Friday, December 30, 2005
LOOK!! the time now is 602 but i'm awake. that's bcos i din sleep at all. lol.
was doing HER card n preparing. realise it's so hard 2 use ur brain 2 design something out of a sudden. lol. redo twice n finally got something i accept. talking 2 shir n jas online. they dun wanna sleep 2. gosh. they can, but they dun want 2. went sean's chalet on wed night after band. the bbq stuffs really great!! n get 2 know quite a few dudes here n there. went beach around 1 plus midnight. the breeze is cooling. n every1 was singing like nobody's business. i was lying down, feel the breeze n singing 2. go back around 3 plus with meryl, jeremy, matt n derrick. 3 of them got 2 bathe 1st. they were talking about some.. n meryl n i got scared. decided 2 bathe 2 gether 2. well, of cos 1 wait outside 1st lahh. got curtain 1 lahh. lol. if not i also dun dare. then watched stupid show. dunno what wonderwoman de. lol. stupid 1 lahh. slowly, few of them came back. some really tired out. n went sleeping. yc n ey were the rock 1. never sleep. i slept 4 half an hour i guess. suddenly, matt woke up n made a loud bang. thought he was blurr. so asked him 2 b careful. then he din bother, walked out of the house. then i thought he wanna go outside sleep. but jeremy suspected he sleepwalk. so i watched over. mann!! really sleepwalk. he walked 2 others people room lorr. i quickly called ey n he ran out 2 stopped him. every1 came n look, lucky din wake up any of the people there. ey was pulling him n he seems 2 struggled. n finally, the BIG BIG ey pulled him back 2 our own room. then he seems like blurr blurr again. soo scary. 1st time c this mann. after that i went home 1st around 6 plus. reached home around 9 plus. slept. 10 plus till 4 plus. met weiting cos i wanna buy gift. so went lot 1 2 search. lol. the 1 i wanan buy is gone. so i gotta think again. finally got something. n so we went chatting at mac. was tired, reached home around 9 plus. then got busy. gotta prepare her gift, gotta do this n that. shan't say more. =) got frantic when can't contact HL. but end up, he actually with jas n shir. haiyoo. troublesome!! ermm, so just make a new blogskin again. with the help of shir. thanks yeahh. i gotta re do again lahh. this 1 is a bit messy. but thanks shir once again 4 wasting her time. lol. meeting them 4 breakfast at 6 plus. haha. cos 3 of us din sleep at all. though i'm really tired lahh. but.. nevermind. since it's already soo.. EARLY. lol.
hope she loves the gift then. =)
5:59:00 AM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
what now?! lalala. 2day was a busy day. 1stly, i need 2 apologise 2 HL. haha. i overslept. actually met him 4 breakfast n HER lorr. but i overslept. 1st time ever, i overslept. then woke up around 8 plus n got shocked. luckily she's not meeting us anymore. lol. so poor HL is there alone. =( then i woke up around 10 plus. get prepared. so tired. went 2 sch 2 get the banner done. orhh, she looked nice with her new hair style. lol. 2day no bball training, but saw bballer playing, lol. 2 hardworking. hehe. ermm, painting the banner was tough. it rained when we wanted 2 start n we all got wet. rushed 2 the canteen then. started 2 paint late as they gonna have their lunch. well, thought my design got a bit mess up here n there, but hopefully it looks great. ting's 1 is nice lahh. artistic. =) mine like kiddy. yucks!! can't finished the banner n our hands were all soo dirty by the paint. n my socks. yucky!! so went scrubbing. no use lehh. lol. gotta rushed back 4 dinner, so din help them 2 pack up. went back home, dad was already yelling. so i quickly bathe. wow, body shop shower gel is great. washed away all my paint n i smell great!! lol. OCEANUS!! =p my favourite. hee. then wear bare back 2 the dinner. my grandma was saying i madd, soo cold. lol. the dinner was soo boring!! my bros ain't there. only my parents n i, with my grandparents, aunt n uncle. a few cousins 2. they were soo naughty!! lol. my mum n i got soo bored. can't stop taking pix. i helped her take some 2. n they looked really great. mum agreed 2. artistic okie! lol. finally, it's the last dish, ice cream. was actaully waiting 4 it. but ended up CONE ICE CREAM.. ee. i dun like. so never eat. sent my grandparents home. actually was frantic all along about a little mess we made in the canteen. afraid will get HER in2 trouble then. but i can't b there early morning cos of this stupid dinner. that held on tues, so lame!! ermm, reached home around 10 plus n met marcus 2 pass him my big big army bag. i was dead tired. saw a swiss teacher!! but dunno her, so din bother. he ate his nasi lemak n i drank my ribena. hee. arghh, i'm tired!! i'm tired!! lol. i wanna sleep soon le. felt a bit uneasy cos ting can't online 2day. lol. chatting with rongjie now. another crapper. lol. 13 yr old boy boy but got soo many social problem. wonder how kids grow nowadays. lol. fine, after playing a game with him, i'll go sleep. got band, got chalet after that. hope it will b fun. with yun, yc they all. well, miss them lots. hee. =)
1:49:00 AM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
how's my blog?? i did edit something okie, lol. open ur ears, on ur speakers, listen. open ur eyes, observe. lol. =)
well, 2day. ermm, what did i do?? i haven finished consoling people i guess. must b i'm not gd in it lahh. if not people will feel better le. right?? sean's chalet is 2moro. not going 4 the 1st day, will b there 4 the 2nd day then. hope they'll have fun while i'll b going sch 2 paint banner 4 my dearest band. hohoho. well, felt that it's kinda disorganise somehow. n true enough, i dun get updated. maybe i must really go around n ask. bleahh. meeting her n HL 4 breakfast. 8 am lehh!! boo!! night still got wedding dinner. yucks. sure sian 1. lol. must well sleep there. lol!!
guess what, got kinda upset yesterday while smsing her. she told me lots lahh. felt that i'm still the 1 who makes her feels this way. she's kind enough not 2 blame me in a way. still protect me as b4. gosh. n i really really gotta b strong n stand up. do my
BESTT!! well, maybe i'm not saying this 4 the 1st time. but.. trust me, k??
1:47:00 AM
Monday, December 26, 2005
merry belated chirstmas 2 every1. so sorry, updated my blog late. so can't b early 4 christmas. let's c.. this yr christmas is kinda diff 4 me. normally i'll stay at home, count down myself n open red wine while watching tv or chatting with my mum. this yr, i was online n shir, weiting n jas came calling me n yelled in2 my ears. gosh~ they asked me out, actually dun want 2, but was being pulled. went yishun n plaza singapura 2day. that jas like pig, sleep n sleep!! weiting n i waited 4 soo long!! arghh.. plaza singapura trip was nice actually. well, i still cannot think of anything 2 buy 4 HER. this?? or that?? n HL came calling me n chat cos he's bored. so funny right?? at least he's not calling me cos he's upset. this christmas wasn't a gd 1 actually 2. many got soo upset of their own problems. n came telling me. haii, i felt sad 4 them 2. how i wish i can help them other than only listening 2 them. how i wish every1 will b happy 4 christmas n dun have 2 face all these problems they r having now. ermm, back 2 plaza singapura.. so i decided 2 ask HL out also. about 6 plus at that time. well, he can't. so told him that we'll went over 2 his house 2 play volleyball. went there around 8 plus. bought a small breadtalk cake n drinks. like a small party, quite fun actually. saw so many nice things that i wanna buy. that Mickey Industries shirts, shoes, slippers. IMP shirts, wrist band. Valcom wallet. Quiksliver HUGE sling bag n pencil case. [ask shir how HUGE it is. lol.] i want big big bags. love it!! hee. well, really broke nowadays. when can the carrot return me money huhh?? haii, maybe never. well, also shopped 4 HER present. wahh, really hard 2 choose mann. this or that?? still thinking. i'm soo late lorr. so tired now.. bleahh!!
lastly, i wanna hope all my friends dun b angry or upset anymore. i'll still b there 4 U guys!! cheer up mann!! yes U, U n U!!! bleahh.. =p
.after so many days of thinking, realise that i love her so much. more than i ever thought. she's my special one. i dun wanna let her down. n i'll never let the sky falls.
2:09:00 AM
Friday, December 23, 2005
i dun get updated, i dunno anything. yet i got all scoldings cos i must hold the responsibility. yes, i should. U can blame me 4 not asking, U can blame me 4 not checking. but if they dun tell me, how i check n ask?? i can't know things without any1 informing yeahh?? n when things occured, then i get 2 know what happened. what's this?? fine lahh, i'll not do anything next time. will carry on everything alone. i dun think U guys trust me.. i'm utterly sad. i'm at fault.
'i dunno how 2 carry on.. had tried, but U guys never try 2 help me.'
1:37:00 AM
Thursday, December 22, 2005
i hate the way i m 2. 4 everything that i've done. that makes U feel this way. yes, it's my fault. but believe me, i felt 10 times worst. hope i'll have the courage 2 tell U everything 1 day. n i will. will never let U down again.. ='(
1:29:00 AM
Monday, December 19, 2005
2moro having camp. but not going 2 sleep. haiya, just so frantic n dun have a gd sleep 4 weeks. i dunno lahh. wanna take a nap 2day also can't.
i dun feel that it's my fault or what lehh. i got my reasons lehh. but he's saying it's my fault n sorts of blaming me. we quarrelled?? sorta lahh.. n i can hear that he's unahppy with me. like saying i'm not helping him. okie, i dunno. but i can explain my own rights n i dun think that i'm at fault, seriously.. i dunno what's going on lahh.. haii.. still packing now.. dunno what 2 bring lehh. like soo unprepared. okie. cya dudes. blog after camp..
2:26:00 AM
Sunday, December 18, 2005
fri was great!!
swiss winds rock the whole town!! hehe. some people there were like.. 1st time c band on parade. they were like taking photo in front of HL. soo cute 1. can't stop thinking about it. hee. was at mac after that till about 12 plus. n after that, left HL, jas n me. they missed their last train. we were all at JE by then. so accompany them while HL asked his dad 2 fetch him. we were all crapping lahh. n i'm bz smsing HER. SHE's back!! hehee. soo happy!! soo great!! =p actually wanted 2 meet but haiya, got no time 2. n 3 of us went home around 1 plus. ehh, it's really late. i reached around 1 plus. wonder what time they reached home. =\ n i din go church, sorry rach. cos 4gotten that i had promise mum that i'll go shop 4 furnitures with her 2day. went ikea , woo, soo cool mann!! really love it. mum jut skinda disagree in what i want. it's my room, why can't i get what i want?? n i'm getting the cheapest stuffs. then why can't i have what i want in my room?? i did plan!! haiya..
after that, met yun n sean. sorry also!! cos i let them wait 4 me 4 soo long. they were like bored 2 death sitting at IMM. then they were waiting 4 me 2 have dinner but i was not hungry. so bring them 2 JE hawker. since they want hawker. guess what, my nose bleed. =x after that, we went mac n slack there. got the staridol thingy going on. it's like.. WHO BOTHERS?? it's soo boring.. so we drew n chatted there like madd. hey, i'm soo worried 4 yun seriously.. i understand, the more crazy U r, the sadder U r. i exprience it b4. n she's like.. soo mad. even worst than mine. haii. when will she recover from all the hurtings.. ermm, must b me.. passing her all my happiness, must b not enough lorr?? *pass her more, pass her more.
went home around 10 plus. n i'm really tired.. i'm tried.. ='(
bleed again when bathing,
bleed again when laying.. will i
bleed mentally also?? ...
1:44:00 AM
Friday, December 16, 2005
ain't a very gd day. why?? thought 2day will b the best day ever?? SHE'll b back, ting will b back. ain't i suppose 2 b happy?! well, serious flu in the morning. everything was okie. just that yiying suddenly looked so depress n lost her concentration. why?! well, dun wish 2 ask. thought it would b gd 2 just encourage her. still treat her like a little kid. =) she's really younger than me what. after everything is done, suppose 2 settle band camp stuffs. but it seems so messy, no 1 is listening 2 HL. band camp tee, a few wasn't at the right size. some dun even got the tee. i dunno why, i really dun. yes, must b me again. haii.. the design was wrong, but only i know lahh. so ugly!! i hate it. really hate it. expected. haii. then HL brief the band. arghh, he seems 2 not sure of somethings, i can't even hear him. offer 2 help, he dun want. he's the overall in-charge anyway. i feel that no 1 is listening 2 him. felt down out of a sudden. why why!! then 2 girls cried cos of duty boss thingy. okie, they might b unhappy over it. fine, i wun explain why that particular person is the duty boss, why should i explain?? hate me, let it b. i got my own reasons 4 it. same group, not happy. every1 came complaining 2 me. hey, i'm BM, i'm not overall in-charge of band camp!! i offered help, no 1 bothers, something cock up, every1 find me. the group thingy, it's this way. no matter U like it, or not, U will b in that group. the tee, my fault. yes. mine. the briefing, he wants it, let him brief. it was chaos. i'm stress out. but still gotta settle thing, act as if nothing's wrong in front of my band. yes, i have 2 b strong. every1 had left. A atttude us. cos she just wasn't happy with it. fine fine fine. i was sitting alone, laying on the meeting table. nazri came disturb, HL came sitting bside me. okie, just asking me 2 relax n talked 2 me, thanks 4 that. but i relaly can't take it. 1st time in band, i'm so stress n finally i collaspe, my watery eyes. weiting saw it, HL saw it. yes, weiting was SHOCKED. lol. every1 only c my cheerful side. cos i HIDE. then wiped it away when saw mr chew n smile 2 him while he joked around again. =) cos he's cute. hee.. van felt my depress, thanks 4 asking yeahh. just felt hopeless. went mac. with those usual guys again. back home. i can't stop thinking of what happened. i'm useless ehh?? heyy, i haven give up.. that's a promise.. 2moro, i'll smile 2 every1 again, but i can't sleep NOW. really.. haii.. okie. will stop here yeahh?? i'm just depress. just finished a litre of milk. bleahh.
no piglet, no chip. happy happy. but things weren't right 2day..
12:40:00 AM
Thursday, December 15, 2005
2day got supernumerary. went there 4 the last time as supernumerary, can say we r already pass out. cool ehh?? got our tee all that. everything is fine. though some unhappy stuffs happened n make every1 soo upset n pissed, but think it's cool being a supernumerary. well, cos of 2 guys, the rest of us weren't very happy with it. maybe we misunderstood them, but at least they bother 2 come n explain lahh. it's like.. nothing is done 2 clear this misunderstanding. got 2 know 2 cute CLT. lol. they will fun-loving. n of cos, we took photo with RSM. soo cool!! ermm, was being dragged 2 causeway point n had dinner. din eat. just had.. "put the lime in the coke U nut." haha. n after that a sundae. wahh!! reminds me of weiting. lol. went home after that, din speak much as i'm really tired. it's getting late. having prac 2moro. fri performing.
swiss winds rock!! ehh, that's all about 2day.. hee.
heyy!! no more piglet left!! yeahh!! or i need 2 say.. that's the piglet?! hee. no chip left 2. i waited 4 no piglet about 20 plus days lorr. finally~ but come 2 think of it, maybe SHE comes back n we got scolding?! lol. that will most probably happens. lol. but who cares, i do miss HER~ =) hope 2 c
HER soon. =p n
TING. =D
1:33:00 AM
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
wee~ finally fufilled my dream?? lol. went sentosa on mon. after the parade on fri, so 2 days of resting n stress. went with weiting, jas, drey n nat. met at 11am after a night of chaos. but jas was late, will expected. lol. so end up everything was pushed backwards. i board 188 around 11 plus. reached there n they complained they r hungry. so ate at habour front. i didn't eat anything. really trying 2 save. haii. received mr chew's call. he's back in singapore!! =) got the orders clear.. after that, we took the shuttle bus 2 sentosa. they insisted on siloso. arghh!! i still like palawan!! but since they wanted 2 go siloso, i of cos got nothing 2 say. well, it's BORING!! dunno what's wrong. like nothing there. we were tanning at 1st then went down 2 water. hehe. soo cooling. then weiting wanted 2 cycle, so i went with her. we rent the double kinda bike. woo. cool ehh. 1st time i'm cycling that. n it really need team work. it's fun i can say. errm, the bad thing is, i banged in2 a railing. haha!! n we flew!! gosh!! it's that bad yeahh. as i'm at the front seat, i got more injury, sorry weiting 2. i got blue black on my left leg, skin is peeling, my hip n my left hand, swollen. n weiting insisted that i'm a bad cyclist. hey, it's weiting who kept moving my seat!! horrible!! lol. then went over 2 find jas, drey n nat after returning the bike. we r on time mann!! even without a watch. hee. weiting n i guessed it right, they r playing pool. so boring!! i mean 4 weiting n me, it's boring. lol. so we decided 2 tanned somemore. nat wanted 2 come along. but she's rather disturbing than tanning. she's splashing water on us, pouring all sand on our body.. arghh!! so end up i pushed her in the water n we were having fun. lol!! the water is real cooling. but afterall, we still got tanned. went off around 7 plus i guess. din bother about the time actually. n was smsing ting all along. bleahh. woo~ weiting said i'm a manly woman?? sorta like this. hard 2 explain. she herself can't explain 2, but i understands. lol. went 2 the shopping centre there where nearly all shops gotta close?! lol. went mac. i fall asleep there. as usual yeahh?? lol. was really tired. yet jas still wanna shopped. 4 all her bikini?? lol. then we started 2 got high n took photos around the mrt station. well, no 1 bring camera along, so we can only use our phone. got quite a no. of fun photos!! hee. we r cute!! =p reached home about 10 plus. orhh, got band prac. really exhausted.
have sectional this morning. woo, guess what?? was taking yiying then clapped till half, or rather sing till half, i got nose bleeding. some sort like waterfall?? lol. yiying got shocked. hey!! dun worry guys, this ain't the 1st time. felt heaty since morning already. then mr chew came n everything went fine till when we got 2 play [o7]. then got parts that my section just can't count. arghh. ic an't come in if they r at the wrong beat!! i got frantic, seriously. n guess mr chew 2. hopefully my section can
COUNT n b the best trombone section once again. = it ain't diff. went off around 6 plus. was pulled by weiting 2 go mac once again. we were crapping all along. acting twins all that. lol. we r cute!! =D n SUNDAE!! hehe. we love it. walked all the way 2 the bus stop again once weiting finished her meal as my ez-link is out of money. so she accompany me. =p n van 2!! =) back home, the smell of paint made me giddy. gosh!! cannot stand. ermm, eldest bro got back from thailand, bought me a billabong shirt. looks gd. thanks! =p n let's get prepare 4 2moro's supernumery!! hey!! 1 piglet n 1 chip left!! haha. the chip is finishing fast. the piglet, gosh!! i'm waiting n waiting. dunno whether should i b happy?? lol. i really miss HER. but thinking that she might b unhappy on what we had done when she's not around, scoldings again!! errm, i dun mind then. =) miss HER n ting. =')
1:38:00 AM
Monday, December 12, 2005
orhh, try not 2 ask me sleep. i know it's late. lol. no 1 online 2day, so sian!! ting went offline early n maybe cos of my late reply, she fall asleep. =( sorry!! anyway, was still looking through ikea web. well, 4 about 3 hours i've been searching cheap, simple, comfortable furnitures 4 my room. it's orange now. n need some nice stuffs that make myself real comfortable after all the stress outside yeahh. well, meet jas, drey, weiting n nat 2 sentosa 2moro but dahh lahh, i'm still here. lol!! waking up at 10 somemore. i just wanna go have a break, after which, reach home early. but wanna c furniture. maybe meeting my mum at ikea or something. well, after so many days of depression i'm having, finally i'm not that sad. but still got the lonliness. bleahh. really
thanks ting though that always talk 2 me whenever i'm down. lol. her medicine n plaster helps. =) she'll understands what i'm saying lahh. ermm, apart from that, i just can't stop hating my 2nd bro!! lol. he made me so pissed once again. he's throwing all his rubbish on my table!! asked him 2 keep, he said not he bring in 1, so he wun bothers. so irresponsible. n finally, i realise i can get irritated by irresponsible people. lol!! can't stand him. so old liao still like that. anyway, GOOD NEWS!! left 3 piglet 2 go. gotta c HER soon. well, 17th meeting is cancelled. so maybe c HER on the 19th itself?? =p miss HER lots!! =D
4:07:00 AM
Sunday, December 11, 2005
got parade on fri without mr chew around. though at 1st things weren't right, majors got so work out, i got soo stress out but luckily everything went fine after that. i never give up trying 2 improve, but why ain's things moving?? ermm.. gotta reflect. dunno what's wrong 2, went there 4 soo many times, out of a sudden, on fri, band seems dunno what 2 do even we shouted. esp HL. as van n me weren't feeling well n i asked HL try 2 take charge in everything. know he's tired 2. rehersal was really exhausting. the sun dun seems 2 co-oprate with us. it's so hot!! n i felt worst than ever. esp the 2nd rehersal. i nearly faint n vomit. my eyes went close once n nearly fall with my trombone on my hand. was thinking if i will dent my trombone at that point of time. trying hard 2 keep my eyes wide open. though move quite a lot. lol. was playing pudding game again when having dinner. all started bcos of me 2. lol. that's a trend already. tbone went influence the tuba. feroz was disgusting. he simply can't do it so it went all over. lol. while, nic, justin, me n jas were having fun n keep on playing. end up i was really full. ms lim saw me playing, she's like sayingme greedy gotta eat up all pudding. haha. soo LAME. went off 4 the actual 1. woo, as usual, we march in 1st. n so on. shirley did a gd job, i can say. went numb n when gotta march out, it's like so hard 2 move. haha. well, so elated 2 c every1 clapping 4 swiss n cheer. saw the ncc guy who went 2 nco that time 2 teach us drill. he was shouting,"gogogo!! U guys r the best!!" haha. soo cute. he's really a great guy i can say. even talk 2 me after nco that time. n said."hey.. passing out yeahh!! U guys look great!!" soo friendly yeahh?? glad i approach him in nco. =) got brass band on the stage again. jasmine got soo tired n cannot stop moving. so irriatating of her. lol. n she kept saying i'm stiff. i'm not actually, it's cos i'm sick n no energy 2 move. seriously. lol. went back sch, well, after every1 went off, saw pudding. so here gies our pudding game again. lol. the worst is, feroz, HL n naz got soo high. they wanted 2 play on the road. naz was mad, lay down on the road itself. then feroz n HL, they were doing pumping in the middle, we screamed when cars r here. some drivers stare, some smile. haha. soo cool. being force 2 go mac again. wanna go home but got drag once again. cos of no money, weiting treated me sundae, so sweet of her. then decided 2 went off around 11 plus. every1 went off 2. lol. back home around 11 plus going 12. realy tired. online 4 a while only n slept till 12 plus 2day. no 1 was at home. was told 2 stay at home but 2day, no 1 was at home. baked pizza n watched tv. after disgest, i was sleepy again. guess maybe really need lots of rest. haha. so slept till 7 plus going 2 8. no1 was at home still. i'm soo bored. tv got nothing nice. online is uselss. soon, 2nd bro came back. anyway, soo glad 3rd bro will not b back. hate sat at time cos 3rd bro with his gf will b back, means i gotta sleep in the living room again. it's so uncomfortable n back ache. finally!! hehe. back 2 my orange space. watched chicken little dvd 2day, it's not that nice but cute lahh. life nowadays is soo DEAD. well, nevermind, U wun understand..
12:59:00 AM
Friday, December 09, 2005
hello. finally find some time 2 update my blog again. some people had been pestering me. okie okie, here i come. =)
i have been very busy nowadays, sorry guys, can't update that regular. do check out "my space" 2. =) just finished band dinner. well, though it did not go as sucessfully as what i thought, but finally it's over. i had a hard time on that seriously. well, some will know how i suffered. now gonna have band camp. woo.. hopefully everything will b well done then. got nothing much 2 say about things going on nowadays. i never have the time 2 rest WELL. n i mean WELL. these 2 days had scoldings from mum. she just screamed n yelled like nobody's business. yes, she blames on band, she blames me. blames me 4 having a high rank. well, what's that 4?? my family members r.. haii. they just dun wannat, dun bother 2 understand me. my mum dun wanan give me allowance, dun allow me 2 go out, wanna lock me up, cancel my phone. well, what a life. i have no life seriously. so meaningless 2 carry on. i'm getting older but they still think i'm a child. well, i know a lot since i'm a child. i undestand a lot. but no1 knows. cos i keep it 2 myself. i'm afraid 2 speak out. 4 now, i just let my mum do what she wants. she wanna beat me up, i'll accept the fact. she wanna chop me in2 pieces, i will let her b. she wanna go talk 2 HER. NO WAY 4 this. that day, i was thinking if i should leave this home, or even leave the world. well, i really dunno. i'm 2 stress out of every single thing that's happening. no matter where i go, i just can't let go, i just can't stop thinking. i will, n let me tell U, i will collaspe. it's just sooner or later. i'm having gastric from yesterday till now. instant noodles 4 dinner yesterday, n porridge 4 dinner 2day. others meals?? well, i din eat. =\ dun feel like anyway. really gonna faint anytime. just so tired out. why m i in this world in the 1st place?? haha.. *wondering. i lied, i'm arrogant, i'm stupid. so what so gd about me?? nothing. yes, nothing. n i shouldn't b here..
anyway, thanks 4 reading.. sorry 2 waste the time of urs. bleahhhhh..
2:05:00 AM
