Monday, April 17, 2006
BOOM!! another weekend gone just like this. well, what have i done?! let me c.. other than going JEC n town?? have i really study?? i asked myself once again. orhh yahh. did revise on sat n sun night. guess that's not enough. had been influence. well, i'm not smart enough. so i must b hardworking. can't b distracted by others. XIAOJUN!!! waking myself up once again. cos people had been complaining that i'm always at my own dreamland. well well, i'm not. look at the BIG eyes i have. haha. what m i trying 2 say. bleahh. days passed just like this. mon was another boring day. lesson n lesson. problems pile up. n i had left problems aside. geog lesson was dry but i absorb. hadn't been revising geog. DEAD. mt lesson was like this all along. we did compo 2day. 3 periods doing compo. bleahh. though i took quite sometime 2 do it. at last i finished it n put it in ms toh's locker. =) orhh yahh, did i talk about my chi test score that i got back recently?? well, i dunno whether it's bad or just alright. maybe 4 ms toh, that's bad, cos she expect from me quite a lot. 4 others, maybe it's alright. ermm, what about me?? i seriously think that it's not very gd. well, did that test last mon after serenade. 2 say the truth, i didn't study at all. my fault not 2, but.. haii. hopefully i can do well with this few days of studying then. got back phy test paper 2day. well, i fluncked as usual. thought i was disappointed but i hang that smile on my face. well, failed by 2 marks. thought i could do better. but blame myself 4 not studying once again. haii.. dunno what i'm thinking. but 10 tests in 2 weeks. i cannot take it. 2 say the truth, i really can't. math test.. well, was disappointed as well, guess ms yeo was disappointed as well. but i'll study!!! it's not bcos of band that pull me down. it's me myself without self motivation. though most of the teachers felt that band had cause me 2 b this way, maybe partly is true but i can't accept it. cos i just feel that it's ME MYSELF didn't do well what. so i'll do well 2 prove them wrong. n those lamers who love 2 compare with me [which i hate it the most.], n i dunno why. dun understand why they wanna compare with me. n laughed at me when i did a bit poor n insist that i'm proud when i did a bit better. which i didn't even say a word all along. really can't understand people nowadays. bleahh. why should i bother?! i'm myself. as long i din disappoint myself, teachers n many. not bcos U wanna compete with me then i do well. who bothers!! well well. so what did i do 2day?! had lunch with yanjing n jinmin. though my cough n flu ain't getting any better but.. need 2 apologise those people around me. afraid i'll pass this sickness 2 them. well, BETTER NOT!! cos exam coming. 1 person sick is bad enough yupp. my flu is horrible. cos it's with blood. got nose bleed this morning. that's why my table is full of tissue with mucus n blood. YUCKS!! i'm digusted by myself. haha. took a nap this afternoon. i'm simply sick n tired. then woke up around 8 n had my dinner. i took my worksheets n books. i stepped in2 a.. wow~ a place with quiet environment. n it's soo cooling. without any 2nd thoughts, i spot a corner n settle down. haha. it's just my a study corner under my house building. lol. thought what?! did my work there around 1 hr n came back home as the lights went off i dunno why. haha. start 2 received lots of smses. well, actually my phone was quiet this whole afternoon. then chat on phone 4 a while. then dunno why suddenly hang. not my phone problem lorr. it's perfectly fine. but just dunno why. haha. orhh yahh, should catch some sleep already. it's not early. n my comp just got reformat by my bro. haii. AGAIN!! n my files all gone. arghh. =
haii haii haii. i'll try. well, it's very hard 4 me 2 do well. cos it had been long 4 me not doing well. but.. really dunno. i know i need 2 work hard. n practice all those stuffs in order 2 do well. i will. but i'm soo afraid i wun do well. cos.. yupp.. =( XIAOJUN will
WORK HARD.
11:59:00 PM
