Saturday, March 25, 2006
ermm.. had been thinking. should i still stay in sports leader?? really dunno. haii. why?! why being in something means U want the points, U want the autority?! not that. not that 4 me. i'm not going 4 all these. i'm going 4 the interest. i do it cos i want 2. i'm interested 2. i'm chosen 2. i wanna help. i want 2 b in sports leader even though i dun have much friends there cos i feel that sports is part of me. i might not b gd in it, i'm interested. but. haiya. how can i phrase that. i might not b the best sports leader, the most enthu 1. but i'll try. cos i'm given the opportunity 2. being a leader is not an easy task. esp the head of it. certainly know about this. even being a small rep in class is not an easy task. dun talk about being a leader in an organisation. U must b responsible in anything U do or even not ur fault, U gotta hold on 2 it. U must b prepared 4 anything. anything can occur. just prepare 4 the worst. being a leader is not about scolding. it's about leading n how U guide the upcomings ones. n make sure everything's go smooth n well. being a leader went through thick n thin. U'll become more understanding than the others. n learn more than others. others might not understand U. thinking U abuse ur autority. well, it's not about that. it's about how U go about leading. that's my point of view. the level of stress is high. n people dun understand what U going through. they'll never get 2 b. if they're sad, defitnitely the leader will feel 10 times worst. U'll never know, cos U never understand the position of a leader. well well.. why m i saying all these arr?? i'm not sure as well.. ermm.. the main point is. should i stay?? actually i wanted 2. he said he dun want me 2 b in cos she keep telling him 2 ask me out. well, stop. dun blame her. know she's actually worried that i got 2 much 2 do. n she's helping me actually. it's really touching. n i know, if i really take up 2 much activities, i will. but on the other hand, i want 2 participate. not bcos of points. bcos of interest. well, saw that expression. that's why now i'm thinking..
my cough is getting worst. i'm soo manly. "well, sexy!!" that's what my mum told me instead. LOL!! then asked me take pills. yucks, not again. the blue pills. well well, nice blue. ha. 5 pills U know!! bleahh!! sore throat is A BIT better. =p 2day everything should b fine. n glad it is. just that it was soo humid!! lol. n i was really busy, packing. lol. threw everything in my bag, every1's rushing. i got so many 2 take. haha. yeahh yeahh, rubbish bin. my tbone zip is spoilt again!! soo sad.. =( no sticker 2 put. keychain cannot b use lahh. no point putting keychain there. cos my zip will b gone soon. ha. hope my tbone wun fall out anymore. sadd sadd.
everything was soo funny just now. cannot stop laughing. esp marcus tan lahh. lol. n the chicken damn oily lorr. eee.. i dun like!! but have 2 eat 2 SAVE FOOD!! haha. it's ex k. so marc n me ate it. lucky din eat other things lahh. soo horrible. they were soo full as well. then thinking of ways 2 finish the food. lol. was thinking can throw on floor say drop. LOL!! badd right. but wasn't a bad idea as well. hee. =p then if some1 was alone walking, U'll walk 2gether right?? i just sorta dun dare. not bcos of anything. maybe it cos.. ermm.. U CANNOT KNOW!! haha. something lahh. then just walk lorr. even though so much desire 2 walk with You. ahh.. never mind. i was actually dumb. always got the chance 2 but choose not 2. dunno, dunno dunno.
well, till i got the courage 2 say 2 You.. .. ..
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