Yan Xiao Jun's(:

2010-02-03T11:51:00.000+08:00

[b][i]Ruubee ![/i][/b] - "Miss you so much Hunter Boy. 20.01.09" [i][/i] says:
can u row from changi beach to pasirris park to ECP?
then to sentosa
like

✡ The littlesoldier曉珺 `isacanoeist >: D says:
U SIAO AHHH! marathon already kill me. round the stupid Kallang. now U want me to paddle ROUND SINGAPORE

stupid Siva. zzz.

2010-01-15T00:39:00.005+08:00

):
everything is down now, I dunno why. and yes, I have been down for a few days and I dunno how. I'm so drained mentally. I want to sleep but I cant leave everything behind just like this. I just cant. I wish for 30hours a day, 6 hours school, 3 hours training, and the rest? let's drop dead and sleep. bah.

I want to sleep now but there's many things stopping me. my MSN is down for whatever reason I dunno. I'm depending on ooVoo and some shit and people think I'm skipping lesson today becos I'm not online ):
unhappy today. it was hurting but I dunno if someone understands. it will feel stupid I know. "sad for what?!" is something that I believe everyone will says so if I gonna say what happened. I dunno but it hurts. when everything is already so wrong. when the urge to run away is there. when the thought of leaving all is there. and this happened. what the?!

hello. goodbye.
sometimes I just feel like I'm not needed here.. damn this.

2010-01-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

I hope you're my Best Friend Forever..

2010-01-08T23:45:00.002+08:00

my mama calls me a fatty boom boom ):

sleepy already ): just got back from home not long ago. project for my Prescription module and after which we had revision with faci. and I was totally.. STONED. sad leh. becos I appeared to be blur today and I guess my grade's gonna be down down down down down ): but I tried so hard. oh anyway, I'm glad. even if I'm going to get B or C, it's okay, bcos I learnt a lot todayyy. I've done my program designed and ready to send by 2moro which deadline is on Sunday night (: proud of myself, my determination, and proud of my team :D they guide me along becos I happened to miss lab session for a particular lesson and I was blur. but I managed to catch up. faci. killed my brain cells today. oh well, it's again, it's okay, bcos I learnt a lot today :D

I just finished up my RJ and like.. finally. it's finally a relief day despite training 2moro. DANG. sure drop dead for sure which everyone knows that but.. it's okay! haha. we'll just all die together :D

I'm drained now, and I want to sleep. dang.

chilling out with the girls today at TRCC was random. I was in class after lesson, after revision. I was rushing my program designed with SC before getting chase out by the unfriendly, rude security guard. yup yup. it was.. awesome now :D
was suppose to have a date with Angeline to fishball that we were mentioning since Monday but it never happen, again today. HAHA. we stayed at TRCC instead becos of Joanne Gao as we dun want this poor Gao to travel all the way to Jurong just to have fishball and back to Woodlands again. heh. we're nice U see. whee. so we gossiped, chatted, ate, slack, and rot there on the maroon huge sofa, which might be a little stinky. aww. heh. we talked about almost everything and I guess we were all surprised by ourseleves. Joanne Gao, we are close close now? HAHAHA. our laughter almost filled TRCC. haha.
oh wait, so what's drumlet in Chinese? hahhahahahahahahhahahahahaha! (Y)! XiaoJun Likes This :D:D:D

and now, time to define L O V E (:

this must be it, welcome to the new year (:

2010-01-06T00:28:00.003+08:00

Kelroy bought these "condom", "plaster" & "sanitary pad" from Taiwan. so awesome rightttt. and I love the "condom" the most. it' just so cuteee! hahaha. alright, it's actually marshmallow for the pad and choc for the plaster and condom. not as thought it's an awesome ice cream but it's just unique and cute. disgusting, yes it might be, innovative and interesting, I must say. heh.

thank you Kelroy Wee! :D

2010-01-05T10:26:00.003+08:00

Jewel:
There’s not a day I don’t wake up
Thinking about the one I love
Now that you’re here I don’t know what
I’m almost afraid to even
Touch you cause my heart is beating
So fast I can barely breathe
If this is real then why am I dreaming, now

(I know)
I know, that we just hold on (I know)
I know that we can just stay strong (I know)
I know, I know that we can make it last
Yeah Yeah Yeah

And I know (yeah babe)
I know if we keep this thing together babe (forever babe)
We can so make this moment go forever
If we just hold on
I know that we can make it last
Yeah Yeah Yeah

Tyrese:
There’s not a night I don’t think bout
They way I feel when you’re around
And I can’t believe it’s going down
God knows my head is spinning
Round and round and in and out
My soul is lifting off the ground
If this is real then why am I dreaming, now

(I know)
I know, that we just hold on (I know)
I know that we can just stay strong (I know)
I know, I know that we can make it last
Yeah Yeah Yeah

And I know (yeah babe)
I know if we keep this thing together babe (forever babe)
We can so make this moment go forever
If we just hold on
I know that we can make it last
Yeah Yeah Yeah

Tyrese: Let’s freeze this moment, let’s start time
(We can make this)
Jewel: Forever yours, forever mine
Both: And I know that we can make it last (yeah)

(I know)
I know, that we just hold on (I know)
I know that we can just stay strong (I know)
(We can just hold on baby)
I know, I know that we can make it last
(We can make it last)
Yeah Yeah Yeah
(All we gotta do is stay here)

(Yeah babe)
I know if we keep this thing together baby (forever babe)
We can so make this moment last forever baby
If we just hold on
I know that we can make it last
Yeah Yeah Yeah (Woah)

(I know)
I know, that we just hold on (I know)
I know that we can just stay strong (I know)
I know, I know that we can make it last
Yeah Yeah Yeah (Woah)

(Yeah babe)
I know if we keep this thing together babe (forever babe)
We can so make this moment last forever
If we just hold on
I know that we can make it last
Yeah Yeah Yeah

Make it last
Oh oh yeah
Make it last, last
Make it last

2009-12-28T01:17:00.002+08:00

no, not at this time pls..
I miss those days where we were all so young and decent. not fighting for anything, with no authority to abuse, with no position. we go on, becos we want to, we want to go on, for ourselves and anyone else. we used to smile, and walk together, joke as feel glad to have each and every one of us aroundddd.

now, things dun seem to be the same..
people fight for every little things that they are unhappy about. they won't try to accomodate each other anymore. they think about themselves but no more others. we walk together, with no smiles but ranting, and more ranting. we complain about everything we see. we dislike everything that's happeningggg..

why.
why changes. why now. sad, yes very sad. where have everything gone to.
hey, we need our innocence back to us. we need to get our selfness off.
let's get back on track.

2009-12-27T15:21:00.004+08:00

if I walk, you won't run.

if I stop, you won't come.

if I say you're the one,

you won't believe me..

I got my hair chopped.

2009-12-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

everything has some to an end to the Year3s, I guess it's the end, for them to be with us physically.

I'm deep in thoughts now; I went to Sports Complex to pass Dory the DSLR, and I bumped into Sihong, there with Angeline. Angeline shouted at me, and who I noticed was Sihong. because it's just, okay, misses. like. oh man. when the other week is gonna end, training starts, and left with the 4 little girls, guiding the juniors, and no more the othersss. Sihong's nagging, whinning, Fishy's jokes, nonsense, Joanne's guidance, concern, Adeline's attitude, monkey-ness, Bev's quietness, sudden joke, where have all these gone to? and will it be there still? PT was always easier to go when U are with them. their faces show that how much they are with U, telling U not to give up. WT was always much fun when we sing on the boat, and chiong togetherrr. and where have all these gone to?

oh well girls, it's in my heart.

2009-11-18T23:48:00.001+08:00

P A I N, time for miracle.

2009-11-17T15:14:00.001+08:00

maybe I'm trying, trying too hard. maybe I'm torn apart.

2009-11-11T10:49:00.002+08:00

you and me could write a bad romance..

2009-11-09T23:04:00.002+08:00

:D!no one can surprise me unless you do.

2009-11-09T22:40:00.003+08:00

this was COW when we 1st talked. lol. she drew herself. awesome eh! lol. with oink nose, yes. LOL.

and she hurt me today, so she gave me flower and rainbow lollipop. awesome! LOL.

okay, I wanna show how irritating is QW and that's all. LOL!

2009-11-09T10:18:00.002+08:00

Check yes *
Are you with me
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won't go until you come outside
Check yes *Kill the limbo
I'll keep tossing rocks at your window
There's no turning back for us tonight

Lace up your shoes
A O A O O
Here's how we do

Run baby run
✡ Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be
You and me

Check yes *
I'll be waiting
Wishing, wanting
Yours for the taking
Just sneak out
And don't tell a soul goodbye
Check yes *
Here's the countdown
3...2...1... now fall in my arms
Now they can change the locks
Don't let them change your mind

Lace up your shoes
A O A O O
Here's how we do

Run baby run
✡ Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be
You and me

Flying through the night
We're flying through the night
Way up high,
The view from here is getting better with
You by my side

Run baby run
✡ Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be

Run baby run
✡ Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be
You and me

You and me
You and me

2009-11-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

LADY GAGA.
burning hotness.

2009-11-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

I wish things would be the same, but it doesn't seems to be. disappointment and guess I'm tired of this, of that, of everything. could someone pls take my hand & tell me,"I'll take you away from all ur worries."

nobody loves shit, but shit always happen. we're all dying, yes I guess we all are. oh well. I'm just. sigh. too many, too many. I loathe those irrational ones. someone pls, understand what I'm going through, stand in my shoes and take a look, bcos I'm afraid I'm collasping soon, just a bit more, maybe I will just.. be immune by everything.

discuss about ur attention span in life. reflect it.

cause when you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
above all the others, we'll fly
it brings tears, to my eyes
our sacrifice

2009-11-04T10:53:00.001+08:00

2009-10-25T23:12:00.003+08:00

Pre-reading.TV programme. Text messages. MSN. Book.

&that's what I'm doing now(:

body haven been functioning well and I'm starting to get a little frantic.

my appetite is.. BAD. and I wish I can eat much, cos I need to much more. I need so much more intake. I cant be having more output than input. I'm sick of my body, can die, know ):

I tried eating more rice, but I cant. haven been eating proper. 1 meal a day is simply not enough, I know but I dunno what to do. my gastric needs to get better. my tummy needs to be obedient. my mental needs to be stronger. cos I still got so much more, I need to go on..

I need books, many many. I want knowledge, much much. I love study study study, HEHE.

what's always on my mind;

don't look back just go. take a breath and be strong..

`I see a good girl goes bad. you!

harnor, you ain't a geek.

2009-10-20T00:37:00.002+08:00

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
No one could hold me down
No one could keep me around
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby, show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time

Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

My father, he was always wise
As wise as an elephant's eyes
He couldn't hold me down
He couldn't keep me around
So are you gonna take your shot?
It's the only one that you got
Maybe I'll go out on a limb
Maybe I'll jump in for a swim
When the lights go dim

You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
(Need to take a holiday)

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
And I don't think I'll ever change
I think I'm gonna stay the same

I'll run away
I need to take a holiday (Need to take a holiday)
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase (Set off on a new chase)
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

Start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

I hope life's good for me, which I dun quite think that's the case.
things haven been so well. this and that. and sometimes I feel jaded. I wana leave, I wanna runaway. I wanna ask for help, I hope someone's there, everyone's there. I hope nothing changes but people around us always change, the earth is still revolving. I loathe how things work. this & that. but I'm still here. yeah, dun look back just go, take a breath and be strong, I cant spend my whole life holding on.. totally. somehow, I know what to do, but my will is not strong enough, to overcome my fear, and so, I wish I fall and sleeep my way through. RUN, to never see U again..

things aint right, I know, U know. but why isnt anyone doing anything. if I am willing to ask, are U willing to say? why are there something going on, which everyone knows yet nobody's stopping it from going, from happening.. I loathe U, for being selfish..

so much of wanting this and that, but where's the effort. so much of yelling, so much of screaming, where's the fight.

words stuck. I'm stunned. IwishUunderstandddd.
enough said, I dun wanna be down for long..

`come fill my little world..

2009-10-15T15:06:00.001+08:00

心里有话想说
心里的痛你懂 有太多太多的情感覆水难收心里有话想说心里的痛你懂我不愿埋怨的泪水已经没有尽头

2009-10-12T00:39:00.003+08:00

Say goodnight晚安
谢谢你陪我一整个夜晚
Close your eyes,be quiet
我明白你有自己的不安
很多来不及我不曾看见
我只遇见你的现在
不管你接受或离开
I hope to stay for a while
除此之外要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实都还算愉快
除此之外非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
And if you need somebody
我确定我会在
不会走开
So Goodbye晚安
舍不得看你觉得不自在
It’s alright,I’m fine
看起来这故事会写不完
很多差一点你没有发现
你只认识我的现在
不管你留下或走开
I’m gonna stay for a while
除此之外我要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实都还算愉快
除此之外非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
And if you need somebody
我确定我会在
除此之外我还在等待
你的心将为我敞开
But if you need somebody
你知道我会
不会走开

2009-10-09T00:45:00.002+08:00

I swear this is so nice. I totally got melted. esp the ending, which is so perfect, so aww. if someone does this to me, I'll sure melt away. heh.

and, if U quarrel with bf / gf, fret not, show them this, and love them even more deeply after that ((:

2009-10-06T22:51:00.002+08:00

everytime you do that thing you do! :D

I'm dying today ): diarrhoea. flu. coldness. lethargic. weak. BAH.
Physiology today was.. just a start. I guess there's more to come. 1 problem, doing for 3 weeks, how hardcore can it be! it's just an introduction today and I believe we have a taste of it, we all got killed. totally. hah. but it's so much do-able now bcos of much explaination from classmates and faci.

classmates.. till now, still alright. I'm so odd. like. weird in class. I feel odd. nothing's same. and like. it's so depressing at times. totally! ):

lessons till now are.. tough yes, complex but interesting. many to do, many to research. it seems like we all babies yearning to learn more each time. Psychology 2moro. just wait and see, I'll just go Sports crazyyyyy. HAHA.

GAH. let's be serious. okay. stab me to death. SO DRAINED! )):

:D TODAY!

2009-09-27T02:42:00.005+08:00

Haji Lane 26092009; more to upload (:

Adeline.Angeline.Kelroy.XiaoJun.
awesome peeps. awesome pics. awesome day. awesome shit. awesome you.

2009-09-26T03:21:00.002+08:00

She wants to touch me, woo ooh
She wants to love me, woo ooh
She'll never leave me woo ooh, woo ooh, ooh ooh
Don't trust a ho, never trust a ho
Won't trust a ho 'cause the ho won't trust me

2009-09-24T04:40:00.000+08:00

nothing much. but my heart sank after listening to this song.. oh well.

2009-09-20T02:19:00.002+08:00

E M P T YI need a. BITE D:

2009-09-20T01:46:00.003+08:00

A emotional, wonderful Saturday. OH WELL..

I think there's some explaination needed here :D oh well, the picture shows. I spent so much today! despite being alone out. after feeling so sicky, for past 2 days, I'm finally "breaking free"! WHEE. no one seems to be free, and guess it pretty nice to be out alone with mp3 player on :D my objective is to get dad's birthday gift, which cost me a bomb. but I guess it's pretty worth (: bought him a Goldion belt set. which consist of 2 bucker and a revesible leather belt. pretty cool huh. and it's nice. guess it's worth. the bucker is so nice I swear, cos I got to choose it! wheeeee. gold, shining gold ones (: love ittttt.

other than that, I'm pretty broke but I promised myself to get something for myself ): though I thought Dad's gift could be around.. 50bucks? but it's more than that. so I couldnt get anything for others which is also supposed, and already planned initially. a change of plan I guess. I bought a yellow v neck 4skin tee, which I wanted that long ago :D saw Fishy working today. she and her manly look, ready to be a MAN tonight. heh. Marks & Spencer is another place which I should have stop myself from going in. GRR. sweets and chocs for friends. heh (: back to the West, went IMM to get loafer, oh man, yes I got my loafer! HEH! on discount some more. I swear I save a lot, only for the loafer I mean. GAH! bought tauhuay and head to Grandparents' place. this was also last min since I'm free and Ahgong was saying he haven been seeing me for quite a while. Grandparents were both home, Ahma got waken up by Ahgong cos of my arrival. enjoyed the tauhuay with them, tv, and a short chat. then headed home. grrrr. tired I swear.

was panicked max! I didnt buy anything for 2moro's outing and I was.. dumbfounded. they really thought I gonna make potato salad which I was just kidding at that time saying I can just mix everything together to be potato salad. HAHA! I went online to search for the recipe, seriously. how crazy! then I found some marvellous one. rushed to Giant with mom, luckily it's a Sat which Giant closed at 1am (: mom insisted on accompanying me as she didnt want me to be out late alone. there's no parsley, no this, no that. so wanna get the gravy so I can make marshed potato. JUST THEN. we realised Giant didnt really sell those small packet of powder for gravy. HOW ANNOYING! so I decided to prepare fruit salad. bought extra fruits and ingredients cos mom wanna me to prepare extra to put home. HAHA. how niceee. since she's paying for the fruits, while I'm paying on my side too, I wont have to spend so much. GGGRRREEAAATTTTT~ HOME! and it's like.. 12 plus? was dead beat but I know I need to get the stuffs done before oink-ing ):

chopped everything into cubes. whole loads of fruits, YUMMY! done, and it's in my fridge nowwww. hope it's ambrosia! mamma mia! :D cos mom just finished the whole container of veggies and fruits salad that I prepared not long ago :\ and she's asking if it's possible for me to prepare everything again and so she can have it whenever she like it. GAGAGA. I know it's yummy. cos I tasted itttt. heh. I swear veggies and fruits are wonderful food on earth :D:D:D:D x 100000000000.
lol.

I'm dying hard to update my blog today. I dunno why. got so many to updateeee. and so many to write laterrr. EMPTY IS ON REPEAT ))):

oh look!

how cute! I bought this at Giant. they were having some Peez sale and apparently it's so attractive! and it attract my attention. AND DAH LAH! boohoo that mom didnt initiate to pay for me ): I gotta pay for this, like.. 4 bucks plus? but it's collective! heh. MMMEEELLOOODDYYYYYY! how sweeeeeeeeet :D *twisttt.

OKAY, this is random.

I found this pic on net and I find it pretty cute and interesting. NOT BECOS I AM BIAS COS THERE'S PAUL TWOHILL ALRIGHT! I'm being very neutral here. oh well, but cant deny Paul is so cute here. HAHA! okay, stop cursing and swearing at me, saying I've got such a bad taste alright. HMPH. I can read ur mind, totally! HIAK HIAK HIAK! Chick VS Dick, how interesting (:

I'm still texting Angeline now, at this hr. she's out with family. enjoying life luh. and I'm like a panda now. dying to sleep, real soon I swear. a little more, pls? :D

after updating, gonna pack, and alright, bringing many things for picnic. grrr. cos got Dad's birthday dinner 2moro night. wheeee. International Buffet, nothing else I would ask forr. cos I'm gonna have sashimiiiiii! heh.

OKAY! I think Little Boo is calling for me badly. oh well. I should leave now! and get to bed. oink.

;but it's empty ):

2009-09-19T00:13:00.002+08:00

3 CHEERS FOR THE ARRIVAL OF LITTLE BOO! :D:D:D
euphoria! *combo twist and jump around. heh. was aiming for this little creature since Monday, when my mom went to pasam malam with me, and we randomly played this ball shooting game. initially, I was playing, casually, just then, I SAW THIS LITTLE RABBIT LYING THERE! and I aim to get it :D and I got ittt! it's lying on my bed nowwww, heh. I LIKE:D
thanks Kelroy, Angeline and Joachim for welcoming Little Boo. was thinking of name for this little one, they came out with Joachim, Jojo, Boo, Little Boo. heh. so I'm sticking to Little Boo. I ever want him to name as Little Mon = Little Monster. HEH! yes it's a HIM :D

I'm still happily hugging it everywhere now and then :D

RANDOM;

I found this 2 songs super amazing. like. after I listen, I go WOW. 1st one is, so Lady Gaga! and catchy. and the 2nd one is super sweet I swearrrr. like. melted. totally. ENJOY (:

hello. I'm sleeping with Little Boo todayyy! heh. everydayyy.

sadness, of cos. lonliness, definitely. empty, something missing? probably.

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

but I need to smile, cos I promised to (:
for you, I will :D:D
hello *munch munch,
I miss you much! many many many hugs, so much more!

2009-09-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

shouldn't have stay here, the place without Love.
hate where I am now. full of rubbish, nonsense, bullshit, crap, oh well. no love.
I don't need anything now, anyone. I wanna leave, run in the rain, faint, and die unknowingly.
accused, all you want to, you wish to. 'cos now, I can't and don't really bother anymore.
hurt. down. upset. anger. I wanna leave, trust me if I say that.
I'm no use to here. I unwanted. I'm extra. I'm infantile. I'm shit.
that explain everything you said to me.
THANKS, big thanks for corrupting me, totally.
because whatever I do, doesn't seems to suit your liking, and now I'm telling you, I can't take it anymore. you can just, watch me bleed.
they are the best people on earth, I ain't. they don't stay, they run about, I don't. so I ain't so good compared to them. I keep my problems to myself, and now, I think I should break free and rebel. it's time, go, rebel. fight for your rights.
fear, lonliness. why am I like this..
ALL BECAUSE OF YOU. I'm nothing.
&I should rot, and die. goodbye world..
I don't quite know how to say, how I feel.
nowhere, again.

2009-09-14T19:56:00.001+08:00

GET WELL SOON!
I know my effort today wasnt wasted, totally (:

GAH!
I know my blog should get updated but I'm just so lazzzy. where there's so much today, I use a phrase or a video to say it all. life's been.. ups and down, like what you used to tell me, warning me about life; unpredictable life. I hope I'm still coping well. or maybe not. I dun believe in planning ur future, maybe I'm more of, do ur best in the present.

eat. sleep. paddle.
I guess life's been pretty much like this. dull, yeah I guess so. but it's worthwhile. so many months of torture, a moment of pride, worth! :D I guess there's nothing much I can ask for, now. I can only do my best in whatever that's given to me. when people are slacking throughout, do U wanna be like them? or put in ur very best, focus, and benefit something out of it? (Y)

bestest!
heyyyy. I miss my bestest. hah. there's so many to catch up, but there's not much time for us to meet up. it always screw up last min. where's our movie? where's our party? where's our supper? where's our drinking? where's our steamboat? where's our picnic? where's our Sentosa? and I bet there's so much moreeee.
when we talked about how we spent time together in class. laughing at every single thing, entertaining each other, it's amazing. and the winks that U gave, which I never really bother at all, ended up laughing at the dumb U. heh, it's still in me (:
bestest, all the times we spilled our coffees and stayed out way too late..

hello hair, why are U shooting out so much, I cant recognise U anymore. HAHHAHAH! okay, I shant cut it, alright? no more short short fringe laaaa. [I actually feel uneasy seeing things so clearly )): I miss my long fringe! GAH!]

Everything.
it hurts.
but, a big bigbig big hug, and it's over (:

RANDOM.
this is such an emotional song, I swearrrrrr! goodbye my almost loverrrr )':

hello bolster,
I miss you!

2009-09-14T01:03:00.001+08:00

you ought to know by now how much, I love you.

2009-09-08T23:21:00.003+08:00

UNFAIR, yes. but so what.
yeah. it's unfair, isnt it so? but what can we do to make things better? no matter how hard we try, to fight through, to be the best, no, people dun see it that way anymore. sad? yes. but there's nothing we can do anymore now. let's just get through this, really ):

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
Amazed how I somehow managed to,
Sweep you off of your feet girl,
Your perfect little feet girl,
I took for granted what you do,
But I'll do better.
I know, baby I can do better.

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone.

爱. 我. 别. 走.
I remember the days we spent together were not enough
And it used to feel like dreaming except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now, would hurt so much

2009-09-07T01:16:00.001+08:00

never mind you just go away..

2009-09-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

this time baby, I'll be, bulletproof.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2qfbKySEqk&feature=related

o3o9 HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

;sigh. what's going on again?

as much as being pissed and upset over everything, I dunno what else more can I say. I shouldn't be involve. but how long more this gonna continue? friends dun do this, trust me. okay. keep it to myself. shut up, Xiaojun.

2009-09-02T23:25:00.004+08:00

s a big big city and it's always the same
Can never be too pretty tell me you your name
Is it out of line if I were so bold to say "Would you be mine"?

Because I may be a beggar and you maybe the queen
I know I maybe on a downer am still ready to dream
Now it's 3 o'clock time it takes for you to talk

So if you're lonely why'd you say your not lonely
Oh your a silly girl, I know I hurt it so
It's just like you to come
And go you know me no you don't even know me
Your so sweet to try, oh my, you caught my eye
A girl like you's just irresistible

Well it's a big big city and the lights are all out
But it's much as I can do you know to figure you out
And I must confess, my hearts in broken pieces
And my heads a mess
And it's 4 in the morning, and I`m walking along
Beside the ghost of every drinker here who has ever done wrong
And it's you, woo hoo
That's got me going crazy for the things you do

So if your crazy I don't care you amaze me
Oh your a stupid girl, oh me, oh my, you talk
I die, you smile, you laugh, I cry
And only, a girl like you could be lonely
And it's a crying shame, if you would think the same
A boy like me's just irresistible

So if your lonely, why'd you say you're not lonely
Oh your a silly girl, I know I hurt it so
It's just like you to come and go
And know me, no you don't even know me
Your so sweet to try oh my, you caught my eye
A girl like you's just irresistible

so sweet. so catchy :D

bcos I'm still not good enough )):
Blue &White XiaoLiangJin :D!
I guess it's the coolest thing on earth to paddle on a boat with your favourite colors combi.! heh!
there's so much to discover, so much to improve. so much to catch up.
I know I can do so much more.. and I promise to put in my effort to. K2, K4, I'll be right back!

wait for me, will U? ):

tired, yes maybe I am. I'm leaving all behind. as usual. nothing will last, I guess. oh well, what I mean was.. nothing last for ever, maybe, same goes for sadness, anger. it dun last, dun let it last. it's all over. forgive, forget. and we can be happy people once again. all over again. leave me. go on. I'm not worth, believe me when I say so.

2009-08-31T02:03:00.003+08:00

RED is life - blood. love. passion.
ORANGE is healing - happiest color. funky. fun. fruity.
YELLOW is sunlight - sunny. happy color. energy. joy.
GREEN is nature - green life. peace. ecology. soothing. calming.
BLUE is serenity - peace. tranquility. quiet.
PURPLE is spirit - mysterious. eccentric. lifestyle.
BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE AND LET YOUR TRUE COLORS SHINE.

no, nothing special in particular that I mentioned about that. just. like the colors, and yes, maybe we should let our true self shown.

I dun understand why must we hide, so many things. even between friends?
I've warn, and hinted so much about honesty. where have everything gone to? where's the promises between us? I guess I've seen through everything.
how much I'm upset over it. I'm more of disappointment. angry, yes. but what else can I do? one falls so deep, trust the other one so much. one got confused, lying to both and wanna disappear for now? no. I want everything to be settle. since what done cannot be undone, then settle it right now, clear all shit before U take ur leave.
I start to wonder what U said to me. is it true? all it's a lie from the start.
DUN. keep things from me anymore. I need to know. how much U emphasize on friendship. how much U said to be there. yet I'm actually always the last to know everything about anything.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend, somewhere along the bitterness. &I would have stay up with you all night. Had I known, How To Save A Life.

when you let love down, you let me down.

2009-08-29T23:31:00.005+08:00

incaseyoudon'tknow. ithurts.

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

dunno how should I put it. it keeps appearing in my mind. when it's so hurtful.

my gastric is not helping. it's killing me. I'm being stab so hard. I dun even know why.

I need to stand up again, stand strong again.

U're the best, U're happy with life, I'm just not. goodbye.

2009-08-26T23:33:00.005+08:00

I hate Kelroy Wee. her post made my eyes watery. U should feel glad, I read post. hah. I hate Joachim, for saying such words to make me so dumbfounded. I hate U, for not able to let go, to move on. I hate you, for being there, for me, going through so much more..

2day wasnt a good day for me, yesterday midnight was, worse.
I dunno where should I start. okay, I'm actually stuck with my words, I actually typed, and backspace and typed and backspace again and again.

I hate everything now. how stuck I am feeling.

1. "maybe we'll drift.." is still in my mind. it hurts to see those words coming out from U. what have we promised? about we gonna be there for each other no matter what? and the next msg came by.. "I miss you, a lot.." why. why this and then that? hurt me then melt me. why.

2. "I just wanna let you know.. I'm still holding onto you. not letting go yeah.." is also in my mind now. if there's no feelings in the very starting, why start? true enough. I guess there's so much more, than just this. something for me to find out, for you to tell me more..

3. why, are those posts there. why aint U going anywhere till now. why. tell me. I dun like seeing U upset, U're my friend, my dear. and yet, U're thinking every night about things that.. somehow I cant know? or U dun wanna let me know cos U know my replies.. I'm sorry.

4. hate U most. why didnt U let me know. it's not too late still I guess. I belief in fate, I dun want things to change, either. U know how much everything mean to me, I know U know me well. friends, love, who's 1st, who's next, U know me inside out. U cherish everything, so do I..

5. "I'll keep this band glowing, & i'll smile each night, knowing you're with me, Xiaojun." tell me what does this mean? tell me now now now! I expect an explaination.. I stared at the band yesterday night, and it's glowing, so bright. I texted,"look at the band, every night. when it's glowing, means I'm still there. look, is it glowing now? I'm looking at mine, and it's still glowing bright." not forgetting this I'm sure. I swear it mean so much more, now. I'm hoping it'll glow every moment now, to know that U're there. I know U will be there, girl..

6. I hate today, for me, trembling all the way throughout. tell me why, am I so weak. I'm a loser. I'm lousy. go no where. nobody.

7. tell me why whenever I drink, it appears? why it appears and hurt me time and time again. why do people ask when they see it. it's like a knife stabbing me heart, esp when I'm alone.. without you.

8. maybe I'm.. not good enough.

I'm fine, soon.

2009-08-25T00:18:00.001+08:00

if stars would fall everytime I think of you, the sky would soon be empty..

2009-08-23T22:44:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Yeo Yuan Yuan!
how nice, to be able to catch up with U. we always miss out so much bcos of my packed schedule. we always have so much to talk to. glad that U enjoyed the day with us. heh. and the silly gift that we got for U. wear that "watch"! lolololol.

Marche, Carl's Jnr, then Ben & Jerry. heee. so much fun with girls, AND Joachim :D:D:D:D!

alright. Kelroy was hardcore complaining and upset over this.

seems like the kayaker has become a dragonboat-er. LOL! her jibbitz broke! and it cannot be found anymoreeeee. awww ): sad yes. but well, U should see her expression. *holding her Crocs on hand "ehhh!" and frown. tsk tsk.

and this!
was my creation randomly. heeee. so cute horrr! lol. supposed to have Ade and Angeline too but they left early ):
Ben & Jerry was our last destination. we messed up the whole place I guess. lol. drawing, bullshit, took pictures. "tattoo-ing". BAH! so nice to have a few good friends around U (((:
after which, left. was late..
Joachim didnt wanna go home early. accompany him to void deck and had a little heart to heart talk. I guess that was the 1st time, I see him, quiet down, with watering eyes. I guess there's so much more to talk about. but it's just not the time yet. oink.

yesterday night was BAD )): text messages, your thoughts, your honesty, makes me wonder.
thunder, lightning, loathe that. really pray hard that my guardian angel will be with me, coax me to sleep but no, no one's there. I was feeling a little better after the call, I'm glad, totally.
my heart just couldnt stay calm and steady anymore. it just keeps beating faster each time I took a breathe. I hugged my bolster so tight and I guess it cant tolerate my "scratch" anymore :O! the noise that my air con made nearly shock me to death. I dare not move. I dare not open my eyes. I forced myself to sleep. under my blanket, myself alone.
it's over..

there's many more pictures la. but I'm lazy to upload everything here.

leaveme. moveon.

2009-08-17T11:11:00.008+08:00

FYI, my haircut (:
fringe too short, as usual. okay just wait and see. LOL!

breakfast with Joachim and met up with Kelroy. we were all late. woowow. nice breakfast, it had been long since we last go school togetherrrr. and I guess there wont be many chance to do so anymore )):

ADDING ON; oh my. so emotional now. we took a few pictures after break and DA LAH~ here goes my edition. so cute hor! ((: it's like. I guess we 3 are the closest even though the sem. is short, we spent every moment together, with joy. Joachim, 5 days, imagine that, seeing this clown for 5days. HAH! we text every morning,"HELLO GOING FOR LESSON TODAY?!" and praying hard everytime to be in the same team. Kelroy, 3 days, and it's always fun to have 3 of us together cos THREE OF US = MORE NONSENSE! heh. how do we get close?! I remembered, during Health & Wellness, Joachim and I started laughing at some classmates, and we added Kelroy into the conver. then 3 of us totally burst into laughter and the other wondered why. we aint crazy, but just in our world. cant really find the words to express my thoughts. I hope I will still be in the same class for some modules, if not, I'll just die )): anywayyyy, check out http://childishdelights.blogspot.com/, and start crying! OINK ))):

Satarday's training, my 2nd male partner in my canoeing life, Hairul. hahahahaha! it's really a good experience to compete with the guys, when ur partner is a guy. heh. oh well. Kelroy's knee hurts, and Ben's back hurts. so oh well oh well. Hairul and I got pair up. it was, really good. okay, shall disown Kelroy. LOL! no laaaaa. I guess we can do as good as well ((: burst it all out, long hard, and here we go again, Kelroy ((:
P.S. hope U like the little apple. it nearly kill me, seriously. LOL!

straightjacket feeling.
uoyssimI.

2009-08-14T17:32:00.002+08:00

GAH! I'm finally have the time to update. RAHHHH!
should I, or should I not cut my hair? I'm like.. BAH. it's so thick. but I wanna maintain this length, just a little messy, a little neat I guess. time to handle my hair. guess I would prolly cut by this week when I get my allowance. DANG.

didnt go for lesson today. happily slept till 830 then realised, I wasnt really that tired but guess I was just lazy to get outta bed. BED LEHHH! U CAN RESIST MEH! hahaha. and my "oh smell so good" bolster. LOL! *huggies! slept till 2 plus. and finally got outta bed. had instant noodles with lots of veggies, I swear it's shiokness. heh!

can U believe it? I'm still trying to learn that stupid song. it just keep repeating on my playlist, and still, the words are so difficulttttttt! 月桂女神. thanks to Kelroy laaaa. lol. we need to have some practice together! wahahha. so retro now laaa. watching all those mv. few years back, it's a pop song, now, it's prolly neglected.

meeting Angeline and Gary laterrrrr. OINK. it's always a GOODDIEEE FRIDAY for us. heh. gossips, chill, shopping, bullshit. full of nonsense. no time for meet ups, and so every Friday is the day to (: I guess it's time for me to catch up with the rest of my friends toooooo! dragging way too long. DEAD. bah!

6km run yesterday almost killed me. the sun was, unbearable. thanks for the encouragement though(: and also, those ankle guard. if not it might be worse. GAH. guilty still but well. taste the rainbow (:

JTDO, get well soooon! this dumb boy, managed to catch up a little in class yesterday. it seems like I haven seen him for quite some time, and this sem. gonna end. gonna miss this boy who is in the same class for my 5 modules. all his jokes, and stupid actions, making my lesson better (: and and and! the Rainbow Shoelace and Nerd Rope! (((((: brighten up my day, definitely. missed today last IPA lesson. heard the class was pathetic. I'm sorrry guys, really. last lesson with Minghee, last lesson with Bernice, last lesson with MEIMEI, last lesson with Beehoon. no more ))): Monday, Health & Wellness. BAH! like. so fast, the sem is ending. next sem., who will be same class as me for 5 days and also bring joy to my lesson, I dunno. haiyehhh. so sad huh. ya I am actually. though wanting this sem. to end cos of some reasons, but well, it's nice to meet everyone in the class stillllllll. oink. pls meet up, Bestest..

pls tell me that I've got a place in ur heart..
月桂树漂香那夜风恋月光我的爱很不一样..

2009-08-08T23:57:00.001+08:00

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

2009-08-03T01:24:00.001+08:00

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to you
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh
It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad and I
Can't change your mind, oh
It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be

;when both overcome so much. and went through uncountable difficulties. and when it's gone, just in a moment..

2009-08-01T23:29:00.003+08:00

it's passion. it's random. it's sudden. it's unpredictable. struck me hard.
ARTY FARTYonly me. only you. &the band.

2009-07-31T14:05:00.002+08:00

I wanna runaway with the camera, once again.
I want to have photoshoot ))):
when. when. when?! HMPH):<

2009-07-29T02:24:00.003+08:00

here goes some pictures edited by me. oh well, bcos picture speaks, when words fail (:

U wont believe how much I actually love these people. despite we might be competitors during the race, still, wish them all the best (: no matter who wins, we are all, the best (: how lovely we areee, cant U see :D

and of cos, this, for my K2 partner (: and only only, exclusive for U okaayyy (:

I remembered what U told me, and this shall be it,"trust me okay, Xiaojun, trust me. we will paddle our best. U must trust me.." yes, winning or not, well, not really important anymore. down, definitely. having a lick of the medal is not enough, we want a feel of it. and we're fighting for it.

a year plus of paddling, I cant believe I'm still stuck with U, this irritating, K2 partner of mine, Kelroy Wee. always remind me of the kickings, okay. cannot multi task, that's why :\ and so, I remind her of something else like splashing of water etc. improvement made, but maybe we shall get rid of our anxiety someday. and be confident in ourselves, PADDLE. bcos every stroke counts. *flex muscles. HAHA.

GAH. I'm so glad I've sent the mail to canoeist, so pls, check ur mail and pay up! I cant believe that I'm so, so do Kelroy )): I'm tired I believeeee. BAH ))): sad max. okay, resttting, resting, restttingggg. RAHH.

; and said marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone..

2009-07-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

thank you girls. U girls have been the best so far. going through every shit with me. I'm sorry but we still have to see each other for a year plus. and it's like, almost everyday? heee! I'm glad to have U girls with me. the fun, the laughter, the joy. we cried, we hugged, we smiled. this is definitely not the end yet. more to come okay? so.. DUN GIVE UP! stay with me, promise pls?

NWKC had come to an end. joy, yes. disappointment, yes. sad, yes. smile, yes. I guess it's just another part of life. love those girls, yes. let's work even harder. [more photos, soon (:]

2009-07-24T09:56:00.004+08:00

Nerds Rope
thankyou JTDO (:

TIME.
; so tell me, could you love a girl like me like me. tell me could you love a girl like me like me.

2009-07-23T12:02:00.001+08:00

like a knife. stab me hard. cry out loud. need a break now.runaway. I need to take a holiday.where are you..
sorry people, I guess I'm. yes, I'm down.. )`:

2009-07-22T14:11:00.004+08:00

STUCK in between.even if it's going to end, I want it to be a beautiful one.

don't let me go.. ;though I know I'm going to fall soon..

2009-07-19T23:11:00.001+08:00

2009-07-17T14:27:00.001+08:00

SELFISH FREAKS.
pls kill yourself and die. thank you.

2009-07-15T14:29:00.004+08:00

Joachim's home. and trying to entertain me. HAH! look! he is trying to emphasize one my *h*** **n**e. HOW MEAN!

anyway, we bought tee yesterday. cant wait to wear it with him. HAHAH! :D
Joachim, joke of the day; BUTTONS! LOLOLOL!

2009-07-15T09:32:00.004+08:00

mood is ruin becos of the module; Sociology. nah, not bcos I dislike the faci., nor hating this module. it's just. the ambience is bad. very bad. and I feel so lost during lesson all the time )): no laughter, no jokes, no fun. how can a lesson be interesting this way? GAH. oh well. but maybe some enlighten me, a eeny weeny teeny bit I guess. one of my very favourite I swear. here it goes!

Man In The Mirror By Michael Jackson
The man who will be remembered by everyone. the music that melts everyone's heart (: you're the best, MJ.

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

2009-07-14T00:19:00.001+08:00

define L O V E.

NOUN:
1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
2. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
- Sexual passion.
- Sexual intercourse.
- A love affair.
3. An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
4. A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
5. An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.

http://education.yahoo.com/reference/dictionary/entry/love

and now, compare with ur own principle / understanding, U sure U understand the meaning of Love? the way to Love? oh well. tell me about it. sigh. reflect on what U've done, think about it yes?

never. say. never.don't let me go.

2009-07-13T00:05:00.001+08:00

you, made me smile (:

2009-07-10T00:09:00.004+08:00

Dear another half,

oh my. I'm sorry I aint the best to help U, to cheer U up. I'm upset, cos I know U are and I jolly well understand and feel how U feel inside. cos I'm like U. I cherish, even though it's the past. I'm like U too. but it's not as if everyone's like us. I very much understand what U are going through. give me ur hand, and look into my eyes, trust me when I say,"let it go, and cherish every moment and dun bother about the past. no point. if people dun appreciate what U do, then, why should U be so upset over those who are, "not so worth". cheers, smile (: look at the picture, I'm here! and U're there (:

Dear Lady GG,

I know it's tough, and U have been wandering around, feeling lost. now, U get to know an ans. we are outsiders, we cant help much, but we will never leave U, we guide U, always (: U have to be firm, with ur choice. and we aint lying, we are telling U the best choice bcos we want U to be happy. pls, be happy. U ought to be smiling (: cheer up! :D

Dear pail,

it's a promise, and pls dun break it (: U're a pail, full of junk. U talk with deep meanings and sometimes I just couldnt accept the words U said. oh well. but, dun be too emotional already alright! everything will be fine (:

2009-07-07T01:26:00.004+08:00

clashed. different. mixture. broken.
yes, though things happened and we realised, and think through it. oh well. bcos everyone comes from a diff. bg, I dun ask for a perfect you. it's over, my dear. and yes, still miss you (:

DIARRHOEA day 3 ;Xiaojun. loathes. diarrhoea ))))))))))))))):

2009-07-06T02:21:00.000+08:00

when you let love down, you let me down.

towards me, towards others, is it the same? why dun I feel you at times? where have you been to. why are you so far away. why dun you understand. alright, you're tired, yes you are. goodnight. ; who am I to you, when you actually mean the world to me.

no more counting down. no hours. no minutes. no seconds. no never.

2009-07-06T02:14:00.000+08:00

2009-07-02T02:31:00.000+08:00

to my dearest gf no.3,
if U fall, U need to get up. here's my hand, for U to hold onto, to lead U to a better path. there's always a solution to everything. it depends on urself. I'll guide U, and the decision still lies on U, and no one else. trust me when I say, I'm here, always (: smile, becos U deserve to! :D we'll meet, soon, yes? :D

2009-07-01T02:05:00.005+08:00

baaa. I received this today, and thanks, I love it :D

okay luh, I'm so bored now, and a little sleepy, could someone pls entertain me? hmm. maybe not, I shall sleep soon. tanning today wasnt really good. I'm simply not satisfiedddd! RAH! and I dun think I'll be able to wake up tomorrow morning to tan anyway. lazy ttm. shall tan some other day. boohoooo.

really really need to catch up with some peeps ):

so busy. so tired. so dead. okay DANG.
oh well, my hair still suck! grow fringe GROW! BAAAAH.

hello people. check this out. this is my gf's confession to meeee. WAHAHAHAHAH!

48hours ++, so glad the plus didnt increase. HEE.

2009-06-30T00:56:00.000+08:00

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick (:

I'm gonna ; tan. run. gym. tomorrow (:
I hope there'll be lesser H1N1 cases plssss ): take care, all.

2009-06-29T00:43:00.001+08:00

H.A.I.R.C.U.T.
= super short fringe
= ):

2009-06-29T00:14:00.002+08:00

still on replay;

`and looking back at the past, I couldnt find the meaning now.

2009-06-28T00:49:00.002+08:00

I should've seen it coming
I should have read the signs
Anyway...I guess it's over

Can't believe that I'm the fool again
And I who thought you were my friend
How was I to know
You never told me

you stab me. and I fall. dun tell me cos it hurts.
true enough, truth hurts, and lies worse )':

2009-06-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

TGIF(:

special thanks to Girlfriends. Benjamin Ng. Old School (:

2009-06-24T18:02:00.005+08:00

it was, you &me against water.

I'm glad NCC had come to an end. and we know where we stand. there's so much to learn. so much to improve. though didnt managed to get any medals, but we know we paddle, every stroke with no regrets. love my K2 partner, Kelroy Wee Yu Ting. my K4 crew ; Catherine Teo En We, Kelroy Wee Yu Ting and Yuen Peiling Adeline. not forgetting Angeline Tan Pei Geok. and the rest of my teammates (: yes, we might not be our best, cos we never stop improving. JIAYOU GUYS! there's more to comeeeeee.

5 days break, but I guess it wont make a big different anyway. just gotta make sure I had enough sleep, and ready for "battle" again. rest well, people (:

and this, is for U (:

I wanna catch your wave. I wanan drift away with you.

2009-06-18T23:58:00.003+08:00

bcos picture speaks.

2009-06-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

I NEED A. BITE ):

2009-06-17T22:59:00.004+08:00

hate this. hate that.
what went wrong? what's so wrong. prioritise, I thought? we have our reasons, and it's not happening all the time. why are U guys so unreasonable? why are U all being so selfish? enough alright. if that's the case, maybe we should just leave and not do anything anymoreeee. to mention, we had done so much more for U guys, and get this in return.
hurt us once is not enough?

fine, our fault. if this is what U want.

2009-06-15T09:09:00.000+08:00

2009-06-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

drawyouremotions. scribbleyourthoughts.

draw, when U feel like shit. when U wanna escape this town for a little while. when U thought no one cares. when U wanna sleep when U're dead. just draw, just draw.

I was feeling like.. ROAR yesterday. what's so wrong? why is everything so wrong? oh well. but I'm glad you made me smile my dear (:

bball session with clique. crazy bunch. I was supposed to be "bimbo", sit under the hot sun and pretend to hide so they wont call me out for a game! RARR. but they managed to pull me out to court, thanks to Amelia luh! and they kept laughing at me. ROARR. okay fine, I HATE BALLS. grrr. lol. hungry ttm. had only a banana from morning till afternoon. went IMM to makan after that, whereas Minghee, Amelia, JoanneChen and Joey went off 1st. wanted to buy dinner for you but you were sleeping so soundly I guessss. but well, hope you're feeling better! *pat ur head gently(:

I'm Kyte's number one fan :D

finally see your pretty smile after 2 days :D
I wanna bite bite bite biteeeeeeeee :B
说我傻的可以还不是因为[你]

2009-06-09T01:14:00.003+08:00

TELL ME HOW, HELP ME SAY THE WORDS OUT LOUD ):
maybe U need this, cos I do..
http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/10-ways-to-be-happier-295265

`I'm glad that I've got you, silly two (:

2009-06-08T17:01:00.001+08:00

独自在房间的角落
点根烟让寂寞飘走
说起来失眠也不错
至少可以不作梦
难道爱会渐渐折旧
连回忆也变成折磨
真心的想给妳一切
妳偏偏只想要自由
现在几点钟
风知不知道妳睡了没有
抬头仰望着天空
一起拥有过的快乐
像断了线的气球
不在乎有没有以后
爱妳是活着的理由
紧紧的抱住跟妳有关的一切
包括想着妳的心痛
我们还有没有以后
牵着手幸福的以后
在妳的心中千万记得还有我
永远守着我的承诺
在等候

2009-06-08T13:26:00.009+08:00

I'm not feeling well ):
I'm home ):
I didnt go for training ):
I missed out a lot ):
I'm sorry, Kelroy ):

I'm feeling a little better. at least I can get outta of bed, get outta sofa, sit up, and entertain myself with this little black squarise "thing" in front of me now. aww. what a bad thing to start with ):

I managed to see this. Amelia uploaded the pictures she took that day! happy happy happy *jumps around :D
and this dumb dumb Amelia did this..

LOOK! how irritating right. she can just laughing out loud this way one huh! thought was a pretty cool motion picture taken but well.. NO! but I managed to lol too when I read this. LOL! ROAR, at Amelia. seems like I have to threaten her aleady huh?

"heh heh! so.. if U laugh at me some more, I will.. post ur [TELL ME PLEASE] picture outttt!" wahahahahaha! I am so tempted to, I swear. *wink wink.

ahhhhHhHhhHh! hate this hate this! very random but.. STOP SHITTING! and recover ):

plain porridge with isotonic drink is never a good combi., I'm serious ):

2009-06-05T22:52:00.003+08:00

Amelia/Kyte looked pretty cute with make ups huh. and her super stylo milo hair. [XIAOJUN LIKES THIS]. and Kelroy had fun that night. drained, sleep, oh well!

can U believe it, NCC in like. 2 - 3 weeks time? oh my. 1000m, 500m, 200m, AHHHHH! nightmare I guessssss. ROARRRRR. kick, pull, harder, victory! go Republic Canoe!

Catherine. Adeline. Kelroy. Xiaojun.

Kelroy. Xiaojun.

*melted.

2009-06-05T16:41:00.004+08:00

Constantly * you're on my mind,
And * I think about you all of the time
And even though words are hard to say,
* I miss you, never thought I'd feel this way.

If you keep on taking, my heart youll be breaking so why do you do this to me?
You know how Im feeling it's you I believe in baby cant you see that I need you?

You know that it's true.
Every time I see your face I miss you baby
You know that it's you.
I want to let you know you're driving me crazy.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me.
You know that it's true.
Every now and then I want to call you baby.
You know that its you.
I say a prayer that youll come back to me *.
Oh yeah.
Life ain't anything alone cant you see you're an angel in my eyes,
Everyday you're closer to me.

Nobody's there when I call your name,
And nights are cold * without your flame.
But if I could * Id make you see.
That I'm sorry, and that I need you here with me.

Every day reminisce with the past
Of a love that we thought would last.
How we used to be when it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast.
There are days that I cant forget
There are things that I now regret.
I was there for you when you were there for me, and I was thinking we were set.
Every night when I'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head, think of all the things I could have done and all those things I could have said.
I really will make it up to you
I know now what Ive got to do,
It took time but now Ive realised how much I'm missing you.

`somebody. nobody? no, that particular someone, and only one.

2009-06-04T00:02:00.001+08:00

thankyou, rainbow pail (:

2009-05-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

; SILLY TWO :D

2009-05-27T23:12:00.002+08:00

TONIGHT.

and know the stars are holding you holding you holding you, tonight.

2009-05-27T10:29:00.008+08:00

I guess today will be a better day(:
how I wish U will teleport over here, right nowwwww! awww. how sweeet.
with lovely people texting me, cheering me up. I was reluctant to wake up, baaa. but I managed too. and those msg-es that made me smile, unknowingly. haha. how cuteeee(:

anyway, took a few shot with Kelroy yesterdayy. heehe.

how cute huh! she and her, mild dimple. LOL! we were like, super random. on the other hand, I was a little shy bcos every1's walking around. HAHA!

and these are my favourite shots. with my edits(:Dearest Kelroy,
dun fall, when U know there's so many people will be behing holding on to U. dun frown, when U know that there are people who wish to see ur smile, and ur mild dimple. heh. believe me, I will be here always! *run Kelroy run, dun ever look back(: and if U fall, along the way, I will be there, to ease ur pain(: U know, U're so clumpsy, U always fall, along the way. heh! cheer up my friend. it's not easy, never easy, but, bear in mind, dun give up(: forever will be.. U &meeeeee :D

more hugs more hugs, today today! (:

2009-05-26T11:28:00.001+08:00

I DUN WANTTTT. I DUN LIKEEEE. ))))))))))):

2009-05-22T11:03:00.002+08:00

I do, really really do.. miss Swiss Winds )): I am I am, still the trombonist. the one with pride, with passion, with love.

Scootin On Hardrock - NCC COMMAND BAND Swiss Winds

Singapore Rhaspody - Swiss Winds

Swiss Winds SYF 2007 - SWISS WINDS COMMAND BAND NCC

ANDDDDDDDD! watch thisss pls?! ; http://www.imeem.com/people/KkVO24/video/-qbkN9qO/swiss-winds-band-of-swiss-cottage-secondary-school-and-comma/

and spot meeeeeeeeeeeee!

2009-05-21T18:22:00.003+08:00

do you still remember?
trust me when I say I do..

I'm sorry if I make you frown..

2009-05-21T15:56:00.004+08:00

bcos you once told me you're the rainbow, the hero, the one..

was it something I said, or something I never did, or was I always in the way. could someone tell me what to say, to just make U stay..

to say, let go, is easy. but to do it, who can? still, I wish you're here with me. but, who am I to you?

baby I love you, I love you anyway..

2009-05-20T00:04:00.002+08:00

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
That look that u give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

No matter what...

I just wish there was so much more than that, about me and you..

stuck. indecisive. emotional. what is love..

2009-05-18T22:44:00.003+08:00

She said let's change our luck
This night is all we've got
Drive fast until we crash
This dead end life
Sweet dreams that won't come true
I'd leave it all for you
Brick walls are closing in
Let's make a run tonight

Blinded by the lights
Hold you through forever
Won't let you go

Cause if you jump
I will jump too
We will fall together
From the building's ledge
Never looking back at what we've done
We'll say it was love
Cause I would die for you
On skyway avenue

She said don't change your mind
Let's leave this town behind
We'll race right off the cliff
They will remember this
It all got so mundane
With you I'm back again
Just take me by the hand
We're close to the edge

Blinded by the lights
Hold you through forever
Won't let you go

Cause if you jump
I will jump too
We will fall together
From the building's ledge
Never looking back at what we've done
We'll say it was love
Cause I would die for you
On skyway avenue

Where are your guts to fly
Soaring through, through the night
And if you take that last step
I'll follow you
Leave the edge and fly
We're finally alive

Cause if you jump
I will jump too
We will fall together
From the building's ledge
Never looking back at what we've done
We'll say it was love
Cause I would die for you
On skyway avenue
So what's left to prove
We have made it through

2009-05-18T00:09:00.003+08:00

UT is coming and I'm dying. Adventure Education = Theory = Dead.
okayyy. I really wish to do well luh. let's am for a C for the 1st UT I guess. hah.

oh oh. I need to aplogise to Kelroyyy. I know I'm sick. I know I'm having breathing difficulty that makes U thinks that U push me too much. nono, never too much. stroke by stroke. we can make it (:

anyway, I'm here to announced that..
I AM ATTACHED!
to my dearest 3 gfs, as followed.
KELROY WEE
she wooed me. cos she thinks she can be a very good gf. okay accepted.

ADELINE YUEN
she got jealous cos Kelroy snatched me away. so she decided to woo me. and I accepted and warn her about me 2 timing. HAH!

TIFFANY YEO

she knows I'm 2 timing but she wants to be the 3rd gf of mine. oh well. she 2 time me anyway. HAH! accepted! lol.

okay luh. my gfs pretty right. dun jealous hor! WHEEEEE.

we started on the 15th May. so we will all celebrate our 1st month soon! heh.

WAHAHA! I think we are quite crazyyy. okay la. they are there to cheer me up that day. when I was super down. like.. as if I'm alone in the dark. but well. I guess there's so much more to say. I just wish.. to be with you. but. I guess this is enough. I ought to be contented. what's next I dunno. but I'm cherishing every moment! be it with you, or with friends. with no regrets. *big big huggies.

my world crumbles when you are not near.

hello my dearst little one, will you stay by my side tonight? will you watch the stars with me tonight? will you hug me to sleep tonight?

2009-05-12T15:18:00.003+08:00

Imaginative, Sensitive, Compassionate, Kind, Selfless, Unworldly, Intuitive and Sympathetic
Escapist And Idealistic, Secretive And Vague, Weak-Willed And Easily Led

Pisceans are spiritual beings ruled by their feelings. Their journey through life will involve much soul searching and retreat into that hazy world which exists between the real and the unreal. While they are very happy traveling the paths of their inner world, the Piscean compassion and need to help others will ensure they return to the real world regularly.

Pisceans tend to go where life takes them. If they do not like their current direction, they simply retreat into themselves until their direction changes. One of the great dangers for the Pisceans is they sometimes become so involved in their dreams and fantasies they find it difficult to separate fact from fantasy. Another danger is that their docile nature makes it easy for others to take advantage of them.

Pisceans must not allow themselves to become detached from those around them, because they will become depressed, pessimistic and languid. The gentle Pisceans are usually far too shy to tout their talents, which in the arts may be formidable. Their compassion and empathy seems to be without bounds, which makes them a great ally for anyone.

The Pisces In Love:
Pisces really need to be needed. They suffer from fear of rejection and low self-esteem. Pisceans are tender and caring, but frequently become the victims of domineering and uncaring partners. They submerge themselves in the experiences of their mates. If their partner is strong and caring, the lucky Piscean will soar to new heights. Conversely, if they find themselves in an unfulfilling relationship, they will prolong the agony--feeling they must deserve the misery—-and assume the role of martyr.

Pisceans do best when involved with a solid personality who will enjoy their romantic fantasies. There is no more loyal and caring lover than a Piscean, but their need for emotional and sensual reassurance sometimes leads to flirtations. Pisceans are the most loving and giving of the signs, their ability to select an inappropriate partner is legendary. In the right relationship, their sexuality will blossom and become something of an art form, especially as they get a little older, more experienced and more confident.

Famous Pisceans Include:
George Washington, Albert Einstein, George Frederick Handel, Elizabeth Taylor, Cindy Crawford, Kurt Cobain, David Gilmour, Gloria Vanderbilt, Gutenberg, Sibil Leek, Ralph Nader, Edgar Cayce, Sidney Poitier, and Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Ideal Jobs Include:
Pisceans are well-suited to careers as veterinarians, biologists, artists, doctors, musicians, psychologists and mediums.
Lucky Numbers:
12, 21, 39, 48, 57
Planet: Neptune
Star Stone: Moonstone
Element: Water

2009-05-12T10:11:00.004+08:00

yes, I'm feeling like THIS currently. I keep stoning in front of my lappy and I'm serious if I tell U that I need sleep. faint lehhh! though I'm in my fav. lesson [Anatomy & Physiology] but it would be better if my faci. allows me to sleep a little while ): break is super short and I'm not hunrgy. grrr. I'm hardcore munching at..

super addictive I tell U. lol. and the colors are super attractive. like. from the moment I stepped into class till now, I finished the whole box alreadyyyy. argh! I'm hardcore hunting for more sweets in my bag. oh well. lesson today is. GORE. disseting a frog? OH MY MAMA! maybe I should just show U guys my Problem Statement and make U guys vomit the whole day. I'm so glad that I dun have to attend lab lesson today, imaginging me cutting a live frog! *faint. and pretty much hope Kelroy can take it 2moro. hahahaha!

class is pretty quiet now. everyone left for break, my team is still full of people, reading up their notes. here I am updating my blog and.. reading my resources. and I'm serious..

http://www.lookd.com/frogs/anatomy.html

I searched this myself. and I'm reading it through. *cough cough.

how nice. Joachim just asked what do I need cos he's getting fooooood. that stupid emo botak with many piercings. lol.

DANG! I cant write any longer even though I so much dun wanna abandon my blog. GRR. look, I haven been updating much. hah! all U see are songs and more songs. but well, those songs.. tell a lot, mean a lot. go figure out urself! *wink wink.

alright. very random but I'm pretty stuck to this song recently. and the previous song I previously published. superrr. sweet, superrr emotional plssss. and my teammates will know.. bcos I hardcore singing at every moment. LOL. dun care dun care dun careeeeee. awww. listening now, and this is the only song in my playlist now. wheee.

my wrist is in painnn. HOW?! ): ):

oh ya. I was pretty much affected yesterday. not bcos I'm being ass, or not putting in effort. even if we did put in effort, anyone sees? we need a little more encouragement. maybe it's our fault, maybe we dun prove, we dun show enough. but well. have U guys show a little concern, a little support to us? sigh. why no one understands. if ur plan is to affect me, good job, U did a good job.. ): I'm being affected, totally.

I need a little Kinder Joy.

2009-05-08T15:27:00.002+08:00

寄沒有地址的信
這樣的情緒　有種距離
你放著誰的歌曲　是怎樣的心情
能不能說給我聽

雨下得好安靜
是不是你　偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我愛你

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多說明　我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗　是因為你

and I mean, so much more..

2009-05-08T09:32:00.002+08:00

I'm hope U're feeling okay now.
KINDER JOY YOOOO!
the joy that I wanna share with U, the surprises that U have to go through everyday. instead of worry, upset over the "toy", let's just be glad, cos U have a "toy".

oh anyway, I managed to make U smile once I stepped in. WHEEEE!

2009-05-05T14:03:00.003+08:00

selfish. ridiculous. absurd. nonsense. exaggerating.are U sure U want ur life to be like this?

2009-04-29T10:28:00.003+08:00

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I belive that fate has brought us here
And we should be together babe
But were not
I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but Im fiendin

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm fiendin I try to say goodbye and I choke Try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, its clear My world crumbles when you are not here Goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, its clearMy world crumbles when you are not here
Here is my confession
May I be your possession
*, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I cant deny
Deny

I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
(but Im dreaming of you babe)
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm fiendin
I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, its clear (say it lord)
My world crumbles when you are not here

Goodbye and I choke (Im choking)
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah..

TRUST in me, in you.

2009-04-29T00:25:00.002+08:00

nobody deserves to be alone. and so, when you need someone, I'm the one to be there. dun be ): my dear, everything will be fine, yes, trust me.

2009-04-27T00:56:00.002+08:00

I know I ought to be contented with life..
my life will be better, and better (:
Love.friends.canoe.study.sleep.music.Starbucks! wheeeeee~
Cookie Monster. Kinder Joy! :D

I know I can do so much more than that (: