Tuesday, February 28, 2006
i dunno what can i do 2 smile.
2day wasn't a day 4 me. things just dun go right. woo, believe it or not. i'm really upset after 2day assembly. dun even have a chance 2 explain. but it's really wasn't my fault. okie, shan't talk about it. blame myself 4 being the most obvious 1?! dunno lahh. really angry, really upset. dunno how 2 express that out. can only get soo upset even my face turn red. n people asking me 2 cool down. then yy's sound just can't b improve. n it's soo hard 4 her 2 understand what we trying 2 do. yes, she felt unfair. but have it always b fair 4 me?? well, ur call. i wun day anything anymore. then more i do, the more people think i'm unfair or what so ever. never mind 4 that. after band, my black shoes cannot b found. dunno why end up 2 another corner. everything just not right n i really feel like shouting out loud. walk away like wind. then walk very slowly with shir 2 the mrt station. as usual, i stayed at the interchange. cos i'm down. always do that. suddenly a lot of smses. then reply. haiya. dunno lahh, anyway, sorry 4 being rude. really not in the mood, my apology 4 this. yes, U can scold me. go ahead. i wun talk back, i wun b rude anymore. thanks 4 concerning me n ask about me. it's weird. everytime i feel that she's unreasonable n i got soo frustrated about it, that something that cool me down. her caringness. always cool me down after a day of frustration. sometimes really find that she dun give me a chance 2 explain i got really pissed. but end up always 4get about it. well, 2day just not my day. i feel soo annoyed by every little thing. yeahh, call me dumbo, bash me up. wake up my idea. so i wun b upset anymore. though i feel a bit better after smsing with her, but guess the main reason of my upsetting will not b solve. but You really know the way of fixing a broken heart.
what marcus said was not wrong. but i can never do that. i know i shouldn't, it's impossible. i must well remain this way in case of anything happen?? 2day, actually i decide 2 let go. but once again, i can't after those smses. well, maybe like what she said." ur mind can't overtake ur heart, just let it b there." i shall not bother no matter how i suffer. i'll let it b there.
10:21:00 PM
