Monday, April 24, 2006
the time now is, 0100am.
just reached home half an hr ago or so, i guess. went king albert 2 study with marc n jas. i was not suppose 2 go out, but since it's studying, i went. the place is soo big. but it's hard 4 us 2 find a comfortable seat. well, after changing n changing, we finally got a nice cosy corner 4 us 2 concentrate. was doing math at 1st. but jump 2 chem. it took me soo long 2 recap chap 1-3. realise i need 2 really concentrate. then after dinner at mac, n shop around cold storage, i studied calculation. was really wondering, i tried doing the test paper again. i can do it without looking at the ans!! so what's wrong with me during the test?! BLANK OUT. haii. what if i blank out during exam?? i can feel the stress right now. n got anxious already. gosh. any medicine 4 this?! bleahh, i bet no. leave the place around 930 or so. walked 2 bukit timah market 2 ate something. STING RAY!! yupp. it's nice. but was really full after it. board bus 77 with marc while jas board bus 174. after a few stops, i asked marc,"hey, did U take my chem file?!" then he said,"huhh?? no?! i thought it was with U all along?!" i was shocked. thought he was trying 2 fool me at 1st. then i got very anxious. i told him,"i wanna get down of the bus at the next stop." he was saying not 2 bother. just leave it n photocopy everything next time. but i can't. i dunno why. just got very frightened n anxious. at that time, i dun care whether he'll get down the bus with me or not. i told myself that i must get back my chem file though it was really late n dark. but he did accompany me. we waited 4 a few min 4 bus. the road was dark. it's toh tuck rise, if any1 knows. it's really dark n around us, it's only trees, n forest. kinda scary. n no bus came, only a few cars in few min. we got very scared. thought were making lots of noise, but deep inside, we're soo scared. i started 2 wave 2 any care passby. but those driver just stare at us, then drive off. as if we ain't human. orhh well, dun blame them. so afraid there's no bus in service. so we took a cab there. cost me $3.50 2 get back there. well, LUCKILY MY CHEM FILE WAS ON THE BENCH. marc was calculating. he wanted me 2 return him money. cos i wasted his time here n there. so sorry!! n he said it's just a file. but i dunno why. it's really just a file. really dunno why i'll b soo anxious over it. took a cab some more. well, i'm thrifty. so must b miracle 4 me 2 took a cab. gosh. what's wrong. that's my natural reaction. n i dunno why. ermm, so we took bus 61 2 get back 2 bukit batok interchange. so he went off there. n i took a train. haii. finally i got back my file. blame me 4 being soo careless!! it was 11 plus when i reached jurong. then board the bus, n finally home. so tired. still wondering why i bother 2 get back my chem file. well, NOT BIAS. PLSSSS..
thanks marc 4 accompany me back. haiya!! spend a lot 2day. those unnessesary stuffs.
i'm soo tense out!! exams r coming real soon. n maybe bcos of
that, i'm soo scared of failing anything 4 this coming exam. =((
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