GD GRADES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*i miss them. M S HER J. haha. those usual few lahh. =\
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