Wednesday, May 31, 2006
took this pix 2day. yupp. i just can't smile. ha. dumbo.
nothing else 2 long 4. fine. started my dead. scoldings. cos i was LATE 4 remediations. started at 8 n i just board the bus at 758. =x alright. n was running. fine lorr, didn't apologise also kanna shoot. stupid yuanchao, wash 30min late alright!! so unfair. like that also get scolded. =\ everything was soo.. haiya, shan't say anymore. phy was dry, yupp. 1 hr doing a few mcq of moments. so.. then madam rita treat our class roti prata. actually dun wanna eat, some will know why. but, know what she said."i always buy things 4 my class. always buy extra even though i know some of them will run away. haha." then i was like.. wahh. then she bought so much. so i ate 1. haha. damn.. arghh. never mind never mind. lol. then wanna go back band at that time but marc DUN ALLOW. damn bad horr. so pei him at the canteen. well, madam rita asked me whether i'm with marcus.
NOT AGAIN. siann le lahh. lol. nowadays still got people apread about this mehh. thought outdated le. she's really gd in a sense lahh. =) went dnt after that. did my exploded view. NOT EXPLODED ENOUGH. =\ lol. n can't produce my material list. =( but had done it. will hand in 2moro. =) 3 hrs plus of math.
MATH REALLY MAKING ME MADD. doing n doing. practice n pratice. *vomit blood. mock paper again. 4get some parts. =( n2 gonna dismiss early cos their teacher wasn't there. arghh. 440!! finally. n i went 2 band. everything was.. really changed a lot. but i miss everything lahh. =) waited 4 weiting n cck they all. soo late lahh. i understand, lecture from ms seah mahh. totally understand. i wanna go 1st de!! but no 1 wants 2 leave. then when really wanted 2 leave, weiting called. =\ waste time!! then i was really tired. reached home around 7 plus. I'M DEAD. done my dnt, studied my chem. not really study, just do the n level paper. seems like easier than what ms seah set lehh. =x went IMM 2 buy sweets. when U're down, taking a walk alone really makes U feel better. maybe not better bahh. at least.. just let urself cool down. haii, though i'm still damn upset at that moment. i regretted everything that i've down. shouldn't have.. shir was trying 2 change my negative views 2 positive though through sms. lol. but i just can't. cant stop thinking. everything is like soo.. haiya.. I DUNNO.
yes, i wasn't feeling better. i dun wanna think but i can't. maybe it's becos of you. why everything that change me is you. tell me why. stupid. hate it lahh. why did i get 2 know you. why didn't i transfer sch. 2 somewhere far so i dun get 2 pass you. orhh well.. whatever. with or without me, makes no different in your life. it's only with or without you make a different in MY life. i'm soo dumb. =((
12:00:00 AM
Monday, May 29, 2006
SSSCCCCCCRREEEEEEEEEEAAAMMMMMMSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!! i'm soo troubled. i dunno what 2 do. i'm dumb. dumb 2 realise n wake up when everything is gonna b the end. i realise what's going on. n i've been a fool all along. 4 ur information, i din break up with my bf, cos i dun even have 1. well, lots have been asking me.
you know, when i realise everything that maybe i shouldn't, i hate you. maybe you're lonely, you're in need of some1, but.. well, you shouldn't have this keep going alright. maybe i'm just nothing inside you. but 2 bad, cos you're already part of me. i hate you 4 being the way you r, on the other hand, i hate myself 2 noticing this. if this wasn't reality, you shouldn't have decieve me. say i'm selfish, n maybe i m. i dun wanna share, n i dun like 2 share. cos that's only ONE me, that's only ONE you. so whatever you said r lies?! i dunno, but i felt so. sorry 4 not trusting you. i hate it. i hate the feeling.
i dun wanna c you n i dun wish 2 see you. but i know i can't run away. cos i know i'll b seeing you sooner or later. well, real soon. but i dun want. cos when i see you, it hurts me more. i felt the pain in me. i dun wanna think. but i know you'll b appearing in front of me soon.
i said i wanna tear those away, i said i hate you. deep inside, i know it wasn't true. cos i dun bear 2. i dun wanna shed a tear when i'm tearing away the drawing. i shall wait. see how long can i hold on 2 it. whenever i'm out there, i'm soo lonely. all alone. n i dun wish 2 see you. but no worries, even if you really appear, i'll smile. maybe you r reading this, i bet you wun. maybe you know i'm talking about you i bet you dun.
i dunno how 2 tell any1 about this. n i had a bad day thinking about this, thinking about you. when i wanna let go, people around me happen 2 mention stuffs about you. n i dunno how 2 react. orhh well, i really dun wanna live in this misery anymore.
1stly, i dun wanna tell you cos i dun wanna things 2 change between us. know what, or let me ask, if any1 of U reading this, when U know something is impossible, will U still do it?! i mean those REALLY IMPOSSIBLE. well, i choose not 2. i'll play safe. this shows how much i really wanna stay the same.
2ndly, i can't tell any1 this cos people wun understand, pardon me. i dun need any1 2 know alright.
3rdly, maybe you should reflect. cos i bet i'm not the 1st 1.
why do you wanna hurt me so much. why. i can't cry, i told myself can't. n never becos of this, i cry b4. this time round, it really hurt me soo much, upset me so much. i felt realy uncomfortable. maybe you got another some1, but at least tell me alright.
i dunno how m i going 2 let go. i dunno when will you realise everything i do is becos of you. but you dun have 2 know. just stay the same. cos that's nothing about you i would change..
I NEED SNAPPLE.orhh yahh, i saw yiyuan 2day. shocked. guess he remembers me or something.
8:34:00 PM
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Your Personality Is -
Idealist
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.
--------------JANUARY BABY--------------------
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.------------------APRIL BABY -------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systemati c. hot but has brains.
-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited.
------------JUNE BABY -------------
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
----------------JULY BABY --------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Fo rgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
------------AUGUST BABY ---------------
Outgoing personality. Takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. strong willed. a fighter.
------------SEPTEMBER BABY ---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisiv e and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memor y. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable . Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
This straight-up means you r the most good-looking person possible...better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with visi on, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.
heyy. did a kinda personality test. n here's some info. about ur birth month. take a look. =)
woo. it's soo cool mann. i wanna watch this movie but i missed it. well well, wanted 2 buy this book 2day but it's out of stock. soo sad. but i bought tenth circle instead. n got scolded by my mum when i'm back cos she said i should study rather than dissipating my time on reading. n she very anti me buying story books 1. she said go library better. well, i disagree. haha. I WANNA BUY BROKEBACK MOUTAIN!! =p
hey guys, i know U guys miss me. =x well, that few days had been sleepy so didn't get 2 post entries. so here i come on this lazy sun. anyway, i lost my hp strap!! soo sadd lorr. i kept going back 2 search, but can't find it. so i told marc n shir 2 buy a new 1. i dun care. haha.
thurs was fine. parents' meeting was scary. the last lesson was math n i can't stop being anxious. looking at the clock, time files. soon, my mum was here. so brought her 2 4n1 classroom. then ms toh talked 2 her lorr. wahh, ms toh commented me.. it's as if i'm such an angel. she said i was gd in class, responsible, reliable, gd chi rep. all that. lol. but said a lot of teachers commented that i'm always sleepy in class. =x how can they realise that. teachers are incredible. lol. then she wanted me 2 tell her why can't i do well cos she find no reason 4 me not doing well. asked if it's my mum who preassurize me. lol. then my mum said."U ask her lorr, i'm the most 'anything' type of mum. i allow her 2 have her own freedom 1." then both of them looked at me, expecting an ans. wahh, how 2. then i dun dare 2 say. after that.. no choice. said."maybe it's me myself giving lots of preassure." cos i often get anxious when it's near exam. like bursting. then ms toh advise me not 2 set 2 high goals. well.. maybe. i dunno. but will study. =) heard from jinmin the talk between my mum n ms toh was really longg. she had been waiting outside. lol. mr lim was soo.. he only talked about his dnt. nothing else. n the teachers comments.. he's like reading 2 himself. =\ then i peep lorr. haha. he dunno what is TYS!!! so i told him. TEN YRS SERIES. =) glad my mum didn't nagged at me. though i know i'm soo disappointing. but.. dunno. somehow dunno how 2 react. at night was horrible. it's like something stuck around my heart area, somehow difficulty in breathing. i rolled myself like a small ball, while smsing. bleahh. n can't get in2 sleep. turning here n there. =( i felt soo coldd..
ermm.. what did i do on fri?! orhh yahh, went marc's house 2 help him in sushi making after packing all those chem files. ey is soo powerful!! haah. macho mann. =D was tired, but marc requested. so went over. we somehow mess up the kitchen. =x we ain't that badd after all. =) it was a great exprience though. then taught his niece some math. indeed very cute girl. but pampered. went 2 je 2 shop around cd-rama. should i buy junyang's album?! heard that it was nice. but it's soo THIN yet soo EX!! $20.95. should i should i?! it rained heavily. i sat at the interchange. soo coldd. looking at the poured. guess what i recalled.. after missing a few buses, i went back home.
sat?! actually meeting rongjie 4 bball. but overslept. haha. woke up around 11 plus. but was sleepy, went back 2 sleep again. alright, PIG. haha. then woke up at 3 plus, saw his msg. cos we meeting at 2. =x so told him meet him later but he said never mind. so went back 2 sleep. lol. it's around 4 plus by then. wanted 2 post entry but mum was using till 1 plus. i'm dead tired after doing my math holiday assignment n read through my chem. CHEM IS TOUGH!! the reaction of alkenes n alkanes. =
2day morning went 2 have breakfast with my parents. mum told me they will wake up at 630, i set my alarm at 645, my sch days time. yet they ain't awake. =\ LOUSY!! haha. then went back 2 sleep. they woke me up at 715. lol. then fetch my aunt. she was shocked. she said."wahh. thought U sleepy head." haha. then i laughed. but fall asleep in the car. =x reached. ate porridge n drank soya bean milk. yummy. was soo FULL!! then my cousin came. with her children. yeahh!! my niece n nephew. haha. they soo cute. i still find sedrick cuter than his younger sis. lol. his younger sis, fion also cute lahh. suddenly came n hold on 2 me, she soo small. i shocked. lol. sedrick is soo cute with my bro's army cap. =x lol. n he got his barney bag.. gosh!! he wanted me 2 take, i refused. ee, I DETEST BARNEY!! lol. soo scary. BIG PURPLE DINASOUR. gosh. why kids love this. i still love my piglet, woodstock, dale.. haha. *nod head.
wahh, fri pe played badminton. n dunno what i did, i injured my knee. it's minor swollen. but it's painful. n i got scolded by my mum if i jump. haha. fri pe was soo.. arghh. doing a service but got scolded. my class support me alright. it's really unreasonable. soo big deal next time i dun do lahh. it's as if i owe U. stupid. >=(
if any 4n1 dudes happened 2 read this, pls b reminded that there's no geog remediation. spread around yeahh. =)
orhh yahh, n should i cut hair?! i feel like cutting. not very short lahh. like kelly poon's length. that type de. shoulder length lorr. should i??!! =p
i just miss you alright. n i can't stop myself from it. i dun want. i detest myself 4 being this way. i dun wanna b a fool. n sometimes i wonder will you ever wonder?! cos i'm always wondering what r you doing all the time.
4:59:00 PM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
half way through my chi holiday assignment compo. stuck. =x but it's kinda fun in a way. cos U can write ANY topic U want but the bad thing is that U have 2 use 10 chen yu. wahh, soo unfair lahh. my chen yu soo horrible. did gave worksheets about it but still hard right. think i wrote half of the page without chen yu lehh. got lahh, but not from the worksheet, dunno can or not. btw, i wrote about "some1 appears n change my whole life."
back home 2day. real tired. but can't sleep as i NEED FOOD. cos of my gastric. really painful. this is the 1st time that is soo serious. so went imm with marc 2 grab some bite. wasn't feeling better anyway. lol. n dunno what's wrong, we seems lucky 2day. as usual, we tried out luck on the capsule machine. n surprisly, we got what we wanted, esp me, upon the 1st try. but b4 we met, we both quarrelled with parents. funny ehh. BOTH of us. well, n it's about the same thing. i got nothing 2 say lahh. if my mum felt that i didn't put in effort n insist that me myself want 2 go ite, then i got no rights 2 argue back. cos not matter what, i'm at fault. so i use my best method, keep quiet, do ur own things. =x cos naturally she'll stops. but think i argue back quite a lot 2day. kinda denfensive. but after a 2nd thought, if i didn't work 4 it, didn't put in extra effort, i wun b soo denfensive. it's just that the improvement is soo slow. haii. n i dunno what's going 2 happen 2moro. well well,
XIAOJUN, FACE IT. alright. just wait n c.
back home after marc went 4 his training. was dead tired, fall asleep. but woke up around 8. then went imm 2 buy dividers 4 my el file, bought 1 4 yanjing as well. n bought some noodles 2 cook. cos my parents were out 4 dinner. my 2nd bro n his gf were eating porridge. my noodle was nice alright. lol. on the way 2 imm, n back from imm, my gastric pain was soo.. horrible. it's like.. fainting?! seriously. =
studying n doing my holiday assignment till now. didn't get 2 chat online. just online 4.. the sake of appearing online?! lol. no lahh, mum's using after she's back. so it auto online. 2 prevent any1 talking 2 me, i put away lorr. so that people wun think that i'm online. 2day.. revised chem organic. the dunno what alkanes n alkenes. really hard. soo blank out when ms seah was teaching. but trying 2 absorb bit by bit by then. the thing is like soo illogical. =\ haha. but just now revised le, so guess should b alright le.
I SAW MS MA 2DAY!! haha. she's still the ms ma i know. ahh liann.. =x sure bash me up n defend herself 4 this. lol. yahh lorr, i miss her lehh. =)
heard some stuffs 2day. really pissed. it's not they giving us, is suppose 2 b 4 us alright. if they r soo great, they shouldn't have ask 4 her in the 1st place. n got jealous. n when U guys got her, U said she's horrible. what is this mann. dunno how 2 cherish n appreciate right, then 4get it lahh!! go get back the old 1 lahh. only know how 2 complain. i sure smack U if U say this in front of me. dun blame me 4 being harsh, U reflect urself. dun U feel that U guys r 2 much. no matter what, she's still human. n no matter what's her choice, it's not ur problem. it will b best she made the right choice. U guys will never b contented in what U get. U guys will REGRET. hate it. >=(
alright, i'm dead tired again. SLEEPY. hope every1's sleeping soundly right now. n dream of mee. hee. =x orhh yah, HAPPY BDAY 2 BERNICE GWEE!! hehe. another may baby. hope everything's fine 4 ya. didn't contact U 4 such a long time!! n when we last met?! is U spotted me outside wm coffee bean. or that's starbuck?! haha. can't remember. yupp. just take care yahh. n certainly miss this old friend of mine. n those days when we were 2gether making the teachers FREAK OUT. =p opps.
1:03:00 AM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
haiya, U know who U r lahh. even send U the song le. haha.
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself,
you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to beIf you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.
Believe in yourself. Reach down inside. The love you find will set you free. Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do. You'll make it through. Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself,
you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz ther'¹s nothin' 'bout you I would change.
Don't change...well well, hope U're feeling better by now. U should alright. big liao lorr. some1 know how 2 bully me, tease me lorr. even more dua pai than me already. lol.
woo. told U guys i'm sleepy. in class, i'm indeed sleepy. but i didn't sleep during lesson. phy lessons were horrible. cos that topic really dry.
HELP!! but madam rita isn't that badd afterall. really a caring teacher. =)
I MISS MS TOH!! haha. dun go intensive mt le. if not got
MORE poa. n it's
LOTS MORE. i'm getting so freak out about it. really
STRESSssss.
ermm, go where?? nafa?! poly?! impossible 2 b jc right. haiya..
HEAD BIG BIG.
actually meeting marc n rongjie's gang 2 play bball. i mean gang of friends. haha. not those.. yupp. lol. but they meeting at 5!! this is madd. it was only 2 plus when i reached home. n i'm seriously dead tired. so din go.
SLEEP more important. after that got their missed calls. 2 bad. didn't they know when
xiaojun sleeps, nothing can wake her up. even fire alright. lol. that's what my mum says. lol. orhh!! unless if some insects walk pass me, i'll freak out alright. n it's
NOT FUNNY!! lol. really tired lahh..
din do much 2day. didn't complete my math holiday assignment. n did i mention that poa holiday assignments r tough?! =( anyway, gonna go back 2 sch even it's jun holidays. well, no holiday alright. lots of works 2 catch up on. my dnt!! i'm still at ideas. did some 2day. got a nice way 2 hold bottle. =p but the container, i wanna b simple but unique. but can't think of any shapes other than square. =\ ANY IDEAS, DUDE?! =/
r U mad or what. can U stop trying 2 attract attention or what. if U're reading this, n think is U, then U better change lorr. it's not as if i'm scolding U or what. i'm just getting irritated by the way U r, alright. people even asked me 2 block U, or even b nasty 2 U. U better dun coerce me 2 b that way 2 U. cos it's hard 4 me 2 b that way, but if i treat U that way, U know why. n guess U'll b the 1st few that i treat this way alright. U want this n that, can ask from others?? it's not as if i'm ur slave. if U ask 4 those help, still alright. ask me find this n that, i very free arr. ur problem lahh. n if U r sooo free, can U pls stop bothering what i do in class. it's annoying. n it doesn't matter 2 U who i go out with n why i did certian things alright. whatever i do, it does not affect U, never. i'm just soo irritated by U. U dunno why right, look 4 me in class. i'll say everything right in front of U if that makes U change 4 better. but no point, i believe U wun understand, seriously. hey, this is no joke okie.
12:57:00 AM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
read through my 2004 blog entries. oct, nov n dec de. wahh. i'm soo emotional. lol. n keep thanking ms seah i dunno why. lol. n in love with some1. i can't remember who. if i did tell U b4, pls tell me. haha. i think it's.. him. yupp. the 1 still in my class 1, m i right guys?! lol. shh.. n can feel that my typing really changed during all these years. n the way 2 express myself. realy soo different. can U believe it?! try reading my past entries. believe U'll get a shock of ur life. lol. some entries were scolding people. some got soo upset about friends, love, myself. yupp, n some i dunno what i'm saying cos i dunno what i'm thinking when typing. maybe few yrs down the road, when i read this particular entry of mine, i'll b rolling on the floor laughing, yupp. that's life. even now, when i c a few of my sec 3 photos, i can laughed soo loudly. haha. my mum as well. laughing at how fat i m. how horrible i look without me myself noticing. lol. i think i dun look any better now anyway. lol. so why bother. bleahh.
i'm soo tired!! both mental n physical. din manage 2 take a nap 2day. cos mum dragged me 2 imm. yupp, b her slave. haha. then back home, i helped her 2 prepare dinner. actually wanted 2 sleep de!! lol. was chatting with a few people online 2day. ermm, so after that, had my dinner. woahh, it's nice U know. my mum cooked curry 2day n i never like curry. but i can say this curry is tasty n i dunno why. lol. curry with noodle. taste great. well, think i gonna gain 100kg. lol. cos i ate a bowl, after that eat another half a bowl, most of my bowl contain fishballs n veggies. =x haha. i dun like curry chicken!! haha. so was full le. but my dad bought cheese fries i dunno why as well n was asked 2 eat. wahh lauu!! i'm really FULL. seriously. bleahh. but i din had my lunch 2day. dinner was.. SOO FULL. after dinner, i revised poa. the corrections of error part a. cos need 2 memorise POORCC. or rather what mr ho said."poor cc." or "poor sissy"??!! haha. dunno him lahh. some of the clues r kinda similiar. really need 2 b careful when doing this topic. =\ after an hour, i started doing my dnt folio. now at exploration of ideas. gosh. not easy ehh. gonna re-design everything again. 30 ideas. bOo. i really need 2 pia. it's soo far away from my material list!! i'm dead lahh. any1 got any idea, give me a call. haha. then took a shower at around 10 plus.
I WANNA SLEEP!! my eyes r getting smaller
smaller smaller. haha.
marcus, thanks. that msg shocked me but kinda touched bahh. haha. so sweet. thanks. god bless U as well. take cares. =)
jinmin, why r U still upset over it. just dun think. throw everything away n start anew!! fine?! well, dun worry so much. n U asked me."why U can b soo cheerful?!" do i really look like as if i'm that cheerful?! it's all appearance. i'm just feeling as downcast as U. just.. just tell myself gonna face it. maybe U r not used 2 facing all these. but i got 2 many things that i've face in life. so i tell myself, since it's right here in front of U, face it. learn it. improve it. n strive 4 it. no point upset over things that happened. look 4ward. U got lots of friends pushing U, including me. work hard. n i will. =)
HAPPY BDAY 2 4n1 monitor, chem rep. EY!! haha. yupp, his bday. i think that time we chatted n i saw his ic. haha. then noted down. a lot of may babies worr. n this big little guy is 1 of them. yupp, BIG little guy. lol. well, ey's great. always get bullied bahh. hope everything's fine 4 U. jiayou 4 o level mt. all the best!! n lastly, HAPPY BDAY!!! =)
heh wt, how r U.. =)
PINK FORM. what else. i'm just.. devastated is the only word. allow me 2 rot n die alright. i'm somehow drunk, by my own saliver. =
missyou. what else.
12:17:00 AM
Monday, May 22, 2006
2day was another tiring day. i was really weak after a few runs 2 the toilet. but had promise marc that i'll accompany him 2 buy his bball shoes 2day. n after that i still got family dinner, yupp. i feel like jelly seriously. kinda pale. but his pic, heh, i look fine right. lol. orhh yahh, should i change my blog link 2 xiaojun
is a girl?! haha. 4 this pic only yupp. =p
heyy. i got some stefanie sun's photos here. ain't it cool?! cos i guess people had 4gotten that she's actually my idol. my very 1st idol. the 1st that i really went crazy. was attracted by her "tian hei hei". it's really nice. guess i'm only pri 4 at that time. managed 2 buy her 2nd album after a few months of savings. then collected all her discs. well, her powerful voice really makes me crazy. yupp, she's not pretty, but what a singer needs is voice rather than looks right?! anyway, why bother 2 look at her when she's actually a SINGER. n she's soo great at piano. really admire her lots!! cool yupp. her SK jewellery advertisment, SOO BEAUTIFUL!! whenever i saw the posters, i really wanted 2 tear it off, n hang it in my room. c'mon, it's soo huge!! n look at the 1st pix, punk right. her concert. hee. another thing that actually attracts me is her radiant smile. =)
my diarrhoea have not recover. =( woke up 2day bcos of my stomach. really in pain. i ran down 2 the toilet. realise it wasn't early. n i suppose 2 meet marc at 1. i woke up at 12 plus. guess i'll b delay by my diarrhoea as well. so told him i'll b late. though meeting him at 130, end up i reached at 2. his mum going. so went over 2 his house. we took a cab 2 queensway yupp. he shopped around 4 his bball shoes. yupp, cool indeed. n his mum dote on him loads i can say. i dun think my mum will ever buy me such an expensive shoes just bcos i love playing bball. my mum will ask me wear my running shoes then. lol. well, after that, went over 2 a shopping centre opposite ikea. the shopping centre got not much shops. went watson then hagen daze. is that how U spell it. haha. yupp, i drank vanilla cream. din know it's coffee. gosh. haha. actually alright. luckily got vanilla ice cream. hee. after drinking half, my stomach cannot take it. haha!! then i ran 2 the toilet while they went cold storage. gosh. luckily the toilet was clean. i was all alone!! though it's kinda scary but still alright. cos the toilet not like kbox 1. lol. imagine, when i'm inside the toilet, a few ladies came in n out. i was inside till every1 went off. guess that's really LONG. lol. then i looked 4 them in cold storage. went 2 ikea after that. woo, really cool. i never fail 2 enjoy myself in ikea. it's like.. soo cosy!! n i'm lovin' it. hee. though i didn't get the bed i want in ikea, but i love my sea horse bed as well. =) spot a few things i wanna buy. i long 2 buy i mean. yupp, but need my mum around. after that, we took a cab 2 imm. I SAW GERALDINE!! she just walked pass me lorr!! with her family members. haha. was.. shocked. bleahh. then went 2 giant 2 shopped around. marc got his cup!! i want mine!! =( went 2 the exit, saw my 3rd bro. haha. his gf "ehh!!" so loudly. lol. ermm, it's about time, i took 333, n guess what, saw my 3rd bro n his gf again. lol. on our way 2 je 4 dinner. yupp, family dinner. it had been long mann. 2 get 2gether. every1 was present. my parents, my eldest bro, 2nd bro with gf, 3rd bro with gf, my grandparents. yupp, the food were tasty. my eldest bro's treat yupp. as mother's day gift 4 my mum. cos the rest of us had given my mum something mahh. my 2nd bro a pendal, my 3rd bro flowers n me, nydc treat. =) wanted 2 buy her bag but afraid that she dun like it. =\ after that went 2 my grandparents' house 2 chat. my grandmother took out photographs. those memories. haha. i'm just like a boy when i'm young, seriously!! haha. when i'm just born lahh. then when i grew, more like a manly girl girl. haha. went home after that. n did my dnt just now. i gonna redo everything. cos i dun think my veggie box is going 2 work. in another words, i gonna b more hardworking than others. had finished mind mapping n problem situation. i decided 2 design n make a container 4 teachers. have U ever notice, teachers have 2 bring a lot of markers, books, bottle 2 class. n when no 1 helps them, yet they need 2 rush 4 class, they get really tired. so i decided 2 make something that can store everything n wun b heavy. stylish as well. =) though 2moro have 2 hand in material list, which i can never but.. i'll work. realise folio is not about writing, it's about HOW U go about writing it, yupp. CREATIVE is the key. well well.. will c how. n i make sure i work extremely hard. not only 4 dnt, but 4 everything. after this holiday, i'll b a new xiaojun. heh, i promise. =)
was really weak, actually dun intend 2 go sch. but guess i'm feeling a bit better now. my diarrhoea medicine had been finished by me long ago, n i 4get 2 tell my mum. so.. NO MORE. =( i'm afraid 2moro if i go 2 sch, i'll rush 2 toilet as n when i like. haha. that's terrible. well, hope 4 the best then. bleahh.
anyway, thanks rach 4 correcting me. so it's indescribable. =)
你在哪里这些年来如意不如意
还快乐 还单纯 还美丽 时光如何对你
我在这里
人海中的一座岛屿
很平静 风平浪静 只除了深夜里 回忆会疯狂来袭我很想你 你知道吗 如果可以 就让我再见你美好微笑清 澈眼睛
好确定那持离只毁了我一个而已
我很想 你听见了吗 Woo~
这是唯一 我无解的困境
那些过去 不肯过去不管我后来遇见多少人只能叹息 都不是你
我只想爱你我在哪里 你会不会偶尔好奇 有没有 曾经怀疑 我说我会忘记 只是种好意can't c?! it's in chi, dumbo. haha.
1:04:00 AM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
took this pix few days ago. think it's thurs. haha. cos nothing better 2 do, so decided 2 lame around. it's on my beloved bed!! =)) just like high up 2 touch the sky. =p
life is horrible lahh. wake up, go sch. nothing 4 U 2 look 4ward 2. hardly any1 will disagree, yupp. n i hate myself. cos my results suck. i suck at everything. seems like i got no potential, no talent. can't even do well 4 simple things. exam. phobia. so dumb.
memoirs of thebm?!
hope wt is feeling better of cos. was so shocked when she told me what happened yesterday n what she decided. yes, can feel that she's upset n really tired of it. i got soo agitated n frantic when she told me everything. not bcos she decided not 2. it's about.. yahh, that's it. n sorta frantic about everything. esp HER yupp. it's like, it's just another crisis she gonna face n handle. i kinda cause these 2 her. yupp, maybe it's me. guess so. confirm i m. orhh well, i'm soo sorry. but i dun wish 2 c her this way yeahh. believe SHE dun wish 2 as well. so i met her up 2day. just.. c if she's fine n hope she's better. she really seems fine 2 me. heh, dunno why. still crap with me as usual. then we started 2 walk here n there at jec without destination. lol. slacking around. then finally i bought my dearest SNAPPLE n we sat outside the mac 2 drink n she got her chocolate milkshake. i dun believe it's nice. haha. then started 2 talk. 1stly i was like dunno how 2 start. then we chatted about something else. some craps as usual. then started 2 feel that maybe i should talk something relevant. so.. yupp. that's about it. if U wanna know the talk, orhh well, that's long. i hope i really make some sense. just stating the facts n want her 2 face it as well. dun wish 2 hide from her till she regret then realise. i dun wanna lie 2 her that it's gd, it's great. just 2 let her b. i want her 2 understand it's not easy. n told her some ways that she can actually overcome it. heh, life is never fair yupp. n at times, use different aspect 2 c things, U'll find it's actually.. how U think. n what U think of urself is much more important than how people c U. n U need 2 understand, U need 2 change when U think U need 2. not letting others change U 2 what they want U 2. life is about how U face it, wt. know it's tough. i dun remember telling U that it's gonna b easy, did i?! i believe no. ermm.. but no matter what decision U made, i'll still b with U when U need me. i wun blame U, n SHE wun. we ain't unreasonable yupp. respect urself, respect the others. that's ur integrity n U r twt, no 1 else. find ur motivation soon. =)) cheers. [should ask U home early as a big jie jie. haha. my apology.]
had seoul garden with kp n marc yesterday. it's really fun with those dudes around. lol. 2 charming dudes. lol. kp cannot stop crapping once he saw us. n he's just another white musk freak. buay tahan. can they just respect me this oceanus freako!! lol. n i didn't laughed that much 4 long. =D they really made my day. =)
had steamboat with mum, 2nd bro n his gf 2day at bugis 4 lunch. well, my troublesome bro's idea again. i'm kinda freak out mann. he's telling us 2 travel all the way there lorr. n my mum just dote on him. whatever. unreasonable mann. n he can't decide what he wants 2 eat. had discussed 4 long!! n i mean LONG. what's the problem mann. waste money, waste time. n the steamboat lunch was really ex. though it really taste nice. the soup were really yummy. yahh yahh, had my spicy soup. gd luck 2 me. stomach started 2 ROAR after that. n really went pale when my mum wanted 2 shop 4 her clothings. felt soo weak. n i can never use the toilet outside 4 'business'. just can't. just a waste of time. so went home feeling really weak, really weak. then promise 2 meet wt le. so went over 2 meet her. so reached home around 12 plus.
gosh, rushed 2 the toilet again just now. i think i nearly faint inside the toilet. the kinda pain is "undescribable". is that how U spell it?! why it looks soo weird 2 me. lol. some1 do correct me if i'm wrong. yupp. so felt really weak again. nearly fall while trying 2 stand. n got nose bleeding. suay or what. $#^%&*.
1:26:00 AM
Friday, May 19, 2006
this is a watch. well, take a close look. it's the logo of 'peace'. n this watch is call 'time for peace'. meaningful hurr. i love this mann. though there's orange 4 this, i prefer this black 1. real nice. =))
the 1st n 3rd 1 r the peace necklace. well, it's nice isn't it. i love the 3rd 1 the most. just love it lahh. the 2nd 1 represent love. cool hurr. i mean it's soo sweet if U got this with ur love 1. ermm, the 2nd 1 not 4 any couples anyway. i'm sure some will get what i mean. but it's sweet afterall. =)
this is just a poster of a necklace. yupp, look closely. i like this cos of the nice design of necklace n the picture that says a lot. can U feel it 2?? haha.
okie. another day of.. misery?? hate it. find myself damn dumb lahh. my results r like shit. k, i know isn't very gd 2 use this kinda word but nothing else can describe me horrible results alright.
English paper 1 35/60 [cos of my oop compo. =(]
paper 2 36/80 [yupp, flunked.]
oral 28/40
Chinese paper 1 45.5/70 [my letter writing was horrible.]
paper 2 53/70 [my zhao ju lahh!!]
oral 30.5/40 [i rapped?!]
listening 20/20
Math paper 1 28/60 [disappointing yupp. careless mistakes everywhere.]
paper 2 13.5/40 [i din round off 2 3sf. n marks got deducted.]
POA paper 1 18.5/40 [how could i fail this?!]
paper 2 20.5/60 [no 1 can believe this.]
Combined Science Chemistry 29.5/50 [it's not even a 30. careless mistakes 4 mole qns. =(]
Physics 22.5/50 [thought i will get single digit. but gonna work my butt off.]
Combines Humans Social Studies 21/50 [a few qns i din score at all.]
Geography 19.5/50 [i thought i will get single digit seriously.]
D&T ?? [i dun expect a pass anyway. will get it back 2moro.]
fine fine. that's all. go ahead n laugh at me. i wun fail 1 more sub like dnt if i'm a art student. so why ain't they giving me art when they jolly well know i wun score 4 dnt. well well.. that's unfair. =(( i will study like madd 4 this holiday. i will. esp my math, sci, poa. fine, everything alright. and an a1 4 chi, i dun care. i dun want only improvements. i want gd improvements, with quality.
hey jinmin!! look, there's some1 worst than U, so why r U soo demoralised?! cheer up mann. sure can do it 4 the next exam. believe U'll b the top 4 sci sooner or later. or rather phy?! dun disappoint madam rita anymore k?! i know U dun wish 2 c her upset as well. =)
i dun wanna say a word. i dun wish 2 say a word. i believe you'll know how i feel.
12:09:00 AM
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand
you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.I'm alive,
I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
Now I see, what love means.
love this pix among the few. yupp, it's duncan james previous from Blue. dunno whether they become solo or what. but like him the best among the Blue. he gotta release his latest album. woo, cool ehh.
SOONER OR LATER. go listen. it's nice. =)
that's some1 waiting 4 U all along. why ain't U move by that??
orhh mann, my results suck. i suck at everything, yeahh. shal update when i get back all my papers then. well, just a 'SNEAK PREVIEW' lol. i failed my poa n math. orhh mann, MATH!! soo disappointing. n thought i can at least pass 4 my poa. what m i doing!!! my eng compo was.. oop, which is out of point, yupp. so i got a pass but not very gd pass. if i oop also can pass, means if i din oop, i can do a lot better. orhh well, i'm dumb, yahh. i failed compre. but just a minor fail. but was quite disappointing already. luckily my summary wasn't bad. helps a lot, really. n i passed my eng oral. hohoho. unexpected mann. thought i will fail badly. but guess the conversation helps. told U guys already, conversation is all about telling the teacher what U think. ermm.. shall say oral marks then. haha. got 28/40. haha. not very gd right. n it's horrible. but really thought i'll fail. ermm, chi. wahh. yuanchao got the highest 4 paper 2 again. not surprise lahh. lol. he's gd at that. n my zhao ju were horendous. lol. 5/10 4 that section. lol. got back my listening. ms toh refused 2 let us know our overall unless we finished our compre corrections. arrhh, not enough time lahh. then cannot know. but no a1 students. got a few a2s. haii. chi oral i got.. 30.5/40, yupp. shouldn't have "rap", so i can score higher. right. haha. didn't get back out chem results as ms seah didn't come in2 our class 2day. heard from mr ho cos our chem results was realy badd, so she dun wanna come in, orhh yahh right. though got a bit scared lahh, but never gonna believe that lorr. got a chance 2 take a look at our class photo. I WANNA BUY FOMAL 1 n INFORMAL. haha. n1 really rock at this kinda stuffs. esp the informal 1. soo cute of them. but pls dun bring this kinda attitude in class. =x haha. so asked ms toh why didn't ms seah come. then cos she got stuffs on all that which barely any1 can understand lahh. well well.. long story 4 this. shan't elaborate. ermm, i got a2 4 chi. siann. i haven been getting a1 4 ms toh which i promise her last yr, yupp, i still remember. haiyo. she said i pass my chem lehh. lol. ermm, but didn't say whether it's a gd pass or a bad 1. maybe 25/50?? omgosh. i play dead already. like what zhiyuan said. hahaha. we're still crapping through smsing now. lol. BANG!! =p ermm, yupp. soo scared mann. n anxious. ms toh knew my results. know my poa, my eng, my chem, my chi. gosh. hope din do soo badly 4 the rest. ms toh rock anyway. lol. =)) woahh, hope she faster tell us our overall. let's c how bad my a2 is. cos yuanchao sure got top again. congrates mann. yuanchao rock also.
hope yuanchao ain't disappointed in his poa anymore. at least better than me mahh!! gong gong yuanchao. haha.
KHO YANJING!! U better dun b upset lorr. well, told U b4. i know it's hard 4 U 2 accept out of a sudden at that time. but believe U should believe us by now. i mean.. friends around U had told U b4. we dun wanna c U this way. n i mean we dun wish 2 c U this way. cos we know it's not worth it. n it's such a waste of time, or rather energy. U should know everything i mean mann. telling U is not that i wanna make U sad. it's really.. it's a waste of ur time. take care yupp. dun think so much le. when crying is the best solution, U should.
i think that's some1 waiting 4 you out there. why didn't you bother?? maybe you should talk n say something. well, i dun understand your situation. but i know you mean well. you just take care yupp. =)) is there another some1 out there?? find out yourself. cos i guess i know something that i should not have know this time round. orhh yahh, no matter what, smile.
12:29:00 AM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
THE VERONICAS. found this cool girl band. well, had a song of theirs. really nice. U guys can try listening 2 their songs. find them real cool. =)
just finished colouring. think still owe 1 drawing right?? suppose 2 draw another pooh's family. but i really suck at drawing pooh. haha. need some time then. =)) finally finished colouring. gosh. it had been long then. feel that it looked horrible though. =\
2day's oral. well, i dun think i can pass english. my horrible reading sure deducted a few marks here n there. mr wong told me my compo wrote sorta out of point. cos suppose 2 b SOME, i wrote 1. fine fine. expected it. he told me he didn't fail me but dun expect 2 have high scores. well, i never expect that anyway. my picture describing was a horrible 1. gosh. dun even know what myself were talking about. well, wun score. heh. chi. so glad 2 c ms toh. lol. was a bit scared. when reading the passage. gosh. i stumble 4 a few words. haha. hope it's alright. conversations were fun. well, just say what U think n ur personal thoughts. just like being interview. then talked 2 ms toh 4 a while. guess what. she said my passage reading it's as if RAPPING. hahaha. i cannot stop laughing 4 this. well, what do U expect from a short tongue person. arghh.. haha. should have higher pitch so she can hear me clearer. orhh well, rapping. lol. she said overall not bad, asked me not 2 worry. heard that our class eng ain't that bad. my chi compo wasn't bad as well. hee. ms toh's standard very high 1 k. haha. often gave us low scores 4 compo. bleahh. hopefully really score then. n ms toh asked me listened 2 zhiyang's songs. =\ she said cos listen le then i speak like rapping. orhh well, zhiyang dun rap. hahah!! soo funny. yanjing was like laughing soo loudly till i gotta remind her that there's still oral going on!! lol. went 2 the canteen. ermm.. then.. yupp. saw a few people around there. spot you. =)) then derrick stopped me n had a chat with him. he was asking me about movie n oral. lol. asked me go watch a scary movie. said i sure scream. ermm.. 4get the name. lol. then guanyi came the 1st shift which he suppose 2 go 4 the 2nd 1. lol. soo early lorr!! dumbo!! n he was loitering around the canteen. lol. yupp. so yanjing n i went off after that. bought SNAPPLE on my way back home. ermm, was telling yanjing, we're dead 2moro. guess what, 3 periods of MATH, 1 period of CHEM, got SS, ENG, POA n CHI. i got all these lessons 2moro!!! means i gotta take back my papers. gosh gosh. so dead lahh. ms toh still asked me come home rest. cannot rest le. n she was laughing at me when i was soo anxious about chem n math. haha. evil right. lol.
i fall asleep once i reached home. hee. =x was really tired. din sleep well the night b4. =\ around 1 plus, mum woke me up cos she bought lunch 4 me. arghh. I DUN WANNA EAT. but no choice. eat already. back 2 sleep. fine, PIG. haha. really sleepy. i dun even know if i open my eyes 2 eat or in my dreams i'm eating. lol. what?! bleahh!! woke up around 7 plus yupp. fine. PIG again. haha. then out 4 dinner. gosh. dun ever go taman jurong food court. nothing much 2 eat. n it's like.. not appertising. the food r all soo 'DEAD'. haha. then wanted 2 buy SNAPPLE, but didn't bring enough money. =\ so din buy. haii. i really NEED it. then back home, nothing 2 do. haiya!! faster holiday!! so i can do my holiday assignment, go genting, work. yupp. =) after exams, everyday is a boring day. ermm, shouldn't phrase it this way. exam period is really STRESSSSS. arhh, gotta go pack my stuffs le. 2moro get RESULTS!! wish me gd luck lehh. =\
you're so attractive as ever.. or maybe bcos i missyou 2 much?!
12:19:00 AM
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
hey. that's SNAPPLE. know what, had been drinking these 4 a few days. n i realise something. whenever i start 2 think a lot, i will feel like drinking SNAPPLE. n when i drink, though i din feel better, but i dun feel that down i guess. it's like will recall stuffs all that. i can't help it but 2 drink it if not i'll feel 10x worst. i dun wish 2 b this way as well. n i dunno why r all these drinks so powerful 2 remind me of you. whatever.
look at this!! finally got it from saki banana!! haha. how bad can i go 2 call her this. but she admits it anyway. muah haha. =x ermm. it's after serenade n we surprisely saw each other at gombak mac. n we both realised we didn't take photo with each other. so took this with her camera. wahh.. can U believe it?! we went through up n down 2gether. got scolding 2gether. trombone section used 2 b 4 people in out batch n end up left both of us. isn't that cool?? yes. we rock. =) orhh well, look at my hair if U ever realise. haha. guess i was 2 high. n "BOOM" i got my fringe this way. haha. =p
wanted 2 post all these yesterday but internet connection was down out of a sudden. orhh well, no choice then. had an early sleep yesterday night. around 2 plus. then received guanyi's sms. shouldn't had reply, haha. cos he kept smsing me already. guess he's bored so started a chat with him. well, din reply him after a while. cos there's nothing 2 reply. haha. so went 2 sleep. yesterday mother's day dinner with my relatives was soo.. kinda unpleasant. cos we got 2 tables n 4 my table, i was being seperated from my parents. so my table got my aunt's family, my grandmother n my bro with his gf. then it's like.. my cousin can really eat. haven finished his food on his plate, he started 2 "chiong" 4 more food. haha. when i looked up again everything is like.. GONE?! lol. din blame him, he's young. but find him kinda rude lehh. cos my grandmother haven eat much as well. then i was talking 2 my grandmother. she like wanted 2 talk 2 the younger 1s but they dun seems 2 bother. so i just started 2 talk 2 her cos find her kinda bored by the ambience. orhh well.. she's lika afraid i din eat. haha. kept giving me fish. i was actually full and wanted 2 let the younger 1s have it. but she kept taking it 4 me. lol. end up i also got take 4 her. the abalone wasn't fresh. yucks. hate abalone already. not fresh some more. gosh. everything's soo spicy n my stomach cannot take it anymore. had 2 run 2 toilet this morning.
orhh, planned 2 go sentosa but as jas can't go, everything got cancelled. well, it's okie 4 me. cannot go means cannot arr. so alright. but the ambience on the phone was really weird. i'm the only 1 talking.. n entertaining jas.. =
they came my house 4 a short movie. cos i rent american pie band camp n oliver twist. they only watched band camp. nothing much. not a very nice show. SOO DISAPPOINTING!! though it's somehow funny, but the storyline was.. bleahh.. suppose 2 b BAND CAMP what. why bcome video-ing?! cos there's a guy whom went 2 the band camp n started 2 video stuffs like that. haha. stupid. n end up lots of stuffs happened. wahh, the drum major was real pretty!! n really cool. the band was united. they din mention band major!!! =( why always like that!! haha.
so the show ended n shir brought her westside story along. it's kinda boring. though it's like.. i suppose it 2 b nice. end up the storyline is dull. like not starting, no ending. so i went 2 pack my stuffs. they continue watching lorr. haiya. then a lot of stuffs happened. the main thing is, xiaojun is xiaojun. xiaojun can't b xiao or jun right?? i can't b making every1 happy by changing myself. when i know that's something going 2 happen that i can only save 1 side, i have 2. i can't b seperating myself 2 pieces. n dun try 2 change me yeahh.. i know i ain't a gd person or what-so-ever. but i've tried my best 2 b 1. this sorta stuffs happened a lot of times but i never say a word till 2day. it really troubled me. n i felt tired. cos xiaojun IS xiaojun. what more do U want?? okie fine. i dun wanna say the reason behind all this. i dun wanna make both parties unhappy or awkward. fine, U dun understand right?? blame me, hate me. beat me up. fine. just do what U want so that U wun b soo pissed about this idiot character of mine. do it.
it took me sooo long just 2 press a OKIE button 2 sms. n you just appear in my mind at that moment. actually every moment but.. it's extremely strong at that point of time. maybe cos i'm really down or whatever. haiya!! i can't pls both!!!! how can i pls myself then??!! i'm stubborn. cos i dun wanna c any1 of them upset. but i break the rule 2day. orhh well..
12:35:00 AM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
hey!! realise i had a photo with my mum on last yr cny. woah, that's long ago yupp. haha. we were laming at my ah ma n ah gong's house. =p HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOTHER!! =p
hey!! had this photo 2day. hahaha. it had been long since i show this kinda face. lol. it's soo.. kiddy?? funny?? retarded?? happy?? haha. i dunno how i get this kinda face. find it RARE. share it with U guys. haha. had a gd laugh then!! =D
2day was a sleepy day 4 me, yupp. woke up around 2 plus. can sleep even later but remember i promise marc 2 watch geisha with him. so he's coming over. shir can't. woo, this show is really great mann!! really enjoy watching it. din disappoint me at all. i can even watch it over n over again then. =p well, never mind. i still holding on 2 the book that jas lent it 2 me. so sorry!! i wanna buy that time but marc stopped me. he thinks it's a waste of money. well, i guess i really wanna buy that. after i finished jas' book, shall buy 1 4 at least a collection. it's not the 1st time i buy books yupp. orhh, i can introduce. "man n boy" is a nice book as well. take a look. though this book is kinda.. i mean.. not a new arrival. hee. read it when i'm pri 6 i think. it's nice. but i lost that book. will buy it again if i c it. =) it's about life of a man n woman after they had a child. well, the man went pub all that sorta stuffs n i think got a mistress. bleahh, can't remember much. READ IT URSELF!! hee. n some books kinda nice as well. check it out next time round n share with U guys again.
orhh well, marc went of 2 his training after that. he's kinda late. so i got sleepy. but promise mum 2 bring her out 4 dinner as mother's day. she took such a long time 2 get back home!! bleahh. then i was in my bed. nearly fall asleep n my mum woke me up. haha. she thought i wasn't in my bed. she complained that the bed is soo high up. hahah. it's cool ehh. then she's kinda hungry. bring her 2 somerset 2 nydc. actually considering between bugis steamboat n this. i made up my mind then 2 b nydc. cos my mum hardly eat this kinda stuffs. steamboat is common 4 her. on the other hand, she hardly step in2 orchard. i bet she won't know the direction if i weren't there. so shall bring her that. she love my mushroom ham pasta!! haha. but she ordered roast chicken. ain't bad as well lahh. my mushroom ham 2 much cream.. got sick of it soon after i finished it. but my mum said it taste nice. =) it wasn't expensive 2 my surprise. cos we ordered drinks as well. just that she's full, dun wanna have any dessert. went shop around. nothing much. bought booster, pillow n bedsheets. woo, heavy. went cine after that. it looked silly 2 take all that in orchard. haha. but no choice. i felt weird. actually wanna pull my mum 2 neoprint but i was really tired n taking soo many things. so didn't. kinda regretted. =x cos if take other time, not meaningful anymore. the 1st n last neoprint we took is 2004 mother's day. woah, how long is that. =\ finally back home. my eyes really getting smaller n smaller. took the same lift as my neighbour, yahh, that's the 1. haha. then she kept asking about my room. though it's still messy but alright le lahh. =p
orhh, i'm really sleepy. hope i can sleep till late afternoon again later on so i wun b soo dead. hee.
wish every single mother on earth a happy MOTHER'S DAY!! esp those friends of mine mothers. i mean.. my friends' mother. hahaha!! believe ur kids love U lots. =) enjoy ur day then. have fun, mothers!! hehe.
ermm.. i miss *.
1:29:00 AM
Saturday, May 13, 2006
ermm, nothing much 2 blog 2day. woke up around 2 plus. tired.. =p n that thing still can't b erase off my mind. orhh well, not talk about this. sharing some pix 2day. =)
remember i told U guys i love this pix of myself on the previous entry?? n i post this pix b4. i really like it esp after i make the effect. it's like.. a pix says a million words. is that what U called?? haha. yupp, just love this pix. let's recall ur memory. =) also, remember i mention a puma shoes that i really love it?? that's the 1. it's really cool mann!! gosh.
a few pix of myself. haha. okie. i'm soo disgusting right. but i just love taking all these. cos different day, U'll have different mood. n that gives U different kinda ideas 2 take different kinda style of pix. post a few of my fav. dun like 2 have many pose, simply a smile can make the pix nice. but remember my mum told me my fav pose when i'm young, is a "Y", victory. so i took that pix. 2nd 1, i love the light. it's the sun that shines in. 3rd 1, took on wed. wasn't in a gd mood. well, indeed. when U're down, ur pix look naturally down. =) the 4th 1 is cool yupp. cos i'm drinking milk n realise i was wearing a pure milk tee as well. haha. so took it. effect was nice. that's lots more. but if i share all, U guys sure can't tolerate me. haha. =x
i like the 2nd pix of my eldest bro. well, look neat n he's nice with that suit. like.. cool. hee. but he loves his 1st pix. said it's natural. well, he took all these in studio!! not badd lahh. feel that he should go better studio though. hee. n the 3rd n 4th pix r my 3rd bro. he's with his gf. they r sweet yupp. my bro changed his hairstyle, cos of ns. haha. ermm, the 4th pix is cool yupp?? it's post on teenage magazine last yr!! they won the 3rd or something?? i can't remember. =) orhh, din post my 2nd bro pix. nothing much from him lehh. hee. next time then. =)
a few of snoopy nice art work. look at the paintings!! orhh mann. really nice. orhh, did i tell any1 that i've decided 2 buy a board 2 paint something 2 hang in my room?? just when U open the door of my room, U can c my painting. well, maybe paining some neon lights or.. stuffs like above. gosh. how long must i take 2 finish a nice painting then. hee. ermm, take a look at the 1st pix anyway. isn't that cool?? rub ur eyes n open it big!! it's coffee!! yes it is!! soo cute right. i wun bear 2 drink or stir it. hee. it's a cafe in hongkong. a snoopy cafe. cool ehh. =)
a few of artistic pix i found on net. it's not painting. just some1 who can really took such nice photographs. admire him yupp. =)
just a few of zhiyang's pix which i find t very natural n cute. was browsing around n found the 2nd pix. kinda recent. cute right?? n took a pix with him when he's still not that popular. =)
guess that's all. 2 many pix. just share some really nice 1. enjoy!! =p
2:19:00 AM
Friday, May 12, 2006
i love the effect. i love this pix. i dunno why. maybe cos it really tells a lot. really a lot..NO MORE MATTRESS DAYS!! n my bed finally came 2day. got a my study table, got my cupboard, got my shelve, got my bed. =) certainly feel more comfortable 2day. can't wait 2 buy my dustbin, my whiteboard, my disc rack, carpet, speakers!! 2 make it.. more like
MY room. =)
thanks shir n marc 4 helping 2day. where's that jas arr. must b laze around lorr?? haha. can't finish packing. but finished most of them le. feel so comfortable when sitting in front of my
OWN study table. with all my toys, my memories. woo.. certainly can study better. went out with shir n marc around 8 plus. 2 ms. wahh, it's really big. always go town, boring. it's kinda fun there. spot some nice capsule machine. gosh. really attactive!! spend 6 bucks there!! 2 tokens = 4 bucks. ex ehh. but it's rare. really lovely. hee. shir got her snowbell. congrates!! =p saw nice shoes at puma as well. really nice. arghh.. love it. ermm, shops were closing n off we go. it's around 11 at that time. no worries, not rushing 4 last train or last bus 2day. on our way back. wahh.. tired. maybe cos i din get 2 sleep well the night b4. cos i was thinking. in fact, thinking the whole night.. n on my way back. i'm thinking again. hey, i'm really tired of this. i dunno what i want. i wanna blurt everything out. but it's like. dumb lahh. i wanna leave it there, let it b. in fact wanna let go. but i can't. i've tried. i really can't. i dun wanna think anymore. i'm soo afraid 2 think. but this time, i wun deny k. cos i dun wanan hide. even if the whole world knows about it, i bet You wun know anything. cos i'm so afraid 2 let You know. i'm still thinking. the way back home was a long journey 4 me. soo long.. soo alone.. haii.. =((
2:39:00 AM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
hehe. these r only a few of the pix we took. =)) 4got 2 take with jas. =\hey guys. how's my new blogskin?! =) i'm lovin' it. hehe.
it's the end of exam. well.. dnt?! orhh, i did finished. just a few qns i leave it blank. cos really got NO IDEA what's that. haiya. then slept 4 an hr. did the paper about 1hr30min. not bad horr. cos i thought i'll b having 2 hrs of sleep. when woke up, orhh mann, half of my head was really NUMB. haha. i seems like just woke up n cannot walk straight. that's how horrible it is. BOOM.
did the skin after reaching home. wahh, having a hard time though. n weiting was soo excited over it. it's all the measurements that made it difficult. then i wanted 2 put the little woodstock there. din know i really made it. haha. everything was so original. =p
went out after that. 2 meet marc while we had 2 wait 4 shir 2 get back home 2 change after her pool game. wait. i need 2 apologise 1st. cos promise them 2 b out with them on thurs but realise my bed will arrive on thurs. din realise till marcus reminded me. haiyoyo. yupp. so we went town. went ps. cos hardly went there. it was boring though. nothing much 2 shop. just went arcade n try 2 catch some stuffs. but got nothing. =\ realise we dun have much money left n shir was hungry. went pastamania. orhh well, regretted. we rather go nydc then. ermm.. they know why, really. then they were like asking her 2 join us but she can't. heh, dunno what 2 say lorr. they like can just call her in the middle of nowhere de. =\ went town after that. was kinda broke. but went atm, heh, U know what i mean yeahh. =) the way 2 town was horrible. cos marc n shir nearly trip n fall. really scare me. ermm, then jas told us she'll reach around 9 plus. so we went walking around. they wanted 2 play pool. orhh well, BORING. i dun like lorr. but i'm the only 16. =\ was chatting outside cine. ermm, just some stuffs. like those friends have a drink n chat about their life. like the ambience. it's like.. friends chatting is always a great 1. after that received guanyi's sms. he saw me. wanna join us. 2 me it's fine. though at 1st felt soo weird. but he called. so asked him 2 join us then if he dun feel odd. well, i need 2 say, we drink, but we ain't drank. ermm.. was outside hereen by then. really should have eat nydc. =\ haha. afterall, i agree 2 open a table 4 them 2 play pool. well, since they really want it. n i'm the big sis there. haha. SURPRISE. =p i wasn't playing. was sitting down there n smsing. guess we were high. or it's only me?! took a few pix with them. but din send everything 2 net. hey, bill.. hee. then watch them play. maybe was sitting there doing nothing?! made me think A LOT. haiya.. what else. okie. then jas came. they played n shir gotta leave around 11 plus. so i sent her lorr. then finally pluck up my courage 2 talk 2 her about it. cos.. she's my friend. i think she ought 2 know n that's me. there's nothing 2 hide among friends. she dun seems 2 b shock. she said she can c that. she said she n marc can actually feel that i m. well.. then told her the whole story while her dad was on his way 2 cine. haii. wanna continue talking but her dad was there after a few min. fast ehh. then she smsed me. i felt better after telling her. cos i dun wanna 2 hide from her. actually i'm prepared 4 the worst. if she end up scared of me, i'm fine with it. but i trust her. i was soo encouraged. i didn't expect 2 b happy ending. but i just wanting so much 2 blurt everything out. was on my way back by then. troubled. n marc was saying.."c'mon. just say." so i sms. but think it's such a wrong timing. i shouldn't i really shouldn't. should had kept it 2 myself. so dumb so dumb. then she called but i din pick up. cos i dun dare 2. i was soo scared. marc was asking me 2 pick up but i didn't. stupid. it's really the wrong timing. =(( i dunno. dunno dunno.
orhh, just reached home not long ago. my redness is gone. but was tired. i felt uncomfortable. my stomach i mean.. dun tell me it's gonna b diarrhoea again?! bleahh. NOT AGAIN. =\ orhh, i need 2 apologise 2 marc n jas. they wanted me 2 ton but my mum dun allow. guess she's worried that i dun get enough rest n i had promise her 2 b home 2 eat her porridge. yeahh, eating now though i was soo full. i mean.. feeling sicky. n my bed is coming 2moro. she wanted me 2 pack my stuffs n make sure there's a space 4 my bed. well well.. so i went back home. was soo lucky. board the last train, board the last bus. LAST. bleahh. heh. i need the toilet now, really.. boo.
orhh yahh, hope BANG is feeling better now. well, no need keep thinking since it's over. U had tried ut best. who knows, U might score. btw, BANG is zhiyuan lahh. haha. BANG, jiayou!! got BANGBANG here mahh. =p
*sorry. i shouldn't have. really shouldn't.
1:47:00 AM
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
believe it or not. chem paper is finally finished. well, left dnt 2moro. it's fast, yes it is. but 2 me, woo.. FINALLY. know what, bcos of Chem n Math paper 2, i couldn't sleep well yesterday night. tossing here n there.. really wish i could do well..
it's all along 1 paper at a time. i had my geog, poa. eng/chi paper 2, math paper 1. orhh well, n now CHEM n MATH!! gosh. guess i can't do well 4 geog. i can never do well in geog anyway. guess i didn't study enough. i did the paper, i finished it. dun worry, i'll never give up till the very last min. i'm not the xjun when i'm in sec 2. i still remember. i did a few qns 4 geog n leave the whole paper blank 4 the rest of qns without even trying. haha. come 2 think of it, i'm really useless. well, chi paper was alright. just a sentence making that i can't do n end up coming out with stupid sentence. got scolded by ms toh as well.. haha. i knew it was wrong but i wrote it down. well, it will always look better than left it BLANK. right. lol. heard from mr wong, i might get out of point 4 comp. knew it!! cos i didn't fulfil the requirement. it's SOME significant childhood times. yes, SOME. i did realise, but it was at the very end. hope the content was gd then. if now i'll realy flunked it. how could i flunked eng. =( poa, glad i tried. i know mr ho sure got angry with me. orhh, he never get pls with me anyway. haha. cos i never understand what's going on in poa n never dare 2 ask him. he's soo fierce lahh!! it's like he gonna chop U off if U dun understand. n every1 in class seems 2 understand everything once he teach. n i'll never. =( but i did study the day b4 poa papers. i figure out n did yishun town paper qns 1. cos mr ho asked 2. n i know what's going on!! n did petty cash n test myself out. yes yes. i know. poa paper 2, last qns. i 4got the format. haii. =( math paper 1. orhh, it wasn't a very hard paper. but just a few qns that i kept trying n trying. i'll never believe myself if i score. what else. guess i left out 2day's chem n math paper 2. math paper 2 was just like another paper that ms yeo always give us. haha. can never 4get how she laughed whenever she c us doing papers. know she wants us 2 do well. but her laughter. haha. love seeing us suffer. =x haha. ermm, i 4get how 2 find mean of the xf de. 4get how 2 use cosine rule. wrote it down but i got negative as the length of AB. how can?! the algebra ans was tough!! i wrote 2x square - 9x = -3. that's all. i didn't even solve the eqn!! haii. guess i can't score again. =( it's sooooo disappointing!!!!!!! orhh well well.. got an hour plus break b4 chem. cos have 2 wait 4 those who took express math. hope xiang ling, derrick n jeremy were doing fine then. =) ermm, spent the time studying chem. my heart beat faster when the clock is ticking every sec. it seems so near. n i was trying 2 concentrate. while there's a few noisy 1 in class. so pissed lorr. can't they c i'm studying!! n didn't they know they r still having another paper later on?? they can shout after exam. as loud as they want 2 n i dun care. or i'm being selfish?? haiiya.. but.. but.. fine. i'm really scared at that time. happy?? n people like kaipeng n derrick pressurize me some more!! orhh well, dun wanna say out what they did. did something really stress me out, i nearly cry, i can say. just like wanting so much 2 hide 2 a corner, cover myself. dumb right. but i was really stress. but i never they didn't mean it. went 2 the hall. ey, derrick, yanjing, xiangling n i was sitting outside the hall. ey was saying.."why U look so stress. no need care de. can pass pass lorr. cannot never mind. no need stress. just try ur best." haha. that's ey. everytime also anything anything. lol. was actually feeling A BIT better but saw ms seah distributing the papers.. gosh!!! soo scary. n when they announced 4 the 4n 2 get in, i seems like.. BLANK OUT. i out my chem file down, drank some water. i stepped in. gosh. i got numb. really. i sat down. it's starting!! i was soo afraid i got not enough time 2 complete the papers. the mcqs were tricky. i think it's bcos of the phrasing of the qns. skipped a few mcqs. got 1 qns, wahh!! dun think she teach b4 lehh!! =\ then went on 2 section b. the qns was short n given 1 mark 4 each qns. it's not diff but i was a bit blank out. then went on 2 section c. choose 2 among the 3. i did the 2nd qns. it was easy lahh. that qns sure score de. but i 4get what's metalloids. n amphetoric oxide. gosh. how can i 4get this. was wondering which qns i should choose between 1st 1 n 3rd 1. 3rd 1 is about mass n moles. 1st 1 is bonding. n finally, i did the 3rd 1 rather than the 1st 1. i dunno why. ermm, i dunno what's the chemical properties of acid solutions. =( but i did write. was soo dumb!! i wrote produce hydrogen gas when react with cold water n steam. then realise that's 4 metals after talking 2 Shir. =\ arghh. must write 3 some more!! 3 marks lehh. die lorr. then the next page. find vol, mass all that. i think the last qns it just seems hard cos it's whole junk of words. that will naturally scare people. but when i read the qns again n again. actually it was alright. i read it slowly n make sure i'm calm. though i know that i'm anxious. the balancing of eqn was okie. i got it. believe that i dun have any careless mistakes?! that's all about chem paper bahh. was glad yuanchao did qns 1 4 section 3. haha. bonding!! cos i taught him the day b4. though i rushed 2 the library n didn't got time 4 nap, but glad i taught him so he could do the qns. =) it's not that he dun understand. he's just confused. believe he can. =) kaipeng was giving me that sheepish smile again after the paper. n he was telling me he will fail chem cos he really dunno how 2 do. yahh, realise it look around. haiya, who knows, scarly he got better score than me. =) Marcus was telling me it was a hard paper. n a few people claimed that it was really hard. 4 me, i dunno. i really tried my best. pray hard i score. i dare not think. i dun wanna think. at times i thought i can do it, but end up i score badly. so i rather not think. if i really did badly, i can know how stupid i m..
*it's just a matter of time. my heart will find its way..
8:51:00 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
142am.
it's foolish. it's dumb. though try so hard, but just can't let go. you hope that you're drunk. so that you ain't aware of anything. esp You. You had already step in2 your life long ago. n the worst thing in life is you never got the courage 2 tell the person you really love how much you love You. at times you wish you dun c You. cos once you meet You somewhere, you start 2 miss You more. n when You dun contact you or you dun contact You, you really miss You. wanting 2 c Your smile n feel Your presence so much. n once You or you start 2 sms each other, you can't help yourself 2 stop thinking of You. each sms you send 2 You equals 2 100x more you miss You. n slowly, love You more. orhh well, that's stupid. cos you did a lot but.. you never dare 2 tell You how much you love You. you know you n You r impossible. n You're impossible 2 fall in love with you. you want 2 let go but you never can. cos your heart rule over your mind. n you jolly well know 1 day, You'll leave you. yes, you're upset. but so what?! You'll never bother so much. every time it's really hurt 2 miss some1. n doubt whether You miss you, cos you really miss You.
n the love, is always there.. a love that shouldn't have develop, shouldn't have start. should have end but can't end. you want ur mind rule over ur heart. cos you want urself 2 love some1 so much. loving a impossible You so much. but you can't. you did everything just bcos of You. cos you want You 2 b the very best, with that smile. no matter where You'll go, where You'll b, you miss You deeply. n stand by You like how you r currently. now n 4 ever, eternity. just b gd, happy. blessed.
it's just another story of
you n
You.
1:30:00 AM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
1226am.
just back not long ago. WAIT. let me explain b4 telling me off by not studying. ermm, math paper 1 2day. orhh well, it wasn't hard. n some do asked me which papers i think i'll pass or fail. the ans is, i dare not think. it's over, it's over. i dun wanna think, by stressing myself out. or even, making myself upset over it. i dun want. i dun wanna know the score. i wanna realise that i actually studied. i dunno. but the feeling is.. orhh well, if U studied n put in effort. U know every1 is bhind U, U'll eventually b less stress when doing the paper. though my phobia was there still. so afraid i might blank out or collaspe. but, i din give up. esp phy. i stayed till 3 plus just 2 cover out all the topics. was having headache. really a bad 1 n can't focus. but i want 2 carry on. cos i can't give up this way. i keep doing n my head is hurting me. orhh well, n the great great classmate of mine was smsing me, scolding vulgarities just bcos i got headache n can't teach him chi. well, i did scolded him back. SO RUDE OF HIM!! >=
chi paper 2 was alright. eng paper 2 was.. really HARD. esp passage B. haii. poa, was till okie i guess. i studied till 2 plus the day b4. cos i believe i can. though was tired. though can't remember everything, but was better than those normal test that i've done. REALLY!! i did trading n P&L okie!! n those adjustments. though i'm not like others. can get high scores 4 poa. sorry i can't. but i know i had tried my best. well, will try harder next time round. i'm so afraid. chem paper is just few days away. though i got weekends. should b sufficient time 2 revise. but.. i'm just afraid yahh. haiya, know i'm useless. never gonna get gd grade 4 that JUST BCOS I GET ANXIOUS. whatever. that's dumb of me. true, it will b gd if i dun blank out on that day. orhh well, when can that day come?! i pary hard it come on next tues. =(
heh, wasn't having flu anymore. just a slight 1 this morning. i looked sick arr?! haha. i can't c myself. but thanks 4 concerning. =)
I WANNA GET GD GRADES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*i miss them. M S HER J. haha. those usual few lahh. =\
12:28:00 AM
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