Monday, March 27, 2006
well, dun ask me why m i sick again. lol. *cough cough. haiya, i dun bother 1, as long as i get enough sleep n b alert. guess how bad my cough is?! saturday my voice was horrible. but i cannot dun shout. bcos it's performance what. hee. that day was the most horrible day. cos of my voice n also, my eye got swollen. i dunno why. i din't watch porn n i wun lahh. that's stupid. my left eye just swollen n red. well, impossible 4 me not 2 go performance cos of this little sickness right. sun, it's getting better though still got that horrible voice. n i keep mis pitch. haha. sorry marc n shir. lol. they gotta tolerate it 4 the whole sun. mon! it's certainly getting better!! =p though som eof my classmates still got a shock when i speak. lol. n the worst thing is, i 4get 2 bring my water bottle along with me 2day. whole day without water. piang! n i got blister on my leg. it's soo pain. wanted so much 2 wear sandals. but it look so awkward yeahh. lol.
2day lessons were all soo horrible!! i cannot stop myself from dozing off. esp during the change of period between geog n mt. i fall asleep. till my chi teacher woke me up. well, my saliver was on the corner of my geog notes. lol. n ms toh got a shock of her life. lol. DISGUSTING. my apology!! so i got back 2 work. recess was crapping with jinmin, kaipeng, yuanchao n xiangling. actually plan 2 sleep. lol. everything was.. fine?! till chem lesson. ms seah seems soo bad mood. maybe cos she was tired rushing out out chem test yet every1 asked her 4 postpone. i was lucky enough!! jinmin asked me 2 ask ms seah 4 a postpone but i told her dun want. guess if i'm also 1 of those who asked her, she'll yell at me. so everything started bad 4 chem. the test was soo hard!! even a few mcq questions made me puke. it's soo complicated. n i got scared. started doing section b. lucky still know a bit of calculation which i memorize. came 2 the vol. part. gosh. i was stunned. cos i 4gotten everything that i've studied. i almost burst in2 tears. the urge of wanting so much 2 do well, already studied yet blank out at last min. what the s***!! i got soo angry with myself n i'm seriously anxious. start 2 force myself 2 think n put my paper on lap. that's what i usually do what. but who knows got scolded by ms seah. guess she though i'm cheating. well well.. if i m, i wun b making it soo obvious right. n i wun cheat. esp chem lahh. so just put on my table 2 do after that. damn unhappy over it. =\ whatever! tried 2 concentrate then. really cannot recall. so end up just write down what i know. n hopefully got bit of mark here n there. yes yes, i was upset. luckily din cry lahh. then walked 2 gombak since no remediations. woo. can sleep. really half dead. being autistic again. though was walking with xiangling, mel, jinmin n yanjing. but i din speak much. just walk behind them. really wanna b alone i guess. so reached home. on my songs n SLEEP!! after an hour, i woke up bcos of a phone call. it's soo soft, dunno why i'll wake up. then didn't pick up. end up trying 2 call back but cannot get through. know whats the most stupid thingy is?! when i woke up, i though it was tues n no 1 wake me up 2 sch. n i got soo scared. thought that some1 called n scold. lol. cos tues is a band day. maybe i'm really 2 tired or what. yeahh yeahh. the call was horrible lahh!! gonna wake up n do. actually dun wanan wake up 1. but think if i dun, she will get it from him. so i guess i better do it fast. was still half sleeping. just edit a bit then called again 2 get his e-mail add lorr. then it's like.. i'm soo dead. n her voice really wake me up, cos noisy mahh. =x no lahh. just happened 2 b alert already. i didn't stay out late yesterday night anyway. i stayed till 11 plus only. then reached home do my stuffs n slept at 2. haiya.!!
'did i disappoint You or let You down. guess i 've lose You. maybe not physically. but mentally. i rather the other way round..
10:50:00 PM
