Sunday, January 29, 2006
well well, here i m blogging. wish every1 reading this entry a
HAPPY CNY!! n smile always, all the best.
i'm soo tired lahh. after weeks of stress, sadness, finally a break 4 me. i felt relief. it's like, FINALLY lorr. was soo depress on fri cos of something happened lahh. was angry, sad, lost. well, it hurts. i feel the pain. felt so dumb 2. but hope that person i'm mentioning smile always n b happy. stop blaming urself, yeahh?? felt sad 2 as soo long of suffering. i still love seeing the smile. till sat, i still cannot erase that moment from my mind. maybe i think 2 much?? my heart tells me that some1 is unhappy down there. i dare not sms. should have some peace then though i wish 2. actually i didn't stop thinking. n i can't. though i ask myself not 2 think about it. even used pillow n stuff myself 2 a corner. well, it doesn't works.
tidied my room just now. woo, finally more space n cleaner. put the 2 piglet on my bed. wow, soo cute. love them soo much. hee. then went over 2 uncle's house 2 have dinner. with my grandparents n my cousins. the dinner is soo, a bit not nice lahh. dunno where they ordered 1. then went over 2 lot1 2 meet wt. she said she miss her hot fudge so i agreed 2 accompany her. she treat me lehh. soo bu hao yi shi. thanks anyway. i wasn't hungry, but ate something. soo FULL!! her prawn ball is closed, beancurd is closed. lol. saw her disappointed face. haiya, pei U again next time round yeahh.
went home after that. haiya, think soo much while walking alone. the bus was soo late. i nearly fall asleep. reached home around 11 plus. bathing just now n i was lucky enough 2 got nose bleeding. lol!! how HENG i can b right.
REDD. then dad put the ang bao on my table. wahh, soo cute. mickey mouse de. lol. soo unique some more. then i kept in my new yr bag. waiting 2 visit my relatives n bring all my new stuffs along. though i know it will b a bored day ahead. but. well, let's wait 4 2nd, 3rd 4th day then. so can meet up my friends n get crazy. hee.
sometimes really soo upset, soo depress. i wanna drank myself n b 4getful.. my bad point is i care 2 much. i bother 2 much. n i'm hurt. cos my stupid character make some1 upset. why is this hurting soo hurting. i wish HER the very best. anyway, i hope marcus all the best. i'm happy 4 him. n wanna let him know, he's not alone. =)
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