Friday, December 16, 2005
ain't a very gd day. why?? thought 2day will b the best day ever?? SHE'll b back, ting will b back. ain't i suppose 2 b happy?! well, serious flu in the morning. everything was okie. just that yiying suddenly looked so depress n lost her concentration. why?! well, dun wish 2 ask. thought it would b gd 2 just encourage her. still treat her like a little kid. =) she's really younger than me what. after everything is done, suppose 2 settle band camp stuffs. but it seems so messy, no 1 is listening 2 HL. band camp tee, a few wasn't at the right size. some dun even got the tee. i dunno why, i really dun. yes, must b me again. haii.. the design was wrong, but only i know lahh. so ugly!! i hate it. really hate it. expected. haii. then HL brief the band. arghh, he seems 2 not sure of somethings, i can't even hear him. offer 2 help, he dun want. he's the overall in-charge anyway. i feel that no 1 is listening 2 him. felt down out of a sudden. why why!! then 2 girls cried cos of duty boss thingy. okie, they might b unhappy over it. fine, i wun explain why that particular person is the duty boss, why should i explain?? hate me, let it b. i got my own reasons 4 it. same group, not happy. every1 came complaining 2 me. hey, i'm BM, i'm not overall in-charge of band camp!! i offered help, no 1 bothers, something cock up, every1 find me. the group thingy, it's this way. no matter U like it, or not, U will b in that group. the tee, my fault. yes. mine. the briefing, he wants it, let him brief. it was chaos. i'm stress out. but still gotta settle thing, act as if nothing's wrong in front of my band. yes, i have 2 b strong. every1 had left. A atttude us. cos she just wasn't happy with it. fine fine fine. i was sitting alone, laying on the meeting table. nazri came disturb, HL came sitting bside me. okie, just asking me 2 relax n talked 2 me, thanks 4 that. but i relaly can't take it. 1st time in band, i'm so stress n finally i collaspe, my watery eyes. weiting saw it, HL saw it. yes, weiting was SHOCKED. lol. every1 only c my cheerful side. cos i HIDE. then wiped it away when saw mr chew n smile 2 him while he joked around again. =) cos he's cute. hee.. van felt my depress, thanks 4 asking yeahh. just felt hopeless. went mac. with those usual guys again. back home. i can't stop thinking of what happened. i'm useless ehh?? heyy, i haven give up.. that's a promise.. 2moro, i'll smile 2 every1 again, but i can't sleep NOW. really.. haii.. okie. will stop here yeahh?? i'm just depress. just finished a litre of milk. bleahh.
no piglet, no chip. happy happy. but things weren't right 2day..
12:40:00 AM
