Sunday, January 30, 2005
so long din update le!! so how's every?? lolZ..
life 4 me is still the same.. lack of sleep, soo tired, n of cos the pressure!! hahaZ!! what can i say?? gotta wait till end of my life then dun have all this problems?? ermZ, guess i really got 2 get used 2 it.. n guess sooner or later, i can b free.. got alot of test next week.. math, phy, mt, chem.. omgg.. soo scared.. scared i cannot cope.. what if i fail badly?? no way man!! not going 2 b like last time anymore..
nothing much recently.. orhZ.. went choit cantare yesterday.. it's not that boring like what most people say.. it's kinda nice.. jeremy, derrick n me were crapping all the way through.. hahaZ!! they r full of jokes that cannot make me stop laughing!! hahaZ!! saw miss seah they all.. they were playing bingo when having the 20 min break.. how pro they r.. hahaZ!! i remember we were soo bored at dnt class then matt, sean, yuanchao, yanjing n me were playing bingo.. hahahZ!! that's the worst lesson i had.. i nearly fall asleep.. i got do my work lahZ.. hahahZ!! talking about dnt, i've decide on my lighting device le.. but, dunno can work mahZ.. look so impossible.. hahaZ!! maybe changing or what.. it looks funny 2.. omg.. they dun seems 2 care about dnt lehZ.. they dun even wanna draw.. no matter what, i'm still thinking of ART!! =_(
saw eleanor at lot 1 2day.. hahaZ!! soo shocked!! finially c my dear senior!! =D
2 many shocking things happening 2 me.. had 4 me 2 accept.. but, have 2 face it right?? i dun wish 2 know.. if i can choose, i rather dunno anything n act blur then.. but i know running away wun help..
should i join cheerleading this yr?? soo confuse!!!
hey jerry!! just do it!! i'm waiting 4 U 2 put it on 4 her!! hahahZ!! gd luck!! happy family yahZ?? =p
nice song here!! meaningful.. erZ, those in pat lau's class should know.. hahaZ!!
Love Me by Collin Raye.
I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said "Boy, you might not understand but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none but I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said"
Chorus:
If you get there before I do don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darlin' wait and see
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me
I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her his eyes filled up with tears
Chorus
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me
1:34:00 AM
Thursday, January 20, 2005
STRESS!! is what i can say.. dun U feel stress in upper sec 2?? why every1 seems so cheerful than i m now?? why can't i b just like them?? nowadays found out got a couple of remedials le.. last time still can go home take nap.. now?? NO WAY!! argHh!! my panda eyes is out le.. n every1 says i look sleepy everytime.. haiZ~ took the fnn test 2day.. soo diff!! think they purposely makes things diff 4 us.. actually i dun wanna take this test 1.. like killing each of them 1 by 1, dun U think so??
actually go office find miss seah 2 pass her those diskettes then saw mr sashi then talk 2 him about sports leader stuffs.. hahaZ!! got 1 more things 2 stress me le!! U know what?? sports leaders must pei those taf people.. means i will b waking up early!! argHh!! then miss tan saw yanjing n me, asked us 2 go there.. she wanted us 2 help her in pasting the green house thing.. i agreed of cos, but yanjing keep pulling me.. as if asking me not 2 b stupid 2 help.. then walked 2 miss seah there n pass 2 her.. she said i din do much in orientation n was expecting i'll do more lehZ.. haiZ~ not i dun want lorZ.. is.. they r doing them all by themselves.. sometimes will 4gotten me or like, they think they can cope with everything.. so i can only do brochures.. actually side is suppose 2 b done by me 2, by jolene wanted 2 do it, so i let her do lorZ.. i'm willing 2 do of cos if they ask me 2.. haiZ~ then go dnt remedial.. only the same old people go only.. kai peng, yanjing, aklili n me.. hahaZ!! then the teacher talked 2 us n teach.. ermZ, learn 2 b diff 2day.. drew all what i thought.. then the teacher said i'm on the right track, i got ideas n creative.. then i like dunno what 2 do.. cos drew alot alot le.. although they had stuck on 5 drawings, i'm at the 12 1.. what if i get in 2 fnn?? will i b wasting my time or what?? dunno!! arghh!! after that go find miss tan.. she actually still can remember my name lehZ!! hahahZ!! surprise.. then pin everything up n yanjing left as she got 2 ruch home.. left me n kaipeng.. then after that.. ermZ, got 2 say sorry 2 sean.. cos i'm really tired, so cannot go out with U.. it's around 6++ by then..
ermZ, got 2 say something important.. people find me weird, why m i changing my mind 2 go 2 remedials than rushing home 2 sleep?? it's all bcos.. my sis.. U know?? dunno why, after the say she told me she gonna work real hard, after that day we smsed each other n she told me she's alone in the class waiting 2 4pm 4 phycis remedial.. i was like.. really?? so whenever i feel like rushing home 2 sleep rather than going remedials, i will think.."why m i like this?? should i do this?? i ought 2 think.." sis, she's the 1 who makes me awake.. she lighten up my life.. really really got 2 thx her.. =)
7:58:00 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
got no time 2 update, sorry guys.
was soo busy nowadays.. got homework 4 sure n also orientation stuffs 2 do.. well, the brochures like.. failure~ they dun look nice n attractive.. haiZ~ quite a no. join band.. heheZ!! was soo tired.. U know?? nowadays i slept at 10+.. scray yahZ?? hey~ last time i slept at 12+ or later.. hahaZ!! homework keep on coming.. so, hard 2 escape.. i also dun wish 2 owe teachers work lahZ.. most of the things i can understand.. but always tend 2 4gets easily.. heheZ!! now i'm confuse.. no art, then fnn or dnt?? well, i think fnn lahZ.. i ask soo many people le.. i think i will take fnn!! heheZ!! girlish me yeahZ?? lalala..
yahZ~ sean injured my hand.. thumb i mean.. hahaZ!! well, pain till i dropped my tears.. can imagine how pain le bahZ?? but those guys kept saying it's just a small cut.. yahZ~ small but deep.. haiyah.. say le also no use.. they wun know unless they r xiaojun.. lolZ!! well, sean's ruler just fly away man!! n my plaster's cotton gone red.. scary yeahZ?? n i scared of blood 1.. nearly faint!! hahaZ!! jk jk..
went library 2day.. with yanjing.. heheZ!! chatted 4 a long time n back home at 9+.. we have decided 2 buy a new phone on the same day.. n i really gonna save n save.. well, guess i finally know how 2 think bahZ.. now will hesitate whether 2 buy some of the things.. if it's useless, dun buy 1st.. if not kinda waste of money.. think last time i really.. waste 2 much le.. NONONO!! no way i gonna continue this habbit.. well, it was soo dark that yanjing fall just now.. scary man!! n the blood.. OMG!! i got no choice but 2 help her wash up.. yahZ~ i'm not sjab 1.. so i just like.. base on what i know.. hahahZ!! just wipe it with water n she kept complaining that it's soo painful.. sorry~ i can feel the pain 2..
digital cam. new phone. mp3 player. those r the only thing i ask 4..
1:20:00 AM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
life in sec 3 is miserable.. why m i in that kinda class n the class in that kinda location?? haiZ~ i hope i'm in n2 then.. i really miss 2n2'04, friends, class n miss the teachers most.. cannot imagine that mr yeo is my form teacher now.. n he's totally BIAS!! well, is kinda bias lahZ.. but he's still okie.. teachers r all kinda boring.. wanna start a chapter then must talk alot alot other stuffs then can start a chapter.. the location of my class is like.. only 1 class at that floor.. then art room n langugue room.. shit right?? haiZ~ then noisy 2.. friends around me r diff.. i'm just not used 2 it.. trying hard 2 mix with them lorZ.. then i think i will b better in n2.. n now, no art.. not enough art teachers!! omg~ shitty life!! no art, i wun b able 2 live man!! come1 still told me.."only no art what.." kaoZ!! U will never know how i feel.. never ever.. i feel soo bad everyday.. come back home, i was soo blardy tired n sleepy.. just now talking 2 yanjing on phone nearly fall asleep.. then still got this n that 2 do.. yesterday already sleep at 11 le.. kinda early 4 me.. but still.. tired like hell 2day.. i'm suppose 2 study later on lorZ.. let me die lahZ.. this kinda life i cannot take it anymore.. 2n2'04 friends ain't there.. 2n2'04 teachers ain't there.. 2n2'04 class room ain't there.. anymore, 4ever.. pls, dun let me suffer from this kinda of reality.. give me a better learning place, let me take art.. let me have better teachers.. why m i always soo unlucky?? how i wish i'm still in sec 2.. n class 2n2'04 ONLY.. i'm really scared.. i might fall n never gonna b up again.. n never will.. =_(
10:18:00 PM
