Monday, September 20, 2004
y is tis happenin?? everything's nort the same anymor!!!!! i hate the wae i m now!!!!! a guy frm my klass.. actuali veri gd wif him.. den nowadaes he changed.. he dun tok 2 me lorZ.. out of a sudden.. tok 2 him he diaoZ lorZ.. do grp wk, he walk a side.. if nort sae wanna go hm.. fark manZ!! he dun even bother.. i hate him!!!!!!!!!! another frm gd 2 bad siaZ.. haiyahZ.. dunno if i'm the onli 1 hu feel tis wae or wat.. tink the whole world is turnin arnd.. wat happened?? thot i promise myself 2 stay hapi no matter wat?? haiZ~!! 2dae sci lesson was fun.. drawin the food web.. miss seah toked 2 us.. she's great!! bleahZ.. used 2 hate her de.. heeZ~!! sori!! but she's ridiculous sumtimes.. den brin her go c ****** n ******.. heeZ~!! but she cannot c the true face.. she insisted tat i lyk sum1.. but i dare nort tel.. she told me n yanjing alot abt herself.. kinda feel lyk she's rather a frenZ.. tink she kinda stress lorZ.. cuZ 2n2.. which is my klass.. lolZ~!! wat can i sae den.. my klass oso unreasonable.. alwaes mak her shout.. den she get sick.. she's stress everywher manZ.. takk caree, miss seah!! haiZ~!! bac 2 lit grp wk.. after skool actuali wanna send weijun de.. but gort lit 2 do.. bo bian.. no 1 doin.. n i haf 2.. sianZ!!!!!!! den yc gif attitude.. sae he wanna go hm instead of stayin n do wk.. javen n cheehern crappin again.. dunno y my leg veri pain out of a sudden.. haiZ~!! chop of my legg lahZ!!!! den after tat went wm wif cheehern n javen.. go eat bk n shop.. den go library n do math.. den went hm.. me finished my math le.. onli left a few.. i dun feel lyk doin but wil try 2 finish.. ermZ.. stupid javen kip callin.. sae he wanan change the lit script.. which i skipped my dinr n left alone in rm ytdae 2 finish de.. yet he said it's nort gd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wtf.. sae til here i blardy nort hapi!!!!!!!!! he said.."wahZ lauZ xiao jun!! y dun pick up fone?? U kno?? i juZ read thru ur script tink it's nort gdd lorZ.. soo mani parts missin.." n he continuess... i dun bother.. juZ kip doin my math.. i gort irriated.. i said.."okie okie!! U wanna do wat juZ do.. nort my problem.. U wanna edit juZ do it.. juZ kip me inform.. tats it!! i'm nort impt anywae.. juZ do wat u wan!!! BYE!!" n kap le.. was soo angri manZ.. i've tried my bes.. yet no 1 knos.. i kno i'm nort gd at tat.. but did U all bother 2 help?? sae yess if U dar!! if U dar 2 swear!!!! juZ fark off.. they kno tat if they dun bother, i wil.. i wil juZ collect all those rubbishs they threw on the floor.. so i reali did.. m i reali dumb?? or wat?? y i hate 2 bother?? y i can't stop myself frm botherin?? how cumm?? shit myself!! i hate myself.. alwaes kanna buli yet diam diam.. y y y!!!!!!!!! i try 2 cherish all my frenZ yet they buli me.. bleahZ..... wat can i do?? alwaes smile at them?? tat's a limit!!!!!!! if i'm burst, they sae me changed.. do i reali haf 2 kip the real xiaojun 2 myself?? n act?? i dun wan do.. cu i wanna b a real gan sheau jun!!!!!!!! anywae.. sori weijun.. i dunno U wel.. but i din go ur farewel party, i dun send U.. U may nort caree lahZ.. but.. i'm reali feelin guilty here.. sori sori sori.. i'll miZ U!! 2n2 wun b tat rox cuZ 1 of them lefted.. do rmber us..
10:05:00 PM
