Monday, July 25, 2005
2day wasn't a very gd day. wasn't feeling that well. a bit dizzy. headache n kinda like.. gonna faint?? lol. just not feeling well lahh.
chem is the worst lesson 2day. i dunno why, class seems 2 b soo mad 2day. can't keep quiet 4 even a sec. esp in chem. it's the last lesson. madam tan got in n talked about giving demrit points. appointment with madam tang. no 2 really seems 2 care. so she wrote names on the board. while going through some acids n bases stuffs. suddenly, while she's writing, some1 threw something at her. she got so work out, she turned back n shouted. i mean..
YELLED.. like a mad dog. really scary. her face turned
RED. really red. was asking who's the 1 who threw it at her. no 1 admit. then she thought it's sean or zameer who did it. zameer n sean just sitting behind me, so when she stomped her feet n walked 2wards, i felt so scared. really. then she pointed at zameer then sean. yelling,"
was it U!! was it U!!" it's not them, so they talked back. madam tan was real furious so she walked off n slammed the door. well, it's only a small thing, why she has 2 b so angry about?? i dunno why, i just feel so scared. she like.. i dunno how 2 describe. just.. fear. really dun wish 2 c her. dun wanna talk 2 her. dun wanna b her chem rep. I DUN WANT!!! not bcos i wanna rebel her. cos i'm really afraid of her..
chem test coming n i'm not sure what's going on. have been studying acids, salt n bases these few days. can't understand still. but trying very hard. shh.. hahah. i'm soo sick!! dunno what's wrong. arghh. WEAK!!!
i'm not sad of cos. i'm not.
10:16:00 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
everything's fine 2day.
caught in the rain 2 check out stuffs. wasn't feeling well. got flu since yesterday till now. guess not that serious 1 lahh. my leg got strained again. everytime the same lahh.. nvm. lol. i'm very sleepy 2day. can even sleep while standing. haha! scary right?? slept at 2 plus yesterday cos of doing something. then got flu, nose got stuck so can't sleep really well. haha.
hey. i quarelled with him 2day. bleahh. just bcos i asked him. n i repeat again, i ASKED him why ain't any1 helping at the food area. n he felt that i was shouting n blaming him. he got so work out n shouted back at me. i got pissed of cos. being accused so badly. arghh. b4 i can say anything else, he walked away. i'm really furious. even threw that file against the wall n walked off. din talk 2 him from that moment onwards. why should i?? err.. i mean i shouldn't b the 1 apologising right?? i not at fault what. i can confirm this. if i'm at fault, i will sure say sorry 2 him. he's the 1 who shouted. if he dun care, why should i?? from that moment, i felt very pissed n down. but i didn't tell any1 of cos. dun wanna make more trouble. wasting of time ehh..
haii.. U know what?? i think that's getting worst. after hearing what she said, i felt very down. cos once again, i've not done a gd 1. but i dunno why can't i. maybe i need some reflection?? felt so down as i think that i've disappoint her once again. so i sigh once again. haii~ really brood over it mann. i dunno. I WANNA IMPROVE!!!!!!! =
ermm, hope she's feeling better bahh. hope she's not that sick anymore. seems so serious n i guess it's really serious. really really hope she's well ASAP!!!! n hope she rest well. =)
10:57:00 PM
Friday, July 08, 2005
1stly, i wanna thx my 1 n only blog fan, marcus tan. haha. U know what, he told me that he actually read every single entry of my blog n was complaining that i din update 4 such a long time. lol!! is he that bored?? lol.
was home early as no band prac. rest. mum was shocked n wonder why m i back home at this hour. i'm always home around 6 plus [in case U din realise.] lol. ermm, i got tution le. so will b more busy than last time. wondered when will i collasped. lol. hey. i got nose bleed yesterday when i'm bathing. yucks! hate that. i was washing myself n the water in red so sudden. gosh!! imagine that. lol. then like go wipe it off also cannot, wash also cannot. hahah. well, not the 1st time anyway. haha. wanna know something gd?? i will b cutting my damn hair!! hahaha. but maybe will b worst. dunno lahh.. still willing 2 try out. hey, what hair style i din cut b4 1. dun say botak lahh.. lol!! ermm, guess what, we'll b having art!! maybe only. but got the chance, i'm so glad. the new art teacher wanted us 2 draw fashion. i'm still thinking what can i draw as U can c, i'm not really gd or pro at drawing yet although i really love 2 learn. hee. ermm, any1 know who's mr ho chee yong?? the 1 with "black face". hahaha. the 1 who never bring a smile along with him no matter what. ermm, my class, 3n1 got him 2 smile!! hehhe. so cute!! really look nicer that way. his big smile. soo nice!! n he's great. madam tan is getting worst. haha. nono. should say the teacher she bring along is soo.. haiya, i dunno how 2 say. both of them like.. haha. couple. =x U know what, i got 2 chem teachers in the class but everytime after the lesson, i realise that i learn nothing. dun say i din concentrate. i did. but simply dun understand what they saying. gonna flip through n make sure i know mann. arghh. sometimes also pissed with myself. cos can't understand. always gonna spend more time 2 study than others. hahaha.
each time he scolds me, i feel so sad. cos i feel that i've disappoint U. i dun mind 2 get scolding but i mind disappointing U.
it's like so shocked. so many days le. but suddenly.. n at least.. half elated half sad. din even say hi.. =\
2:53:00 PM
