Thursday, March 09, 2006
i'm studying POA currently!! n it's 12 plus. guess i'll study till 2 plus. i'm soo scared. 'xiaojun, have U study ur poa?? i had complaint from 4n2 that it's difficult huhh..' that what mr ho told me when he saw me in the canteen while i wait 4 twt 2day. she's soo late lorr!! wait le also no use, end up got kenneth pei her, so i also go home myself. hehh, i'm used 2 being alone. even if i'm not alone, i dun like 1 whole group of people. so it's okie, twt. she kept pulling me here n there. gosh. what's wrong with the BM!! =D yahh lahh yahh lahh, biscuits. N UR PROMISES HELLO!! dun 4get about me worr!! i believe U can. can even b better than me. =)
i wanna let go. but everytime i want 2, i can't. the feeling is horrible. the feeling of thinking, confusion, hurt or even jealousy?? well well, i dunno!! i know that i feel terrible 2day n i can't even fake a smile. it's stupid of me lahh, yes it's stupid. 2 know it's soo impossible but my heart keep holding on 2 it. i dun wanna think of it. but i cannot stop missing. it just keep appearing in my mind. U know what's the best way 2 let go?? maybe it's hatrate. do U think i should?! sometimes i really wish 2. but i really dun bear 2. that's how much i fall in2 it. more that what i expected. 1st i used 2 deny, i told myself NO. CANNOT. but he told me it's okie. follow what ur heart says. n i realise, yes, i can't deny anymore. but i intend 2 b the guardian angel then. 2 c the smile. 2 c some1 giving the happiness. 2 b carefree. 2 give YOU the very best.
XIAOJUN, YOU SUCK.
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