Monday, April 26, 2004
2dae arhZ.. haiZ~!! me damn unlucky siaZ.. can b hapi can b sad.. 2dae.. nearly late 4 skool.. but lucky i'm nort!! den alot of pp kno wat jnr means le.. cuZ they wanna kno.. den kno lorZ.. lyk sum1 oso wun die de wat.. tat's y i dun reali mind.. wat i mind is lyk.. when i walk pass HIM.. den they wil sae.."wOoOo~!!" or "JNR!!" den it's veri obvious lorZ.. wateva shit lahZ!! den after skool.. go out wif seany.. WAIT~ dun wu hui.. we r fren!! goin out wif him is fun.. cuZ he lyk my didi.. jiejie go out wif didi.. imagine!! soo cute lorZ.. den he alwaes luv 2 act retarded!! but he stil soo fun lorZ.. i mean.. go out wif him lahZ.. in mac.. gort 2 commonwealth gerls kip lookin over here lorZ.. den i sae.."seany.. c the 2 gerls.." den seany oso agreed wif me lorZ.. den we tok n luff.. den the 2 gerls sae.."c!! he luff oso sooo cute!!" den i was lyk.. omg~ den sean gif tat type of vomit face.. cuZ they r juZ soo... er!! den after tat tok n luff tok n luff.. den go hm.. den i slp.. til abt 6 sumthin.. c my hp.. seany cor.. he sms me 2!! scold me asshold all tat n sae sumthin important n wan me 2 cor bac.. den cor bac lorZ.. how i kno tat a guy.. kno abt JNR n he is heartbroken.. den is lyk.. me reali dunno wat 2 do.. i kno tat impossible btween us but he dun wanna gif up.. den i was lyk.. veri veri damn guilty.. shldn't haf lyk any1 lorZ.. den is lyk.. seany sae i hurt both HIM n HIM.. haiZ~!! wat can i do den.. reali hope i can stay single.. or b les betta lahZ!! lyk Him cannot.. dun accept HIM cannot.. wat can i do?? sum1 help?? actuali decide 2 gif up HIM.. n stay single lorZ.. but is lyk.. it's veri diff 4 me 2 4get sum1 soo eZ de lorZ.. den is lyk.. i juZ dun wish 2 lyk.. lyk sum1 but hurt sum1 at the same time lorZ.. veri bad.. but if i continue 2 lyk HIM.. den wil hurt him mor.. if i dun lyk HIM.. me oso dunno can do it or nort.. n tat's impossible 4 me 2 accept him.. in my eyes.. he juZ lyk my didi.. i was damn hapi wif HIM.. scared HE nort goin 2 tok 2 me again.. scared 2 lose scuh a nice didi.. haiZ~!! i'm stress!! i sux.. i hate myself 4 bein soo selfish.. i hate myself.. all my fault!!!
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