Thursday, December 30, 2004
go 2 the performance just 2 play 2 songs?? omg.. but it was like kinda cool 2 c other band performing n stuffs like that.. n was having fun talking with that.. hahaZ!! the "xmas guy" was like lame lahZ.. lolZ!!
ermZ, just wondering, why m i soo different from others?? why can't i think normally n got the same ideas as others?? so i can communicate better.. so it wun b soo hard 4 me 2 talk n stuffs like that.. why?? haiZ!! i feel soo xtra.. thinking diff, style diff n characters diff.. if i'm same with them, i can communicate n wun b soo pissed le.. i'm the only 1 who think this way man.. but they wun bother anyway.. who will care 4 this blardy xiaojun here right?? well, maybe i just got 2 b quiet n listen.. nod my head n say.. "okie" 4 everything they r doiing even though i hate 2 do it, hate their thinking or even they r in the wrong.. well, i just got 2 b quiet..
soo late le.. hope i'm sleeping now rather than thinking.. online 2 chat with sis bahZ.. just now drew a tazmania[i spelled wrongly right??] n like, try 2 shade.. i c le, like weird weird de.. hahaZ!! just soo diff from sis!! n me like dunno how 2 enlarge a pix.. if i try 2 enlarge it, it will go out of shape, or will b back 2 the size again.. lolZ!! stupid right?? *ywan. i'm just sooooo tired n soooo sleepy.. but got meeting 2 moro with them.. can i dun go?? can i just do my stuffs n pass it 2 them?? well, i'm inside or not, it's not important what.. i'm willing 2 help out, but r they willing 2 let me help?? =/
1:13:00 AM
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
arghh!! shit me!! shit that stupid idiot xiaojun!! i'm soo dead, like dead salted fish.. i'm soo guilty!! bcos of my stupid hand go sms, now, the situation is like.. arghh!! hate it hate it!! i thought i was only sms.. n now.. haiZ!! only said SHE1 said that my drawing is ugly n it's facts anyway.. n SHE2 go scold HER1.. well, i din know.. SHE2 go scold her, cos SHE2 just trying 2 help me 2 stand out as a close friend.. n SHE1 was soo piss now.. n SHE2 was only kidding but SHE1 thinks that SHE2 is soo serious n really wanna apoplogise 2 me.. n i wun accpet the apologise cos i know SHE1 is joking n SHE2 is trying 2 help me.. i think bcos of me, i make both of them so..... i dunno how 2 say then.. like.. haiZ!! 1 trying 2 help me cos we were close.. 1 take it soo serious n pissed, wanna spologise no matter what.. all not at fault!! it's my fault!! i shouldn't have told HER2 that n i was only just saying.. if i din say, SHE2 will never go scold HER1 n make HER1 so pissed.. they r friends man!! what m i doing?? shit myself!!!!! arghHhH!! SORRY SHE1 n SHE2.. well, if any of the SHEs saw this, sure know what m i talking about.. sorry SHEs.. i.. i.. i only sms n make the whole thing soo big.. i'm sorry.. really sorry.. both of U r soo gd 2 me.. 1 joke with me, 1 helping me.. THX N SORRY!!!!!!!!! I'M SOOOOO BLARDY GUILTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAKE U ALL LIKE THAT.. if i din tell her that joke, she wun scold U n U wun b pissed.. haiZ!! can U all listen 2 me??!! =(
well, well.. cannot cannot 4get 2 thx my sis 4 everything.. sketch book n those drawing pencil.. woo!! cool.. she wrapped till soo cutee!! n was soo curious.. opened it in bus n saw everything.. wow!! my tears feel like rolling down.. TOUCHED!! well, people will say "chey".. but 4 me, i'm saying "thx".. n i'm really really touched.. everything she did 4 me, i wanna say a BIG
THANK YOU!!
*huggies
8:32:00 PM
Monday, December 27, 2004
huishi!! warn U arhZ!! dun b soo guilty!! lolZ~!! nothing 2 b guilty lahZ.. i din blame U n it's NOT ur fault man!! smile, okie?? =)
2day went out with jinxiu n huishi.. thought i'm the latest.. who knows, jinxiu later than me!! hahahZ~!! go Giant 2 buy cane candy.. never sell man.. what's wrong with this yr xmas?? no cane candy?? haiZ~!! then shop around 4 the gift.. then go bugis.. wanna go lot 1 de but we took the wrong train!! hahahZ~!! look! how blurr we r.. hahaZ~!! so must well go bugis n shop.. well, they r soo noisy n keep asking who i buying 4.. then i say out le.. =x actually dun wanna let them know de.. but they.. buai tahan man!! then they kept saying.. "horZ horZ!! bias lorZ!! bias lorZ!!" then i go diam n promise 2 buy 4 them 2.. shop around, cannot decide what me gonna buy 4 her.. then keep choosing stuffs 4 me 2 buy 4 her.. point this n that.. wahZ lauZ!! still ask me buy something ridiculous.. e.g orange tie, pink billabong bag n stuffs like that.. then ask me buy cards inside wrote.."to my dear husband." or "i love U" all those.. wahZ!! cannot tahan man!! feel like giving them each a slap!! hahaZ~!! of cos i din lahZ.. then still cannot decide what 2 buy.. so in the end, we went lot 1 2 look 4 cane candy.. wahZ!! stupid cane candy!! cannot find lorZ!!!!! dun have lorZ!! wanna give section also cannot!! =( me n huishi were crazy looking 4 that man.. ermZ.. then finally saw a cap.. kinda nicee n cool.. lolZ~!! but never buy.. after that go "gift a name' n make her name as keychain.. well, nice man!! hahahZ~!! then after that bought the cap as her xmas gift.. well, din really c her wearing cap but hope she will like it bahZ.. if she wears it, sure cool n stylo de.. hehehZ~!! actually wanna buy her a towel n sew her name.. but seems like she dun need it.. well, cap more cool lahZ.. hahahZ~!! then bought a keychain 4 huishi.. well, as xmas gift bahZ.. hahaZ~!! huishi seems soo happy with her rabbit keychain.. lolZ~!! ask jinxiu what she wants but she dun want any.. so.. din buy lorZ.. ask her 2 choose le.. hahaZ~!! then after that go eat n go home lorZ.. then just now put the cap n keychain properly ready 4 2moro.. hahaZ~!! SCARED~~ then wrote her a letter.. arghH!! my handwriting sucks!! hahahZ~!!
gonna b a special day.. 28th of dec 2004, which is 2moro!! i very scared man!! already prepared everything inside my bag le.. hope i can make it man!!
i can't write sweet stuffs like some people.. but i can only say out what i think.. thanks 4 being there.. thx 4 everything U have done.. U r the best!! so hope U like what i did.. =)
10:02:00 PM
Sunday, December 26, 2004
what a xmas!! staying at home smsing n read newspaper.. last yr at least still got those mood.. but this year.. nahZ~ just dunno why lorZ..
2day smsing 2 people only but that can make me sms 100 over.. or even 200 le bahZ.. ahhaZ~!! we sms like chatting on phone.. in the afternoon sms 1.. then chat alot.. actually dunno him bcome know le.. i mean like actually he is a guy i dun really care n dun really talk.. only smile at times.. but now we actually sms 4 soo long.. n we start 2 trust each other n tell each other more about ourselves.. some personal stuffs.. kinda fun, at least can have some new friends.. we stop smsing when i wanna sleep n wanna save some sms 4 night time.. heheZ~!! then went 2 sleep.. after that got wedding dinner.. lame right?? on xmas.. then she also happened 2 have wedding dinner at night.. so promise 2 sms each other cos we know it will b real bored.. hahahZ~!! well, the couple soo sweet!! kinda envious man.. lolZ~!! know what?? we both were hoping that we r attending the same wedding dinner man.. but we know it's impossible lahZ.. no such coincidence de lahZ.. but we attend wedding dinner on the same night, kinda qiao le.. lolZ~!! then sms n sms.. know more about each other again bahZ.. cos like chatting.. this few days only sms her bahZ.. the auntie bside me keep looking.. cos i' was holding my phone 4 the whole night.. lolZ~!! then went back home n online.. chat with some guys here.. hahhaZ~!! then now chattng with cheehern lorZ.. he want me 2 pei he chat.. so.. i try not 2 sleep yet bahZ.. if not he will b bored.. ermZ.. shit him!! he keep saying he got dogs at malaysia.. then i dun have.. *sob.
haiZ~ i know i will face a BIG problem soon.. it's loneliness.. i will b lonely soon!! 3 cheers 4 me?? soon all my friends will b passing out.. i mean those in band then.. hahaZ~!! then i'm the only 1 left.. well, alone then.. nothing i can do but only get used 2 it, yeahZ?? this is the crisis i gonna face bahZ.. well, face the reality, xiaojun.. =) dun worry, sis.. i will b fine..
1:54:00 AM
Thursday, December 23, 2004
me.. n my unfulfilled dreams.. =_)
well, this few days keep drawing n drawing.. got lots of things in mind which i wanna draw out.. i've used creative as my topic at that time.. then drew quite a few pieces.. now my topis is "unfulfilled dreams".. heheZ~!! kinda dunno what 2 draw.. only draw partly of it n the main, i got no idea.. cos even got the idea, i also dunno how 2 draw everything out.. gonna crack my brain 4 that..
ermZ.. what can i buy?? this?? or that??
2day go make specs le.. was considering among 2 specs.. black, plastic specs.. which is what i always want.. when i wear it, kinda nerd but got some coolness.. hahahZ~!! while another 1 is blue, metal specs.. i wear it like kinda cool n stylo type.. got no idea which 1 2 buy.. finally, i bought the blue 1.. hehheZ~!! well, my degree drop man!! 1st time!! miracle!! lalalaZ!! hahahZ~!! actually got find 1 nicer de.. blue in colour.. real nice.. i mean i suit lahZ.. but, got some problem lorZ.. cos of my degree, i cannot make that kinda specs.. hahaZ~!! stupid right?? stupid eyes!! gonna cut hair next week.. lalaZ!! excited.. gonna have new look le!! heheZ~!! like it when i change my style.. heheZ~!! cos will have a fresh feeling..
original, fresh, creative, style, ur look, ur way..
music, sports, drawing, my life, my dream..
wait 4 me.. 28th dec.. hahahhaZ~!!
*2 chat with U face 2 face, 2 sit with U on sports' day, 2 run with U on cross country, 2 run the same relay, all my dreams.. U r part of my dream.. =)
11:52:00 PM
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
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pisces~
astro characteristics- receptive. supersensative. impressionable. peace-loving. serious. sympatheric. charitable. compassionate. artistic. creative. dreamy. dedicated. imaginative. psychic. shy. introverted. spiritual. reclusive.
love- U're a throughbred romantic who dreams of poetry n songs n all the sweet nothings, but U;ve been unable 2 find some1 who appreciates such things. but dun give up just yet. some1 unexpected might b right around the corner.
school- this month will b full speed ahead 4 U, but do keep an eye on ur calender n make sure U dun bite off more than U can chew!!
love days- 14. 24. 27.
2005- financial position will improve, as well as fame n reputation. 1 will bcome practical, have physical endurance n perservance.
2day went out with yun, jerry, meryl, yj n sean.. bought bag n wallet which i love.. well, although people just can't have the same taste as me, i insist buying it then.. the op bag isn't that nice as billabong 1.. but, it's nicee 2.. the wallet might look like old n spoilt.. but that's the style i want.. heheZ~!! my friends just couldn't agree with me that it's nicee.. having fun with yj although i'm not feeling well 2day.. took neoprint with her.. well, it have been yrs 4 me 2 take neoprint man!! soo long din take le.. 4gotten all my pose.. lolZ~!! left water bottle n pencil case.. i hope 4 billabong pencil case n adidas bottle.. billabong pencil case 2 pinkish lahZ!! hahahZ~!! how 2 buy?? cannot cannot!! adidas bottle, got orange 1?? =x
1:37:00 AM
Monday, December 20, 2004
back from camp.. soo blardy tired man!! it's like.. when back 2 home, i took 188.. then i fall asleep in the bus.. take all the way 2 NUS there.. omg!! some more me singapore nerdy.. saw it's somewhere unfamiliar, i very scared n quickly press the bell.. then faster take bus back home again.. when told my mom about this, she was like laughing like hell.. i was like tanned le.. even my aunt said that me suddenly BLACK.. lolZ~!! well, got the specs mark there.. yucks!! lolZ~!! suay man!! i can't sleep well in camp.. it's not the time i used 2 sleep.. when every was asleep, i'm smsing n looking around.. then about 3am++ then sleep lorZ.. sleep very little but use quite alot of energy.. went home n "BUMP" in2 the bed.. 4pm++ sleep till 9am++ the next morning.. yesterday sleep quite early 2.. 8pm++ sleep till 8am++ still take nap after that lorZ.. lolZ~!! scary right?? i'm kinda sleepy now but dun feel like sleepy lehZ.. nowadays like no 1 online lehZ.. lolZ~!!
well, the distance was soo near yet i can't pluck up my courage 2 talk 2 U.. shit man!! i think i gonna commit sucide le.. i hate myself man.. still gonna use all those stupid method 2 chat with U.. sorry.. sorry.. i cannot 4give myself 4 this!!
1:49:00 AM
Monday, December 13, 2004
i'm so proud of myself.. hahhaZ~!! yesterday, i wrapped all those books.. it's done.. with name written.. changing my handwriting.. well, think last time my handwriting, 2 neat le.. lolZ~!! gonna b more messy.. neat look very straight.. so kinda hate it le.. lolZ~!! n 2day go jogged.. shiok man!! can never believe i did that.. loLZ~!! but evey1 seems 2 b looking.. i paii seh man.. still got 1 auntie asked me whether it's a running competition.. i was like.. "huhZ?? no.." hahhaZ~!! at that time i cannot catch my breath le.. so continue running.. took only few mins man!! din know jogging is soo fast.. my after that my stomach pain like hell.. like, gonna faint.. so i walked very very slowly.. hopeing that i wun faint.. when finally reached home n sit down, i feel better..
omg!! 2moro band camp lehZ.. die die.. like soo sudden.. scared i'll miss home.. will bring the same bag again.. BIG.. real BIG.. hahahZ~!! well, i think sure malu.. so must ACT COOL 2moro.. lolZ~!! c U guys soon!! =p
11:41:00 PM
Sunday, December 12, 2004
hate him.. just hate him.. the more he talks 2 me, the more i hate him.. that's no why.. he betrayed me.. it's him!! he is the 1!! no way i'm gonna trust him anymore!! he still can laughed n din even say "sorry" 2 me.. he thinks it'a alright 2 say out?? FINE!! so get out of my sight!! i hate the way he is!! yucks!! it's not only this, it's bcos the way U r makes me irritated, U know?? i cannot trust U anymore.. n i wun..
well, mood-swing cos of that idiot guy.. shit him man!! why i trust him soo much.. he should count himself lucky cos i dun revenge.. if i say out all his secrets, he will sure cry n beg me man!! i'm not that bad like him lahZ!! bOo shit!!
omg!! guess what my siao 3rd bro done?? ting2 talked 2 me in msn, my stupid bro asked her call!! then she thought something real urgent cos my bro keep rushing her.. in the end she really called me.. i was shocked n curious 2 c that weird no. appearing.. so pick up.. then i said hello, she also said hello.. hahahZ~!! ask her who she is, she dun wanna say.. then i thought it's ting2 lahZ.. but kinda impossible.. so thought was wrong no. lorZ.. she kept saying.."U ask me 2 call U what.." n at last, she said she's ting.. hahahZ~!! i was blardy shock n shy at that time.. after hanging, i scolded my bro.. well, my bro said my face was blardy redd n i can feel the heat.. never being soo shy b4.. omg!! sorry, ting.. my bro is immature.. lolZ~! =/
When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way.
And when I'm scared and losing ground;
When my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there; pushing me to the top.
You're always there; giving me all you've got.
Chorus:
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on,
For everything you do,
For everything that's true, I turn to you.
When I lose my will to win,
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything,
'Cause your love is so amazing;
'cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend, you're always on my side;
Giving me faith that gets me through the night.
Repeat Chorus:
For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain;
For truth that will never change;
For someone to lean on; for a heart I can rely on through anything;
For that one who I can run to.... I turn to you.
Repeat Chours two times:
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,I turn to you...
christina aguilera, i turn 2 U.. dedicate 2 friends that r always there 4 me..
esp my sis.. =p
6:01:00 PM
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
i really dunno whether i can take it or not anymore.. i know 2 much.. sometimes i wish i can just dun care, but the problems seems 2 come 2 me n ask me 2 care.. well, i cannot say things out.. maybe that's me.. that's me i used 2 b.. but nowadays, i got 2 many shocking news.. 2 many shocking questions.. why?? why me?? why all happened 2 me?? i dun mind people telling me their problems.. this is what i told them.. i dun mind.. really.. but.. i'm afraid that i cannot help them.. so what's the point of telling me?? i'm just useless.. i'm just a little xiaojun.. so little that no 1 really cares.. well, nvm lahZ.. i'm just stress out of what i m now.. cos.. some1 told me everything.. n i think i'm stupid 2 tell the person some of it.. trust 2 easily.. i'm just soo cold n sadd now.. well, feel like crying out loud n shout.. "why m i in this world!!!!!!!!"
then i'm guilty..
10:14:00 PM
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
2day no band.. actaully wanna wake up early 2 jog.. in the end woke up at 12++.. mom bought laksa 4 me.. bleahZ.. dun feel like eating that.. staying at home 2day.. wanna go jogging at around 4++ but the floor is wet n drizzling.. even if i wanna go my parents also dun let de.. nowadays soo many stupid mosqitoes [erZ.. dunno how 2 spell..] biting me man.. argHh!! chatting with lots of people now..
yesterday band dinner.. quite fun.. as least better than last yr de.. cos maybe got eleanor bside me this yr.. lolZ~!! she's crazy man.. or can say this table 12 is crazy.. i'm the only sec 2 n eleanor is the only sec 4 there.. well, i can only mix around with people older than me.. lolZ~!! we were laughing soo loud.. cannot endure lahZ.. then stupid eleanor spoil my ella's hp chain.. wahZ lauZ!! jasmine gave me de.. lame lame lame all the way.. soon, band dinner end le.. fast man.. everything just like a thunder.. then took photos.. then went home.. din take the sch bus cos i'm living in jurong lehZ.. what 4 go all the way back 2 bukit batok.. then very scary.. like i'm the only 1 waiting 4 bus n quite worry that no more bus le.. heng still got.. n only me n a guy the the double decker bus included the bus driver is 3 people only.. lolZ~!! then took mrt.. reached home around 11+ gonna 12.. late le.. sleepy.. watched tv n ate some snacks.. heheZ~!! then sleep le..
hey ting2!! ur slide is great man!! *clap clap* n U look great in dress lahZ.. no worries!! hahaZ~!! 3 cheers 4 ting2!!
4:53:00 PM
